@Kristofferquincy 26 March 2022

The excess heat is killing me and affecting my emotions, thus influencing my ability to think. I've been on the low since last night and I can't even write an article here. I guess I'd have to skip writing for today, or wait until late night perhaps my emotions will be settled. I find it weird that I had to go through a lot while growing up, it's not fair. Imagine having to lose my dad while I was just 14, brother followed the following year and kaboom, mom died years later- 2017... I was meant to go crazy but I've been strong. I've come to accept that depression will always be a part of me- it's inevitable. This is me giving too much information about my life, but I do not care. Hiding it wouldn't change anything. It is who I am and I've come to accept it as a part of my history. This history doesn't define me, doesn't determine who I am and what I will be. It simply is one of those things that motivates me into living a better life while ensuring that I do everything within my power to not allow history repeat. In the end, it is nothing but a world of pain. I wasn't born yesterday, I have seen more than enough, I have gone through a lot more things which I'd rather not talk about. I am hunted by memories of the past daily which I'm simply pushing through attempting to maintain my sanity. The heat is influencing my ability to think and make rational decisions... I can't take it anymore..