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Get yourself protected please, at all cost! *I have been honest that I never liked children. Though I came to fall in love with my kids, it's because they are not like most children. They never run like other children. My eldest never cries not even when asking milk, so, I had it all convenient for me as they grow up. They're not typical kids.* I also talked and wrote about postpartum because it pays to understand it and the people suffering from it. However, it doesn’t negate the responsibilities of a mother towards herself and her child. Yes, we all get to dream of falling in love and living the dream. However, there are tag prices on everything we do! Unfortunately. Platonic love isn’t popular these days as it was before so, you might as well keep yourself protected, not just from pregnancy but also STDs, STIs, and all sorts of those, as they are rampant these days! As any social worker with puts it, being informed and prepared are the most weapons you have especially among women. If your guy didn’t use protection, then protect yourself from unnecessary worries. Pills, condoms, and other methods are available. Set aside morals since this is already by far an immoral act (lolz), bringing in a child out of the blue is something that should be thought about a lot of times. Getting pregnant is no longer an excuse because contraceptives are very much available to everyone. Of course, gone were the days when you can tie the guy down because you got yourself pregnant. I had uncles subjected to shotgun marriages for that, hayst! Though their marriage worked but it was just that. Sex is a consented act unless otherwise, that’s another case. But in most cases, it is. How would I put it in plain words? Love is not all the fairytales we watch as we grow up, only about 25% of it is “happily ever after”, I think 25% is actually high or it may be lower. Because if it was, there would be no heartbreaks and heartaches on both sides. Once you’ve gone there, it's there, and mind you it doesn’t happen once. It happens every time. Well, for our times, we never get it early, only for some few of us but mostly started late and even from our batch many are still single without children. Now, playing with fire is as early as 12, so I actually bombarded my son with “PROTECTION” if he ever started to engage in such. So, to scare him all the more, I share with him medical stories told by our private nurses during mama’s time. I painted a horror movie(s) every time we hit on the topic, just to super emphasize the need. It's not about getting your girl preggy but, the rampant unprotected orgies these days is just… So HIV stories are just common on hospital grounds. Stories like the medical workers were not aware that the patient is HIV positive and bleed out for no reason, unaware due to patient confidentiality, and later on discovered what the case was. Have to test themselves for HIV as they were exposed. Worst, the family of the patient is unaware of what is happening due to the confidentiality issue, has to be so worried about the patient and hands tied because they never know! I’m not sure how to call the above but it is certainly a medical emergency. Mental health is not the only thing that’s a concern here, contracting STDs/STIs are very rampant these days. HIV is just one case, another one to consider is cancer of the uterus bore out of STD/STI – HPV caused that already took lives including my friend – she never knew and she was clueless, and never got herself protected? Enough with the rant, let's just act and face all these because ranting won't do so much impact, acting on the problem does! You can act like you carry the world on your shoulders if you didn’t do anything about it. Enough with the drama, it doesn’t solve the current issue(s). Good with the Korean dramas, they have an ending unlike PINOY drama, just doesn’t seem to end no matter how obvious it is – keeps on dragging on every episode. Lolz. Seriously, getting informed of all the necessary info really helps. It doesn't matter if you don't talk about it, search the net and it provides you with the info you need! It's not that hard anymore unlike our times we need to thicken our face to ask lewd questions just to be informed. Yeah, you can secretly do the research these days - you can be quiet but well informed. Don't get me wrong! It's your life, you live it how it pleases you! Me, just sayin! August 16, 2022 Image: pinterest

The pact bore behind my back! *Wow! I eventually forgot to post this... It's been a while, June 2022? And yet, you lingered. I wonder, still, wonder. What're the keeps? Really, do you have to haunt us forever?* Not long ago! I saw you in my dreams, showing me your most beautiful smile… Thrice, you showed me your beautiful smile… telling me you are happy! And I wander what gives? Such happiness in your heart to be! The foundation of your happiness, the profound truth to be it hidden from me!   Then I awaken from the dream, didn’t I? For it felt so real in a surreal reality! The realm you’ve mastered and owned. The shadows again! Then live in shadows all you must, what’s the connection for? A drama that fate has for us? Oh please… Oh! Before July ends... you showed yourself again, riding your bike like you always do! Following me, chasing every bit of me, untiringly! And it truly gives you the pleasure of doing such while I'm becoming wary and anxious... That until when must we be relentless in this pursuit. Little did I know, you forged an allegiance with my soldiers behind my back! The cunningness left me at awe and there is nothing I can do but sigh! For the allegiance, the pack requires loyalty and it had run deep into my soldier's consciousness! They're happy whenever we talked about you, expecting so much yet you were never really visible. I said, "someone took my heart away!". Kuya said "meh!". Wow! That's just how they liked you and the expectations is so great that I don't know how to go about it. I am more anxious now than before because of this expectation. Ha! I could only hope all ends well for all of us! You have integrated into our lives without us knowing it. Acknowledging your presence even if you were unseen. In your invisibility, comes the mystery of the unknown. While I have become too anxious for this, while the kids, anticipating, hopefully not in horror! Oh! So much trust they have in you. Their faith is truly at the levels I do not know how it came to be! Bore out of your spell, captivating them more in the passage of time. The more you linger, the more they adore you. In your patience, you have won them over, while I have always known and am bound to lose to your undaunted will. You binded them under your will, -at your command. They'll follow you undauntedly, to even give them their trust like you will never hurt them. That has me on the edge! Leaving me to overthink about all these! While you are happily satisfied with all these, my anxiousness has grown beyond expected. What the future holds? I no longer know. I am leaving it to you for you know better than just an afterthought. Life is never limitless, everything is bound to end. For our story to tell? I do not even know how to start. When it has started and we have become like this. Now seems that the packed has tangled so much in their well-being and yours as well. And there is nothing much I can do but sigh, wait and see until all coasts are clear! Waiting for the bomb to explode, hopefully in silence or in a beautiful explosion. You took your time to tame me into your liking and I am not sure how this is going to end for time is not all ours but this is only temporary! I've known it since I was left to see myself ill. Amidst all this, in time I know will reveal. The trueness of your intents and cunningness to be! August 12, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Radish and Cucumber in a mix! *If there could be the best replacement for “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”, it’d be the popular Chinese proverb, “eating pungent radish and drinking hot tea lets the starved doctors beg on their knees.”* https://everythingradish.com/tag/radish-daikon/ Locally, an apple can be bought as cheap as Php10 at carbon market, granting you’re a bit as frugal as me. I would have grown an apple if it will bear fruit with our climate but it's impossible. I have never imagined that time will come when my body really rejects food. Literally, I vomited what I ate that afternoon and I couldn’t eat anymore what I had prepared. And since then, I have been losing appetite. Either I only eat fish meat and no more rice or just plainly banana for the whole day. How convenient. Experiencing eating only crackers for the whole day because I was afraid of the consequences of eating otherwise was really a scare. Now, I’ve learned to eat radish drenched in a salad together with my tuna. I don’t mind eating the same for a week. Then I came to explore combining cucumbers into the salad. I was a bit odd but refreshing though since it adds sweetness to the cruchy, pungent tastes of the radishes. I have been eating the same recipes but I have to put something new on the plate else my sons will be bored. Potassium is a great ingredient that I need in my diet these days! From banana to tuna then radish. Cucumber just happens to be an easy alternative that’s good to the taste especially when eaten raw. I wanted to add lettuce but it deteriorates when not placed on a fridge, so planned to plant them instead since I have the space. Eating radish presents a good alternative to eating these days. I just really need to know what and how I wanted it mixed with so it will be better on the palate. Lesser cucumber makes it tasty though not so sweet is what I prefer to my taste! While radish does with its fiber, it sustains me the whole day without really the need to eat rice. I’d like to take on potatoes but still on the board as I am really trying hard to grow them instead. Lolz. Hopefully to be able to confidently make some mashed potato as the season ends and grow some too! It’ll be a great addition and achievement in the end! In the end, the radish alternative helps me lose weight about 5 Kilos in 2 weeks and hoping for good results in the long run. Eating radish feels like my body is reaping the fats and some shreds of my body. And I do want to feel the changes in time, especially in losing weight. It's not really because of its physical visual but because it's removing the toxins in my body. August 11, 2022 Image: pinterest

The rain that conquers and captivates... The week is long and longer as rain continues to pour, ceaselessly. At 1st I was grateful because I couldn’t water due to my illness but the weather has become so cold as it continues to rain this weekend. Feng shui. I have tried to integrate feng shui into our home, especially on the location of the plants. To best suit our needs and security. And discovering that cactus and succulents should be located far left, well, of course, I am transferring them on the rooftop, -far left! Still not done with the transfer as there are still some left. According to feng shui, there is no problem keeping the plants almost everywhere but the spikes of the cactus are like a thousand needles, best if they will be relocated somewhere where it can provide protection to the family and don’t interrupt the flow of wellness, thus, far left. My addition to the collection are the orchids, as I have longed to integrate them into my garden. Luckily I can place them anywhere in the house especially the brightly colored ones! Right now, I can only afford keikis of dendrobiums and vandas, I decided to place them on the stairs going rooftop. Though not yet permanent but already have them on their soil mix, cocopeat with charcoal and eggshells, hopefully when the mesh wires arrive, I will be able to complete all and make the orchid tower. I do plan to add some more to the collection, slowly while I am still trying hard and adjusting to my current scenario. Oh! The grapes, a pair, is one of the good addition I have. Planning to prune them short so they will be dwarfed. Oh! How I would love to pick and feast on the harvest soon! While the lemon seems to love flowering, placing new fruit display on its little and tiny limbs because they are dwarfed. While the strawberries kept on producing some runs making it an all-time high, 10 runners and on the counting. The rain sustained them and now encouraged more to grow. The cucumbers have 2 fruit displays which I am just as glad as anyone else, at least I get to see them flaunt their assets. While tomato seedlings were transplanted successfully into the box I prepared. Sayote seedling is flourishing but still reluctant, hopefully, this time. I picked up some bitter gourd seeds from the neighbors so I get to plant them on the roof deck. While the portulaca just flowers especially the pink ones, prominently. While I have whites and yellow colors in addition, plus a white/pink that I picked from somewhere. Hoping to make the scene more lively than ever. The hydrangea seems to like to flower as well, and I’m glad that they are a good addition to the flora above. I’m just really waiting for cymbidium to flower too, not the hybrid type though. There are some succulents really looking forward for a real good bloom, the month of august is truly a blooming month I should say! Hmmm, the aloes are flourishing together with the stinkies, while the strings of banana is also flowering. Supposed to be its 2nd flower but the workers dropped it and it destroyed it. I was just glad that it didn’t stunned the flowering but it flourished instead, now shy in showing me their flowers! Oh! I have some few additions in the coming seasons, so, this is it for now and til the next update. Thank u for taking the journey with me! August 08, 2022 Images: mine

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Slacking… *Oh, my heart! All test results are negative for any indication of… Perhaps it reached its peak that it no longer works properly? It reached a working limit that resuscitating it has to be done so to make it functional.* Ok fine, all our activities really had slacked off since the pandemic! I mean, with the lockdowns. I no longer have to exert waves of effort to drag myself from work to school bus for my children, in and out, barely had rest for the next shift. Yes, that was the paradigm shift. All the more now, we are living in the city where the school is already a 10minutes walk from home, pretty convenient since the home is accessible to everything I can think of. And most importantly, my kids are bigger now. So, I get to calm down more often than I used to before. So I slacked on my activities and my son used an app so I can monitor my movements and steps! A project we undertook to counter the heart illness. And it's been months and doesn’t have the hang of it yet. Just this week, my BP was ok but my heart rate was rather in a race with I don’t know who. The next day, the race was done, it want to rest! OMG! True, my body hasn’t adapted well to all of this. Still brand new! I get to retain my garden and it's in full force. I have several addition and I will be showing them the next time, a full article about them. For a straight months our source of protein comes from fish. It’s good but sometimes, it’s tiry. Lolz. While the radish/cucumber salad has been present, I believe radish had melted some of the causes of the clogs in my blood but I’m afraid it's not enough to revamp my system. Walking. Well the greatest part of my movement comes from walking and I’m not really sure if I have slacked off but here are the figures. And all of this does not include the times I don’t bring my CP to record my steps. I slacked off last April but wow! July. It’s the usual walk, home and a bit of the lap, a block adjacent to our building since its pretty nice to spend some walking time. Pretty huge for the rounds and the crowd isn’t unruly. Nothing disturbs the fun walk while our security officers can actually monitor us as our vehicle is parked somewhere there. So security isn’t an issue! The week has been rainy, which posts a lot of days slacking off walking but gardening has been well attended but doesn’t have my phone to track the steps I take. Hopefully to be back on track next week. August 7, 2022 Image: Pinterest

