The Side Story of every Story
**February 1, 2022**
I don't know how to start this article, honestly. It suddenly pop in my head while leaving a comment in @Yen's article about what happened with Ryan Bang and Yeng Constantino. I am sure most Filipinos are aware of their **supposed-to-be-love-story**, but because of miscommunication and self-pity their story became a history.
For those who didn't know what happen between them,especially to some users who are living abroad, let me give you a brief summary. Ryan Bang is a comedian/actor currently living here jn the Philippines but he is actually a Korean. He built his own career here in the Philippines by joining the reality Tv show which is **Pinoy Big Brother (PBB).** Yeng Constantino on the other hand is a singer/songwriter which is well-known from winning the **Pinoy Dream Academy (PDA)** a singing competition here in the Philippines.
Yeng at that time was actually established her career and well-know from her songs like ***Hawak kamay, Jeepney Love Story,*** and many more. While Ryan was only starting his career in showbiz industry.
He started courting Yeng. Sending coffees, going on dates, attending Yeng's concert, and even joining her going to their church with her family.
Like any dramas we often watch in television, there blossoming love story suddenly vanished into thin air.
In some romantic dramas, there is a poor girl who fall inlove with a handsome rich boy or its either vice versa. We got sympathize whoever is poor. Falling in love with someone who is out of league.
*Self-pity*. That's the often reason why in some romantic dramas with that kind of theme, end up struggling with their love story. They tend to question their self-worth. *"Why I am born poor?" "We are not meant for each other 'cuz we're living in a different world."* We heard those lines many times, right?
Going back to Yeng and Ryan's past.
The barrier made by miscommunication and self-pity, their story ends. One who wonder what happen and the other thought he doesn't deserved her and no hope for his love being reciprocated.
Unlike in dramas, despite their difference, love always wins. Ryan and Yeng's supposedly-love-story end up being a history to both of them.
But now that their past was being brought up in ***It's Showtime*** (a noontime variety show) all the questions and misunderstanding was clarified. Everything is fine. They are both happy with their life. But for some viewers, ***regret*** lingers.
Conclusion
Based from Yeng and Ryan's story, I conclude that ****communication is the most essential and important thing**** not only for people in a relationship but also for everybody. Communication is the only way to solve any misunderstandings. It will answer all our questions especially our "***Whys***".
And ****every story have a side story to tell****.
Sometimes we are too focus on the story of the main lead nor the supporting character. On how the story ends. How things will become better to them. We forgot that each character have their own story to tell.
Like Ryan and Yeng they both have their own story to tell about what happened.
We must not assume nor conclude first about someone's story, because not all we know are the truth, there are still side of the story that needs to unfold and all we have to do is to wait and listen.
`Thanks for reading!`
This is saving me!
**January 30,2022**
Hello everyone! How's everyone doing? Hope all are doing great!
Well, as for me, I'm fine. I'm not having a wonderful day 'cuz my days are pretty normal and repeated itself. Nothing's special.
I have nothing much to do since its sembreak. No modules, No tutor. Aside from doing the laundry, cleaning the house, and going to the mountain, I am pretty much spending my time using my phone playing games and watching videos. I am holding my phone most of the time, yet I often visiting read cash. I think I am in the state of procrastination and slump in writing. When I visited read cash and saw my last published article, I keep telling myself that I will write an article before the day ends. Then again, I failed to make one.
I am having a hard time coming up with an article. I keep on reading other articles but I don't leave any comments but instead just pressing the like button when I like the articles. A sudden thought came to me. I looked at my articles and noticed that I received fewer likes. I guess my articles are not likeable. It doesn't matter though, as far as there are people who still reading my not-so-good-articles. Thank you for those who keep on reading. You guys are the best!
Anyway, going back to what this article all about, I've read @Jeaneth 's article about this random word generator that saved her from writing. Thanks @Jeaneth your article is a saviour. I have now something to write about.
To those who are not familiar with random word generator, (link here: https://randomwordgenerator.com/question.php) this site gives you random and something out-of this-world questions that are very fun and entertaining to answer. I just read some questions that made me think twice and laugh. You can try it too just click the link.
I'll give you some random questions and here is my answer.
**How do you best like your ice-cream?**
I often eat ice cream, I'm actually not into sweets. I only eat if I actually wanted it or I am craving for it. But ice cream during summer is a must, either you want it in a cone or in a cup. Dirty ice cream is the best. I always want it in a cup, why? Because I prefer my ice cream when it melts. I don't know but for me its much tastier and delicious when its already melted. That's why I always wanted it in a cup.
**Are you a planner or more of a go with whatever happens when it comes to travel?**
I think I am neither both. Within my friends I always do the planning with our gala and I am always on the go too. It depends on my friends if what I've plan with not end up a plan.
**What's the story behind your last rant?**
My last rant with my friend is about this neighbor of mine accusing my niece eavesdropping. She told me that she saw my niece at their window laughing to their conversation with her granddaughter. When I asked my niece about it she told me that they were just doing some tiktok with her friend that's why they are laughing. They didn't even heard a single word. But this neighbor of mine insisting that my niece is listening. She even told me about this law about "chismosa" and said that the reason why my niece who is now in seventh grade hate by this certain "**someone**" because of her attitude and she doesn't prove anything yet. Come on, adults! What kind of prove a seventh grader needs to show? She's just a seventh grader, for goodness sake! Does she needs to make something for their approval? To be like my this "**someone**"? Heck no! Toxicity of people are gradually increasing.
**What's something in your fridge right now that should probably be thrown out?**
Chocolates. My cousin's husband sent a package to them from Saudi and it has chocolates. She gaves us some and my nephew and nieces wanted it AT FIRST. They kept eating it until they sick of it. I asked them if they still eating those chocolates in the fridge and they said no. When I told them I will throw it they also said no. What's wrong with them? Some of them are passed to its expiry date and they still want it on the fridge? What for? Decoration? Lol.
**What is the most recent fact you learned that surprised you?**
I've seen so many videos in tiktok and some articles on facebook about this. I don't actually watch anything in the television ever since the shutdown of ABS-CBN, (Solid KAPAMILYA😁) but thanks to social medias like facebook and tiktok I am still updated with whats new especiall in ***It'Showtime***. I just found out that Ryan Bang courted Yeng Constantino and what's worst is that Ryan ghosted Yeng. Wow! Just WOW! Ang Yeng's song B.A.B.A.Y actually has the lyrics dedicated to Ryan Bang.
That's it! A sample random questions and my answers. I wanted to add more but my fingers already wanted to play games, so I'll stop for now.
**Thanks for reading guys!**
`P.S.`
`I need to think of another topic to write about. Not entertaining to write the same thing. 🤔😑`
`Wish me luck!`
Let them Know
The word "**cryptocurrency**" is widely known all over the world, and as far as I know "bitcoin" is one of the most famous cryptocurrency. From different ads shown in some social platform you can definitely gained information about it.
In my case, I became aware of bitcoin, especially bitcoin cash through this platform. At first my mind was a blank sheet of paper in terms of cryptocurrency but with the helped of the different articles made here in read cash I've gained information about cryptocurrency especially bitcoin cash. I started to researched about it and checked it's value compared to different currency. That's when I started to pay attention to bch, but to tell you honestly, I am not an enthusiast. It's enough for me to know some information regards BTC and BCH. But now, something inside me wants to learn about trading, so I am contemplating. I will think about seriously before taking a step forward but for now, I will focus first on earning.
I am earning pretty much okay here in read cash before I left and suddenly lost interest in making an article here in readcash.
Earning a little amount BCH makes me delighted and happy. I can shop online without getting money in my wallet or asking my parents, and I thank that to read cash. Thanks to read cash also, I have money to spend when hanging out with my friends.
To be honest, I am still bit lacking in understand what cryptocurrency and blockchain is. What it is really make for and its purpose.
Recently, I've watched this episode of Korean Variety Show, Master in the House. Their master is Kim Pro who is well-known about giving information about stocks. He invited some people who they can say a "masters" too. Master in Realstate, Master of Saving, and Master in Cryptocurrency.
Everyone of them are like me, who are still don't really understand the word cryptocurrency and blockchain. The Master in Cryptocurrency explained them in a most easiest explanation that everyone can easily understand.
When we say Cryptocurrency it is a money we used to pay through the used of our computer and internet. It is much convenient especially today that we are in a digital world. While blockchain on the other hand is a security that block any means of counterfeit.
Well I guess, I am not good at explaining. But if you what to understand it yourself I recommend you to watch the episode. Its episode 204. You will not only just laugh while watching but you will also learn.
Its a great show!
Enjoy and thanks for reading.
My not-so-productive Day
****Repetition**** ***is the act of repeating, or doing, saying, or writing something again; repeated action, performance, production, or presentation.***
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They say life is a repeated event. It's like getting lost and then finding yourself again. Every time we get lost it is so that we can learn something or experience something from a different perspective.
We have 24 hours a day. Every hour has 60 minutes and every minute has 60 seconds. With that time, how do you spend it? Do you spend it productively or leisurely?
My everyday is a series of repetition. **LITERALLY**. Spending each day repeatedly neither productively nor leisurely. But I think I spend it more leisurely.
Why? Here is the story...
I wake up in the morning around 7 am because I have tutor at 9. Upon waking up, I will stay in bed for a couple of minutes. Grab my phone, check some messages in Messenger, and Read cash, check the price of bch if it decreases or increases, log in to my shopee accounts to accumulate coins, and scroll on Facebook for latest updates in Korean dramas and Korean variety shows that I am watching. Then later I will download it in Dramacool, Kissasia and Kisstvshow.
At 7:20 I will get out in bed and heat water for my morning coffee and eat my breakfast and take a bath after.
8:55 am. I am ready for my tutor and will go their. My tutee's house is just near.
