@Mhizutty 16 October 2021 more from that month

Uncertainty

Hey guys! I know you'd have been wondering where I've been all this while. I hoped you missed me cos I sure did miss you! These past few days have been tedious, tiring, exasperating, draining, infact I could go on and on and on. Basically, I have been struggling through school work, health, and everyday living. It hasn't been easy but thank God it looks like I'm getting the hang of it and I'm doing better.

Lately I've been distracted and bothered by a lot of things that I can't really explain. I don't know if you've ever had that feeling that things are not right and its logged up in your chest and up there in your head and no matter how hard you try you just can't find the right words to express yourself. Well if you have, then you know exactly what im talking about. If you haven't, I know it may sound weird but maybe someday you'd experience it( not that its a nice experience to have) or not. Life can be a lot of things at times. This minute you find it intriguing, fascinating and wonderful. You are awed at how everything in the world has their destined pattern and stick to it. And the next minute, you'd be surprised by how much changes have taken place so fast that you're mesmerized and find it difficult to understand. I have been thinking a lot about life lately and I've come to realize that it is beauty and valued mainly because of its uncertainty. Imagine that you could see the end of your life from the beginning. A wild thought indeed but follow me. I'm saying as a baby you knew how schooling would be for you, how your 3rd birthday would play out, where you'd spend your honeymoon and many more incidents. Imagine nothing was news, and nothing was surprising, nothing was accidental and nothing was a mistake. You'd know what questions to expect in an exam, what presents you're getting for christmas, what would happen to you at age 50 and how your life would play out just right from the beginning. I'm sure you'd agree with me that it'll be boring. People would not want their life, they'd want other people's own because they'd think theirs was worse and that of others would be better. Those who have pleasant ends would stop trying so hard like we're all doing now and those who have unpleasant endings might give up before their life even started.

Life is uncertain and we have no choice but to live it. We can only plan for tomorrow and expect it not to have a mind of its own and go as planned. From the onset, it could look like its going the way we want it and in the next second before you say jack Robinson, it has spiralled totally out of control. No wonder I've heard this phrase a lot **"life is like a game of Chance"**. Imagine life to be football, ludo or scrabble. You know what's funny, sometimes life can look like its unfair. Now I know I'm not the only one who thinks this and I know you support me too. Imagine someone who has 5 cars buying another one and another person is there struggling for just 1 car and still can't afford it. Or someone who doesn't need a particular thing that they have and there's someone else out there who needs it but doesn't have it. This seems cruel yea? But here's what I've found out that these imbalance gets balanced in other ways that we are too busy to look at. Those things might be so small to us that we overlook them and focus on the big things like houses and cars. There's always something I will have that you won't, and something that I will lack that you'd have in abundance. No one person can have it all to a large extent. Even if you may say **"I have money, so I have it all"** there are things money cannot buy, therefore you do not have it all. Life may be uncertain, but it isn't unfair. We can only envisage what the end will be like because we do not know it and if you ask me that's a good thing. Why? Because it means that the ball is in your court. The crayons are in your hands, so colour your life to be just the way you want. Boy! Do I want to travel the world and be free, own a yacht and name it whatever I chose, have pretty babies with cute eyes and hear them calling me momma! These are some of mine, what are yours? Put the fear of the unknown aside and dive in. Closing thoughts Will it always be the way you want it to be? Certainly not! Is that enough reason to go with tide and give in? No way! I'm not a motivational speaker but I'm just saying that life is worth living whether the outcome is beyond us or not. If you've not started yet, fear not cos you can start now. **Life is what you make it, so let's make it rock!** Thanks for reading!