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Never Panic! *All I know is that… keep your presence of mind, it’s the only thing that you can count on. The only reliable tool you’ll ever have in the midst of things. When everything is all done for, keep your presence of mind…* Don’t panic when the world seems to turn 360 degrees… It’s not on your mind, your body is undergoing some changes. Trying to restart your body as an emergency event, trying to save your life! Be alert and keep in mind to be conscious and be careful, don’t allow yourself to fall, else, all effort will be in vain. Don’t panic when your body rejects all the food and vomits it all out. Same, it’s your body’s defense mechanism in saving your life. Let it out and think of going to the hospital to help you go about it. Don’t panic when heart rate hits 110 pulse/second… and if it continues to increase, think! What you did wrong, don’t panic. Of all the time, now is never the time to panic but find resolution so your heart will stop pounding in. Drink heart medz, and never forget. Because once you forget, oh, it’s a disaster. Don’t panic when BP hit 93/38, the pulse rate 58. You might as well do something to keep that heart pumping, in my case I drank cola. It normalizes after an hour or two. Don’t panic, when you crossed the street and some misguided motorcycle driver pops out in the middle of nowhere and rain is just everywhere. Yes, keep in mind not to be caught in the recklessness, your life is on the line! Don’t panic when you only have a few cents in your pocket! Remember, the job is there and the paycheck will be out in the next few days! All will be good, better focus on to better your work instead of worrying it will only bring on unnecessary depression. There is a lot that you can do, less panic, lesser disaster! Remember to breathe in and out, then think. Think of ways out of the struggle. Find ways and never give up until you reached the goal. And in the midst of all these, there is always a small voice that guides you through the struggle! Pray, for it is one of the besties you have in the midst of all these. You’ll find the strength you never thought you had and endurance too! Happy weekend! August 6, 2022 Image: pinterest

Let’s help each other grow in this little community! Let’s expand and mutate, together shall we? *Another article I’ve been meaning to write is writing tips. I’m not an expert but I know grammar well enough to at least give a tip or two. I’m old school, was trained to do grammar in the old days, with no shortcuts. I’m not the best in our class in craft neither am I the least, but I assure you I can compete well.* Really, don’t get me wrong. If I came out strong sorry, I only mean to help by giving tips. If it helps, then good! If not, I’m sorry. I am pretty straightforward with my approach because I really don’t like my sons to be going back and forth over again. I’m the one sweep kind. I taught them how to read myself and they’re good at it. Confident enough that simple instructions to do online transactions like purchasing at this age is easy, -grocery items and household things by themselves. **Will try to simplify.** **Review**. Everyone hates a review. Me? Hahaha! All the more. I am not the kind to make edits, like my friend would say, “wlay editay!” (no edits). I am not really apt for the challenge since I haven’t written for a while and only into writing for 10 months, so I need to re-hone the skill. What I am saying is simple. As long as basic grammar holds, be it. No need to pressure or push yourself, this is writing and you’re practicing. Take it and leave the rest. **Write every day!** Focus on a topic. It’s easy to deviate and be lost in thoughts. Since you are a real, real beginner, then focus on simple subjects. Before we were encouraged to write a journal, begin the journey from there and you will see a lot of improvement as you go along! **Grammarly.** If you choose to pace up, ok, download free Grammarly. This way, you can make edits on grammar, conveniently, and really helps. Been using grammarly for the edits but I'm vigilant, as my laziness really strikes all the time. There are loopholes in Grammarly, but let's focus on grammar for now. Don’t go for the premium, don’t waste money on this as you are still developing. And importantly, you will re-learn basic grammar along the way. This will pave the way for you to create a more complex article without you getting embarrassed by the corrections. Also, make a point that you’d learn. Oh! One more thing, not all Grammarly correction is coherent, it lacks this ability at some point that it losses its coherence along the way. COHERENCE, the quality of forming a unified whole. Sentence structure plus subject, object, and the focus of the story – content. https://www.google.com/search?q=coherence+meaning&rlz=1C1GCEU_enPH989PH989&oq=co&aqs=chrome.0.69i59l2j69i57j69i59j0i433i512j69i60l3.1287j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 **Re-read your short paragraphs.** This helps you think of the topic you want to share. And assess how far you have expressed your thoughts on the subject you chose. I encourage you to start with simple topics since you are still growing. I’d like people to grow with confidence rather than pace up and in the end, confidence is quite shaky! **Keep it simple.** The simpler, the better. Nothing complex especially with the vocabulary. The narrative is easy as this doesn’t drain much of your thinking power! Poetry is exhausting to the mind and emotions, plus the rhymes and words need a lot of work. You can work on synonyms/antonyms, with words it's easier but depends on your curiosity. So, go for a narrative. Perhaps you can start with movie/teleseries reviews the most often you’d watch. Or novel or comics review, if you were into gaming, sure thing. So, if you want to work on poetry… do explore but be warned, if you love to rhyme, vocabulary is a must. But you can always start simple, just focus on simple topics you want to keep. In time you re-read all your articles and you feel like you are articulate enough, they can move on to the next step. Complex topic. You will be ready for the integration of the research review and everything else on your plate. I really, hope this helps. ***Disclaimer:*** I am not aiming for you to be a content writer because I am far from that. I was never a content writer, as there are requirements for that which I am not familiar with. This is just writing practice to help improve grammar and topic development. What I am offering is you can improve on writing your thoughts then eventually you will learn anything you'd aim to learn, with due practice and diligence! August 5, 2022. Image: pinterest

The new kind of plagiarism During my years of studying, we were encouraged to read research papers as a guide to making ours. Though I have always heard of people hiring to make theirs we were poor and even if we can afford it, our pride had the best of us. So, not to buying and copying. I never expected it to be this rampant these days that even writing simple articles need to be plagiarized just for the sake of having an article. It's easy, just write. True, not everyone can write but during our time, those people who don’t write well are able to compose good articles as they were forced to make one else. It’s true, I for one was always forced to make scripts when I never like making one as I am more prose and reactions, narrative, never comical. Wow! New age really has its ways, always find the easy way round, thus, short cuts? If read.cash was already during my time, oh wow! I would have written all these years! Lolz. Then I just noticed, that plagiarism did evolve. It's not just mere content but ideas and even narratives, even presentations are now copied. How do I say it exactly?... hmmm… the content is the same but presented on a different scale. Wow! Like the sample, content about morals and someone read it and thought he can present a better idea, re-write as prose or anecdote then publish. Well, of course, with the help of Grammarly and other apps, well played! The audacity, and claim his artwork! I studied literature in college but I never encountered such in old days… there is a “re-written” version, “unabridged” but never this, especially on poetry and anecdotes. It’s mostly original. I guess old writers prided themselves on an all original composition at that time that their reputation as a writer is at stake and not to be trampled with… and now working on a publishing company, I hardly encounter anything like this. The same title yes, but the content is really different. While in novels, oh! Gosh… controversies surrounding a character portrayed as a thief of ideas and even identities. The horror of being labeled as a thief in a design competition is that one’s design is copied and even to the point stolen during the competition and one has to prove the design was yours. Oh! Yes… though, a designer from our batch started as a sketcher and submitted his designs which are really awesome but were under the label of one store because he was still starting in designs and didn’t mind at that time. Though it was not a thief and him exploited there wasn’t much he can do since he was just a newbie. It was a small exchange to be introduced to the world of designs while the skills are innate, he is confident to be able to make designs in time. Even novels. There are many very unique, Stephen King's books are quiet, Tolkien too! But there are spy novels that have become too all the same familiar novel written conspiracy theory stories that are really quite discouraging to read. Now, I am addicted to Chinese novels where the plots are almost ridiculously the same but I love their passion and couldn’t get the  Though this is nothing new still, the audacity. Well, I don’t know. Gone were the days when writers compete for attention and write more fiercely than ever so as to showcase their capacity and talent instead of plagiarizing?! Oh well, the taste and quality of life these days have become duller by the day. Or simply, preference. August 04, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Difference: Before and now... *Another month that ends… Starts with brand new beginnings and a very humbled one! Ahh! A blessing of good tidings and good fortune for my sponsors: @Telecharm, @IamJohn & @Wrinkle… and endearing health and wealth for your family. May the blessings from heaven open its doors for endless generosity and kindness, thank u so much for your undying support and friendship. I am not the kind who flaunts so much but this is appreciated, by my family thank u!* I love the passion that the new generation of boys and girls are showing. Their feistiness is undaunted. The idealism is relentless. Support system, hmmm, undoubting steadfast. But seemingly ungrounded! It's really good that they question almost everything in the world but for the lack of better judgment. Pampered? sheltered? I really don’t know. I'm not sure how to go about it but… the age now is really different. Before, the elders throw it at us as “age gap”, I really don’t know what it is called these days but, I would definitely not agree it's “age gap” because it’s the same stages. Though different in the degree of satisfaction, pain, and tolerance, definitely… Hmmm… like I was before, fighting for my independence! I shouted for FREEDOM at the age of 12, then, I was able to process papers on my own, enrolled myself for elementary and high school, and did a lot more mature chores that time. So much more of the menial task, preparing breakfast, lunch, and dinner, not for myself but for the entire family, 4 siblings, and parents, and hell, I can write a good reaction paper all in English minus grammarly! Lolz.   Now, my 12-year-old screamed independence at the age of 10 but doesn’t know how to go buy groceries at that time and do breakfast on their own?! Plus, cannot navigate the city heights and lows! Cannot even process my discharge papers in the hospital because!!! And I got a cry from him requesting to do this “I’m a MINOR!” hahahaha! Wow! This is how he screams for independence and doesn’t have the foundation! This got me thinking. Sorry, I’m not really the kind of mom who ties you down on my skirt for the rest of your life! Freedom, sure! Take it, its yours! And yet the surviving skills is really zero! Hahaha! oh! Really this got me crying! What an irony! So, if I dump them somewhere, I really don’t know. Too sheltered? Yeah! This is how I get a lot of growing adults these days! the screams on social media on the need to be recognized, with lots of identity crises along the way! Take note, sorry but reasoning skills are really quite flawed. I wouldn’t mind if reasoning skills was exceptionally good but, I’m sorry! Plus! They don’t accept mistakes? Like, what? Ungrounded! Then you get to question decency, morals, and etiquette. Whopps! Although, I cannot really take it that persons like Madonna posting on twitter or Instagram, is unimaginable. Im sorry, but gors should behave like gor and get to be gors gracefully instead of shaming the gors(elderly) society. Really, apologies for my fixations, its louder these days but… this is just how the young lose respect for the gor society. My apologies. One of the reasons why I enrolled my kids on public schools was to train them in the hard life. Sharing bad books, getting to repair dilapidated books, and returning them almost half new as the school ends. Wear embarrassing uniforms and fetch water from the ground floor up to the 4th because that’s just how the public school is. Then use yucky CR because of lack of everything else. They’re boys, it's really important for me to give them a good view of the reality of our society. And they got used to this and still lack the training of real life, as mentioned above, making me think about where and what did I miss? Sheltered? They’re not. I left them alone on my weekend hospital escapade and they’re good. On Philippine grounds. CAT and ROTC were already removed but what good will it do to our kids? Oh! A lot… I enumerate? Oh gosh! Wake up early in the morning to early shower, breakfast, prepare lunch baon, and go to school early. No shortcuts. Time management is at stake. Then has to fill out all the forms and has to face the gruesome strict teacher and be ready to be exposed to the heat of the sun because that is how soldiers are exposed. They will be trained to listen attentively, and learn to obey without question, -no buts and if, please! Importantly, develop their coping mechanism to counter adversary and toxic situations and be able to endure relentlessly! Not complain of the circumstance they’re in but develop resilience to preserver and cause change for adherence! This is how the current society is formed. Our part was to endure the dictates of time. Holding it up together to form new propaganda so the young ones will not endure but celebrate the opportunity we’ve channeled. Opportunities for them to grow more in spirit and in mind, hoping for a brighter future for them. We don’t have these opportunities before when we still dream of this. Now, it’s a reality that the new generation is enjoying.  But at the expense of degeneration of morals, decency… because we worked hard for the opportunities to come true and failed to see through our children the guidance they need to grow. Perhaps my generational failed so much in this aspect? Sad. August 2, 2022 Image:pinterest