At 10:30 am I am done with my tutor. When I arrived home I will send those pictures I took while tutoring and send it to the parent. After doing it, my time is free. I will spend it watching the videos I download or watch videos in tiktok.
At 11:30, I will eat my lunch. After eating, I will visit read cash and read some articles then scroll again in Facebook, Instagram, Tiktok.
Afternoon is for siesta. I often take a nap. I sometimes read books but most of the time I am holding my phone. I am pretty sure you know what I am doing on my phone, right?
When I am tired using my phone I will clean the house. Sweep the floor and folding the clothes that I laudry.
After that, I will charge my phone and go outaide for a quick walk. Breathing some fresh air. And have chats to some tambay's here in our house.
At 6 or 7 pm, I will eat my dinner. Make am ice to sell.
At 8 o'clock, I will wash, half-bath, or wash my face, getting ready to sleep. After doing that, I will lie down in bed and visit read cash and read some articles. I also visit my shopee account to water my plants in shopee farm and play shopee candy. After that, I will read in Webtoon. After reading I will watch Korean drama again.
At 11 pm, I will grab my earphone and listen to music on Spotify. When I get sleepy, I will put my phone away and off to dreamland.
And then I woke up... the same thing will happen, then the next day, the next next day. Repeating the same scenario every day.
Sometimes I go to the mountains and spend the whole day there. Helping my mother in planting and harvesting crops we planted.
This is how I spend my day as of this moment here in the province. I often hang out with friends, so I mostly stay at home.
But before, when I still live in Taytay and have work, I spend my day at home and work. I sometimes go to malls to shop and window shop, to unwind and meet up with some friends and acquaintances. Visit my relatives and bond with them. The rest is not history. Same scenario but with a different routine.
That's it! That's how my day repeatedly happens.
***You, how do you spend your day?***
Thanks for reading!
Never Be Afraid to Fail
Life is full of surprises, challenges, pain, failure and success. Thats how it makes life meaningful.
Everyone is afraid to fail. To be a failure. We struggle to survive. We fight to win. We suffer to be happy. And whatever we do, it only lead to our hearts desire, and that is to live. To live happily.
If you've been reading some of my articles, I countlessly mentioned that I love watching Korean Variety shows, because it made me laughed. But what it is behind watching is a lesson I've learned.
***Master in the House*** is one of my favorite Korean variety show. This show is about living the life of their master. To see how their master live their everyday. How they spend the day, what kind of food they eat, how they spend their free time, and etc. After each master the members will tell what they discovered, what they realized and learned.
In one of the episode, their theme is ***"Silpaestival"*** or ***"Failed Festival"***. Their masters are known for being a failure in life, Mr. Tak Jae hoon and Mr. Lee Sang Min. This two are well-known in entertainment industry in Korea because of the multiple failures they experienced, that even their marriage became a failure too.
The two masters emphasized that failure is a must and that we should not be afraid to fail. They also told the members that when talking about celebration, we always celebrate good or success. No one ever celebrated failure. Why? Because we think that failures brings a negative effect to our life. The emotions failure brings is gloomy, distressed, and sadness. So why celebrate when we are sad, right? But with the helped of the two masters, it changed my perspective about failure.
***We failed because we tried***. There are some many things we want to achieve and we can't easily achieve it without failing.
When I was a student, I am afraid to failed, especially during exams. I study hard so that I won't failed but the outcome isn't what I imagined. I failed. I totally remember the feeling when I failed. I am devastated. I felt hopeless. I did everything not to fail and yet, I still failed. I blamed myself too much because of it. I punished myself.
After failing, I told myself that I can still do it, that I can try again and pass the next examination.
With more determination and perseverance, I study hard again and review the past lessons. I think where to begin again and because of it, I passed! No one can measured and explained how rewarding the moment when you passed after you failed.
***Failure teach us so many things and we don't realize it after we succeed.***
We see how the real world is after we graduated in college. I thought that life after college will less harder, but the reality is the other way around.
After college I seek for a job. I thought that it will be easy since I am a college graduate with a 4 year course, but that got me totally wrong. I went to different companies, submitted my resume and application form, attended interviews and yet, no companies that I applied for, hired me. I got rejected multiple times. During that time I am starting to lose hope. I'm asking myself what and where did I do wrong?
Multiple failure doesn't stop me. I seek and seek anywhere and everywhere until I landed on my first job.
***Failing many times opens a great opportunity to try harder and never give up***. It awakes me to never be afraid to fail. That to achieve and get the success I want I need to face failure to make me a stronger person. Failure becomes my stepping stone to obtain the success. That I can't get the fulfulling success when I never get to experience the failure in life.
To all who are afraid to fail, don't be. Just remember that ***failure is the byproduct of success****.* You can't achieve success when you never get to experience failure.
**Thanks for reading!**
The Game-Changer
***“Social media is just a buzzword until you come up with a plan.”***
This is the best saying to describe how noise cash and to read cash help me with my life. Social media became one of the biggest platforms nowadays. Almost all people I know young and old, rich and poor know what ***Facebook***, ***Twitter***, ***Instagram*** and ***TikTok*** are.
Some of the kids already have their mobile phone or gadget even before they reach 5 years old. Some already have accounts on the social media platform that I mentioned. Some of this platform even ****contains content not suitable for everyone.**** Full of negativity and toxicity. Full of hate and rants and people shaming other people.
This platform doesn't set a good example to our youth in helping them build their future. This is not the kind of environment parents should allow their kids into. And this is where read cash and noise cash turns the table.
With noise cash and read cash tables were turned. This is the kind of platform that encourages the user to be more productive with the time they spent on their phone, computers or tablets. This is the platform that helps people cultivate their knowledge and skills in writing.
This helps us be more productive with the time we spent on social media. You get the same satisfaction of posting your ideas, images you wanted to share and most importantly opinions that you wanted to share in a more positive environment. Earning on the other hand is a total plus. Imagine sharing the same thoughts and ideas that you wanted to post on Facebook but earning points from it and seeing positive comments and encouragement.
This is a huge game-changer in the world of the internet. Where you gain from sharing your thoughts and never encourage plagiarism. It will teach you and ***encourage you in creating your own ideas*** and ***not just relying on copying and pasting it from google.*** This is like a good rehab for anyone addicted with Facebook, TikTok and Instagram.
So to every user out there, I encourage you to continue creating unique and wonderful ideas. Continue striving for your goal. If your goal is earning then please continue publicizing content that would help encourage everyone. I also hope that young IT's out there will have the chance to visit this website to use this as an example for any future work.
I hope noise cash and read cash blew the entire internet and reach the founder of FB, IG and TikTok and start adopting this kind of environment. We all know they earn a lot from the platform they founded. Yes, it brought a big change into this world and it has so many advantages but again it's still better to stay in a more positive place. **A place that brings motivation and not competition**. A world where everyone encourages and supports each other.
To everyone reading this, you did a great job joining and I hope you stay until the end. Don't be discouraged by small tips or if you didn't get any reactions from anyone for your article. I believe it's not the main purpose of read cash and noise case. Just be patient and continue writing. ***Never give up and just do the right thing.*** **Explore**, **learn** and **write.**
(Republished!) 😊
I am busily scrolling my written and published articles and this one caught my attention, so I decided to republished it.
Thanks for reading.
Promise to make an article tomorrow.
Just got feeling better. Fever's gone.
Discharging the Bottled Up Feelings
Why do we keep on bottling up our emotions? Why is it so hard to just freely express it? What makes us keeping those?
Afraid?
Scared?
Are we afraid or scared to let others know what we are feeling inside?
Are we afraid that others will not understand us?
Maybe, its the latter...
I am now lying in bed while writing this article. I am thinking. Those comforting words I've heard today is heavy and painful, but truly help me realize what's this unexplainable feeling I have inside.
Then, realization hits me again.
Me and my friends actually planned an expected get-together last night. We talked in our group chats about it but only three of us are actively exchanging ideas about our plan. We planned to go on a beach and overnight in one of our friends place, but then again, that plan only turns out to be a plan. We disregard it. We think of another thing to do and decided to go on our Nanay's house (a classmate/friend in college who's already married so we call her Nanay) bring food. It's like hitting three birds with one stone. Why? First, we can bond there, second, we can save our energy and we won't be tired from "gala" cause we are only staying at Nanay's house, and third, we can visit Nanay.
So its settled, we will go to Nanay's house.
In the morning, I prepared myself for our early-slash-late meet up. We decided to meet around 8:30 am but we actually met at 9:30. Filipino time, you know. Only @sc and me showed at the meeting place and the other one have a prior engagement to make before meeting us, and some of our friends can't make it to our get together. @sc and me decided to go to the supermarket and bought the things we need. After buying we immediately went straight to Nanay's house because we told her that we will be there at 10 am but we arrived at 11 am.
Cooking was done by Nanay and @sc. By the way, @sc is a good cook. The fried chicken she made is so delicious. Soon after, our friend arrived.
We eat and eat and eat. Food trip is the best! We didn't noticed the time.
*Fast forward...*
We are on our second batch of food trip, this time with drinks. Soju with delights and sprite. Unending stories and talking fills Nanay's house plus with background music.
Our conversation gets anywhere, until sc open this topic which I promised to tell her when we meet.
And so, I started to tell my story...
They sympathize, they understand. I told them that I am fine and okay, that I actually forget it. They said I'm not being honest. They undergone the same so they knew what it felt. They comfort me non-stop. Said their opinions and thoughts about what happened until I've heard the world "***betrayed***".
`Betrayed`.
The word itself is painful. It's like my heart is pinch when I heard that word. That word never comes to my mind. Or maybe, I'm just denying or avoiding that word.
It's painful knowing that someone you trust, betrayed you. No need for explanation how painful it is.
I thought to myself multiple times that it's not. I am not betrayed. It happened just by some unavoidable circumstances that leaves without a choice.
I hate it. I never think of that word.
