@MKFAWKES 14 June 2020 more from that month

Eating Deathcaps experiment

Approx 2pm found red capped shrooms near water by trees 3 stump like formations one large visible one caught my eye About 3 feet across were 3 more caps were light orange not stump like had flat wide roof or cap larger then first formations found Both groups had specks of light yellow white tinge dots I picked the stump ones because they instinctively looked healthier by color I washed them in the water the specks easily came off I cleaned a mucus like layer off the inside of the caps I put them on an oyster shell I found on the road prior I played music and said a prayer I drank some water I was in trance state and saw an entity move swiftly across the water it was machine like mostly white some blue parts  I knew it had no lower extremity  It had a helmet or mask It gave me the impression it was showing off It wanted to be known About 30 mins later extreme waves of nausea Agitation with synthetic made geometric design Agitation with human reasoning  Lots of belching vomiting  Urinated at least 5 times Overall sense of feeling of shedding something  Desire to stretch lower back left of neck muscle  Went to a mud packed area which appeared to be created by higher water levels Felt this area was good to rest Lots of vomiting  Arrived home A child boy on a bicycle said hi to me Children are nice and good Animals are good Animals are okay to eat if treated properly  They are sacrificial and not to be disrespected  Animal pain resonates in the universe  So do children  These types of pains are felt by all species in universe  Humans must protect children and animals I came home my mother was not concerned about me she was angry that I was wet  Rain is natural and from God Humans should not be angry about being rained on Humans should not worry about being dirty  Dirt is natural and made by God There is a difference between dirty and desecration  Humans do not know the difference  I took extremely hot shower and bath and laid in the water The sore area in my back made a pop sound It feels healing The water became too hot and I turned it to cold water  I dried and got out I drank cold water from the sink it tasted good The hot water bath was very good feeling I feel good and want to make humans happy My mother is happy about money and things It is strange  Sensitive to direct bright light I turned off my light in the bedroom and put on a lamp I chose comfortable clothes to wear Colors and designs on clothes is not important  I feel very calm and euphoric  But I must log everything for science I am not hungry but I know I will eat later  I am not mad at parents or anybody  I feeling sympathy for humans they are in some kind of disillusionment  My mom brought tea It is nice but she is overbearing it is not normal behavior  I am not a child I feel so good I can close eyes and meditate  Breathing feels good I am blessed and lucky to still be alive I will try to help Adam He cannot fix but I can fix Love is the solution to humans I want apartment and vehicle to be close to child My parents need time to heal without me  They are stressed around me My daughter needs me I do not care what kinds of clothes I have Important thing is be with her I cannot work for 3 years because I don’t want to implement into designs  Not now Must spread trust and love  Humans do not value loving species  Humans are attracted to viles After you catch human attention with viles They will notice you After they pay attention to you You can convince them about God and love But first somehow you must make them notice you They don’t care about anything except knowledge  They are judging and assume morality  The quantum mind does not assume It simply exists Humans like to plot and plan They are professional time wasters  Humans have a hard time grasping concept of fate Robert Anton Wilson and I try our best to help them understand  But they think too much It is not slack  Slack is intelligence  End of log