A new month has begun: where did I end and how do I start? *Oh, July you’ve gone out too fast, now august is here! I am stuck at 63 ¾ kilos, what a pity. My condition stabilized after a month but still, there are some erratic moments. Truly it's not a comfort that my heart is the source of all these. Now my colleague joke about it on the floor and is true to the fact, that I didn’t take care of me for years! Still no regrets. I’m alive, that’s more important.* *Check up*. Now almost all colleagues who learned about my weekend escapade to the hospital are looking forward to having their check-ups too! Where insurance covers the expenses of the laboratories, while we await the results at least we no longer have to pay for the fees out of pockets because it's covered. Then relief can be felt after all the results come negative. I mean I have insurance I haven’t used for 10 years because I did have my check-ups back then. When all the luxury can be enjoyed for free, I might as well grab the opportunity, as them as well. We get to know early prognosis should there be some odd results and get better treatment for early detection. It's not all the time we are healthy you know, especially when we age. It's just really a matter of time. Due to wear and tear, everyone’s health really deteriorates, some fast others slow while few really crash dive with their health depending on the kind of abuse we do to our bodies. While I’m facing the dangers of genetic disorder but what can I do, it's given and expected. *Slacking* I’ve slacked off on our walks because I’m tired, I couldn’t go on further if my chest is already heavy. And so my son complained about my slacking. However, I told him we may not be walking alongside, I’m trying to walk again on the block I’m used to back at work. Where our security is visible and safe to walk around. At least I get to finish 2-3 laps as the week ends. My back hurts so I rest a lot. But I’m glad I’m able to walk the distance of 2-3K in a span of 30 minutes while I used to 5km back then before the incident. While I slacked off my walks, I paced up with my gardening as the roof deck is flourishing and I’d be working on the housing of some plants in the coming days. The strawberries really need to run if I were to enjoy a lot of fruits. The materials especially the soil mix has arrived and the wires will be available by then. There are some things I need to re-arrange to make it more efficient and effective as I really wanted to have a good ecosystem up there. While the birds are really enjoying most of the space up there, I too would love to enjoy the space and ambiance that’s created up the deck. It’s really refreshing to stay up there and I’d love to take my day sleep/nap there in the future. Food, I am still working on my food. I’m glad to add cucumber to my list of good things to have every week. I have to really cut the cravings for sweets. Oh! Sweet tongue is so ever good and missed it for a time. Hopefully, slowly but surely though I don’t have plans to eradicate it entirely. I just need to minimize it and so do the junkies! Lolz. August 1, 2022 Image: pinterest

A Colleague’s Plan I can Appreciate, especially the wedding… ODETTE, was one disaster we all have to endure together! From working after the typhoon, having all the debris around us. To the never ending line up for basic commodities including water and gas, was really exhausting. Then had to endure the inconvenience of a power outage that we were forced to retreat into seclusion in the building pantry nothing to do but wait. So, we were on it together! Little did I know that a colleague I just came to know was… He wasn’t silent but he was jolly around people and jokingly told stories about himself. I never knew all those stories he shared were real, nothing fantastic! One Friday, he immediately went home because of a family emergency! His father died, amidst all the disasters going on, and with covid crisis, yes! Then our friends, mostly the ones who knew him. All those jokes weren’t joked that I get to laugh at. When he told us he lined up for the water and do the manual laundry for his siblings, was all true. Last year, his father was hospitalized and he shouldered the cost of ICU for a month. Then I learned he was financing his younger siblings to school because his father could no longer provide, along with his other siblings. Then hospitalization costs plus then, his father’s funeral. Ahh! And he did all these! He was so busy and exhaustion was all over his face! Laban lang! Last month, he celebrated! They’re coming to terms, settling down! But according to myths, they will have to set the date for next year because his father just died. Hmm, setting goals, is really. We became his avid fans when setting expectations. Now, double his motivation to earn more because he wants to give his girlfriend a grand wedding. Making sure that he will be able to sustain the goal. His motivation is the love of his life! Made her photo available to his view right by his side whenever depression and frustration hit his moods and became irate all of the sudden! The wedding is not for a show for his relatives or hers but rather to show his dire commitment to settle in with her! Showing his commitment that he wants to spend his life with her and he is willing to cross hell for her. Well, I’m now part of their inner circle so he shared with us the goal. The car, the condo, the house, the wedding plus the colleges! Wow! All at the same time, I say! He said I'm managing it. And I get it, he got the motivation to do all these despite inflation. Working double to hit quota, his motivation plus us his other motivation and prayers he says! All these won’t fail, work for there is no time to slack! Now he is lecturing us! That before he experienced his father working payday-to-payday only to pay debts and incur another debt to live by another payday! Yes, it was so true because the opportunity before was not as promising as now I said. But he defended, that it’s something we all can learn and move on from there! Cut all those that were practiced and start making new practices from this point on! He defended more that the trauma of relatives taking advantage because they were poor. The ridicule and insults are thrown at their faces, worst they are relatives that were supposed to help in times of trouble but. Now, we get to live and change that outlook! After 8 years, they’re finally tying the knot forevermore! A garden wedding was planned because a beach wedding is a bit troublesome. Settling with something grand but less trouble is good enough, at least things will be smooth, and if rough, well they have together to overcome it. All hopes and madala ra kuno ug smile! Well, that’s a good way to start! Hearing all the expenses they’re undertaking, will not be easy but at least they have all their cards laid. Now til next year, time to earn and save up! I can appreciate that they truly had it planned. 8 years together is not easy and still have to wait another year before. I think it's all worth the wait, his more inspired and motivated as their piled up their years together! Well, all I can say is that they’ve grown as a couple. Just sharing, thanks for the read! July 31, 2022 Image: pinterest

Every day is a blessing, don’t forget! *Today has been 1 tiring day! Work has been as always intense, 9 hours. Looking forward to the immediate passage of time, can’t wait to go home and get some sleep. While excited over some activities today especially getting my son’s phone repaired and taking home some food our boss prepared for us – which I appreciate so much! I don’t have to cook today! Arggg…* I slept 3 hours and got up to motivate my sons to eat and off we go to have my boy’s cellphone repaired. Ah! Tiring! I’m getting older by the day and that traveling is too much for me especially when the weather is too hot or too humid and when the traffic hits the rush afternoon hours. I'm glad he got to accompany me again to buy some food and bought a few other things while having his phone repaired. I have some extra cash so we were able to have it repaired immediately, it's costly considering I’m on a tight budget. We didn’t have to get into line so it was immediately endorsed to the repairman. Then we go roam around buying some stuff we need, a new pair of slippers, food for the rest of the week, and some pots for my plants. Going home in hustle is again tiring and have to endure the congested street of people waiting for a ride and of course the traffic and its horrors! We got home exhausted but satisfied. We have everything we hoped for and we bought food instead of cooking since I was already tired from all the activity. Showered and then had early dinner, and my son told me to sleep in the living room so I get to sleep on his lap. But before that, I asked him if he would mind me planting waling-waling, he said, go plant! Hmmm, wow! I got the consent I needed without him knowing how pricey one waling-waling seedling costs, Php1500. Guess, they wouldn’t mind as long as I love doing it and I am happy! Then I feel into my enchanted sleep, thinking I will have another batch of the collection coming soon! Lolz. Sleep was very tight as I have to prep for work again! Did again my walk as my boy was complaining about me slacking on it, so I did my laps tonight only about 3 because I was already tired before going through the laps. Yet, I’m glad. The night I collected my prices for participating July journey to wellness and I finally have the tumbler I prayed for! And again Gift certificate, another groceries to look forward and a savings box! Truly indeed, every day is a blessing. Appreciating the smallest things we have to the ones that will really change our life is a blessing! Merely waking up every day is a blessing not everyone gets to enjoy as others had another kind of morning to look onto, eternity. While still grounded, appreciating life at most is something. Spending it with is another thing while the rest, all the material abundance is enticing! With today’s activities, yes indeed! A tiring but well-appreciated day! Of course, it rained a bit while I was already tired to water the plants. Indeed, He does look after you and our belongings – well taken cared of! Looking forward to another morning come by. Just sharing! Thanks for reading. July 30, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Relationships: Family that we hold dear! Important to us… *I’ve been meaning to write about this and most of the time it slips away! In general, I am very happy that in this part of the world, family is treasured! Let me get to the point, not faking it. I am not the type who adores my family because the scriptures say so! Or because in the eyes of everyone, I have to do it! It's more to that!* *Scriptures* There is a reason why the BIBLE had it as “honor your mother and your father”. I don’t have a good relationship with my father and I am not really familiar with the “implicated benefit of doing that”. However, I am very familiar with mom. If you want to live a long life with good and be blest in unique ways such as beloved wife, “deeply honor your mom!”. There are many ways of honoring our mom, different folks, different strokes… so, the more you serve your mom without… there are actually a lot of intricate things that happen that its really a long story. Serving her like a queen, perfectly, never to hold a grudge or so, protect her physically and even more! The perfect child proves to have good benefits. My friend, who recently died of cancer, served her mom the way she knows. Feeding her caprices and providing for her financially, and it returned to her hundred folds. She was lucky to migrate to AUSTRALIA without spending a cent and became a permanent resident there. Ah! Another friend, same, supported her mom and bought her a home. She has successfully immigrated to Australia and sustained her heart disease for 20 years. However, these girls are serving their moms for the love of her! Appreciate her without me telling them of the benefits it reaps. If you read the WORD of God, it unlocks a lot of mysteries and secrets that not everyone has the privilege of knowing. Take note, that serving your mom means giving your wholehearted attention, and everything else in this line, is that. Now that you know, you really cannot benefit from knowing now and change your ways of treating her! The way you treated her from the beginning is what’s inside your heart that no matter how much you’ll try to start from scratch without due repentance and whole-hearted change, will never suffice. You’ll only reap misery and disappointments. Your outlook in life matters! On one point there are superficial benefits though. If one has to treat their mom as mere supplication, sure. In general, longevity is one of the benefits. Not really a long long life but you come to age, not stop at 30. Reaching 40 is old enough, lolz. If you were curious enough, this is actually true to other culture in Asia, most especially Chinese. This is still very much in practice. *Tradition.* “I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN!”. Imagine you’re are a mom and be answered by your child that! I remembered our eldest answered this about 40 yrs ago! And sorry, I find this to be the greatest insult a mom will bear! It just nullifies the very existence of having a child! Now, I don’t want to dwell and name names for such! Opps! Children, our mom’s retirement plan! Ok! Other cultures throw this at every pinoys face who has no idea what our family means to us. Except of course those children who have been posting, proud to tell the world of the “pasan ko ang mundo” crap on social media (I bear the world on my shoulders). Argggg! So much drama! OMG! Sorry, but I’d like to slash a bit! NOBODY TOLD YOU SO! F***! But to many of those who never thought of it like that! Sorry! But our story is in-depth. Never once does hate dwell in our hearts. My mom never protected me from any adversaries, unlike my friends who were favorite child while I was treated like an adopted. My respect runs deep despite all the harshness in the world, I will still bring down heaven for my mom! Why? I really don’t know why! It hurts to see my mom cries, and panic when the money runs out and no more food on the table. It hurts knowing she has to face insults from other people because we were poor! It hurts whenever our father maltreats my mom or said something to malign her dignity! Ok! I can’t explain but that’s it. Providing for her was never intended, it was given! Out of the deepest respect for her! Now, other parents… yes! There are parents who made their children milking cows, and about half of them are! But, like I said there are exceptions, and what I’ve said as some of the exceptions is actually also half of the population too! So, when you decided to marry and have children, it's really your discretion if you would make your children your milking cow or not. Other cultures, which is why they strongly give independence at 18! *Benefits.* I’m not yet done with benefits. Taking care of my family has a lot of intrinsic benefits. Ok! Their presence may either be a nuisance or a blessing in disguise! But I’ll leave you to think about that. Imagine the world abandoning you. You are alone in your apartment 365 days a year and just work non-stop. The phone is super nice but doesn’t ring except for notifications from work. Your friends remember you when they have problems and you know the next lines, the typical ones. Some friends invite you over because they want to hang out and ended up paying all the bills or half but still end up alone in your house/home/apartment. Work can get depressing or stressful or if there was a promotion you’d like to celebrate but don’t have anyone to celebrate it with. Ok, making it short, life becomes a bore and lonely! Why’d you ask many go on trekking, tour around the world to fill that emptiness or the hallow there in between your chest! Sometimes that hallow hurts for no reason at all. Then you get sick, good if there was a friend who really cares! Good, if none, good luck! Alright. Then mom, siblings, or family, figures out to visit you. Hahaha! Surprisingly caught you in the middle of a storm, that literally turns your living room like everything is everywhere. Can relate? Or caught you drenched in a cold sweat because you got a fever or just really sick. Do you get where I’m getting? Ever heard of the phrase “family takes care of family”! yeah! It’s not an obligation nor responsibility but a deep feeling of the “NEED” to take care of family! There are really people who don’t understand it but for many, it’s a very strong foundation, to begin with. Why? **It's having someone there by your side without asking them to and stays!** And in the end, there is a sense of fulfillment in being able to do this. Quite satisfactory that no one can take away the bliss, it radiates to the soul. Why I’m happy? Well, there will be a lot of elderly in this part of the world who doesn’t end up at home for care and live with strangers! Is it positive? Yes! Because all of us grow old and one day, like me, perhaps my sons will let me live home with strangers or be happy that I’d look after their children! It’s a long shot but they’d rather keep me and continue to make them good home cook meals, for them and for my grandchildren! Thank u for reading, sorry for a long read. July 29, 2022 Image: pinterest