Now, I finally say to myself. Its not the words that I hate but the fact, the reality that it happened.
During that time, yes. I felt betrayed, but I shoved it a way because she's my friend. Its not her fault. I tried to understand but deep down inside me, I am hurt. I am in pain.
I keep it inside, reminding myself that its not her fault. We can't control someone's feelings and emotions so its not her fault. I try to understand, that's unavoidable.
For months, I told my other friends that I am totally fine. Its just nothing. Its just like a strong wind that mess up my perfectly combed hair. That after it passed, I can comb it again, then I am good.
But the reality didn't actually go with my thoughts. It's still hurt... a little. I felt awkward and uncomfortable with her. I don't want to see them both. But on the other hand, I don't want her to know that I am uncomfortable around her... we're friends after all.
Now, I am discharging this bottled up emotions. I don't want to lie and fool myself anymore.
I am still hurt, a little but soon I'll be better. As just what my friend said, I will laugh it out soon after.
Actually I am feeling much better because I share it with my friends. I heard their thoughts and opinions. They sympathize and understand. I see their genuine expressions. It helped. Talking about it personally and not in chats is much better.
Thank you @sc for crying in my behalf and also Nanay, and Jim for their concern and comfort. I learned a lot today and I enjoy the day. 😘
***P.S***
Thanks for reading!
A Well Spent BCH Earnings
Hi Guys!
Merry Christmas!
Sorry for the late greetings. Hope your Christmas is well spent together with your loved ones.
I must say, this years Christmas is different from last year. I don't know how to explain it, but its totally different. Just a feeling...
Though the pandemic still there, it doesn't stop us from celebrating Christmas. Even a simple celebration seems grand when we are with our family. I am sure every family is tired but happy. I've seen a lot of post in Facebook and Instagram how each of us spent Christmas together with our loved ones. Foods, games, greeting, and gift giving.
A week before Christmas, I've been saving my BCH earning here. I wanted to give gifts for my inaanak. But usual, thinking of what kind of gift I will give is harder than I thought.
This is what I've earned for my two articles. The Random Rewarder and some users are generously enough. I kept it in my bitcoin wallet hoping that bch will rise, but unfortunately it didn't. From that two articles, I've earned 25$ which is almost 1,200 pesos which is enough for my inaanak. I have 5 inaanak, two of them I bought a gift and the rest I gave them money, because I don't know that to give to them. I often see them and I don't know want them like as a gift.
They are very happy receiving their gifts. Their eyes sparkle upon receiving gifts which made me happy as well.
I gave my nephews and nieces some money too and some other kids. Even a little amount of money makes them feel delighted.
Indeed...
***"It is better to give than to received."***
The feeling of giving is immeasurable and indescribable. Looking at those happy faces makes me feel happy too. I must say that it is a wonderful day. Knowing that you makes other people happy.
Thanks to read cash, to @TheRandomRewarder , and to other users who upvoted my articles. Because of you guys I shared the blessings I received too, even my a simple gesture.
Merry Christmas! 😘
2021 is about to end. Hope this coming year is a much better year. I am sure everyone of us are having the same wish and prayer, that may this pandemic ends, so that the years coming is much merrier than today.
Hope this is a sign that we are going back to what we used to. Hope better years are coming. Enough with pain amd suffering. Let happiness, love, peace and a healthier years coming.
We suffer a lot and so much and I hope this coming year is a year for happiness and joy.
Thank you everyone!
Thanks for reading!
Again, Merry Merry Christmas! 😘
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If you are interested to read my articles, feel free to visit ****My Profile****. https://read.cash/@JulyAnn
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I'm Raising a Pig
Having an unstable job or source of income is really hard. Yung tipong may gusto kang bilhin pero hindi mo mabili kasi it's either wala kang pera o tinitipid mo yung perang meron ka. Yung wala o minsan kaunti lang naibibigay mo sa magulang mo kasi wala kang trabaho.
It's been a year since umuwi ako dito sa Bicol. Isang taon pa lang pero feeling ko dalawang taon na akong nandito at walang matinong trabaho.
Noong una, hindi ako worried na patambay tambay lang na parang yun yung time for me to rest. But to tell you, I tried to seek for a job sadyang mahirap lang talaga dito sa probinsya na naghanap ng trabaho. Less opportunity kung baga.
For that one year, nakontento na ako sa sideline lang, tutor sa mga estudyante na hindi matulungan ng mga magulang kasi busy sa kanilang mga trabaho. Pag-uwi ko nung last December 2020, may naghanap agad ng tutor, so go agad ako. By January meron na akong pinagkakaabalahan which is tutoring na nga. 100 per hour and twice or thrice a week sila magpatutor, so bale 200-300 ang kinikita ko every week. Every two weeks naman ako binibigyan ng bayad. Yung bayad na binibigay, hati kami ni mama, para naman kahit papaano may naiaabot ako sa kanya, tapos yung akin tinatago ko, ipon kung baga. Since hindi naman ako pala alis ng bahay, at nauso tong si shopee moreon sa kanya napupunta lalo na kapag may nagustuhan talaga akong bilhin. Pero hindi naman ako umoorder ng wala akong pambayad. I make sure na kapag oorder ako ay may pambayad ako. Kahit papano nakokontrol ko ang pagshoshopee ko.
I think April or May nagdecide si mama na mag-alaga ng baboy, libangan nya na din sa bundok kasi wala syang masyadong ginagawa. So yung perang binibigay ko sa kanya napupunta sa pampakain ng baboy at kapag kulang o wala na syang pampakain, binibigay ko na lang yung sa akin.
Continuous yung tutoring ko kahit bakasyon. Focus daw sa reading with comprehension. Since continue ang tutoring may naibibigay din ako kay mama ng tuloy-tuloy.
Around August binenta ni mama yung baboy nya, sakto fiesta din kasi dun sa bundok. Umabot ng 80 kilos yung baboy at yung halaga nya nung binenta is 13,000 which is malaking halaga. Kinonvince ako ni mama na bumili din daw ako ng baboy para naman yung pera na kinikita ko sa pagtututor ay may mapuntahan at makita. Sakto naman before opening of class nung September may isang magulang na kumuha sa akin para magtutor din sa kindergarten nyang anak. Monthly ang bayad kasama overtime. Okay na din naman tutal wala pa akong trabaho. Malaking tulong na din yun.
I decided to raise a pig. Yung kita ko sa tutoring binayad ko para makabili ng baboy. October nanganak yung baboy ng kapitbahay nila mama. November 1 nakuha namin yung biik na binili namin.
Meet Ek-ek, the Pig that I am raising. Nadelete ko kasi yung picture nya nung biik pa sya. Ngayon he's already 3 months old pero ang laki na. Ang dami ngang natutuwa dyan kasi ang bilis daw lumaki. Hindi nila akalain na 3 buwan palang sya. Kinuha namin yan, sobrang liit pa talaga, 18 ba naman silang magkakapatid. Yung ibang kapatid nya halos malaki-laki lang sa kuting nung ipinanganak, si Ek-ek naman kasing laki ng laki ng tuta na natuto palang maglakad. Isang araw na bati yan kakapuna na ang bilis lumaki kaya ayun nagtae-tae.
Yung sweldo ko sa tutor, pambili lang ng pagkain nya pati na nung mga ibang kapatid nya na alaga ni mama. Sabi ko kay Ek-ek palaki pa sya para nakabili ako ng printer. 😁
Kanina binisita ko si Ek, kain ng kain ng kamoteng kahoy. Pagkatapos kumain naglaro at nagtatakbo. Pagkatapos nilang maglarong magkakapatid, hanap naman sila ng makakain. Sila na ang nagbubungkal ng kamoteng kahoy.
Buntis na naman pala yung nanay ni Ek at nagbabalak na naman akong bumili ng isa pang baboy. 😁
Ano kayang magandang ipangalan? 🤔
Yun lang.
Salamat sa pagbabasa! 😊
Immunity Shield 💉🛡
`"The best and most efficient pharmacy is within your own system."` ~~ROBERT C. PEALE
Corona Virus still making its toll in our environment and society. . Different variants of the said virus are being discovered and coming out. The anxious people keep on wondering and praying when will this pandemic ends.
Throughout this pandemic breakout, various companies are busily researching on how they can put an end to this virus. Luckily, with their continues researches and experimentation, they discovered vaccines that will help every person to have the immunity or have the resistance so that they cannot be affected with corona virus.
At first, people are afraid to be vaccinated because of the spreading side effects of it in the news. They got anxious. They got nervous.
As the mass of the people being vaccinated increases, some people slowly building their trust to get the vaccine. Not to mention, some are being force because the company they are working in stated they their employees MUST be vaccinated, and also some establishments are not allowing anyone to enter if the are NOT yet vaccinated. With this, many people became interested to get the vaccine.
At first, I am also not interested to get the vaccine. I heard some false rumors that if you get the vaccine you will live less than 2 years. And the worst is that you will be a zombie after. Funny right? I don't believe that I will become a zombie, but the rumor that I will live less than 2 years makes me afraid and anxious just by thinking about it. What makes me believed more is what I have seen in the News, where a family after getting vaccinated died.
But enough with being pessimistic. Enough with overthinking. After gathering so much courage, I decided to get be vaccinated.
My first dose happened last November 18, 2021. Long queueing just to get the vaccine. I am afraid and nervous during that time. I am not afraid of the syringe but the thoughts of it effects suddenly occurred to me. I shove it away and still proceed. After the shot, I feel my body if there's something strange happening. Thankfully, nothings strange happened. I didn't feel anything abnormal, its like nothing happen. I don't feel the pain or numbness that some have felt. But of course to make sure, I rested that day and the day after that.
December 16, 2021, the day of my second dose. (By the way, my vaccine is Sinovac.) It's also the day of my interview for my ranking application. After the interview, me and my friends immediately went to the location where we first take the first shot. Same process, long queueing. We arrived at 10:30,expected that their are lota of people waiting for their turns.
