@KatinessEverdeen 30 September 2022 more from that month

Iam so comfortable with the silence that sometimes we talk to each other and tell ecah other that everything is going to be okay. Even if we both know that the day is not near. But that's the best I can do for myself. And I don't expect myself to do something extraordinary. I just want some of my evening's at peace and some nights where I sleep at regular 10 pm. I want to sit comfortablly in my bed and not think anything negatively. Iam so tired of this negative brain of mine that now I want to get rid of these thoughts. I have had enough of these types. I don't want to get drowned in my silence. I want to feel what it feels like to be silent and not carried away in a different direction. And even when everything is not okay, iam still not panicking. Because I know how to solve things out of my broken hopes.