Eating right: substitute ingredients to suit needs I have joined our company’s July’s activity, the road to wellness just timely with my deteriorating health. I prepare food every day more cautiously now than before. Like I used to think eggs were harmless but ever since last June’s incident, I no longer make such unreliable presumptions. **Healthy options:** frugal to my pocket and nutritious. Some ingredients are immediately available from my garden that my pantry can’t provide. Fresh and potassium-rich ingredients that are good for my heart. Oh! Sharing it here the same! The ***local stew (utan bisaya)*** is the easiest and healthiest menu for many who suffer from highblood pressure because of the ingredients it has. However, my case is simply not highblood but my heart. So, I replaced most of the ingredients suited to my needs. I also consider the health benefits and food grade in making a recipe, such that there are people who could have allergic reactions to the ingredients I prepare. Like in the case of eggplant, it is known to trigger allergies so I decided not to include it on the menu. As I am known to have asthma, I wouldn’t take the risk this time. Squash is good but stew with squash only last short, some doesn’t last overnight, -it easily spoiled which is not good for my budget. Lolz. I substitute them with sayote, tuna, and spinach – all packed up with potassium good for my heart. Next is ***Kinilaw drenched in radish/cucumber salad***. It’s raw fish that I allowed my sons to eat on a daily basis. It’s dangerous because eating raw meat encourages parasites so I have to make sure that I have prepared fish meat, that is clean and safe enough to be eaten by my kids. Risking Anisakiasis (herring worm disease) an equivalent to tapeworm disease when eating raw beef, is something I cannot afford. I would like to enjoy a meal without worrying about side effects. This menu is already addictive, I might as well serve it right to their satisfaction. Especially mixed it with radish and now cucumber added to the mixture, it's surprisingly good with sweet-pungent-crunchy flavor that’s just perfect to our taste! As already mentioned, tuna is potassium rich good for my ailing heart with radish and cucumber that are highly nutritious in fiber and vitamins. Another recipe I had in mind is a bit tricky because, it’s the same almost raw, a side dish too that we all enjoy. Easily done because we have them in our garden. ***Bitter gourd salad.*** Slice the bitter gourd and just blanch it for minutes. Dried fish, cook it the usual, and remove. Mix the two, and pour in a small amount of vinegar with salt. And whola! Nice, tasty, crunchy bitter-gourd/dried fish salad. Hmmm… other things I have in mind but still the garden is very young and the ingredients are still growing. Hopefully next time a wide array of ingredients are available for a substitute! I want to learn and know my kitchen, especially at these difficult times, I really want to enjoy and savor a good meal without worrying so much about ingredients' costs. Substituting them with what is available is really something we can do and still be nutritious and delicious. Radish is a natural meat tenderizer, without a meat tenderizer, I can always substitute it with radish. Along with garlic, sayote and many really depends on your concept of cooking. The more array I will have in my garden, the better substitute I will have in the future. This is one of my healthy options covering frugality. What’s yours? If you might share, perhaps I can have another article like this to share with. Thank u for the read. July 28, 2022 Images: mine

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On Line Help! Being virtual these days has some proven benefits. I am always short of cash these days and it’s always good to have some help, especially at times of need without worrying about being denied. Right? Since I don’t have a credit card(s) as others rely on since those days, I have to rely on other easy options. Paying interest is what I prefer over destroying friendship over monetary disappointments after not being able to pay off debt or broken help promises. Online Loans/lending has been a good alternative I used as banks/coops take a lot of effort and time for approval while with Online Loans, having a good credit history is a guaranteed reloan. This is how I kept myself afloat these days without the necessary worries and anxieties which helps me relax and able to sleep at night and appreciate the peace of mind it gives. **Disclaimer:** *Please note that all these look forward to prompt payments. Prompt payment means good credit standing and an increased loanable amount per review. I won’t further delay but will be direct with my reviews. Proceed with caution as all these are based on personal experience, my experience may be different from yours. And all this will need requirements for approval before you can proceed. Minimum requirements: Valid ID (I used driver’s license), contact info, co-makers except for billease and gcash, proof of income.* ****Billease.**** The application took a whole 6 months before it was approved because my requirements were strictly flawed. Strict with the requirements but once approved, this is one helpful app, and been using this for almost 2 years now. Convenient and interest is okay, the payment term is 6 months the longer you stay. Easy reloan, 5 minutes to 30 based on experience, reloan is available only when outstanding is paid. Early payments for the outstanding are also allowed. Payments and disbursements are also flexible either through e-wallets, bank, or exchange – Palawan, MLhuiller, and the likes. Ah! Customer service is good, just inform them ahead that you will incur a delay in payment due to valid reasons. I experience delays, just hours on my due date and they did not charge. Five stars. **GCredit/Gloan.** With all the prequalifications, have yourself verified and apply for GCredit. This is good for making groceries (with lists of accredited stores) or online payments for SHOPPEE/Lazada. GLOAN, will be granted once you’re a tested gcredit/gsave user and is payable for 6 months, starting at 5K. Been using this for 2 years now. Tip: when paying, pay in advance so interest rates will be lowered. Five stars. ****Digido****. I’m only a user for months but interest rates aren’t bad or high but deduct the processing fee on the loanable amount. One bad thing is the term – 14 days. Reloan, disbursement, and payment are easy, same as above. Phone call follow-up is super annoying. Four-star. ****TALA.**** User for 2 months and already like this. The interest rate is good, not charging high, no hidden fees, and longer payment terms. I planned to retain this app once I stabilized because it's not like other apps that take advantage of interest rates. Reloan, disbursement, and payment are easy, same as above. Phone call follow-up is super annoying.  Five Star. ****OnLineLoans (OLP****). One of the 1st real online loans I’ve applied for. User for 4 months. High-interest rate, charging about 42%, from 7K I borrow I have to return 10K, payment terms are 30 days. One of the apps I planned not to keep, for now, yes until I am stable. Reloan, disbursement, and payment are easy, same as above. Phone call follow-up is super annoying.  Helpful but will only give it 2 stars. **MoneyCat.** Another 1st real online I joined and used for 4 months. Interest is higher than OLP considering the payment term is only 14 days, if I placed it for 30 days, I’d be paying higher. Will be kept but seldom use. ****MocaMoca****. Just recently joined and don’t be fooled by its advertisement, it's all sweet-tongue. It's never 5K for 1st loan or even 2nd. Oh! High charges, only showing interest rate but these are the fees they collected not mentioned on the ads: Account management fee, Platform Fee, and Credit Evaluation Fee (screenshot provided). So, in the end, only half of the loanable amount will go to you. Reloan, disbursement, and payment are easy as above.  So, 1 star. So expensive. Burying lenders further in debts, worst payable within 7 days ****FastCash.**** Recently joined because I have to accommodate my sister’s request to lend her money. So… Loanable amount is 3K, service charge is 750, interests rate is 285, and payable in 7 days. Screenshot provided. Same, very expensive about half is for the fees. So, 1 star. Considering all of the above are all collateral-free lending institutions, there are many that really works for me and many also have their own interest. And, please there are scammers too. I have no idea who are the scammers but I was told by my colleague, so be reminded.  I will post once I have the information. Choose wisely please. I’ve written this to help others who are in need and have no one else to turn to in times of need but always exercise caution to proceed. Thank u for reading. Hope this helps. July 27, 2022 Image: my own

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Project: Grow Food *I look forward for a good harvest. In the month, already have harvested 4 bitter gourds and that made me happy!* How do I say all these! I grow food with the intent of savings. And true to it, I invested on 20-peso bitter gourd and now harvesting some, almost sustained me whole week but I chose to give the 2 bitter gourds to a neighbor, hopefully to share the blessings I have received. However, I asked back the seeds so I can plant some more! Anyway, I am still expecting some bitter gourds on the way this week so there is plenty to feast on succeeding days, all I have to do is wait. Had anyone wonder why God specifically intended that one fruit contains a lot of seeds? Well, its simple. If it was easy to plant and harvest, then all of the plants we saw have grown and bear fruits. But no! A lot of people think that planting is easy. It’s actually very frustrating at times especially when they’re half way growing and all of the sudden, dies?! Oh! Disappointing isn’t it? Oh yes! It happened to me with my sayote or any plants, several times and just died. Now I’m growing it again, hopefully. Still crossing my fingers. One fruit bears a lot of seeds because we sow all of them and only ¼ of what we was sown lives and bears fruits, more than half of them dies! Then along the way, water/nutrition, heat, and attention could be factors of their surviving or not. Everything is actually intricate and depressing if you only think about it. But the gratification your likely to get out of all this is, exceptional. Imagine all of the hard work, persistence despite the stormy weather and heat, all at the same time and endure ridicule from other people who says otherwise. And successfully made it through the harvest. Sit and enjoy the harvest that finally came, is quite unimaginable. That starting again from scratch, is nothing from this point on. And will no longer buy food again, that supply will not run out just in case food will go scarce, especially with spices. In addition, I don’t have to go out just to buy food when supplies ran out from the pantry or simply look for alternatives that is readily available at the little garden. And I truly find it amazing. While still looking forward for cucumbers to finally bear fruit as they are flowering. I bought 5 strawberries and currently, runners are about 8, so from 5 I will be having 13 if all grows successfully. And in time, they bear fruit. Hopefully the runners will grow some more in time for their new home to arrive and settle in a spot allocated for them. The succulents on the other hand are bearing flowers. Slowly trying hard to get my attention by flowering each day as successfully as portulaca. Coming in the malunggay, as one stem is now flourishing with leaves. Spinach too started to compete with them as I am slowly harvesting some for a time now, part of my stew recipe. While mongo were sown purely intended to help with their nutrition since legumes produces nitrites, good as natural fertilizers for the surrounding plants. That’s the idea and its perfectly beneficial to all surrounding plants and I’m glad to sow them all in one place, they’re a bit crowded though! Now it got me thinking that I need some sprouts for a salad, so it best to keep the mongo available for the sprouts. Other beans are available too but still on their way, I’ve sown then late – they’re still to be awaken. While lemongrass has several on different location and the scallions and onions too, -can’t wait to see their flowers again. Ah! I planned to parade them on top of the wall but I still have to figure it out how. While the mint, oh, they easily sprouted this time and a lot of them already. Will be transplanting some for a refreshing air, they truly have good aroma! I’d like to put them on my veranda to scare away the mosquitos. Well, this is about today. Hopefully I can share more the next time for an update. Hopefully I can share some new add on to the collection. Hopefully you’ll share yours!  Thank u. July 26, 2022 Image: my own