At 3:00 pm, finally I am fully vaccinated!
To celebrate our interview and being vaccinated that day, we eat in one of the kainan, Benzon, in our Municipality.
Let me say this gentle reminder to everyone, specially to those who are fully vaccinated too.
Not because we are fully vaccinated we can be at ease. We must put in our mind that the Covid-19 virus is still roaming around. I watched some news that some celebrities, even after they got their vaccine and be fully vaccinated, they still got affected by Covid. It's a reminder to us, that we are still NOT safe. We still MUST follow the guidelines or the rules and regulations to secure out health and safety.
Remember, ***our safety is in our hands***.
`Thanks for reading!`
Random Thoughts 💭
Hey, hey, hey!
Hello readcash users? How have you been?
Ako? Eto, medyo makakahinga na kahit papaano. I've been quite busy in the past few weeks. Madaming ginawa, especially about dun sa pag-apply ko. I am done with my demo and also with the interview, kaya eto ngayon palang naisipang bumisita ulit dito sa site.
I've been thinking what to write, pero hindi pa masyadong gumagana ang utak ko para mag-isip, na'drain ata sa mga ginawa nung nakaraan. Kaya pagpasensyahan nyo na muna etong random article ko na 'to.
Bakasyon na kaya wala munang tutoring, tambay na naman ako nito sa bahay. My friends and I already talk about some plan gala, pero hindi pa finalize kaya baka mauwi na naman 'to sa drawing, di ba @sc?
By the way, magpapasko na. May isa nga pala akong pinoproblema. Madami na akong inaanak at hindi ko alam kung anong pwede kong ibigay na gift sa kanila, wala din pa naman akong masyadong pera kaya mas lalong mahirap mag-isip. Yung isa pa naman sa inaanak ko hindi ko nabigyan nung binyag at birthday nya nung nakaraang buwan. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung anong pwedeng ibigay.
Maiintindihan naman siguro ng mga nanay nila kung wala o konti lang ang maabot ko di ba? Atleast may nabigay. Pero sana lang talaga, wala akong makinig na keso "ganto lang?" Naku! Nakakatrauma naman kasi mga naririnig ko sa mga magulang dito. Kaya tuloy feeling ko obligadong magbigay ang mga ninang at ninong.
Naalala ko nung bata pa ako, masaya na ako sa naabot sa akin, basta meron akong natanggap, pero ngayon dapat talaga may "value", may "limit". People forget the true essence of Christmas and meaning of giving. Yung dapat maging masaya ka kasi may natanggap ka, hindi yung malungkot ka kasi yan lang ang natanggap mo, di ba?
Kaya eto ako ngayon, problemado dahil lang sa ireregalo. Hindi problema yung inaanak, ang problema dun sa magulang, baka hindi "sapat"sa kanila kung ano ang binigay para sa anak nila. Anyways, I still have few days to think pa naman, so bahala na.
Christmas is around the corner na nga talaga. Nagscroll ako sa homepage dito and some articles are about Christmas, gift giving and such. Nagsisilabasan na ulit ang mga generous people. Sana dumami pa sila at baka maambunan din ako. 😂 Magpapasalamat talaga ako ng bonggang-bongga!😁
I think dito na muna itong random thoughts na 'to. Sa sobrang random parang ewan lang.
Pero kung sakaling may magbasa dito,
MARAMING THANKS! 😘
I promise to make a nice article, but for now eto muna. Sana pagtiyagaan nyo na muna.
Thanks!
A Must-Read Webtoon Stories/Series (Part 2)
Have you tried reading my Webtoon Stories/Stories recommendation? How was it?
If you enjoyed reading those stories, let me add more exciting stories you will definitely enjoy.
(If you are looking for part 1 just click **HERE** or simply go check my profile) https://read.cash/@JulyAnn/a-must-read-webtoon-storiesseries-part-1-691b7c04
**Here are the list of A Must-Read Webtoon Stories/Series Part 2.**
Let's Start!
**She's Hopeless** https://www.webtoons.com/en/drama/shes-hopeless/list?title_no=2767
A girl from a rich family experiencing bullying from school, but it doesn't mean she puts up to with bullying from other students. She is infamous for her pierce personality. Worried about her situation school, her grandmother decided to secretly hire a bodyguard for her. Will love be bloom to both of them? Let's all find it out!
Update every Saturday, and currently on its 30th episodes.
**Devilish Romance** https://www.webtoons.com/en/supernatural/devilish-romance/list?title_no=2529
After being unfairly framed in devildom, a middle-tier devil falls on Earth as a human. For him to be able to go back to devildom, he needs to find the serial killer. On his search, he met a stubborn amd strict human boss whom he hates, however he eventually develop feelings to her. Will he be able to come back or will he stay?
Curious what will be their ending, start reading it now. Update also every Saturday and it is on 39th episodes.
**Sixth Sense Kiss** https://www.webtoons.com/en/romance/sixth-sense-kiss/list?title_no=2921
What if you have the ability to see the future? How? When your lips touches someones body.
This story is very interesting. A girl happened to see her boss future, and what she saw is herself with her boss in the bed! What more shocking is that her ex-boyfriend whom she think is the right guy suddenly show and will be working with the same department as her. Will she be able to survive working with the man she wished to be her destiny or the man she's destined to be with?
Exciting right? This is my favorite Webtoon Story and I am very impatient with the next episode that often times I buy/used my coins to read the next episode. Update every Saturday too and on its 25th episodes.
I heard that this Webtoon story will be a kdrama soon too. Exciting!
**Perfect Marriage Revenge** https://www.webtoons.com/en/romance/perfect-marriage-revenge/list?title_no=3484
From heiress of a wealthy magnate to a ordinary housewife whose main concern is her in-laws nagging and household chores. What's more tragic is that she saw her husband confessing his love to her stepsister. Devastated, she run away and hit by a car and die. Buy when she opens her eyes, she find out that she travel a year ago before her life went awry. Given a second chance in life, she decided to take revenge and determined to get back what she lost. Will her plan be successful or she will meet someone to make it successful?
Update every Sunday and has only 8 episodes as of now.
**There's Love Hidden in Lies** https://www.webtoons.com/en/romance/theres-love-hidden-in-lies/list?title_no=2467
There's worse than having the guy you have secretly crushed on for 10 years said that you're like his mom. Awts! Wanting the guy to realize her worth and be jealous, she agreed to be in a fake relationship with the hottest guy in school. Will their lie be a success and get the guy she wants or will their lie end up to something else?
Update every Sunday and on its episode 43.
**Before We Knew It** https://www.webtoons.com/en/romance/before-we-knew-it/list?title_no=1972
A stranger to love. A girl who's romantic experience lies only in novels. Her love of books has driven her to pursue a career in editing.
When she is assigned to be an editor of the playboy and best selling writer/author, she becomes determined succeed despite their ever complicating relationship.
Why complicated? Find it out now, read it in Webtoon. Enjoy!
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There it goes readers in Webtoon! Those stories are absolutely exciting and wonderful, that when you start reading you can't stop yourself. (Joke!😁) But seriously, all the stories are amazing.
That's it! Enjoy Reading!
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***There's more... 😁***
`Disclaimer:`
`All images used are from Google.`
Which is best for an Ending, a Hug or a Kiss?
***...and they lived happily ever after.***
**(and they kissed)**
Ending.
When we heard of the word ending, mostly we picture or imagine it like the lead characters lived happily and they kissed... like stories in fairytales.
Very common ending... A **kiss**.
But have you ever think which is best for an ending, a kiss or a hug?
Recently I watched this korean movie entitled **"If we were a Season"**. The lead characters are Chae Soo Bin and Jang Doon Yoon. Are you familiar with them? If not let me help you remember them.
Chae Soo Bin, the female lead, was also in the drama "I am not a Robot". And the male lead, Jang Doon Yoon, was in "The Take of Nokdu". If you're still unfamiliar with them, much as well go search their names. They are both good actors.
The story of **"If we were a Season"** is about a childhood bestfriends who developed feelings with each other. What happened with their blooming romantic feelings? I won't spoil you. I recommended it. Watch. Its a great movie.
Anyway, there has this scene where in the female lead visited the male lead's house. The male lead is doing some homework/assessment. The female lead decided to watch a movie. After the male lead done with what he is doing he joined her in watching. The scene shows the ending of movie they are watching where the end was the character in the movie kissed. A very typical ending in every romantic movies.
`Sealed it with a kiss.`
The female lead, Chae Soo bin, asked if why movies/stories always portrayed ending in a kissing scene, why not a warm hug? She also said that if she will choose what is best for ending...a hug or a kiss, she would rather choose a hug. She explained that when ending was ended with a kiss, it seems that the story really ends but when it ends with a warm hug it feels like the story or their story will continue.
That made me think. All the movies and fairytales I've watched, most of them ends with a kiss. Like in fairytales, they always said the characters lived happily ever after and they kissed. Surely, when they kissed, their story really ends. Aren't you curious about what happen to them after their wedding? Are they really lived happily ever after? Do they have children?
In reality, life does end with a kiss. It will continue.
When the ending ends with a warm hug, does it feel its the end? Or you think the story will continue?
A warm hug can make you feel its not the end and also it can make you feel that everything is going to be fine. That you are in the embrace of someone you can rely on. Someone who can protect you and someone who will stay with you 'till the end. The story continue... Through ups and downs, through happiness and sadness, through joy and sorrow. It feels like you are not alone with just a warm hug coming from someone who truly love and cherish you.
So if I where to choose between a hug or a kiss for an ending, I prefer a hug. Love can also expressrd by a hug. I also agree with the female lead, hug feels not an ending but rather the story will continue. No ending nor goodbye.
