When no one knows your Pain
Hi readcash community, it's nice to be back! I've been in a rough times this past 3 months, and one of the major reasons that I can't write something here. But, yeah, I'm back. Thanks in advance for all of your support.
A healthy mind, body and soul makes a life worth living, but what ifs one or two or all of these aspects are struggling that caused your life miserable.
I just wanted to share my experiences these past three months.
A Healthy Mind. What you think will affect your action. Of course there's a domino effect when your mind is full of negativity. Something like you are participating a debate having an opponents of your own self. It's not easy when yourself is fighting for a big decision that you wants to do in your life. Other side of yourself may a brave one but the other side is so weak to win the fight. I wanted to be the best version of myself but HOW? That's really a big question. I am now old but struggling my career, doubtful if I can reached my dreams, too weak to fight cause I've been fighting for so many years and nothing happen. Sometimes no matter how strong we are, there are instances we feel so weak and tired.
A Healthy Body. How and when can we say that our body is healthy where in fact your struggling so much in your mind "overthinking". Are you completely healthy? Over the months of planning, thinking what's best for me really affects my body. When I feel so stress, I find comfort in food causing to gain weight which is bad because I was diagnosed with PCOS and my doctor told me to reduce weight to normalize the function of my internal organs specifically my ovary. It's not easy for me to control what food to eat and how nutritious I intake. I know we have different ways to ease our stress but is it normal that I have found comfort in food which caused irregular heartbeat. Sometimes I need to elevate my back from sleeping so that I may able to breathe like normal. I need to be observant of my sleeping position because most of the times it cause me pain and failure to breath in a few seconds, something like the oxygen is trapped somewhere else in my respiratory organs. I don't know how to identify, there's no way for me to distinguish which part of it.
Few weeks ago, I noticed that my hands will eventually swell and there's numbness inside of it. I hardly figure it out what's the main cause of it something like "Beriberi" in hands. Guys, I may tell you, you could no longer close your hands and not able to hold your phone. Your hands are useless for about 2 to 3 hours, right after it will back to normal. Then again in another 2 or 3 days have passed, you will feel the pain again. When I tried to open up my situation, no one will understand and empathize me because NO ONE KNOWS MY PAIN.
A Healthy Soul. Of all above mentioned, the only aspects that remains healthy is my SOUL. I know I have strong connection to God though I am not religious, I know myself I am Godly. No matter what happen in my life there is purpose of everything. I just put to God all my burdens in life, He knows what's best for me. I may not happy as of now because of this pain, in His arms I am safe. In His eyes, I live with a purpose not just purely exist with no reason.
I just want to leave a lesson before I end my drama that no matter what difficulties you are facing as of now, just believe that there is a divine glory awaits you. A divine mercy that heals you. A divine spirit which strengthen you. I hope all of you guys holds on with the power of our Saviour Jesus Christ, that no matter how painful it is, he will brings you joy and happiness eternally. Let's bring good news to our fellow writers and readers.
Love you all.
Life in Okada Manila Hotel and Casino
Hi Readcash community, in this blog, I would like to share my experiences in Okada Manila Hotel and Casino. After all my sad stories, I will showcase my happy moments too. You deserve to know about me. I will tour you around by uploading our photos.
**Okada Manila**
Okada Manila is the largest casino entertainment resort in Manila. It is famous for its vivid views of Manila Bay. It offers food and beverages where you can have fun and relaxing moment. The luxury suites are so cleaned with the view of one of the world's largest fountains. Okada offers a lot of services and also provides hospitality and entertainment.
**Spending** **the** **Rest** **of** **the** **Night** **in** **Casino**
Before we went to the Arcade Slot Machine, we need to registered and get a card so that we can have an easy transaction that will goes along in our own account. Playing and withdrawal of money will be easy if you have an own registered account. Registration is free so need to worry at all. As long as you have a valid ID, you can registered in a fastest way.