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Keep believing, keeping the faith alive! *Another weekend to celebrate freedom! Unlimited sleep, that is! Yes! And yet, here comes service again! I haven’t joined or attended any services for a while now. Though nothing has changed but… I’d like to remind myself again, why FAITH is vital to us.* I really wonder what happened to faith? What has gone so wrong that it has become a cliché nowadays! Is it because it had gone to over scholarly that even logic nowadays failed to explain its existence? Its allegory has failed so much that it became archaic, almost like LATIN – dead? Too much apologetics that it confuses the founding profoundness of the liturgy? Parental guidance didn’t suffice many have gone astray including them? How sad can the world be without a glimpse of hope left in us amidst all these conditions we face? Every day we face the nonchalantly afraid someone is going to take advantage of the anxiety felt deep within. That we needed to hide everything inside, not even a glimpse is allowed. How tragic! That we cannot openly interact with people we care about because we are afraid of betrayal. May not be today, or tomorrow? Next month? Afraid of the concept of trusting because the heart is frail and is prone to be broken. Evolve into a concept of controlling the world within ours and if possible beyond ours! Happy are those who remain, resilient in the meaning of the WORD. Need not the explanation that founded the very church because we layman often concern ourselves on our daily mussing that is too simple that needed not any scholarly lectures. Nor do the services and their liturgy fail to connect with the very lives they serve. When it should have been plain and simple as Christ taught his disciples. Even Paul, his approach to teaching is simple and direct. His letters were never alluring but direct. How the church, trying hard to explain it scholarly but more often than not reach the heart and the soul of the laymen who yearn and long to strengthen their relationship with God. Because they focused too much on the allegory they want to create that the WORD is encoded and hard to crack. I am glad to outgrow that concept and never be betrayed again by being impressed with their superficial arguments. When it's really just that simple. Simple as praying to God and asking for His Grace in understanding His Word. Literally, “seek and you shall find”. A phrase I so cast for 5 years in His presence asking “who” the living witnesses that lived on today and lo, yes, finally I had my answer! Oh no! The Word of God is not dull as perceived. Not even allegorical and never a maze! Everything is written in the simplest and is very entertaining. Puzzles? Yes, for there are secrets and stories to be told. Like who is Lilith? Who is Enoch? Yes, ever true that the Word is LIVING for its lives. It is alive and full of life! Never had I been excited to know more now than ever as the adventure of CHRIST lives on! To this very day, the living witness(es) lives until his return. Oh! For 2000 years! I wander, about how he lived through… at this age, the internet? Oh! Is he exposed and does he continues to write? What does he write about these days? Waiting for his master to return is… a bliss I continue to rejoice because no other concrete proof of CHRIST’s existence but his living witness! Paul was a special vessel but he, Jesus loved to follow is alive and will be revealed when the prophecies are to culminate. I don’t know if I will live that day but it is already at hand! Oh! This is why I loved history and continue to love reading books… Oh! The stories I told my boys about angels and giants, I couldn’t be wrong now more than ever! Hmmm. Oh, Lord! Can I with magic? Hahaha! oh! Very most interesting, together with the demons and enchantments! Oh! All of these are true! But oh, how my body is frail! Just sharing! July 24, 2022 Image: Pinterest

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Reflections: Demeaning words… *Trash talks… I often heard my sons talk about the trash talking when playing Mobile Legends that they are either muted when reported or banned from the game. I play the game with them and certainly yes, I was trashed talked because I’m not really good and totally depend on this… this is just for the sake of playing with them.* Most often than not, those who do trash talks are the ones with mediocre skills to zero! That’s just a pure observation with me into the game. Unfortunately. My sons are top players in our place/location instead of talking back whenever I get trashed talk, they go for the kill and targeted the player who did the trash talking. Then explain after several kills, “you don’t get to trash talk my mom!”, “you like one-on-one, sure! Bring it on.” Then reading articles here, I do encounter writers with demeaning words only euphemized almost like undetected if you were not keen. I really wonder what motivates them to do such! I mean, my mom never get to talk “stupid, crazy, dumb, and the likes” while I was growing up. So I never get to practice demeaning words as I grow up while my kids limit those only when they’re on the game because they rationale it like “mami, it’s only a game, not the reality!”. Well, true as declared but… it got me thinking. My kids separate reality from virtual, after all, games are just games and that’s how virtual reality has become. Practice in a world where competition is ever true, especially in games. However, there comes some movement banning those who do trash talks amongst squads which I find good because it encourages teamwork, participation, encouragement, and motivation for many players in their journey in moving up from the ranks. A good support system for the gamers as they pursue their goals and enabling move up with resilience and in time be good squad leaders, -encouraging camaraderie, teamwork, and everything else it entails. What I do wander the most is the virtual is so competitive that you have to live in schematics to outsmart everyone else and end up? Even blogging? That writers come up with schemes to capture attention or draw the reader’s attention? Well, there is absolutely nothing wrong with it but how long could a writer keep it up? However, there are writers too, well established that they are comfortable expressing their minds, however, become demeaning in the long run. Forgetting that we are humans, that our biases, our fortunes/misfortune, mistakes, and the likes are a cosmic cycle for a reason. It is established to enable us to grow and since everyone is different, everyone’s learning cycle is also different so… Why call people stupid when they don’t learn it the 1st time? Why call them dumb when they are still coping up with the lesson they are learning! Yes, everyone seems to agree to be kind but kindness becomes secondary, while humility is only better said than done. People talks and writes about depression in their composition yet they call people stupid over spilled milk. I mean, what happens to kindness and humility? When simple things go wrong, you’re labeled dumb. When you are fat, you are labeled “pig, swine, and a lot more”. Shaming each other not just virtually but in reality, this is true. What gives them the right to judge people to commit the same mistake over and over again? I mean, they also commit mistakes, but not to this degree. I bet these people commit graver mistakes than this, only we don’t know that because they know better than to disclose! And write about people suffering from depression most of the time. How the world abounds those suffering in silence, alone in the dark, and everything else! And there too, one leading to another, ending up in suicide… and we talk about it like it is not the end of the world but yet we haven’t examined how we treat those people who suffer in silence? Quite an irony you think? I mean, like everyone is writing, you’ll never know someone is suffering until they talk about it? But yet uttering demeaning words in the heights of anger, doesn’t actually absolve you from committing the crime! Losing your presence of mind just because… you are angry, frustrated, and disappointed – is not reason enough! I hope you realize it now. I’m not saying you keep your cool, what I’m saying is that… hoping you’ll never get to experience someone making demeaning remarks on you over simple mistakes or grave mistakes. And it especially hurts the most when someone you love, told you that. Remember, we get to lose our presence of mind in the heights of emotions. Human as we are, we are all subject to that, no one is exempted! So be kind or humble? No, just realize that and you’ll not feel all that superior anymore! Don’t make excuses! Learn! July 22, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Writing for your interest or for an audience. While there are many writers on this platform who insist on writing consistently for an audience. I have another intention for this platform. This is the only writing avenue I have. It will be too hypocritical to claim I’m not here for the tips but that is only secondary to the 1st reason, which is to write. There is a great difference because while you write for an audience, there is a need to stimulate their interest to follow you while on the other hand, my interest in writing my thoughts that’s been accumulating in my head. To put it to rest by writing. The God series writing was really more of a convo until I put it into writing. Thus my reason to believe in writing. As you continue to stimulate interest from an audience, sometimes it drains you that makes you do a lot of things to the point of… writer’s block. Another disadvantage is that you struggle to keep up the interest of your audience so that writing no longer becomes fun and enjoyable. It’s one of the reasons why writing becomes dull as time goes by. Many writers undergo depression and a series of illnesses for the love of the craft, not realizing that writing is detrimental to their health. In history, there were many poets who wrote for the love of the craft. Though the “Thanatopsis” written by William Cullen never really pursued the craft, he was a lawyer and an editor. Hmm, John Keats, another poet I admired died young and was recognized as one of the greatest English writers never came to age because he died as early as 25. His writings were not as flourishing as he was around, but are immortalized when he was gone. So, the earnings, the royalties for his work? Where did it all go? Oh! Local writers suffering the same end? Graciano and Marcelo are two I am familiar of. Playwrights write for the interests of the aristocrats and the rich. Though Shakespeare is entirely on a different scale but still. They get the privilege and fame of being favored by someone who can afford to finance their play(s). But in the run, pressured to keep up making plays that interest the audience. It’s such dismay when a sponsor walks out in the middle of the play or becomes uninterested or offended. It’s like killing the play before it hits the stage. I didn’t believe I have it in me! To write because I never explore but I do enjoy reading history and literature for that matter. Now I am writing, it never crosses my mind to seek an audience because I don’t want to feel the pressure of writing to please an audience. I’d like to free write and don’t ridicule myself just to please an audience. Now, it's becoming alluring and famous to play the victim in their composition for an audience which I don’t find attractive and this theme is earning a lot. Though I have to admit that earning does help me a lot and I am grateful. For the 10 months here, I believe I have earned at least 2BCH which I cannot find somewhere else. It's already lucrative for me because all I do is contribute. And I am truly grateful. Staying here is very entertaining and keeping up with current events is truly amazing while many I find hilariously funny, entertaining. I am not really the kind to keep journals, so I write it down the most way I feel comfortable. Freely written not on the constraints within the norms of other writers. They have their own criteria. While I have my goals, enjoying, having fun and excitement are my goals while building a portfolio is the least of my concern. I am a nobody in real life, just trying to live as the day goes by! I am not into building an empire that only last while it lasts. I want to build connections that last a lifetime. Encouraging people to write with simplicity and in a time share their thoughts, share stories as we grow together on this platform. Thank u for the read! God bless. July 21, 2022 Image: pinterest