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**So what do you prefer for an ending, a kiss or a hug?**
`Thanks for reading!`
Paymaya Challenge and Promo
***Looking for extra income?***
***Paymaya is waving! 👋***
Since the season of giving is nearly approaching, there many generous promos and challenges are giving out by some trusted malls, shops, sites and apps.
Discounts? Sales? Vouchers? Promos? Freebies? Free money?
Who wouldn't love those? I am sure, anyone who hears those words will make their ears bigger and eyes throwing hearts with their hands clasped.
But some would doubt...
Really??
Free money? It isn't really sound convincing, though. Anyone will surely doubt. Who will give free money without taking out or using your own money?
Some read cash or noise cash user will probably agree and think that its legit since this site is giving us money by creating articles. We didn't spend money in this site, but rather this site is giving us money. Its proven and tested.
If we heard that some new sites or apps are money, our initial reaction will be doubtful. We tend to question if its true and not a hoax nor a scam. We asked for evidence that is true. We felt anxious and raise an eyebrow.
But, sometimes evidence is not enough not until you experience it, right?
Some have the habit of doubting at first but will try after to test if its true or not. And that's me. I will asked questions repeatedly to satisfy my curiosity, though its very convincing and have evidences, I still continue to doubt but later after trying and confirming, that's when I stop and finally said to myself if its true or not. Of course I am over the moon if its true and irritated if it's not. I really hate wasting my time over nothing.
If its true, of course I will share it to my family and friends for them to try and earned the benefits too, like read cash and noise cash.
As I am saying, recently my brother recommended me this Paymaya app. Its actually an e-wallet like Gcash and Coins.ph. I already have this Paymaya app because this app is what I used in all of my transactions for my payment in PRC. I only used it upon payment in PRC. I mostly used Gcash and Coins.ph.
So back to my brother's recommendation, he said that I can earn money using for free using this app. All I need to do is make my account verified, which I did, and follow the instruction given by a trusted person.
****PAYMAYA SEND MONEY CHALLENGE****
Paymaya has a lot of promos, like cashbacks and vouchers. Last November 9 to 15 they had this Paymaya Challenge, which I took part, wherein you have to send money for about 10k in 10 different Paymaya Users and you will earn 500 pesos.
Where did I get the 10 thousand pesos that needs to transfer to other users?
My brother introduced me to one of his friends that also took part of the challenge. 10k is not a little amount of money and letting some stranger to receive the money took a lot of courage. What if they didn't send the money back to its owner? The owner of the money must be anxious everytime the money is being sent to someone. Lucky enough all the participants are very trustworthy and the owner is very kind lending it to us. It return for lending his money, we have to pay 50 pesos.
Through this challenge I've earned 500 pesos, and since I need to pay 50 pesos, I've got 450 pesos. Its enough, just my sending money I earned 450 pesos in just day, no sweats.
Aside from the Challenge you can all earn money (100 pesos) through your referral code. You just have to invite someone who haven't Paymaya account and let them sign in using your referral code. Make sure they have their Valid Id and make them verified their accounts,. after that you will received 100 pesos.
As I check my Paymaya and also browse in Facebook, they have again this Paymaya Challenge and its started last November 16 up to 22.
If you are interested, what are you waiting for?
Join the challenge now!
A Must-Read Webtoon Stories/Series (Part 1)
If you will notice nowadays, there's a lot of things we can do using only our mobile phones, unlike before. We can send messages, take pictures, listen to music, draw artworks, watch movies, read books/novels, and many more. We can do variety of things using our phone. Our phone is a must-used item in our daily lives.
I am spending so much time using my phone, especially since the pandemic outbreak. Aside from watching videos and movies, I also love reading stories.
If you are using Webtoon app, I will recommend some must-read stories/series that will surely captured your heart.
Webtoon app has a lot of binge-stories to read and it has all the genres. From Romance, Fantasy, Horror, Comedy, Drama, Sci-fic, and many more. You can enjoy them all in this app.
I am more on Romance and Drama. So here are some must-read stories (For me) in Webtoon.
**True Beauty**
Yes! If you are a kdrama fan, I am sure this webtoon story rings a bell. Actually, the kdrama was based on this webtoon stories. The story revolves around a shy girl who is a comic fan master and who binge-watched beauty videos online until she master the art of make ups and sees her social standing skyrocket as she become the prettiest girl overnight. Her life tangled with the two hottest boy in her school.
As of now, this story is in its 171 episodes and still ongoing. Update is every Wednesday and is available to read at exactly 9 a.m.
Unlovable Replacement
This is one of my favorite Webtoon Story. A story about a boy whose relationship went down the drain until he started a weird relationship with a local delivery girl.
Season 1 already ended. The writer of this series is on hiatus. But definitely, before the Season 1 ended, the writer said to wait for its 2nd Season.
Freaking Romance
A sexy supernatural story about a boy and a girl who lives in a different dimension but with the help of a special place their lives tangled with one another. How romance starts to bloom with this two? Go, and read it! This story already ended.
**Age Matters**
Does age really matter when it comes to love? Find it out with this story.
A woman, a hopeless romantic, who's turning 30 and not happy about it met this young billionaire CEO who's also unhappy about his life. Together this two will proved that age is just a number.
This story just ended also. Enjoy reading!
**So I Married the Anti-fan**
Yep! Another familiar story. A Webtoon story turns to a kdrama.
A reporter who's life became a mess after meeting the most loved star of many. From anti-fan to real lover. How their romantic relationship blooms? An interesting story.
Currently, this story is on its 28th Episodes and still ongoing in Webtoon app. Update every Friday.
Act Like You Love Me
A 25 year old woman, who's having some difficulties in life met this super star man and offer her a temporary job. Frustrated and stressed out of her life, she takes it all out to a doll which turns out to have a magical ability to control the man. How love blooms with this two? Go read it now.
Update every Thursday and currently has 38 episodes.
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This is it for now. I still have lots of stories to recommend. Wait for part 2!
The Breather
Hi!
It took me awhile to make and publish an article again. Its been quite a busy week for me. I have so much in my plate this week that even though I want to be active, I can't.
I've been busy preparing the requirements for my application in public shools. I've sent an appointment here and there, print documents needed, and went to PRC and Municipal Hall for more documents/requirements needed. My pocket is slowly draining. Thanks to read cash I saved some money for the requirements and borrowed some to my sister. And also thanks to my friend for allowing me to print the documents for free.
I am not yet done with my requirements but I am working on it so that I can pass before the due.
This week, its very tiring and stressful.
My friends and I went to PRC last Thursday for the needed requirements. We woke up early and queuing after we arrived. Its was long, tiring, hot day.
We finished around 1:30 pm. And since we are so stress we decided to take a quick break to relieved our stress. We went to Cagsawa Ruins in Daraga Albay.
The place was so amazing. It's my first time going there even if I lived in Albay. Atlast, I saw the old church that was half buried because of the eruption of the Mayon Volcano. Its really a nice place to have a walk and have an adventure to. They have an entrance fee for only 20 pesos. They offer tour guides who can explain to you the history of every corners of the place. You can rent and ride the ATV for 300 pesos and you can roam the area near the Mayon. There are souvenir shops on the sides and stalls where you can eat some Albay delicacies like, Pili nuts, delicious laing, and chili ice creams. There are also shops that sell beautiful flowery plants. There are also people that offers you to take an amazing photo with the Mt. Mayon and its only 10 pesos.
The weather was nice when we arrived, but as the time passed by, the rain clouds slowly approaching, and the rain suddenly poured.
We saw the Mayon quite close and we had fun walking and taking pictures.
The Mayon was covered with the clouds, but still, its amazing and beautiful to watched.
It was a short break but it helps me feel less tired. For a moment, I forgot that I still have so much things to do and prepare. Its nice to have a little break.
After this, the stressful days will continue.
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Happy Halloween! 🎃 👻
The Long Wait is Over
So eto na nga. Tapos na ang aking paghihintay. Sa wakas dumating na...
Alam kong ito ay simula pa lamang ngunit tapos na ang aking paghihintay.
Pagkatapos kung mag-aral ng kolehiyo ay sumabak agad akong makipagsapalaran para sa aking mga mithiin sa buhay. Hindi madali pero kinaya naman. Abril taong 2017 ako nagtapos ng aking kursong edukasyon. Pagkatapos kong magtake ng Licensure Examination for Teachers noong Setyembre 2017, nagbalak akong pumunta ng Maynila at noong Oktobre nga ay umalis ako dito sa aming probinsya.
Pagdating ko doon ay agad akong nag-apply sa mga kompanyang sinabi sa akin ng aking kapatid. Kaliwa't kanan ang pagpasa ng Resume. Hirap, pagod, pawis at gutom ang inabot ko makahanap lamang ng trabahong aking mapapasukan. Alam kong malayo sa kuraong tinapos ko ang aking mga inapplyan, ngunit kung ito lamang ng dahilan upang makatulong ako sa aking pamilya at okay lang.
Gustuhin ko mang magturo sa aming probinsya ay hindi ko magawa dahil kulang ang oppurtunidad. May mga paaralan din naman, ngunit limitado lamang ang gurong kayang tanggapin. Gustuhin ko mang mag-apply agad sa publikong paaralan ay hindi ko magawa. Hindi naman sa paninira ngunit at ito ay base lamang sa aking obserbasyon. Ang pagpasok sa pampublikong paaralan dito sa amin ay talagang pahirapan. Kailangan kompleto mo ang lahat ng requirements upang malikom mo ang naayon na puntos. Kadalasan naman ay kung may kapit ka sa mga nakakataas ko may kapangyarihan ay mapapabilis ang iyong pagpasok. Ako ay isang munting mamamayan lamang. Walang kung anong kapit sa kahit sinuman. Kailangan ng sipag at tiyaga upang makuha kung anuman ang aking nais.
Dahil sa limitadong oppurtunidad na iyon ay naisip ko na lamang mag-ibang bayan ng sa ganun ay makatulong sa aking pamilya.
