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Blessing in disguise I don't know why I've been feeling emotional lately. It's not as if I have something to cry or get sad about but I've been too sensitive. I don't speak that much about how I feel or what I think about. I just wanna write about it in order to release what I feel inside. I have finished my menstruation and it was a painful one but I'm glad because I didn't need to drink Advil for the pain. It was still uncomfortable but I'm blessed to have a regular…
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Peace and stability I came to a point in life when I no longer want to do anything with any negativity around me. As much as possible I would want to spend my time with the people who matters most and be productive by reaching my dreams and goals in life. Whenever I think of quitting or feeling exhausted, I always go back to my goal and as I look back at it, I feel motivated once again. There are different phases of life and I am now on the adulting phase. I know that I'm…
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Self-love is self-care In my previous articles I've shared you a glimpse of my health status. I stayed that it wasn't serious but it's surely pricy even if most of my medical expenses such as doctor's visit, ultrasound and x-ray are covered by the HMO of my current company. I still need to buy my medicine and now I had a new appointment with a new doctor. Back in December I had a Medical exam to see if I am fit to the job and it didn't turn out ok. Back in 2014, I had a…
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From strangers to strangers again There are different cycles in the world. Each of those cycle has a specific beginning and end which contributes for a person to know where something came from and how it evolves to its current form. It's a necessity in order to easily understand the why's, and how's of the things in the world but right now, I would want to tackle a specific cycle which I know most of us can relate and that is the cycle of love. **Strangers** Basically…
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37th Wedding anniversary My parents had been together since 1984. They have a 7 year age gap with my father being older. I don't know much about their past but what I know is how different they are from each other. Yeah maybe it's true that opposite attracts. From what I remember, we were originally from a province. It is where me and my siblings were born and my mom had to work in Manila to sustain our needs while our father is the one who stays at home to take care of me…
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Everything has changed It's funny how can someone make you feel loved, wanted, cherished and hurt all at the same time. It's as if you are given a whole cake only to be taken away and be left with just a piece. I can never forget how others will think of me whenever they are in need. It was awful at first but a blessing in disguise as well. Awful because I'm invisible when they don't need me and blessing because at least they are able to think of me when they go through…
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Unproductive Routine It's stressful to have a job but it's more stressful when I have no job. I experienced both ways and it was an awful experience. I often think of wanting to return to my student days so I won't be have to think about the bills to pay or the responsibilities that I have. But the reality of life hits me hard. If I weren't in my parents home then I wouldn't be able to survive in the kids of pandemic. When I was unemployed I cried a lot, didn't eat on time,…
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Unexpected Interview I had a misunderstanding with my mom last Tuesday. The end of my shift is at 4:00 p.m. I feel exhausted, hungry and sleepy. My body is still adjusting to my changing schedule every week. When I went down since I work upstairs, there's no meal yet. It was still too early for them yet too late for me. I've had much ice cream so I felt like I'm about to have colds because my eyes are watery and it wants to be shut at all times. She went upstairs to check on…
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Mind setting What comes to your mind whenever you experience hardship? This question is what I've been pondering about since lockdown. I'm not sociable which makes me vulnerable to unpleasant thoughts. As I kept on writing, I am the least person you'll ever want to be with. I'm mean and I just look average. May it's also one of the reasons why I am not the type of person to be chosen to be a friend or to become ideal. Whenever I'm confronted with hardship and difficulty, I…
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Physical Pain When a person is in pain, his initial reaction is to get away from it or to make the pain go away. It's a distinct part of humanity to keep himself from any type of pain, especially if it is physical pain. Physical pain come in many forms but a person's tolerance to it differs. Physical pain includes headache, bruises, wound or any other physical ailments such as internal pain or pain which are there but cannot be healed. There are also different types of pain…
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A good laugh It was Sunday yesterday and I woke up at 3:00 a.m. I guess my body has already adjusted to the schedule I had for the past two weeks which is from 2:00 a.m. to 12:00 noon. Since it's Sunday, I went to church as early as 8:00 a.m. and our Sunday service has ended at 11:30 a.m. It was an ordinary day wherein I ate breakfast, took a bath, brush my teeth, wore my deprogrammer, and took notes while on the Sunday service. After it we took a few photos, had our…
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2 Months January 25, 2021 to March 25, 2021 I'm finally out of the box but I still somehow want to go inside of it. It's overwhelming as well as fulfilling. From the time I started the training up until the time that I have started working on my own I can say that I haven't improved much. I still fail my assessments. I'm still on my way to familiarization with the process and the work itself. I'm still unable to do things on my own. I'm still not used to the changing…
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Nothing in particular I had an argument with my younger siblings. They said that I was too demanding, I was too bossy and I want things to be done the moment I speak about it. I have a limited time for breaks and lunch so I really want things to be done on time. But he thing is I'm starting to be toxic to them. I bring them unpleasant feelings and emotions. On my side, if studying is difficult, working is more difficult. If studying is exhausting, then working is twice as…