Marites ng buhay! Norms in life! *Whether we liked it or not, marites ng buhay is really part of our daily existence! Oh wow! Even wall street had them even from the time it was still growing. I mean, aren’t they the ones who spread unprecedented news about stocks going to fall or not? The ones that haven’t hit the news! Where do businessmen scout information relevant to investing? Do you think they will risk it without the information at hand? Oh! No one! Yeah! Narrow it today to ENews? What are they about? Aren’t they marites?* How foolish, for many trying hard to define the very existence of a marites! I mean, every now and then we talk about somebody else’s life! Me and my eldest, talk about the guy across the street flaunting his Chihuahuas right in front of our veranda. While we talk out loud about his dogs and all he can do is smile because he heard all of my descriptions about his dogs! And he has been doing that, flaunting his dogs every day, enjoying our talks about his dogs, while he smiles, I laughed out very loudly. I’m not afraid to be honest about it. I mean, why is it so hard to acknowledge that we sometimes if not often talk about another person’s life! It’s not that it’s a crime… We’re just plainly talking. Unless of course, you spread hellfire about him/her and all of it is not true and created a scandal for them… well, that’s beyond boundaries! You are definitely the kind who should know your limits and boundaries! The kind who creates malice and havoc on someone else and that's bad. I’m new to the neighborhood but people seem to know me and my boys! I don’t really mind, at least I don’t have to introduce myself and do a lot of explaining! And we are no longer treated as strangers and sometimes I may not like it but feel like we are close, which is not very good for me! Our official marites in the neighborhood, her name is Ate Bilma… is a kind of marites that when you ask for a reference, she can give you one good reference! Like last week, someone asked for the location of a doctor who can help them with a medical certificate, and our place was given as the reference. So I happily pointed him in Ate Bilma’s direction because I am confident she can answer the question, which she did! Isn’t that amazing! For someone who knows everyone in the neighborhood and who can easily identify strangers, that poses danger to our kids! I can appreciate this kind of marites and am glad to have her in our lives! Honestly, yes! I am not really the kind who judges people, just take them as they are and appreciate the worst in them even if it means the worst of them. I mean, I am human too, not void of emotions and prone to mistakes. I can be foolish at times and make stupid decisions, which doesn’t make me unworthy! It’s a matter of accepting our flaws and living with it. Change for the betterment of our lives and learn from it. Judging these people doesn’t make us saints, just because we know how to write and got a better life than theirs, doesn’t qualify us to make a judgment. You’ll never really know, when the time comes, they’re the ones who extend help at times you need it the most! And the most discriminated people in society! Not that I am encouraging but you see, live your life and they live theirs. Those being labeled or named as Marites, in my neighborhood, acknowledge it and don’t get mad or disappointed. I mean, it’s really a matter of acknowledging and knowing what you made of, makes up your confidence! Denying, masking, giving the “best foot forward”, pretending something you are not, hypocrisy, false pretense, is really a misconception because, in the end, you are the only one who suffers from all these! Why? Because, you’re putting up lies to cover your pretense, and all those lies piles up until you “the inner self” can no longer cope, so everything collapses! Haven’t you thought about it? It's a simple reflection on how you view life and yourself! A simple retrospection that nothing about your life needs to be covered up, not even your own happiness! That’s why we are all messed up because… we don’t acknowledge ourselves and try to live in someone else's shoes, in all those pretenses! In the end, we still get to ask ourselves “why” when all we needed to do was simple. Trying to live a movie-like life? Hahaha! How pitiful! hey! You watch too much t.v. You know, these marites… often helpful sometimes in giving references, what do you think journalists are for? They’re one of the greatest marites of all times, the sources they have collected over the years! OMG! How’d you think the news was formed? They are marites themselves, they’re just paid and sosyal because of the title “journalist!”. You think! ??? Now, you think highly of yourself, yet there are a lot of things you don't acknowledge! I mean, what do you get in pleasing other people? Do you think you get connections because of that? Hmmm… most connections I know that last a lifetime, are built on character! July 20, 2022 Image: pinterest

Misconceptions: Marriage, is a bed of roses but don’t forget the thorns on roses! Days back I’ve mentioned about “God cementing marriage bonds, lasts for a lifetime.” Please don’t… don’t misunderstand. Marriage is really hell and God cementing is really something. Imagine, you’d be spending the whole what, 20-40 years together? Like you are still 25 years old and committed your lifetime ‘til 60 with him? Really think so? Disney already romanticized marriage, and the happy-ever-after bond, from old times “Cinderella” to “Beauty and the Beast” to “Little Mermaid” to “Snowhite and the Seven Dwarfs”, and so much more stories! All the flowery things and the butterflies but we tend to forget the other side of the coin, the thorns in it. Like, all the sough-out for “knight and shining armor”, handsome and with all the pre-qualifications a maiden or a lad who have for a wife or a husband. Hmmm… I even see a lot of qualifiers for them to date a guy/lass but… Really? Are you sure, they are not the like who like that “closet king/queen”? Hiding the darkest secret in their closet and letting it all out in the safety net of “Marriage”. Ok, fine. Let's make it simple. Most of the people I talked about, that marriage is only good for the 1st 7yrs then struggle after that. Of course, they say, honeymoon lasts that long then it all sinks in, the habits, mindset emerges then all of the sudden you feel like the spark is no longer there and the only thing that binds are the children! Think! Why do you think an increasing number of couples separating? Increased number of broken homes and divorces, each year is climbing? Then live-in concepts came about to try and test the relationship if it worked out or not? Try it out for a few years and let’s cross the bridge together when it's there! You sure, prayed together that you have to spend a lot for a wedding ceremony? A 1-day event and spends the rest of the years paying out the debts. Oh! Like I hear that wedding dresses in the US are like 13K worth of a dress only to be worn that day! Locally? Oh no! And again, “reason it as a once-in-a-lifetime event”? Wedding Ceremonies are truly expensive since it has been romanticized and lived like fairy tale stories to be told by many. Professing your love to the one and only but forgetting that marriage has a lot of tomorrows and futures. Well, good if you really can afford but what about those… Like few months after marriage, it's still ok until you will start paying off the debts and unexpected things happen leading to fluctuating moods and to arguments to fights. And lo! Right now, everything is expensive! God never wants to see us suffer but because of pride and whatever that is, we show off to everyone that we can afford? And then, we find that befitting and reason it that involves God in it. But in reality, professing your love needs to be just simple. No requisites and qualifications, and God’s idea of cementing it for the couple to pray together and live to have God as the center of their lives. How can He be the center of your lives if most of your lives you are both busy working overtime to cope with the finances to pay off all the incurred expenses? Barely have time to be together as the bills come heavy every month plus, the coming baby? Funny, our idea of life seems to be different from His views. When He has been encouraging us to be humble in our ways and yet. Although true, in Abraham’s time he was rich as his faith has been blest by God for being faithful that his flocks doubled in time. True, God provides. But, the way you are expressing how your days, weeks, and months has been, planning for a perfect wedding has given you all the stress and all the more when the bill comes, -all the other incurred expenses. Really? And the relatives demanding over a lot of things, coming from the entourage to the venue to giveaways? Oh! If you truly believe God wants to give you a grand wedding… Yes, it will happen. However, with the circumstance today, He’d rather give you a frugal wedding but a very memorable one! However? If you prayed enough together, oh! Unbelievable things happen. That everything you need will be all provided and that you won’t need to spend a lot because you’d be surprised that a friend volunteer for a photoshoot and video. A friend will recommend a very nice venue, half the price, and the food is just heavenly. Haven't heard of stories like this one, right? Oh! There are a few untold stories I have witnessed. Simply because a few stories were shared a lot about the heavy expenses incurred and wedding stress… No, there are several happily-ever-after-stories had happened. That started from their wedding ceremony to wake up daily together until forever, as they all lifted it to God. Have you heard of a husband or wife who died just a few days, weeks, or months after the other half died because of grief? It's simply because life is too lonely without the other! That is how it is cemented, a heart that beats as one! July 19, 2022 Image: pinterest

Where is your God? A conversation I imagine would happen *God immediately comes to our thoughts whenever convenient for us? Hmmm… if He was to respond, I wonder how it would be?* ***A Conversation with God*** Hello, it’s the weekend again! How was your week? Fine. So, tomorrow is another Sunday… Would you be attending service again? Shall we meet again there? Or would you be busy with song and praises, the offertory? Seriously? Or would you drop by to show off your newly bought car, dressed with gold hoping to impress everyone but Me? Hmmm… To what do I owe the pleasure of you looking for Me? I have been around for ages, sitting on my thrown they say doing nothing but wait for your call! You call my attention to consult with me? Oh, wow! I’m happy you called for you have been away this entire time and I have been looking forward this whole time. So! What do you have to consult with me? Regarding the cries of my creation? Suffering they say? Untold stories of victims of all sorts? Oh my! My heart bleeds seeing them suffer. Unfortunately, they build walls that my army tried to shatter! I give them my WORD but they refused my instructions. I give my son, they nailed Him to the cross because they didn’t want to listen. My son sent the Holy Spirit for their comfort, but refuse homage because they know better! I tried reaching out to you in ways you cannot imagine. The prophets and even I gave you kings as requested, but… none were effective! You built temples of gods like BAAL and gave them offerings instead to me. Now you are asking me where have I been? I already told you! I am a jealous God! And your choice to give song and praises to other gods, not me! And here you are, asking me where have I been? Have they stopped the storm that dropped by your village? Had they stopped the chaos they started themselves? No more killings? Famine? And confusion? Oh no! You weren’t informed? The moment you give your offerings to them, they will be asking for more! More and more each time, and lastly, demanding for your breath and love ones too! In exchange for the riches, it offers. I am the only ONE who only asks for your time, to let me accompany you in your daily musings and journey! That along the way when you’re tired, I can carry your burden for you! Protect you from everything especially your weary heart that wanders all the time. Provides you with strength that moves mountains. But… You choose them over me? What is so good with Athena, Zeus, and Aphrodite? Haven’t they wreaked havoc on TROY and Greece? Tore apart city to city until none is left? You build temples for them made of IVORY but were torn apart for what? War? I would have blest ROME, as Rome empowers my believers. Yet, Rome betrayed them… infiltrating the gods that were supposed to be just Me! So Rome has been torn apart into pieces! Back in the early times? Babel! Oh! Babel… how they want to reach my humble abode, praised Baal for their greatness… True, the most heavenly hanging gardens of Babel that even to this time, are unmatched. But where is Babel now? Not even dust can be traced only written in the books that are almost gone now! My Son taught you how to pray! But have you made use of it? He taught you how to stop storms and heal diseases! Oh, you have forgotten? Well, you have my WORD to remind you how! You have not read? Hmmm… Oh! The wander of these gods, now trying to stop storms and heal diseases but only to find out, they were never healed. Just suppressed and relapsed, -deadlier than before! I have always asked not to defile your body, for it is sacred. Now, you cry out loud for the bastards you gave birth to! The anger brought by betrayal and mistrust! You lost yourself in a night of ecstasy and subjected to your orgy needs, only to wake up months later suffering unbearable pain and even death! And you asked where have I been? I honestly cannot help but watch you destroy your life! I cannot help you either for you have kept me at bay! At moments you ask me for help and yet demanded an instant reply. I am truly sorry I don’t have a messenger here in my home, I tried to help and sent my army… But! It took Gabriel to reach Daniel 21 days, with the help of Michael against the Prince of Persia and this is Daniel fasting for 3 whole weeks. And Daniel is one of my valued men! Please, have patience. For the gods at odds against have built strongholds with your offerings and sacrifices, most especially when you give life offerings to them! What is a war for? A sacrifice to the gods! Enforcing their strongholds. Now, it had become alarming! Babies are aborted due for all the reasons in the world, crimes and killings are all too immensely building up their stronghold on mankind. I am not quick to judge for I have tried and appealed to you all the time, waiting for you to receive my Grace. That is why I have left my WORD for all time so when you finally decided to rekindle our relationship. When you have finally gone tired of all this and seek my warmth and contentment… Who am I to refuse? When it will be the most awaited journey of all time that I have waited for so long! That every soul that reaches out, my angels celebrate! Waiting… here, just waiting…  July 16, 2022 Image: pinterest