Nakapasok ako sa isang kompanya. Mabuti naman sana ang aking trabaho ngunit hindi ako masaya. Grabeng stressed ang aking nakuha na umabot pa minsan sa hindi ko pagkain sa buong araw at tulog na lang ang aatupagin pag uwi. May pagkakataon pa na pinipilit ko na lang ang aking katawan na bumangon at pumasok. Kaya ko, pero dumagdag pa ang nakatataas sa akin na kung ano ano ang sinasabi. Imbes na ako ay maengganyo sa pagpasok ay mas lalo akong nawalan ng gana dahil sa kanyang mga sinasabi. Laging nagagalit kahit wala kaming ginagawang mali o masama. Paisa-isa, unti unting umaalis ang aking mga kasamahan, hanggang sa ako na lang ang naiwan.
Isang araw bago ako pumasok ay may sinabi sa aking ang aking nakatatanfang kapatid na may eskwelahan na naghahanap ng guro. Napaisip ako. Kahit mayroon pa akong trabaho ay nag-apply pa rin ako. Sinubukan ko, wala namang mawawala at isa pa gustong gusto ko dahil iyon ang tinapos ko. Sa hindi ko inaasahan, natanggap ako. Umalis ako sa aking pinagtatrabahuhan. Nagsimula ako sa bago. Masaya. Nakakapagod pero masaya. Nakakastressed pero okay lang, nag-eenjoy naman ako.
Nagturo ako ng mahigit dalawang taon. Sa aking panggatlong taong dapat na pagtuturo ay may hindi inaasahang pandemnya na dumating. Nakaapekto ito sa aking pagtuturo. Kinailangang magbawas ng guro sa paaralan kung saan ako nagtuturo. Noong panahon din na iyon, ang pandemya ay nakaapekto din sa aking pag-iisip. Nadepress ako sa hindi ko malamang dahilan at dahil dun, napagdesisyunan kong ako na lamang ang aalis. Nagresign ako at umuwi na lang dito sa probinsya.
Disyembre taong 2020 ako nakauwi. Walang malinaw na kahahantungang ang aking pag uwi. Walang kasiguraduhan na makakahanap ako ng trabaho dahil may pandemya pa rin na sagabal sa ating mga kilos at gawain. Hindi ako makaapply sa pampublikong paaralan sapagkat wala pa ring memo ng ako'y dumating. Nagtiis tiis ako sa pagtutor muna pansamantala habang nag-aantay. Salamat naman sa Diyos ay kahit papa'no ay may naabot ako sa aking magulang para sa pang araw-araw.
Ngayong gabi, nakatanggap ako ng magandang balita. Matapos ang ilang buwan kong paghihintay ay naglabas na nga ang Deped ng Memo upang kaming mga nais makapagturo sa publikong paaralan dito sa Albay ay mabigyan na nang pagkakataon.
Ito na ang simula at sana na ay makapasok ako...
Road Lines
I wanted to share this information that I saw in facebook awhile ago while busily browsing for some posts in my newsfeed.
(Sorry, I forgot to copy the link)
That post was about the different meaning of lines we saw on the road.
If you are observant person you will probably wonder why some lines on the road are white or sometimes yellow in color? Why some lines are broken and some are continuous? But if you are not observant like me, you probably asking yourself right now, like really? Are they?
I am today's years old that I learn about some those lines and thanks to facebook. All I know is that lines are put in the road to emphasize the right and left lane. And I thought that white and yellow color are used because they are visible enough to see by the riders/drivers.
Some of you, especially those who loved to travel or roadtrips, already know these, but for some who still didn't know this up to now, like me, here are the different lines and meaning.
Meaning of Different Lines in the Road and its Colors.
1. ****Broken White Lines****
A broken white lines gave permission to change lanes, overtake, and take U-turns.
2. ****Continuous White Lines****
On this road, you are not allowed to overtake other vehicles or take U-turns. If you are in this type of road, just keep moving straight.
3. ****Continuous Yellow Line****
On such roads, overtaking is allowed but only when you are on your side. Crossing the yellow line isn't permitted for either side.
4. ****Double Continuous Yellow Line****
A double continuous yellow line implies that crossing the line strictly not permitted for either side. So that implies no overtaking, no U-turns, and no change lanes.
5. ****Broken Yellow Lines****
You are allowed to overtake, take U-turns and you can do both while going over the line
6. ****Continuous Double White Lines****
Double Continuous White Lines means you are not allowed to overtake in either directions. You can cross an unbroken line to enter a driveway side or road-related from the main carriageway. You can also cross the unbroken line when emerging from a driveway, side road or other area.
7. ****Arrow****
Arrows, like this one, indicate a compulsary direction that this lane muat follow.
8. ****Give way Line****
A give way line indicates where a vehicles should stop at the intersection or traffic lights to be safe from turning vehicles and crossing pedestrians.
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I know there are more different line that we see on the road and only few above are mentioned.
Hope this add learnings to all of us.
Thanks for reading.
Laziness You Say...?
Admit it or not, there's point in our everyday activities that we felt this thing called "**Laziness**", right? Who didn't want doing nothing for a couple of minutes or hours? I guess everyone wants, right? 'Cause if you don't ever feel being lazy, you're awesome! You are incredible!
When we heard the word "**lazy**" if gives us this negative thought that someone is being unproductive.
Well, its true, isn't it?
When we felt this laziness, we tend to say **"I will rest first." "I will do it later." "Tomorrow is another day."** until it became our habit.
Lets about my experienced during college days.
One realization in college is that, we must take it easy but seriously.
College life is difficult, that's true. It is the point in our life where we choose are path, our profession to take. It is where amd what would we become after years of schooling. We do lots of paperworks, researches, and reports and many more. It makes our braincells die, it makes out head aches, and it makes us drained and exhausted. We don't have a choice. We must fulfill and accomplish everything for our said future.
During my first year, I put into my mind that I need to focus and take everything seriously, that I need to study hard. College isn't the same during Grades school and High school.
At first, I am working hard to meet deadlines. I need to work on what is needed early before the submission so that it won't be hard for me if all the professors gave projects, report, research, or portfolio at the same time. I am too focus that I can't even enjoy my days in college during freshmen. Well its not bad though, aside from some people find me boring and started to avoid and mingle with me. That's when I started to observed others, and start asking myself, *"Why others can enjoy their college life and still can fulfill or pass?"*
I decided to enjoy my college life. I take it easy but seriously. I enjoyed my vacant time and work double during study time. I spend my days laughing with friends during our free time and also spend hardship with them. College isn't complete and hard without friends.
Being a student, there comes a time that I don't want to do anything at the moment. A sudden laziness urge that keeps me rest and do nothing.
Portfolios, researches and projects comes mostly at the end of every quarter or semester. Some of it comes at the same time, but of course a certain time will be given to work on it before the said deadlines.
When laziness comes, I will work on every projects, portfolios or researches, a week or 3 days before the submission. I end up cramming everytime. But fortunate enough, wasn't able submitted after the deadlines. I am always on time. It becomes a habit until my last year in college.
So...
Laziness you say...?
It's okay, as long as you don't forget to do the things that you need to do on time.
It's okay to take a rest, but make sure you will finish what you are doing.
This is my version of @JonicaBradley 's prompt "**Laziness**".
Hope you like it.
Thanks for reading.
False Alarm
**False alarm** *a warning of something, especially something unpleasant or dangerous, which does not in fact happen.*
Have you ever experience something you think may happen but sudden it didn't? Or if you ever thought that something may bloomed but soon after it begins it suddenly wither? Or if you ever experience something may start but actually there's not? Or so it's just your thought...
***False alarm...***
Let me share to you this experience of mine.
A vague memory for the month of July
A can't clearly recall but during this month, my cousin went home for his grandpa's death anniversary. I went to see her. Had a little chat with her and talked some stuff to make up our long years of not seeing each other. She was my elementary classmate as well. Since we're classmates, our chat ended up about how our other classmates are. She wanted to see them before she went back to Manila for her job. She asked me a favor to contact them and tell others to have our mini-reunion. I remembered that I made a group chat in messenger with my elementary classmates but only few are active, some are busy with their life, meeting ends, and taking good care of their families. I chatted on our group chat about the plan and to my surprise, most of them responded.
*And this is where the story really started...*
Month of August
The mini-reunion was held, but only few are present because some of our classmates are working in Manila, some have conflict with the schedule because of work, and some are working in Manila. Because of Covid-19 restrictions we can't go to places and enjoy, so instead we held it in my cousin's house. We enjoyed our boodle fight and a few drinks while catching up with our lives. It was fun, especially to me because during that time, I am a little stressed and depressed. I had fun talking to them. It was amazing.
After that mini-reunion, our group chat who used to be quiet became noisy. Every minute some will leave a messages saying ***"Good morning"***, ***"What are you doing? "***, saying weird stuff and sending photos to start a conversation, and it works. If someone leave a message, others will follow until the conversation became long. If you are not an active person on social medias or in messenger like me, you will be clueless of what they are talking in the group chat, like me again. If I don't be active for a couple of minutes, that couple of minutes seems a couple of hours because of too many unread messages in the group chat. I can't cope up with them. I decided to leave my wifi's on.
I am actually the seener in the group. But it changed when ***"this guy"*** mentioned me every time I seen their messages without replying nor joining their conversations. He keeps of saying I am a "**snob**" which I totally disagree. As a result, I find myself joining every conversation to defend and prove them wrong.
Almost everyday I have this converstion with ***"this guy"*** in our group chat. Until one day, ***"this guy"*** opened up something about the past that I almost forgotten. He said, he was about to court me but I ignored his messages. I don't really remember it though but he kept on insisting that it really did happened. He even said the month-date-year. He asked me to looked for our conversation and so I did.
