@Meowyy

@Meowyy 19 May 2022

Wounds That Never Heal I rarely let my genuine emotions out, but please bear with me as I unload the burdens of my weary heart. People often say that time heals, but I don't believe in that. Losing someone as dear as a mom will always leave us wound in our hearts that may never heal. Time may help us to accept and live with it but not over it. Just like how fine I am doing on my own, then I just randomly miss her so bad. I really don't know what I miss about her because she was gone for as long as I can remember, but I miss her. I keep on thinking if my life would still be like this if she was here. Maybe someone can finally understand me because people kept on saying mom knows best and I never got the chance to decipher and experience that quote. BUT I am all good though! Just random outburst maybe because life's been so needy and heavy lately. I just want all of this to end so that I can disappear from everyone. No more expectation, pressure, and burdensome compliments. Everything that I've been doing lately felt like a chore. I just wanna rest. To anyone reading this, hope you have a happy and meaningful life! XOXO

@Meowyy 23 November 2021

Leaving my Comfort Zone As I was scrolling on my Facebook timeline, I came across people experiencing different emotions in life. Some are happy with their jobs, relationships, and life happenings. Some are exhausted, broken, and I even saw a post where he said he will never go in a relationship again because the pain was just too much to handle. I then had a major contemplation on my life hahaha. I realize that I have never been out of my comfort zone. I had never gone to places alone, never confessed my feelings, and just simply don't take a risk. I always reject the possibility of something that might hurt me but ends up hurting twice because of the what-ifs in my head. I was not aware of it until a friend told me that I am living in my comfort zone, that I always stay in the dull middle line where you can't get hurt but also can't be happy. This phrase just punches me every time life feels like a habit and I feel like an empty robot doing its daily routine. I really wanted to get out of my comfort zone, but the question is how?

@Meowyy 20 November 2021

Hello! I really want to write something but, thoughts are overflowing, and I can't put it into words. Somebody help me! Hahahaha