There were two stories behind this photo. A happy and bad moment. At first I just enjoyed playing, our bet was so good and we won money enough to tour us around. I decided to withdraw the cash and went back to our suites but my boyfriend was very hard headed, I was so upset that time. I start to argue with him (minimal voice) he started to make a higher bets that cause us to lose the game without anything left. He started to blame me, in his side it was all my fault cause I never supported him causing him to have a bad mood while playing and you know in gambling you must have a crystal clear and peaceful mind for you to win the game. That's ther belief, not mine. Do you agree on that? Since we lose the game, we decided to drink beers and coffee. Beverages inside the casino are free. You can request a coffee, beers, water, juices and many other beverages. In a matter of minutes we talked and just enjoyed the Free Coffee. This time we're already in good terms. We decided to went back to our suites.
We're already in our room that time. I will not upload our photos together (Not suitable for very young age).
I missed a chance in the pool, that time it was closed but since it's not his first time in that place, he had a moments there without me hehe. I will upload his photo so that you will see the place.
In life, we encounter ups and down, but we should not let this bad moments darken our lives. Let your happy memories dominates your hearts. Treasure and enjoy it like there's no tomorrow. Our happy moments may not be always captures by camera but in our hearts and minds it is always be there that will serves us inspired to be happy every single day. I've been through a lot of bad times and crying moments before I found my love of my life. He's not perfect anyways as I am not either but we choose each other to be our home of love. Love is not a matter of chance, rather it's a matter of choice. If you choose that man to be your home, no one can break it 'til the age of dome. In our hearts full of love, no one could separate us, nor the death can make it cause we are loving endlessly.
Yes we went home with empty pocket but what made us rich is the memories we had that night. If you will go to casino, a piece of advice, take control of your action.
To my man, I love you as always. From the time our hearts collided, 'til now, you are my home.
For now, we're building our dreams together. Our future plan. I'm fortunate enough that I am included every part of his plan. Our relationship isn't perfect, I don't like to talk the other side of it cause it's not healthy for the readers. What's important is we're together, stronger than ever.
God bless us all
A Dance for a Lifetime
no. 5 (3-5-22)
Hi readcash community, thank you for supporting my blog. God bless us all.
In life we have our own music. It's up to us on how we dance in our own rhythm. We have different stories to tell and different morals to learn. This blog serves you an inspiration on how you dance with the music of your mother. A dance with her for a Lifetime.
As a living human being in this planet I have my own role and responsibilities to do. I am a citizen of this country, a member of the society, a youth to the young ones, a sister of my siblings, and most of all I possess a big role of being a DAUGHTER to my parents.
I was so curious watching movies or teleseryes (drama) that there are some children keeps on hurting their parents and didn't even pay for the price that their parents deserve. They lack respect and love towards their parents which is very rampant nowadays. In this new generation, some parents are send to health care facilities where no family member could watch and take care of them. That's so sad.
Since I was a child, I seen all the efforts and sacrifices of my parents. I can't barely imagined that in my young age, one of my greatest dreams is to take care my parents when they get old. When they get sick I should be the one to take good care to them.
**My mother was Paralyzed**
As I mentioned in my previous blog entitled "Triumph 2" I wrote the story of my mom for almost 2 years in and out in the hospital. I would like to share my personal experiences taking care of her at home when there's no assistance from doctors and nurses.
