Don't let overthinking take over you Overthinking for me doesn't have any good effect on us especially on our mental health. It only makes us worry even things are not yet happening. It makes us anxious and scared what tomorrow might bring which I have felt these past few days. I felt that I could die anytime. I also lose my will to live because I don't know what's my purpose anymore. But then God enlightened my mind telling me I should be strong, much stronger because I now…
Job opportunities With high hopes of getting away with my anxiety, I applied to jobs that I think I am capable of doing. I need to unwind while I am being productive. My mind won't stop overthinking if I am just at home. I know I should be staying because I have a baby but I also need to leave for my mental peace. I guess this is what they called part of postpartum depression. There's a day that I don't want to be with my baby because I thought I am not taking care of her…
Just..... At last! I am here again. Thank God I feel fine today. I feel a bit sad these days knowing that I wasn't able to publish for a couple of days. Come on! No writing, no earning. I enjoy writing but the reward I get from it makes me motivated. You know when you become a mom, have your own family, you will look for an opportunity to earn and I found this, blogging site, read.cash as one opportunity for me to let go of my caged thoughts and earn afterwards. However,…
Seeking for medical help I don't understand why most of us think that consulting a psychiatrist is only for people who lost their sanity and that when someone seek for psychiatric help, he then be placed in a mental hospital. Well, who am I to question them when I also think of it that way when I was still a kid. I guess television dramas influenced us that much. Anyway, I came across my Facebook memories. I saw my shared post about panic attacks two years ago. I was…
Happy 8 months, Clea! Now I already believe that babies really grow fast. Clea turned 8 months last Sunday but she's a little bit smaller than other babies when it comes to size and that's fine. She was only 1.9 kg when I gave birth to her and it's understandable why she's smaller compared to others. But nevermind anyway. She's growing healthy and active and her pediatrician told us that a baby's weight should not be the basis of a baby's wellbeing. The day before Clea…
All about my job It's my third week here at work as a clerk/secretary. With my three weeks of being here, I saw a lot of faces. Some have approachable aura and some are strict and snob. I also met different people with different designations/ranks. There are people with high ranks that are humble and kind. There are also kind people who are in low designation and there are arrogant ones too. Imagine during my first week, there this old employee who keeps on asking me what…
The songs that comfort me To avoid panic attack occurrence, I distract myself with songs. You know it's like living in hell when your anxiety won't go away. I should have consulted a psychiatrist but then my salary has not been processed yet due to my negligence. Urgh! I hate myself for having this anxiety. This is the major reason why I'm not in my best state. I even stutter when I speak sometimes and this bothers me because my boss might think I am not capable of the…
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