When I read our conversation, what we do is exchange our ***"Hi's"*** and ***"Hello"*** and ***"How are you?"*** that's it. He didn't mentioned that he wanted to court me. But he point the blamed on me and he said that he's about to say it after I replied and unfortunately I didn't, so all the courage he mustered disappeared. I just laughed at him.
Every day, every conversation we had in our group chat ended about us two, me and with ***"this guy"***. He threw his pick up lines and some of our classmates teased us. It was all a joke and for fun to make our group chat livelier than before so I'm fine with it.
Often times, ***"this guy"*** sent me his pm's but most of the time we talked in our group chat. He gave me fruits and even delivered me fruits if I said I want this and that.
***Is that normal?***
He showed something that I am pretty sure some girls will definitely misinterpret.
For me, I thought it was normal. I told myself its normal because we're friends and he also said we're friends... so we are definitely **FRIENDS**! But this other friends of ours gave me something to think. Some of our friends will sent me private messages asking and saying if one of our friends suddenly ask my permission to court me, what will be my reaction? Then after sending me their private messages, they will tease me with ***"this guy"*** in our group chat. **(**by the way, the friends who's sending me their pm's are "this guy" bestfriends**)**
***So what to do think would that mean?***
One more thing, I introduced them to some of my girl friends. They jokingly asking with their facebook accounts and acted like they are interested with them. I acted like I am annoyed with their behaviour. ***"This guy"*** also joined them but suddenly said in the group chat, ***"Bat hindi na lang kasi umamin no, bok?"*** and his bestfriend replied, ***"Oo nga bok, umamin ka na kasi, nandyan na oh."***
*To tell you, I can play dumb but I am not numb.*
***What to you think? Is what I am thinking the same as yours?***
I ignored their messages as if I didn't read anything to avoid awkwardness. I diverted the conversation to different topic but they got me there. But ***"this guy"*** didn't said anything and the conversation ends.
To make sure of what I am thinking, I told this to one of my best friend. I told everything from the beginning and how this guy acted. She told me that there is definitely something with ***"this guy"*** towards me. I asked her why and how can she say it, she said that it's clearly obvious.
***Is that really obvious? Is it really true?***
I don't want to assume unless said. I don't want to be ahead of my thoughts and someone's thought and opinion. I put to my head that we're **JUST FRIENDS**, nothing more, nothing less...**FRIENDS**.
***RIGHT?***
Everything continue...the way he act and everything.
One day, we had a serious talk in our group chat and ***"this guy"*** suddenly opened up about his current relationship. I am shocked and so as my girl friend too. ***"This guy"*** continued and said that his relationship is on the rough. He didn't told us the details but he said that he has no longer communication with his girlfriend, because he was blocked by her. Their relationship was been in a rough for less than a year because they barely seen each other and often talk to each other. He asked the girl if she wanted to have some time off but the girl suddenly blocked him, so their break up isn't clear. But this girl friend of ours said that they are already broke up although it isn't official. ***"This guy"*** said that he heard something about his girlfriend, that it already has a new boyfriend. From that they really broken up.
He said that the reason he can't court someone yet is because he wanted to respect his ex, and to have time to move on and mend his broken heart. He also thought that it is inappropriate to court someone yet. He didn't want to be misinterpreted if ever he courted someone already.
Everyone agrees with him and let her be.
Everything continue, the way he act, the way he act towards me and the teasing with the two of us from our friends. Everyone thinks that there is ***"something"*** between us.
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That was everyone think...
And He confessed...
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**He is inlove with one of my best friend and he is planning to court her.**
Mother to Daughter
Hi!
Its been a while. I've been inactive for a long time due to busy schedules and of course procrastination, pardon me for that. Those days of inactivity here in this platform, I decided to spend my free time leisurely rather than thinking what to write.
Tonight, I want to share this heartfelt video I keep watching everytime I open my Youtube app. I watched this videos for nth times and I'm not getting sick of it.
If you are a fan of Akdong Musician, you probably watched this already. Maybe some of you are not fan of kpop because you don't understand them, and even I myself didn't too. I only understamd few words because of my continuous watching of kdramas. But with the help of google I can easily search the translation of the lyrics.
I type the lyrics while listening to the song. I recommend you to play the video, listen to the song and read the lyrics below.
This song is very touching that the audience cried while listening.
https://youtu.be/MPzbTJN5wVc
*Mother*:
*I thought I've had just closed my eyes for a moment,*
*But I am already becoming old,*
*I thought you would always be a little child forever,*
*But you have already grown-up,*
*I still don't know life very well,*
*So I don't have much to say to you,*
*But with this heart wishing you more happiness,*
*I search inside my chest for words to tell you,*
*Go study,*
*No, that's to basic,*
*Be sincere,*
*No, I can't do thay either,*
*Love,*
*No, that's also difficult,*
*Just live your life the way you want.*
*Daughter*:
*I thought I had live my life long enough,*
*But I am still young*
*I wanted to be a good daughter,*
*But I already failed,*
*I still don't know life very well,*
*So I have lot of things I want to learn,*
*But when you just keep repeating the same words to me,*
*And I can't help but shut the door to my heart tighter,*
Mother:
*Go study!*
*Daughter*:
*I also know that's important too*.
*Mother*:
*Be sincere*.
*Daughter*:
*Can't you see I am trying?*
*Mother*:
*Love*.
*Daughter*:
*But I don't want to get hurt anymore.*
*Let me live my own life*.
*I hammer your heart.*
*Everytime I make small or big mistakes*
*You, thus, still patch and stitch my torn clothes,*
*With your punctured heart and hands,*
*You would listen to me and say "It's alright. "*
*But do you know that my heart still not yet in peace,*
*You still hug me even though I am hateable,*
*But I promise to be better next time,*
*Dear Mom,*
*Daughter*:
*Go study*.
*Mother*:
*No that's to basic*
*Daughter*:
*Be sincere.*
*Mother*:
*No, I can't do that either.*
*Daughter*:
*Love*.
*Mother*:
*No, that's also difficult.*
*Just live the life the way you want.*
*Will you forgive me*
*For not being a good mother to you?*
*Can you promise me,*
*That you will be a better mother than me?*
*Daughter*:
*Even if you don't say that,*
*I know that you love me more than anyone else,*
*So I confidently say that*
*It's my dream to be a great mother like you*
*Even if you don't say that,*
*I know that you love me more than anyone else,*
*So I confidently say that,*
*It's my dream to make you happy.*
P.S
I just really want to share this video, so pardon this article.
I promise to make a good one next time. 😊
Thank you if you happened to finish reading this.
And it happened...The Escape
I don't want to talk about how depressing my situation was, as much as possible. But because of this emotions building up inside me, I can't write anything aside for this. I can't find a place where I can fully express my emotions. Read.cash. Aside from my family and friends, read.cash is a place where I am free to express every bit of my emotions. Here I am again, starting to express this lighter feelings I am feeling right now.
It was the darkest moment of my life, I can say. Continuous criticisms and judgements from people that made me feel small and worthless that leads me to this deep, and sorrowful emotions. I hate myself because of this. I let their harsh words come inside me and disturb my peace, silent, and strong mind. Now I can say I don't have strong mentality.
To end this hateful emotions, I did some stuff to distract and entertained me which I have mentioned from **my last article.** Its helpful for me. I am escaping the darkness slowly and surely and here I am getting better and better. https://read.cash/@JulyAnn/the-escape-plan-c8b0b3b8
Last August 21, the planned "gala" with my friends happened. Its a day far from toxicity and judgement of people. We spend the day with nature. We went to The Campsite located at Ligao City.
The means of transportation we used is tricycle. The road is quite steep so we walked for almost 30 mins more or less, before arriving at the exact place. We ate first at the nearest karinderya down the mountain. A simple tapsilog was served to fill our empty stomachs.
I am too focused with the little adventure I am experiencing that time that I forgot to take a pictures. A new environment fascinated me that cameras are not needed, I captured it with my eyes wide open. But still I have hear some photos.
Before arriving at the entrance, we walked through the man-made stairs. At the entrance we saw some for sale souvenirs like wallets, keychains, and other stuffs. We paid the entrance fee that is worth 30 pesos per person.
The weather that time is a bit cloudy in the morning that we can't see the Mt. Mayon.
You can see in the photo above that the tip of Mt. Mayon was covered with clouds. We decided to wait the Mt. Mayon to show itself. We find a spot where we can sit and rest for a bit while waiting and also roamed the area.
That "Kubo" is the entrance. I forgot to tell that before entering we filled up the log book for safety and protocol.
The Mt. Mayon is still shy and can't make itself seen. The weather became terrible as the time runs. But it doesn't stopped us to enjoy the view and the nature.
Campers are arriving one by one with their heavy backpacks. Some went to the trail and went for a hike. The campers are very friendly. Some offered us their foods. And some started a conversation with us.
At around 12 noon, the rain started to pour. We decided to stayed in one of the kubo waiting for the rain to stop.
While staying in the kubo, we kept on chatting none stop and sharing our troubles. We forgot to checked the time because we're to busy talking to each other.
Around 1 pm, the raind stopped a little, so we decided to continue our strolled.
This spot is nice for photos, but since I am not good at taking pictures, this is all I've got. We've seen this spot a lot in facebook and this spot is looked amazing and beautiful. I have fear in heights so I didn't tried this spot. I don't have the courage to climbed, so only them tried this. This should be nice only of I took a nice photo plus if Mt. Mayon is visible at the back.
I didn't take much photos using my phone. So I don't have anytjing to share. But this place is so beautiful and really must-visit, especially when you are fond of camping and hiking.
The weather doesn't stop us to enjoy the rest of the day. After The Campsite, we also went to Paayahayan. Entrance fee is only 25 pesos.
In Paayahayan, we saw different photos spot like the photo above.
This place is beautiful too. The place was full of greens and colorful flowers that really soothes my eyes.