It is never been easy yet a privilege for me that I am the right hand of my father who takes care of my mom. I remember that I could no longer understand her words or what she is trying to say. That time I need to understands her expression and a sign language that she's trying to initiate as our means of communication. Time to feed her really needs an extra care so that no so much food being wasted and surely she ate the food well without harming her. Medicine time, we need to pulverized or crashed it into tiny pieces so that she can take her medicine easier (Tablets were so big). When mama pooped, we need to wash her gently and make sure no presence of smell (papa is the one who washed mom everytime she pooped because I can't lift her, it's so heavy lifting a paralyzed body) as we always hug her and we always say "I love you" 😘😞😘. I remember how we changed her diapers cause sometimes I didn't notice that she's already wet (sorry for that mom). When we're done taking her for bath, I witness how much hair fall fell in my hand. I just smiled and say "Its okay mama" then she will smiled back to me. I am so happy taking good care to her. I remember how we dance together as if I am a Physical Therapist teaching her to walk like I will hold her like we're dancing together 😭. I remember how happy I am when I taught her the word "barbecue" cause we're eating barbecue that time. That barbecue is just an "utang" from my godmother and I promised her to pay on the other day. All the memories are so fresh and never been forgotten. I'm so lucky that in the aged of doomed of my mom we serve as her rising sun that gives light to her darken days. I remember that you're laying in the arms of papa before God take your breath. It was a great opportunity and really fulfilling act that I already give back the rest percentage of her sacrifices she did for us cause no one can surpassed the sacrifices and effort she extended to our family.
Mama I know you're in good hands now with the Lord. I thank you for all your love, care, effort and sacrifices for us. Sorry for all the tears we caused you. Our dance will always be treasured in my heart. In the other life, I will always choose you to be my partner in happiness and pain. But I know there's no pain at all in heaven. It's already enough seeing you in pain for almost 2 years. Letting you go is the best way we can do to end your sufferings.
Before I will end this story, I would like to share to you why my mom is never forgotten in our community and why she is love by people. My mama back then was an active barangay health worker. She earn a little but it didn't stop her to serve our community. She is an active Community Volunteer of some projects in our barangay, take note its a "volunteer", at the same time she is our chapel president and a BEC Coordinator. She had a great service to God and Community. I cannot surpassed what she did for our community, rendering services for free is not a joke. Nowadays,we need compensation for us to live. I would like also to commend my papa for supporting my mama of doing what she loved.
To all children of God out there, please keep loving your parents and let them know that they are especially every seconds of their life. Let your love be their light as they conquer the battle of death. May this story inspired others to love and protect every parents who needs care and affection.
I miss you so much mom, we will dance together in heaven❤️
Always be your little girl,
Maria16
My Dad: Our Hero
**#4 (3-4-22)**
Having a complete family is everyone's dream. Our loving parents is everyone's blessings. We, the Rebayla's siblings are lucky and fortunate enough that we have a loving, caring, supportive and most of all they are our BEST FRIENDS. Our mama and papa our best buddies. They are Two in One, A Parents and a Best Friends towards us.
In this article, I would like to emphasize how my Dad become our Hero. The sacrifices he made not only to our loving family but also extending his service to the community serving the people. As a daughter of him, I AM SO PROUD OF MY FATHER.
**My Father's Job**
My Father is working in District Hospital in Sogod, Southern Leyte. He is an Institutional Worker where he function as a Janitor, (they make sure that every corner of the hospital is cleaned especially in patient's rooms/wards or even the operating room) he assist emergencies that's why you will see him almost of the time in the emergency room. He is also a feet to the patients that could no longer walk because he will transport patient to their respective rooms. He is everyone's assistant because he will assist the needy and he is fond of helping those in needs. He always make sure that you have a ready to use oxygen beside you whenever you need it. Sometimes he is in the operating room helping the doctors and nurses conducting operation but of course he's not one of them who performs the operation rather he is there to help in any possible way.
As a daughter of him I can say that my father really loves his job. He just received 365 per day as a compensation, sometimes their salaries were delayed for 1 month, 2 or 3 months, but for him it's Okay at least he has a job and he can also extend his arms to others. I'm so Proud of you papa.
**COVID-19 Pandemic**
As COVID-19 Pandemic spread all over the world where many smile ends, this pandemic really change the lives of everybody especially to the frontliners and my papa is one of them. Every time I saw him in the camera wearing his protective suit in a heavy sweat, I can't help myself into tears 😭💔😭 I can't help myself thinking that if we have only enough money then there's no reason for him to be in that situation but unfortunately we are in lower class that's why he need to work hard just to feed the other members of the family. His life that time was never been easy as it was before. We heard allegations that my papa is the number one courier of the virus and hearing the curse of death from our neighbors is so painful to us. In short, he is discriminated that time even until now. My prayers of good health and guidance is in him.
