Sick and worried this new year: Why this has to happen? As we welcome 2022, we are surely looking forward for good health and prosperity. These are the two things that we wish for ourselves and we wish for others. We even had that belief that we should be good and be industrious as we welcome the new year so that we will be the same for the whole year. We even had that prosperity bowl which may consist of 12 eggs, rice, 12 gold coins (can be chocolate coins) and of course a…
Hello, everyone! Is it too late to greet y'all a Happy New Year? 😁 I am now back on track. I miss you all here. Sorry for the missed articles. Odette really had taken much from us. As of now, we don't have an electricity yet and the estimated time for it to be fixed is three months. Also, signal strength is unstable but I will take every moment when it's good. I am really grateful for these people. Despite my inactivity, they still support me. Thanks for the sponsorship…
And I panicked again As I am writing this, my hand are shaking because I am worried and afraid. I never knew I would feel this way as I live. I was nervous before but not as nervous as now. I realized that being a mom is not a joke. And now I understand why moms over react whenever their babies got sick. We really don't understand the feeling whenever our baby gets sick but what we really wanted is to for them to get well as soon as possible for the fear of losing them is…
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22:53 As much I want to be here all the time, motherhood and parenting life would always be at my top priority. Oh my! I never thought it would be this hard that sometimes, I thought of my single life and how free and unbothered I was. I love being Clea's mother but I so miss me before. I miss those times when I slept late at night and woke up late too for I don't have a crying baby that will wake me up. I miss those days when I can still pamper myself and buy everything I…
After the laundry Guess Sunday is a laundry day for everybody, huh? How are you folks? How did you start your Sunday? Here in my boyfriend's place if people won't go to church they likely go to the one of the rivers here and would do the laundry there. It's very nice to be there too since the water is cold and over flowing. It's nice to be with the rest having conversations from one topic to another. Oh, I forgot. There are a lot of Mariteses there who spent more time…
Not now! As I am writing this, I am battling with my anxiety and panic attacks. I don't know exactly why I got this but my doctor said that there are a lot of things that can trigger anxiety and one thing is because of too much pressure and overthinking. At first, I thought I have an abnormal heart condition because I find it so difficult to breath all of a sudden. I was in first year college that time and I really don't know why it happened. It was New Year's Eve in 2016…
I am sleepy, but... It's 22:23 (time of writing) and I am already sleepy but I should not sleep yet since I need to make sure Clea sleeps safe and sound. I felt tired today as I still have my menstruation period. I don't know but when I got this, my body hurts and I really wanted to just sleep, be in bed and eat just like what I used to do before when I was still single and baby-free. But now I have my obligations and someone to take care of. I miss my single life and I…
Am I a killjoy? So it was yesterday when I went back to our own home, to my grandparents' home. I decided to go there for the reason that I was mad with my boyfriend. You know sometimes I hate him for being so insensitive and immature. I know he's younger than me but he's a father now so he should have that maturity of a father. But nah, I think he still doesn't have that 100% because he would refuse to not attend whenever his highschool friends come over like duh? Can't…
Missing a lot It's been days since and I haven't written anything here AGAIN. I feel so bad for just posting my article without having an interaction to all of you here. To be honest, I miss being here all the time. If only we have stable mobile data connection here in our place, then I would be glad to connect. As of this time, mobile service providers have poor connection and electric powers are still not functional. Glad that our neighbor has electricity generator and…
Just... some rants Yesterday, we celebrated Clea's third month of being here with us. It may not be as grand as others' celebration but it's the thought of remembering that counts. The three of us, me, Clea and Clea's father together with my family is a joy for me. We were here in our home because my boyfriend and his mom had a misunderstanding which made her mom to be mad and told him to live separately from their house. Actually, it's the second time that I heard that from…
How can I get rid of you? I don't know exactly why I got an anxiety. All I have is just an assumption like maybe it's because of something or because of everything. But wait, do we really need to know why we have an anxiety? Uh, oh. Let me rephrase it. Is it possible for us to know why we have an anxiety? Among all the situations and problems that we encounter each day, can we recognize which one puts anxiety on us? Because if yes, I would really love to know how so I can…
Mi familia Life is still the same here. No electricity and no mobile phone signals. In short, it's boring and unproductive. Boring because we can't browse the internet and can't use gadgets/appliances that need electricity. Unproductive because I can't go to work for Clea is not good in latching using feeding bottle. There are days that she's good in it but the day after it, it seems like she forgot how to latch on it and so I will again breastfeed her. I can't leave Clea…
Actually, there's a lot When I got pregnant, I thought my life will never be the same as it was before. I thought I will be forever crazy, mad, tired, and unhappy momma because I never considered having a child in my 20's. I even planned of having my own family at the age of 30. But God works differently from us. He will give us what we think we don't need but the truth is, He gave us what we actually need. One proof of it is my daughter. If God didn't give Clea to me, I…
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