@Lilgirl

Dont even have money for food how is that....

So tired.. Since parents tried to make me do things i dont want i am all alone with brothers.. work and study and take care of house will see how long i can stand

Life is never easy when you are alone..

Is life fair for everyone? Chapter - 2 Acting like I am a fun and naughty girl online, trying to make people want me and be curious about me so I can se some photos and videos everyday and just watching walls or looking out from window became a normal life routine. I was happy because at least Noone was forcing me to sell my body, what I do was not what I wanted for my life but at least I had a hope that I could solve my problem, pay the debt father left me and I was still believing I can still achieve something in my life. When I was few days late for the payment to lawyer and go to him to ask a little more time was another terrible moment... he always abuse me, try touching me and telling me I could easily pay a the money if I visit him every week once, if I make him happy he can make me happy too.. Disgusting feelings were all over me everyday, I was hating myself but hope was keeping me stay strong. I was trying to do all kind of jobs, sell my photos and videos, try selling bags online to nearby areas, even work as a cashier till midnight just to be able to have enough money to give to the pervert lawyer, pay my rent and bills and buy some food. I never had a personal life, never go out, never watch a movie, never had holiday, all I do was going to school, go back home and get ready for work and in the free times between school and work stay online and try make some money. One of those days I met the second good guy in my life. It was already many months I was paying to the lawyer, this guy asked me the reason why I do this and I explained shortly that I do it because I have no other choice. In a small village there are not many options to choose a work while studying. After talking a while this guy just offered me to pay half of the debt left and in return asked for nothing... it was hard to believe but a big surprise that he did it!! I was so happy that I was going to finish the debt earlier!! But he suddenly disappear right after he helped me so I will never know why he did it... And after some time one of our neighbors visited me at school and told me the next bad news... my mother left the house, my little brothers are at home alone and it has been few days. Neighbors visited them some time and gave them food but there is not a lot that people can do here. So I just had to go back to home and take care them. At least I was going to be at home, no rent, but more expenses for their school. I was happy to be back, I learned that my mother just told them to wait at home, she go out and never came back. Noone know where she is gone, phone is off and truth is I didn't even care after what she did to me. Was waking up everyday, make them breakfast, send them to school, when I am back from school I was doing house works before I go to work, at firsts it was hard for them to stay home alone till I come back from work but they got use to it because at least we were together and happy. In the mean time I met two more good person, one was student and he send me his scholarship to help me and the other one still helps me time to time... and I even had a chance to go to a short holiday with my classroom friends!!! It was only two days but first time I see the ocean!! Even the swimming pool I just stare for hours!! I was just walking and running around like a child first time in my life!! For some time things all went OK.. I was not happy that so many people were seeing my body for small amounts but I was happy that every month I was closer to pay the debt and be free for my dreams. When the day comes I just asked the lawyer to sign the paper and I have the money in my hand because I had so much anger to him for all he did to me... so I can just throw the money on his face which I did!! And I had to admit it felt so good!! And the next step was try to find a decent job because working in a shop part time doesn't give enough money for 2 little boys and 1 young girl for schools, food, bills and all other expenses.. But in that time we all didn't have the covid to make our lives a prison....

Is life fair for everyone? Chapter-1 First of all, I am just new here and joined to talk about some of my experience about what I had for the last few years. If this kind of things not belong here of I do something wrong please let me know. I am not that Lil but just a tiny Asian girl having a hard life. Living in a really small village so I believe this will give you some idea about what I lived.. It was few years ago my father asked my mother of he can open a company on my name because he was not from here and they agreed. When your parents do something and you are so young you do not question them. Me and my 2 little brothers kept studying and I already knew there was a problem in our family. Once I was back from school and learned that my father just run away. No goodbye, no letter or a single word... and things started to get bad few months later than this... I read many articles, seen many people saying that changing your life is in your hands but I believe that it's just luck or an opportunity.. your choices will change your life, that's true only of you have any choice... after my father disappeared some people left some debt papers on our doors and even some lawyers came. The house we live was a small one with a small garden, nothing fancy or expensive and was left to me from my grandmother. After some time my mother wanted to talk with me and that day I started to learn sometimes life don't give you a chance to keep your head up.. My father left a huge debt to government with taxes and more things that i still don't understand and because the company was on my name debt is all mine and government wants to sell our house for it.. in a single minute I started to think of many things, where we live, what we do, where we go? And she finally gave me an offer... leave the school, go sell my body and can pay debt easily... right now I am 22 and I still had love or a relationship once in my life... and she was offering me to sell myself everyday to different men. Maybe it is easy when you read it but when a mother offer this to her daughter it's not easy to hear. I just refused and start searching online about the laws or what I can do, my mother was forcing me everyday for the same thing, my brothers were small to do anything... I start searching how I can make money online while I study and I just saw a girl selling her photos and videos online. It took me more than a month to find courage in myself to decide if I can do or not... I went to talk with lawyers who said they will take and sell our house of we can make a payment plan because the total amount was too much and there was no way to pay it. We finally agree on everything or at least they agree and I decided to try the same as that girl I saw. It was hard for me to start, hiding myself, my identity because if anyone learn about it in the village there is a high chance that many men would think I already do it and try to abuse me so I hide everything about me and started. First 2 months I hardly manage to pay but at least i was feeling happy that maybe there is a chance that I can save the house and also keep studying. Till that evening my mother told me that she invited 2 men to try me, find me customers or a job to work in another city. Imagine being a young girl coming home and hearing this from your mother while 2 little brothers looking at your face. It took me few second to run to my room lock the door and start crying and it took 10 minutes that some people knock the door and get in... I was just scared, terrified, confused. I decided to leave the house but I had no money,nowhere to go but I just packed few things in a small bag and open the door to leave the house. But before I leave the house my mother already grab my arm and pull me back to room with 2 men telling me all will be ok I just have to let it go. I still tremble when I remember that night, heart broken, scared, arm hurt but I manage to run outside find a shelter to hide under the rain. I was on phone thinking where I can go and one guy I was selling asked me if everything ok and I explained. First good person I met online, it took like 5 minutes and he send me so much money that I could just rent a small room but it was too late I just went to small pension kind of place to spend the night. Next day find a small place. I called my mother and told her never come back after me or ask anything, I will pay the debt and kick her out. And this is where the bad life begin. I am just trying to keep it short and not so detailed so Noone get bored while read. If writing all this here is ok I will keep writing about how life doesn't give me any choice and not everyone is lucky enough.

Hello everyone... just joined today and wanted to ask if I can just post whatever is in my mind?