**Words of Gratitude**
Papa thank you for doing all of these not just to our family but also to the community. Even you heard painful words but you never let your negative emotion ruin your kindness. You have a big heart papa that's why we are like you. This story of yours is one of the major sacrifices you made for us, for the other people. You have lots of stories tell. I may too far from you but I promise that in a long run I will fulfill our dreams. I love you so much, you know that papa how much we love you, every calls that ends has a beautiful meaning of saying "take care and I love you". Thank you for teaching us on how to love and give respect to others. We owe you a lot papa and mama. To my mama in heaven, you are always remember. See you soon in the other life. I miss you so much.
To all readers, please give respect and love to your parents. I know there are some instances that you no longer understand each other but remember that's not a reason to stop loving them. If you have a heavy hearts towards your parents try to reach out to them and talk in accordance to your feelings, express it in a respectful way. Be your voice be heard to your parents because sometimes they didn't know what we feel. One of the many teachings we learned from our parents is being "expressive". If you know how to express your feelings and have an emotional temperance and control, you can solve every problems you have. Be mindful of your words when you're in heavy hearts, don't talk to them if you're still upset, just give time and be calm and if you're ready to talk with them just mind your words.
PS: He takes off his foggy face shield at that moment and went to open area where he is all by himself. Photo captures by setting up timer 🙈🙈🙉.
God bless❤️
Unwanted Child
Article 3
Have you ever feel of being unwanted? Do you ever questioned yourself if you belong in the family? Am I adopted? Do they care my existence?
Waitttttttt! I need to process all of these.
Growing up in a cruel and judgmental society really made an impact to my life. The pain that has been buried in the core of my heart remains a scars deep within. The words that they had been bad-mouthed on me are all fresh in my ears penetrating my brain that cause too much pain. I just wonder if they really care.
My innocent childhood days was full of bullying. They bullied me because of my looks. My physical appearance goes beyond their standards that sometimes i heard a word "Is she adopted? Why is that she doesn't looks like his brother"? No matter how low that voice is, in my ears you shouted it loud. That time, I didn't hesitate to ask my parents wether it's TRUE or NOT. All I know is I AM LOVED and that is what really matters ☺️.
I experienced being called "AMPON" (ADOPTED) or "TINUROK" (JUST LIKE A SEED THAT ACCIDENTALLY GROWN". My uncles, cousins or even my playmates shouted that in my face. Of course I cried. I cried it so loud that gives me a courage to ask my parents if it is true. Beyond my curiosity to know everything about me is a bitter truth behind my existence.
Finally I got the answer 😞. They told me that I am their biological daughter and they are my biological parents. As I am about to smile but the whole truth is not yet ends. My mama and papa continue reminiscing about the story of mine. They told me that I am UNWANTED CHILD. Yes you are right, that words comes out from their mouth. Yes I AM UNWANTED CHILD that during her pregnancy they plan to abort me. The reason behind of attempting to abort me is that my elder brother was just 7 months old that time when my mom is pregnant with the author of this story. If you are in my shoes, how would you react? They keeps on telling me that their plan was unsuccessful because there's still a LOVE for me. Alright but this story never ends that way😞😞😞💔.
Right after I was born my papa could no longer afford to hold me like her baby cause as they said I am ugly, too dark and my skin has full of rushes causing my neck about to break. There's a scenario that my grandparents was already at home, they want to take away from my parents cause they know that when i was born my mama and papa don't want me. My grandparents wants to take care of me. But luckily they change their mind, maybe their hearts also cause it didn't happened, they didn't gave me to my grandparents cause my mama and papa decided to keep me as their daughter. They learn to love me that time. But you know after hearing those painful words i still manage to feel relieve and secure because they still choose me despite my condition. They never aborted me though they planned to do so. They never abandoned me aside from having different looks from my elder brother. My complexion doesn't matter because they learn to love me now. According to them, after for so many weeks, my physical features was change. My eyes looks like to my father like an arab wanderer☺️.