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Overseer: Rules stubbornly neglected! *Don’t overthink. Simply because you don’t believe in FAITH while I do, I care to intrude on your life’s basic beliefs. No! I care less about your disposition in life nor do I care about an argument or the likes. Let’s not waste our energy and continue to focus on what matters to us the most! Don’t think too highly of yourself! The world has become too overcrowded for the likes of us! Hypocrisy is just too all overbearing! Let's get real.* **An ode…** To be your overseer for all ages is my pleasure! I created you for the likes of me and gave you Earth for you to rule but… you gave it away. I placed you above the angels I created, you as my companion while they - my messenger, my army. Supposed to assist you in every way but you distance yourself from Me. How am I supposed to help you then? Have you heard stories, of angels helping people? Oh yes! They pray. I have given you Rules to help you navigate the world. Let’s disregard the most important, 1st and 2nd, just the rest of it. And now, your cries are even louder about you being coveted? Deceived and betrayed by people you loved and trusted in broad daylight. When I gave you all these rules to help you live in harmony, disregarded them for all time. But your pleas and cries have become louder by the day – almost screaming with anger in your hearts! Oh! How I loved you! I have given you my Son… But you have advertently denied and refused Him to let in your life because… but still, I am hearing all your cries of pain and suffering! How am I supposed to assist when you refused my help? Yet, your cries? Oh, why? I have given you my word. But you never took time to know Me. And if you took time to know Me, you label it as Bigotry? Call me an oppressor and tyrant? oh! But how you cried. Really? What a shame… there is the reason why I placed 1st and 2nd rules, to love me for all time and only me. Yet, you took Me off your family, and now… you barely keeping the ties together and your children, are confused. Barely can hold on to a relationship you try to build up on your own foundations. But marriage was once built under my name and I cemented their bond, and theirs lasted for their lifetime. Now, I’m no longer there to be found. Who now cements the bond? Oh! Please don’t… Couples are increasingly parting ways every day and you still stubbornly refuse? Now FOREVER MINE will only be a dream to fantasize about, to be told only in fairy tales! Furthermore, you took me off your schools… and now what happened? Crimes committed by children? Bully, killings at school? Brutal crimes happenings on school grounds as you took me off! My army would have protected you from all these had you not demolished Me! How unfortunate. I adamantly enforced my 1st and 2nd, to love me above all. Why? So greed, lust, and pride won’t easily find their way into your hearts but rather keep it guarded and you safe. But all your stubbornness to have it your way, the promises of freedom to behold. Now, your children are now exposed to acts so lude that it pains you when your daughter is defiled by the very person you trusted. Kidnapped, trafficked to be slaved under circumstances you no longer have any control. So much more! The lies. An outcry I’ve heard! Oh! How tragic! You cried my Name out loud in a crowd, asking me “why me?” and everything else… when all those you experienced are all your doing! Your choice and your actions… You have not even consulted with me “on your approach!” but now you call my Name and pin it all on me? You claim to pray but your heart is full… full of blasphemy and pretense! But here you are calling My Name still! Now, I simply became a cliché? Do you attend service to tell people you believe in me? Really? But you hardly take time to read my word and take care of my people… You are busy building your portfolio all the time and hardly listen to my word. When good times is at your door, you barely give thanks! But when hard times come, you call my name with an outcry “why me?”, -“do I deserve this?” ??? How ironic! You are indeed busy accumulating richness in this earth that one day you will return ashes! What happens to your richness then when you’re gone? Your success? Immortalized? Hmmm… This is just a mere playground, not your home. Have you thought about where you'd go if you were stripped of your richness, fame, and fortune? Hopefully not on the streets of beggars, but being sheltered by your friends or family is what I hoped you’d be! Oh beloved! I have people faithful to me! And only me! I am with them all their lives and even suffer humiliation because of me! They are poor for the rich often forget Me. They are very simple, happy, and content living under My grace! They’ve entrusted their future to Me. To many of you, I have failed them but to them, I have never failed them. And sadly, they’re only a few of them. But I am glad there are a few, for My kingdom will be theirs for eternity. You, my beloved… the majority of you! How certain is your future? My few, had only My kingdom to look forward to. Yours? How is your portfolio these days? Crashed? Hmmm… I am truly sorry, I cannot help you. For My kingdom has no market to take hold, nor does it need a wallet and richness to offer. Just Me. Truly, when you cry for me… truthfully, “seek and you shall find”. When you are ready, I AM JUST AROUND! When you are really tired, try reading Me. Perhaps you will be interested in building a relationship with Me! July 15, 2022 Image: pinterest

Misunderstood *I’m anxious because my subscriptions are really increasing. Although I am truly grateful but there are times I do prefer to write without restraints. I normally express my thoughts that many tend to take offensively. This is why I’d rather experiment with writing varieties that capture the AI’s attention instead.* Writing. I haven’t written anything for the longest time because I never thought I had it in me. So this is the only platform where I write articles and get tipped. I have republished my articles at Publish0x but I stopped for my laziness. Eventually, I will try to republish all my articles there, while joining the HIVE is quite tricky! I don’t know how I will be able to navigate there! I don’t spend a lot of time writing articles, which is why I’d stick to writing my articles related to personal experiences rather than entirely having to do research. Although I’ve always loved to read history and explore other topics like current events, however, my hands are really full and research is truly not a good option right now. Writing is more than just writing. It's a craft. It’s magical when I write poems that relieve me of the longing in my heart for things I haven’t done! Love, adventure, fantasy… anything I’d like to focus my attention on. It may occur easy but most of the time, writers drift into another subject that is really hard to focus on the narrative sometimes. That’s why many are misunderstood. The most beautifully written poems are hardly written without the tendency to drift afar from the main content. Funny but we remind ourselves to go back and find coherence in our narratives. That we have to delete the entire beautiful line because it’s truly out of context. Forced to separate and deposit the content somewhere else and revisit if memory serves it right. Reading in between lines became a requirement for the written materials to be comprehended while reading in context to effectively summarize became a powerful tool. Ayt! I chose not to write about people because it is not my story. Although, given the opportunity, I will write something about people and their experiences while they relate with me. I am not for writing to please an audience, nor do I like to get sympathy. Giving out pathetic lines as self-blames, playing victims over matters they’ve written have no control about, such pretense. Sometimes drawing unnecessary attention, makes it too awkward to even interact. Hmmm, which makes me realize that writing and blogging are entirely different thing. The earlier account I had with read.cash was the naïve me, a subscriber happens to… I don’t know, tag it spam, and later on when I checked his page, oh! The ideas were already copied and even the presentation, only that he presented it in a way not plagiarized but… there are many ways of re-writing an article without being detected as such. Sad, originality is already compromised. It's just a matter of presentation. Oh, I see it now. Always emphasized that I do love the anonymity of this platform because people don’t have to know me nor do they have to understand me, or the need to explain. My point? I will continue to write, not because I want to compete with you or show you my skills beyond yours because really, I am very ordinary.  I am here to share stories. The stories I haven’t told a soul. And enjoy every bit of reading the articles you’ve written that are beautifully crafted and skipped those prose pretenses from a bunch. I am just an ordinary individual who loves a good read and appreciates whatever I can take my hands on. Please don’t misunderstand the simplicity to arrogance. Gone were the days when the great poets and writers can flaunt their narrative skills to the public without being bashed! And the bashers are just, a pool of bashers who wished to be crafted with the crafts like theirs but unfortunately, it just cannot be! Sad but to celebrate a good article these days is labeled crap by those in the field famous for their mischievousness! Yes, makes me relate to an article written a few days back where a comment was apologetically stating a fact about “following someone we shouldn’t follow, but still, follow”. Hmmm, I wouldn’t want to be caught into such! People tend to forget, that we were equally talented in ways we have not discovered. Yet sad because jealousy and envy bury well-crafted masterpieces! Unfortunately. Thank u for the read! July 14, 2022 Image: pinterest Thank u for the read!

Know your grounds! *There is a huge gap between CHILDREN and ADULTS. That’s why children should remain as children and wait for their turn, they grow in time while adults FADE in time.* ***ADULTS VS CHILDREN*** **Adults.** Obviously, got their time learning a lot of theories and got to experience them over the years, and applied the simplest to the most complex theories in their lifetime. Time is weathered and mastered. Most especially the old ones! **Children.** They are still babies. They grow old fast without adults knowing it. And most foolish when they let their heart rule their minds, most often forget to think that they are still growing and learning. They also forget to know there are reasons and observe the proper time. Most of the time they think they’re all grown up but deep in their hearts and minds they’re really just kids. ***Responsibilities*** I’m a mom of two boys. It’s true that there is the knowledge they bear that we adults have a hard time understanding, especially the contents on the web that they are so savvy about while many adults are off. However, there are real-time hardcore lessons in the world common to us and has been for decades, century and millenniums. **Adults = responsibility.** Simply by being an adult, it connotes responsibility. Even if you are single. You are responsible for “taking care of yourself” until you decided to grow old alone! That is on a daily basis, it doesn’t wear out, to the last breath. This alone is something heavy on every adult I know. Why? If it was easy to “take care of ourselves”, many adults have been happy? Don't you think? No! On the contrary, it’s difficult to be an adult. Many of us failed to “take care of ourselves”. And this is speaking from experience. It's a 50/50 chance and it solely depends on the individual, others seek help when they know they’re not capable of it. We continually ask ourselves questions, evaluating the core existence of our being. We frequently ask questions hoping to know the direction we’re heading or simply asking for directions. “Have I done it right this time?” “Where did I fail?” “why?” “How come?” “What happened?” “Where did I go wrong?” These are retrospective questions and the most basic is “What’s the deal for this month?”, “How much money do I need to cover for the month?”, “income?” and a lot more basic than you thought that actually are making a lot of stress and headaches. Many of us adults are already half scared of tomorrow as you ever thought because tomorrow you will never know if the market crashes further or if a miracle happens! It’s never easy to accept all the hard-earned money slowly turns into dust because the market is down. … that you are half broke today than you were yesterday! Now, for a child to become an adult… all moms worry about them taking hold of their life! Setting them free knowing they have to go through all I have mentioned and this is not even half of everything an adult face or faces, is already troublesome. There are a lot of pluses! The medical and the law, are some complications a child has to learn while growing up. Why? Ignorance of the law excuses no one! The horror of false accusation and being imprisoned for something you didn’t do and a whole lot more! ***Ready?*** A lot of new/young adults thought they were ready to take on the stage! Unfortunately, only a few succeed. Half were already gone for so many reasons including recklessness! Ahh! For a child to hurry up to be grown up already just because you have a mind of your own already is… Yes, we all pass through that stage when it’s too good to be true to finally have a taste of what we all call “freedom” but yet, it has its own predicament that is sometimes more harmful than not. Take your time while you are growing and the adults are really trying to protect you from the world. Once you feel it in your heart that you are ready, we will definitely let you spread your wings and let go! Though your security is always and has been our concern, our doors will always be a shelter for you whenever you feel like in need of a shelter! It’s simply just “knowing your grounds and keeping yourself grounded”. Thank u for your time and the read! Just sharing... July 13, 2022 Images: pinterest My gratitude to my sponsor(s)! Thank u for your undying support and do check out their articles, they're the best!

It feels like summer again, @staycation (JPark Resort) *Coming to a nice place where the king-size bed is truly awesome and the view from the 8th floor is just as marvelous! The venue just feels like paradise, as we walked early in the morning doing my morning walks…* Remember I was supposed to live on Php70 for the entire 15 days and lost my ATM at the same time. Well, I’m a lucky gurl. Someone found my money, returned it and I’m a happy gurl! So, we were able to go to the staycation commissioned by our team during the weekend – which by the way I was supposed to cancel because I couldn’t afford the fare! The heavens favor the vacation! I actually did not tell my son I lost our money because I was really embarrassed! Lolz but then he still found out when someone called me and told me she found our money. – it was silly for me to tell it here at read.cash first because it’s less embarrassing! ***Teambuilding 2022*** Anyways… Post pandemic has a way of gathering people. In a way where we can gather and celebrate life as we used to have and rekindle relationships that have been at a halt at the moments of seclusion. Eager to once again experience life in our togetherness! Timely, our team, each has our own family, all having employment tenure for more than a decade, and celebrating it with our family is something I appreciate the most! Unlike our previous team buildings, this time we are spending the moments with our family trying to relax from all the hassles in life. Enjoying the time together with our kids in a venue we could hardly afford to book, is something nice. A night-gate-away from our apartment, enjoying nothing but the soft bed and a cozy place with a tub that won’t cost us any water bill but enjoyment. Enjoying coffee and the view we don’t usually have is something splendid! The heart of the staycation is the pool and the slides, many actually come to see the slides but my boys were not interested. There were several pools and the slides were nice, we enjoyed the beach most. The waves are huge that it will drag you towards the sea if you’re not careful.  The sun shines brightly amazing, further tanning our skin to almost charcoal, lolz! ***Family*** At this point of our tenure, 10 years that is, it’s futile to spend time with our colleagues still because by this time we already know each other. Spending it with them has become a cliché. However, I do appreciate we finally meet our families but somehow a bit embarrassing too if we don’t brief our children and spouses to behave! The simplest ethics should be observed, should you don’t like to embarrass yourselves in front of your colleagues. I’m not a disciplinarian but I’m glad I am naturally strict where my boys naturally inherit such traits, so I don’t have any problems with their behavior. Unfortunately, my boss’s and boss’s boss's children were just too much for them to bear. Over-spoilt? But I’m glad we only get to interact during dinner and we are all by ourselves right after. No need for overbearance! ***The food.*** The heart of every gathering is a feast! LECHON is the most celebrated menu in this part of the world and the most essentially requested, -especially these days when pork price is almost like beef. And we get to take home some and enjoy our sumptuous “paksiw”.  Breakfast at the hotel, since it’s free, we dig into a luxury cuisine, integrated from European to Asian menus. Like anyone who’d like to enjoy free food (lolz), I get a piece each and my boys were really timid so I’m settled with them being full. How I wish I could get to pack some food and bring some with me to our room! Lolz… This is really just some perks in working, one of the most awaited moments in a year, but was suspended for 2 years. From this point on, it’s something to look forward to. Yes, it feels like summer again. Where the sun really shines brightly that day and we get to submerge ourselves either on the tub, beach, or pool, really refreshing especially with the breeze that passes by, amazing! Thank u for the read! ‘til next time. July 12, 2022 Image: our pictures Special thanks to my sponsors, as always!