If you are nature lover you will surely love these two place. Its very relaxing.
After Paayahayan, we planned to visit one place for going home which is the Hobbit Hill, but since we are too tired to walked, we decided not to went there and just to downtown, to eat and call it a day.
You can see in our faces that we're too tired yet we enjoyed the day.
Atleast for a day, we escaped from reality, the toxicity of people around us. This became my breather and for once I forgot all the negativity that surrounds me.
Tired but enjoy.
`P.S`
`Sorry for the low quality and few photos. I captured everything in my eyes.😁`
`The place is superb.`
The Escape Plan
Isn't the most easiest way to forget your problems is to escape? Escape from everything, even for a short while. For atleast you can freely breathe, you feel the freedom, be at peace for a while and most especially free from stress and toxicity of people round you.
Its quite long since I am struggling inside. I am bothered by these thoughts, emotions and feeling that keeps building up inside me. I am eager to escape and free myself from everything.
Its true. At the end of the day, the only person who can help you is only you, yourself.
I receieved lots of help and encouragement from my family and friends, and yet here I am still trap in the darkness of my own thoughts and emotions. I am mentally unstable, I know that and I know that only me can save myself from this darkness. My family and friends are only there to encourage and motivates me, but at the end, its still me and only me.
I let myself drown into darkness. For days I let myself be eaten by my thoughts and emotions. I have sleepless nights. I cried many times and that's enough. I don't want to trap myself longer. I need to escape. I must escape. To make it happen I need to do something.
So here's what I did and need to do:
✔️ **Watch Funny Videos**
For the time being, I stop myself watching dramas. There are dramas that can trigger my emotions. Instead of dramas, I engaged myself in watching funny videos in tiktok and youtube. We have this saying that "Laughter is the best Medicine" and its really work. Watching funny videos makes me forget what keeps me feeling down.
✔️ **Listening to Music Before Sleeping**
Music is the best therapy. Its been hard for me to fall asleep but through music, it drives me slowly into slumber. And in listening to music, it helps me focus my mind into the lyrics than overthinking things that I shouldn't have thinking.
✔️ **Reading**
Filling my mind or diverting my mind into other makes me feel lighter. Same in listening to music, reading before sleeping helps me to less overthink.
✔️ **Communicate with family/friends**
The best remedy in letting go of your troubled is to talk to your family or friends. Its good to speak your bottled emotions. I can't freely speak what I am feeling inside to my family, I only shared less and shared more to my friends. Its quite harder to find someone who can understand my trouble because some thinks I am being dramatic, but its such a blessing that their are few who are willing to listen and help. I find a few this weeks that why I am feeling better and better each day.
✔️ **Engage to Recreational Activity**
Instead of focusing myself to the gossip everywhere, I engage myself to reactional activity like biking. I go biking every afternoon when the sun set. Go to places where I can breathe, unwind and can't feel suffocated. Often times I went to friend's house and ask her to go biking with me. It helps me ease my mind.
✔️ **Have an Adventure/Visit Nice Places**
I haven't done this yet but my friends already plan a "gala" where we can unwind and forget. This "gala" will happen this Saturday. Healing together with nature is also one of the best therapy. I think I saw in tiktok or in facebook that spending time with trees can make you less feel stress, cause trees absorb the stress.
So these are what I do and need to do to escape what I am struggling about.
I am sure there are also like me who are stuggling inside. Its hard, I know. The darkness that envelopes our world slowly covering us up, but I hope you find your way to stop the darkness and slowly walk where the lights are. Lets help each other. Think that you are not the only one struggling. Think that we can escape this darkness. There are people who already escape and enjoying the life they have, and with that I know we can, we can enjoy our life again. Lets think our love ones who always there to support us and never leave us. Lets not this darkness swallow our life. Hold on. Trust and be Hopeful.
Life must go on.
Wait For The Right Time
Here I am, still struggling inside. But not as the same as the last article I made.
Tonight, I am feeling lighter than before. The gossip surfacing around about me and my family still circulating. It still echoes in my ears. Every words. Shoving it away isn't that easy, its a struggle, although many people said not to mind them. I can't simply ignore it. Its affecting me mentally and emotionally.
Its true. Words are sharper than knives. In just a single word, it can break, damage and destroy you. And I think even the strongest person can be swayed by a single word.
What is happening right now shows that I am weak and fragile. Running away was no good and so as ignoring. I need to face it, but how?
This is the first time I encounter such thing. Its breaking me slowly. I am acting tough and mighty but as soon as the night falls, tears slowly falling.
For nights, I looked for someone I can talk too. Someone who can understand me. Someone who can sympathize with me. I failed. They thought I am being dramatic. Is this kind of feeling an absurb? Why is no one care?
I am struggling on my own. I don't want my family to get involve. But when I can't handle it anymore I blurt it out in a not so obvious way. Luckily, their response are helpful. They made me happy, without knowing its all about me.
For days, I been searching for a friend who can sympathize with me. I talked to them. Have a conversation with them, until I open up this feelings and emotions building up inside me. To my surprise, I am not alone. I am not the only one who is struggling inside. I have friends who happened to know that I am facing. They experiencing exactly the same as me. Is this common to those unemployed? Receiving judgement and criticism without knowing anything?
Some people are so judgemental. They easily judge and criticize a person with even bother knowing his/her situation. But when they are the one whom you talk about you will be the bad guy.
Its really hard.
Tonight I talk to a friend. The very least friend whom I thought that would never understand my situation. During day I've been mentioning that I want to go biking, to unwind. That I am so stress. He wants to tag along but because of the bad weather he didn't show up while me end up visiting my friends and have we a long chat. It makes me forget for a while.
When I arrived at home he chatted me asking how's my day and if I go for a bike and so on. Our conversation last longer than I thought until he opened up that he sympathize with me. I am confuse of what he is saying but the he elaborate and talk more about what I am feeling.
Knowing he is willing to listen, I told him what makes me feel this way. He throws every encouraging words he knows. He motivate me. Every words he said soothes in my mind. He told me not to over think. That time will come it soon be my shining moment. Its wrong that I think of what others will say. That I should focus on my goals and enjoy the process of achieving it. I've been hearing this lots of times, it motivates me. It encourage me every time I hear this. It helps me a lot.
It makes me happy that there is a friend who can motivate and encourage you. Thats what makes me feel less problematic today.
Lesson from that friend of mine:
There's always be a right time to everyone. We just need to learn how to wait.
Don't compare your life to others, your life will be as wonderful as them.
Never underestimate your capabilities, you are skilled.
Be humble, ALWAYS.
ENJOY THE PROCESS, ENJOY LIFE.
These motivates me tonight. Hope this will continue. I will always think of all the positivity. Time will come it will be me. I will just wait for the perfect time.
Expressing My Inner Struggle
Hi. It's me, @JulyAnn .
Its been last 3 weeks since I last updated this account of mine, and it was a short post regards how thankful I am for receiving a sponsorship from @tired_momma .
I don't know if I am still welcome here or if there are people still reading my articles, and I hope they are.
I am not writing today to earn but to express my inner struggle. I hope, who ever read this can bare reading until the end or if not, its okay atleast I find a place where I can let go my thoughts. My thoughts aren't organize, I just wanted to write whatever comes to mind.
Imagine how my days passed since 3 weeks of not publishing an article. A day is such a long story to tell, what more with that 3 weeks.
I got busy processing my license, but failed to do so and other important documents. Why I didn't renew my license? I need to follow the said appointment. PRC is so unfair! I set an appointment early of July but get an schedule of renewing my license on November, while my friends who set late get an early appointment. Now, they already renewed their license and me needs to wait until November. I am so pissed off and I hate myself because I can't do anything about it. I NEED TO FOLLOW THE RULES.
I keep myself busy after that. Meet and enjoy friends company. While I do it, gossip about me and my family never stops. Its so stressful. Its so depressing. I am trying to ignore everything, but those gossips haunts me at night. I can't fall asleep. The words I've heard keeps running in my mind. It seems to me that are screaming in both my ears that keeps me awake. I hate it... so much.
Often times, at night I cried. Blaming myself. Pitying my parents. Asking why.
We were raised to be respectful, to treat people with respect, young and old. Sometimes I ask, do they deserve to be respected? We didn't do anything to them. We treat them nicely. We help them, and still this is all we got from them?
Right, as the saying goes, "Madaling maging tao, pero mahirap magpakatao."
I realize, that whatever kindness you show to people, if they don't like you, they still won't like you. I hate those people who doesn't know how to reciprocate the kindness and help we gave. They still have the guts to walked witj their chins up. Playing dumb as if they didn't do anything. Smiling broadly to us, saying their hellos and acting friendly in front of us, but when they turned their backs, their sinner mouth started to scream in whispers again. That buzzing sounds and murmurs I've heard everyday. That judging eyes that look at us everytime we pass by. Its annoying. Its drives my anger.
Good for them, we were raised to treat people nicely, either they are good or bad. Well, I believe in karma. God has His way. Maybe not now but someday. I will let Him decide to them.
For the last 3 weeks, I haven't sleep properly. I vented out my depression on our group chat with my elementary batchmates. I left. I want someone to talk too but I know there's no one who can understand me there, so I left.
Thank God readcash is here. This is the place where I can expressing my inner struggle. This happened before and here I am again, venting my stress and depression. I am having a hard time. Wearing a smiling mask to show I am okay but deep inside, I am struggling and I am tired. I am suffocated from this fake and toxic people. People who doesn't know what they are saying. People who are selfish, and judgemental.
I just wanted to tell that maybe you know me, but you didn't know my story.
Busy this past few days. I can't even make an article. Next time. I will rest first and make one after.
Kung may umalis, may dadating!
Thank you po @tired_momma sa sponsorship! Godbless po.
Kung may umalis, may dadating!
Thank you po @tired_momma sa sponsorship! Godbless po.
@JulyAnn