Sometimes I heard my relatives or even to my siblings that I am UNWANTED child but it doesn't bothers me anymore like it was before, sometimes there's a sensation but not as painful as before. Being called unwanted child is not a curse rather than a gift from God. That no matter they don't want me to be in this world, but God put me in the womb of my mom to be born like an angel spreading her wings to protect and love to her family, to shower blessings and give love to them.
Now, I am fully grown and developed as a woman. They could no longer say that I am adopted cause I inherited the shape of my mom's face, my eyes, my brows is a carbon copy of my papa's eyes and brows too.
You know what my parents didn't plan my NAME. That's why my name isn't girly but what surprised me cause when I googled the meaning of my name it means "an ancient puertorican name meaning GIFT FROM GOD" ☺️❤️☺️ imagine how God works in a mysterious ways.
Readers, I want you to realize how Great is our God. He always gives the best for us.
To my Papa and Mama (in heaven), you teach me how to love, you nurture me to be the best, you made me strong. There's no combination of words in the 26 letters of the alphabet that could express my gratitude of how much I love you. Thank you for loving me not just me but to my siblings also.
In our lives, we encounter pain, sadness and sorrow, sometimes it will lead to question ourselves but if we're going to dig deeper and widen our minds and keep the Faith in the Living God, we will find the way.
Thank you.
The Triumph 2
Article 1: Episode 2
Hi readers, before I continue my personal story. I would like to say thank you for upvoting my stories. Please feel free to comment and ask some questions. Thank you.
⚫College Days
After I graduated in High School, this time the situation became so bad 😞💔. My aunt told me that she could no longer send me to university due to high tuition fee😩. I felt devastated and completely down that time. I ask myself why do i need to suffer like this? Why I am so unfortunate where in fact a lots of students didn't take seriously in their study but still they've given a privilege. After I burst into tears 😭 I just prayed asking for miracles that my aunt will change her decision to enroll me in college. If you wonder why my parents didn't support my studies its because they supported my elder brother in college taking up BS criminology so that's why I need to find something productive way instead of competing him. I love my brother so much so with my other siblings.
1,2,3...ting ting ting❣️😊❣️🙏 a miracle came. Good news our local government unit was looking for 350 summer jobbers who will work in our municipality. I applied and get hired. During summer i spend my life working so that I have money for initial payment for my admission in college. Yehey that's a first step for me to enrolled in college.
I got enrolled taking up Bachelor of Secondary Education major in Physical Sciences (Physics) but of course before that I passed all the screenings, exams and interviews in the university. Though I had a money as a compensation from LGU but that money is not enough to pay every expenses in the first semester. What I did is that i joined "theater" as their actress where I perform everything depending on my role. It's not easy for me for the first 2 months since I need to balance my studies in every subject at the same time perform well in theater so that they will give me a scholarship. Good thing the theater director give 95% scholarship. I'm so happy that time😊. I am confident that i will survive my studies. But theater scholarship can be removed if you will not function well so it's not permanent.
My papa who work in hospital as Institutional worker like they cleaned the hospital, they assist emergency and transport patient, he join the cooperative there. In God's grace and mercy I am the only one selected scholar in their cooperative which I am the beneficiary until I finished college. So i quit theater and focus my study. They grant my scholarship during my birthday 🎂😘. Thanks God. If you ask if my aunt changed? No, she still the same like if she is angry she will never let me eat nor having an allowance. If you ask my allowance? It is still 20 pesos. I am the thriftiest of all the thrifty students that time😁. If you ask my daily routine? Still the same, I work as their maid.
For every happy moments, it's impossible not to face another trials in life. I was in 2nd year college that time when I received a call from my mama.