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"Careful what you feed your mind, it feeds the heart and the soul – the body as well." *I’m no guru, nor do I teach the power-over-matter thing. Neither am I stoic, because I complain a lot! Hahaha! However, this I know… Whatever we feed our mind, it is captured by the heart and eventually nourished the soul. The body, unfortunately inherits it all.* The body is form right from the heart of the mind, all its well-being comes from it as the brain is essentially the very mechanism that controls the body. It follows the same principle, whatever you think, interests, desires and emotions just gets into your system. Let’s get to the point. If you were the type who harbors a lot of anger or emotions, your body reacts. The 1st that reacts is the stomach. In the process, there stomach will be filled with acid affecting the lining. The stronger the reaction the powerful it is, the stronger the acid. Many result to hyperacidity and/or stomach ulcer. Some can lead to cancer. And more importantly, life is a living hell just for being angry so much! Leading to people to avoid you, and you’ll end up bitter, lonely and sad. The worriers easily manifest the body and does easily shows. Especially excessive worrying can actually trigger physical illness, among the basic are panic attacks, insomnia, others to the extent chronic illnesses because it can trigger “stress response” which eventually will lead a whole lot more problems than you’d expected. https://www.webmd.com/balance/guide/how-worrying-affects-your-body Ever heard of "Psychosomatic Syndrome"? https://www.google.com/search?q=psychosomatic+syndrome&rlz=1C1GCEU_enPH989PH989&ei=YynGYqzaDvWKseMPyYitqAU&oq=psychosomatic+synd&gs_lcp=Cgdnd3Mtd2l6EAMYADIFCAAQgAQyBQgAEIAEMgYIABAeEBYyBggAEB4QFjIGCAAQHhAWMgYIABAeEBYyCAgAEB4QDxAWMggIABAeEA8QFjIGCAAQHhAWMgYIABAeEBY6BwgAEEcQsAM6CggAELEDEIMBEEM6BAgAEEM6CwgAEIAEELEDEIMBSgUIPBIBMUoECEEYAEoECEYYAFDtA1iaDWD-FmgBcAF4AIABZ4gBtgOSAQM0LjGYAQCgAQHIAQjAAQE&sclient=gws-wiz Psychosomatic disorder is **a psychological condition involving the occurrence of physical symptoms, usually lacking a medical explanation**. People with this condition may have excessive thoughts, feelings or concerns about the symptoms — which affects their ability to function well. The more worry you become, the more unnecessary illness to manifest and even trigger heart diseases or depression, one illness leading to another – domino effect. To name a few celebrities with known anxiety problems? The net is full of their stories, one after the other. Top of the list is Oprah Winfrey. Most of the time we feed our own demons, as to why, there are vast reasons to consider. Hormonal influx can be a culprit, past experiences/trauma can be too. That’s why there is a need for us to check closely what we think. Sometimes we already reach dangerous levels that we need to slow down and examine our thoughts. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to determine that we are already off charts! That our imagination really had gone wild this time, taking too much adrenaline or super hype for the time being? Sugar rush? Please pause a while and think. Keep it checked. In the end, our body suffers. Whether it be psychological and eventually become psychiatric because we didn’t check. It helps to check and no to self-diagnose but consult with your doctor if its all too excessive. Get help the soonest to address and properly manage anything before it could lead to advancement. We only have one body, let's start taking care of it. Thank u for the read. July 08, 2022 Image: Pinterest My gratitude to my sponsor(s)! Thank u for your undying support and do check out their articles, they're the best!

Answer to your queries and additional information... @aimure and @itsmeCguro… Thank u so much for the commentaries. I didn’t reply because this is the reply to your queries. No, I don’t mind being asked. Queries: If you don't mind me asking, why aren't you drinking coffee and coke? Do you have hyperacidity?  *HYPERTENSIVE CARDIOVASCULAR DISEASE* Before June of this year, I was enjoying caffeine supreme without any problem. But then one day, June 17, my heart tightened and rushed myself to ER and was hospitalized. – all because I drank coffee, and that was just a cup! Thus, banning coffee for a bit and any caffeinated drink for this matter! Lolz. Coffee has been my favorite drink ever since my world began, especially nowadays as the weather is really cold… sulking on the chair with a cup of hot coffee on my hand is a must, enjoying the view of the rain from the veranda is just exquisite! And horray, I got permitted to take a sip of at least a cup, else risking chest tightening again! That’s the actual problem, -heart problems and genetic! Being diagnosed with HYPERTENSIVE CARDIOVASCULAR DISEASE, is something I really mind since all the labs were not indicating anything. My heart is really just the problem. According to my son, “gubaon naka ug heart, mami!”(mami, your heart need repair!), like it is that simple. *Hyperacidity related problems* Coffee, coke and other carbonated drinks are often associated with hyperacidity. Well, why not, they are indeed acids! If you experiment with colas, you can actually use them as cleansers (CR/bathroom) they help in the cleaning in the kitchen too! I never suffered hyperacidity despite me drinking coffee without meals and more 3 cups a day, neither did I experience palpitations or nervousness or insomnia. In fact it came to a point that coffee/coke is more of a sleeping pill to me than an additive, I drink coffee and in less than 5 minutes I’m fast asleep. So to my children, whenever they see me holding a cup of coffee, I am about to go to sleep! To counter hyperacidity, your stomach needs to be conditioned properly. Meaning, meals shouldn’t be skipped, if you were on a diet, huh, need to do it properly. Never skip meals, do small meals. Meaning, from 1 cup of rice now on ½ cup, this reduces the amount of intake slowly but surely. Never, put your stomach under great stress, if you were hungry – eat! If you were outside and no budget, buy crackers instead, it suffices. Oh! When you are hungry and stomach hurts, don't drink cold water, drink warm water instead. Warm water do neutralizes the acid and pain as well. Another important thing to take note, -your body. Don’t take too much EMOTIONAL stress as this influences the gastric glands to produce lot of acids and one of the major causes of hyperacidity and stomach ulcers. Doctors does not tell you this but they are very aware. How did I know? Oh! My eldest has problems with emotional thing and his stomach isn’t coping well, thus gastroenteritis several times when he was younger. So, you can just imagine if your stomach is full of acid, plus you take in more acid. Remember, the stomach lining is really sensitive. *Medical world* The medical world and especially the pharma industries doesn’t announce a lot of potential cures and don’t because, money rules the world. Imagine if all doctors says, keep your emotions in check and no one will endure hyperacidity issues? Then, no one will go and consult… If so, no more potential clients? Who wouldn’t want to earn? It’s just plainly business. Well, I don’t have the right to, since my heart needs a revamp! I'm just the same as the populace, ordinary and part of the statistics. Hahaha! But let me share information if you weren't aware, you may add to your search. It’s searchable in the net. And my heart, it’s really genetic make-up and I have no right to complain because it’s embedded in my blueprint and somehow in sons as well. Thank u, hope this answers! Love lots! July 08, 2022 Image: Pinterest My gratitude to my sponsor(s)! Thank u for your undying support and do check out their articles, they're the best!

July, just getting started… *Hmmm… I’ve been gone for days because… US is in holiday and I had a very long weekend. I have tried to enjoy the moments without going to the office because I don’t like to see my boss! I’m so sorry, I just don’t like to see my boss! If all the time, yeah preferrably! Shhh! Nothing personal, just how I feel! But, this girl has to make a living! Grrr! Hahaha!* *We’re just getting started* We just started, what could go wrong? Eigh! Hahaha! Everything… Tadang! Financially, never mind, my month’s crashed! Lolz. I already started the month deficit and yesterday I lost our last money on my way home from the hospital, plus atm card – getting my lab results. So, we will be living with only 70 pesos left until July 15… Ahmmm, good luck to us! Angats-angats! Hahaha! When stupidity strikes, dumber than dumb. So, I came to read.cash to read all the articles and comments I’ve missed over the long weekend. And decided for an upgrade, more sponsorship this time. Added 5 because my wallet is only very limited. I’m writing again to get some more tips to do more sponsorships – I hope rusty will be generous this time! Lolz! Hahaha! Just kidding, just giving the good I have from the community that's so awesome! My spirit should be low because as mentioned but and however! This is why I keep my “FAITH”, to entrust, “GOD provides”. So, even if all else is bad or worst, nothing beats FAITH. Sorry, just sharing… Been testing it for years and God do provides! Despite all the negative happenings, life is nothing but ups and downs, so why worry? It only gives us nothing but stress and a lot of illness. Though my illness has nothing to do about worrying, it has all to do with genetic make-up, but like I said, life is really full of ups and downs, everyone is on to it – no exceptions. Oh, yes! Here comes the sun. Rising beautifully at this hour. Surprisingly my July’s beat up already but here I am, having fun and looking forward on the days to be able to read SPANISH articles here at read.cash. Surprisingly the very first person to welcome me here @ read.cash was a “Spanish-speaking mademoiselle, @rebeysa85, who not been around for a while now – missing her! Then, I come across a Spanish article from a doctor and I subscribed. Hahaha! My Spanish is rare and really surprisingly I can understand the context of his article and I just made myself a good challenge. I don’t really know how fast I can learn to read but keeping up the hopes! *Spanish, it is* I had Spanish subject on college but never get to hone the skill and that was 2 decades ago! Refreshing will be like revamping the heart? Hahaha! Joke! Not really, it’s just difficult at the start but I’d get by? Though, I really think I need to revamp my heart, because it’s foolish, all my lab results are not telling anything wrong but genetic make-up! Grammar wise, it’s almost the same with ENGLISH but some difference as Spanish connotes gender while English is specific. Anyway, it’s for fun, nothing to lose but learn the language – I hope! Hmmm, guess you must have thought I have a lot time doing this or just really bored. Not really, just interesting. I’ve been told to furnish the skill a long time ago but it never crossed my mind. Perhaps. There are actually a lot of things to do for July like losing more weight down bit more. Then this, and writing challenges like what @Blueflipper being doing… I kind like her enjoying the challenge, she seems very happy and excited every time! Its about time to drink my heart medz and I can’t get it off until 3rd month, as the doctor says! Hayst! So! Over all, July just really got started! It’s really no use over thinking about the economics at this point because it’s really devastating. And I don’t want to have a heart attack overthinking. Believe me, it’s good to stay alive! Some more huggies, kisses and funssssssssss with the kids! And a lot of crying for watching and reading ridiculous drama/novels! Been doing that too! Hahaha! Ridiculous but fun and exciting! Sorry for the long read! Thank u and ‘til next time… July 7, 2022 Image: pinterest My gratitude to my sponsor(s)! Thank u for your undying support and do check out their articles, they're the best!