⚫ Grief and Sorrow
Me: Hello mama, thanks God you call me ( that time i had already a keypad phone cherry Mobile to be exact).
Mama: I'm in the hospital (voice in pain)
I burst into tears why she is in the hospital. She had severe stomach pain that she could no longer breath. I beg my aunt to give some money for my transpo so that i can go to the hospital where my mama has been confined.
Weeks past, she is okay. But she is not fine at all. The hospital serves as our second home. After attending my class i went home immediately to do the chores at my aunt and make sure she is also well so that she will allow me to visit my mama during night time. After i work for my aunt i immediately go to the hospital to watch after my mama who is in deep pain. Early in the morning i wake up early and went to school to attend classes. And that's my new routine that time. I experienced celebrated my birthday in hospital where i take good care of my mama. That situation really test me of how strong I am. I nearly quit that time😭💔😭. My elder brother is in college, I'm in college too, my younger brother is in high school and our youngest sister is in elementary, my mom is in the hospital. Very horrible and so tragic situation. Lord send us some miracle. Please strengthen us especially my papa who takes good care of our family. For two years in and out in the hospital my mama died. She was diagnosed with hemolytic anemia with cerebruvascular disease infarction. This mournful moment happened during my on the job training. I could recall everything happened when my mom is in pain my aunt extend help financially for needles and syringes and medicine. That's the help she extended for 1 time but after how many months she asked a refund of everything she give to my mama😭💔😭 we can't do that as we suffered a lot. Some of our relatives extend help by giving blood to my mom for blood transfusion and some give money we thank their kindness but still not enough for medication. Because of super bad attitude of my aunt i leave her. I would like to say thank you to my classmates who always there for me to give assistance and especially financial matters. To my classmates who adopted me when I don't have a roof to sleep you share your bed to me. To my classmates who give me food when I'm hungry thank you too. To all my professor who extend help, thank you😞❣️🙏.
I remember that during examination day I'm so happy, the reason is one of my prof. Hired me as a checker of the test papers and she will give me free food and paid me per hour. Its a big help already.
After all, I graduated last 2019. Though my mom didn't witness how i wear my black toga with blue hood but i know she is happy now and no more pain in heaven.
To my aunt and cousin, I forgive them already though they didn't ask forgiveness. I would like to share to you that FORGIVENESS IS FREE.
Mama I'm sorry if i didn't get my license you know that time 2019 I'm still in the process of moving on. But i promise you that this 2022 I can have it already please guide me as I courageously take an exam for the second time.
To my papa, thank you very much for not giving up despite of troubles in our life. I have now a stepmom and i also thank her for loving my papa and my siblings. I may too far from all of you but i promise to comeback home when I already fulfilled my dreams.
I will end this story by giving you an insight not to quit in every hardships because at the end you will receive a reward for it. Pray to the Lord and always think that He is with us in every battle we face. Now I am fully brave because HE IS WITH ME. HE IS WITH US. ❤️🙏❤️ AMEN.
Btw. I switched my career from being educator to soldier. Hoping I may reach my dream to be a 2nd Lieutenant. I hope we will reach our family dreams. Amen
Don't forget that no matter how tough the situation is, there is God who will strengthen us.
Feel free to ask questions and suggest another story that you want me to share. If I have that kind of experiences then I will not hesitate to write here.
Thank you and God bless
The Triumph 1
Article 1: Episode 1
Behind every successful story there's a hidden misery 🙂
Hi readers, first of all I would like to apologize if there are grammatical errors in my personal story. I hope everyone would appreciate of how grateful they are that they didn't suffered that much. Appreciate every little things you have and treasured like a diamond.
⚫ A day before the Calvary
I was just an innocent girl living in a mountainous barrio with my happy family. Our tiny house was made of light materials yet we are together as a happy family. Everything went well as a normal days. We study, we play, we eat 3x a day. We shared household chores.
Until one day my mama received a text message from her sister that she needs someone to be with. (A glimpse of her story, after her husband's death her life was full of sadness) I wonder why what's the message all about. After a few minutes, i accompanied my mama to travel to her sister's house. We arrived safely. They talked that she wants me to stay with them (she has an only son). She promise my mama that she will be the one who will shoulder my studies.
Because of my greatest love of my family i agreed to stay with them. In those moment, that's the only thing I could do to lessen the expenses of my mama and papa.
Leaving a loving family made my heart broken at the same time I am happy that in this way I could help them to lessen their financial burden. I traveled alone. I cried in the bus that I could no longer see them every day. I could no longer witness how we laughed together, how we spent the days annoying each other. Those were the memories that I longed for.
I arrived at my aunt's house with sadness and pain but I set my mind to be strong. I'm all alone in this battle. I can't talk to my family as I don't have a cellphone that time. That situation caused me so much pain and emptiness. They're good to me for the first month I stayed with them.
But after all, everything changed.
⚫The Calvary
I woke up very early in the morning, I prepared our food. This time I learned to do a multi-task. While I'm cooking, I swept and mopped the floor. After that I need to boiled a hot water for my aunt for her to take a bath. Sometimes the food they ate is different from mine (just a little food for me, while they're eating delicious freshly cooked food, which i cooked for them). I prepared they're lunch box before eating breakfast (my aunt is a teacher and my cousin is in high school. Before I go to school I washed the dishes. Sometimes I am late cause I need to travel for me to reach my school. My allowance that time was 20 pesos, the transpo is 14 back and forth so I have 6 pesos left. I was 2nd year high school that time. When I came home from school, of course it's time to do household chores while cooking dinner, after we ate our dinner I washed the plates and immediately massage my aunt's feet and body. I need also to monitor her hypertension 😩. I'm all tired for my long day but I need to study and do my school projects and assignments. Not yet done doing all of my school task when suddenly the lights turn off because as per my aunt said its a waste of electricity, so I don't have a choice than to sleep. And that was my every weekend routine.
During weekends, again and again i need to wake up early, washed their laundries for the entire week, i washed mine too. Cooked food for them. Sweep and mop the floor. Sweep the backyard and do everything she wants. Until the day is over and I'm totally tired but hep hep hep it never ends in that way because after I ironed their uniforms need to cook food for dinner, cleaned the tables and washed the dishes, massage her body.
I was 3rd year high school when I was raped by her son, my own cousin. My aunt is very much confident that I and my cousin sleep in the same bed. December 27, 2013 the horrible nightmare happened to me. How i wish it was just a nightmare but it's not. It is for REAL. My cousin touches my private parts all over my body. I was like a frozen body that I could no longer move nor to shout or even said a single word for him to stop because I was so scared that no one will believe me. I never talk to anyone else until 3rd time happened. When my cousin left the house because he studied very far away, that time I have the courage to talked to my elder brother about what happened. My brother save me. I left my aunt all alone because she never believe what I said. To be clear there's no penetration but for me it was raped because he touches everything private parts which is against my will. I left my aunt all alone. I go home with so much sadness and pain so with my family that after all my sacrifices this what I've got.
Months later, my aunt talked to my mom and asked another favor for me to come back to her. I love my aunt also. Though she did many mistakes on me but i still love her. They made an agreement that when her son went home I will go home as well to my real family. And that agreement was clear. Despite everything happened I continue my studies.
Examination came and I need to paid my tuition fee, I thought she will shoulder my studies but I'm all wrong 😭💔 so I asked my mama to paid for my admission slip for me.to take the exam. I was so devastated because of that incident, I thought i could less the burden of my family. My tuition fee is not that much because I am a scholar. Sometimes she never give me money for my projects and other expenses at school.😩
When she is angry, she will never give my 20 pesos allowance and I will go to school with empty stomach. But all of these experiences never gave me a reason to QUIT until I graduated my high school years with an award, I graduated as First Honorable Mentioned and an Excellence in Science Awardee.
College days, more sacrifices....
To be continued in episode 2.
@Maria16
