@Jemz

@Jemz 27 November 2021

"Dear ex" Akala ko ay tulayan na akong nakalimot sa ating nakaraan. Sa sakit na iyong idinulot, sa kabila ng tapat na pagmamahal at pagtitiwala ko sayo,nagawa mo din kaming talikoran. Akala ko wala na akong mararamdaman, sakali mang mag kros ulit ang ating mga landas. Napakatagal na ng tatlong taon, ngunit bakit nagbalik ka pa? Pero alam mo, yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ay hindi na sakit ng panghihinayang, kundi sakit ng tiwala na iyong sinayang. Bakit nga ba bumalik ka pa? Pero sabagay hindi ko naman pag aari ang buong Leyte para matakot kang bumalik pa. Pero lam mo, kahit kelan hindi ka makakalapit sa anak ko. Hindi ka nya makikilala, at wala ka din namang karapatan na makita siya. Buong buhay nya ako lang ang kikilalanin nyang magulang, dahil para sa kanya patay ka na. Hindi mo naman siya kelangan diba? Oh nakita ko nga din pala ang bago jowa na taga maynila. Mukha din naman pala siyang probinsyana, maputi nga lang, pero hindi naman lahat Ng maputi maganda. Bitter ba? Hahaha, Naku hindi naman ako bitter, pawang katotohanan lang naman ang aking nabanggit. Balita ko buntis na siya kaya inuwi mo dito sa probinsya, kaya ba nya ang buhay ng walang sagana? Sabi pala ng nanay mo may gusto ka daw sabihin sakin? Ano naman yun? Sorry? Hindi na, hindi mo na kelangan pang sabihin yan, napatawad na naman kita eh, hindi ko pa nga lang nakakalimutan ang pang goghost mo sakin. Wala na tayong pakialamanan pa, maging responsable ka nalang sa jowa mo na magiging nanay ng anak mo. Wag mo na kaming gulohin pa, para wala na tayong maging problema. Masaya na Ako kasama ng anak sana natin, pero dahil iyong tinakbohan, naging anak ko nalang. Oo nga pala, dati nung mga dalawang taon palang siya, minsa nababanggit nya ang salitang Papa. Hindi ko nga alam kong saan nya natutunan yun, baka sa mga pinsan nya. Tapos alam mo bang minsan pag naririnig niyang tinatawag ng pinsan nya yung Tito nyang papa, papa na din tawag nya sa tito nya. Medyo masakit yun, kasi feeling ko hinahanap nya ang pagmamahal at pag aaroga ng isang ama, pero wala ka eh. Parang tinutusok ng kutsilyo yung dibdib ko nun, pakiramdam ko kasi naiinggit siya sa mga pinsan nya. Kaya sana sa magiging anak nyo, magpakatatay ka na. Hindi naman deserve ng anak ko na lumaki na walang ama pero hindi ko hinahangad na may isa pang bata ang mawalan ng ama, kaya sana umayos ka na, mahalin at alagaan mo sila. Salamat nalang sa lahat lahat at pananakit mo. Salamat sa anak kong napakapogi dahil nagmana sakin. Salamat at paalam. Author's message: Hello po sa lahat, kumusta po kayo? Ang tagal ko din pong hindi nakapag post sa sobrang busy ko sa trabaho. Laging pagod at wala din akong maisip na isusulat. Ganito pala dito, hindi pala madaling mag isip Ng topic. Kaya sobrang saludo talaga Ako sa mga Araw araw na nakakapagsulat, sana ako din. Sobrang challenging kasi mag English kaya Lalo akong walang maisip, hahaha pero ok lang,laban lang hindi ako susuko. Maraming salamat po sa magbabasa, ingat po tayong lahat, God bless. November 27,2021 Lead image source: https://m.facebook.com/dearex.net/photos/dearex-/112889370221007/

@Jemz 25 October 2021

"Feelin' like a millionaire" Blog #3 October 25,2021 Wait whaaattt??? Oh my God!! The Random rewarder had finally noticed me!! Yaaaaayyyyy.. So this is how it feels like?? I really don't know if what am I going to feel today as I felt wonderful despite how hard the rain pour. But anyway today is my day off from work so I can read more articles from my fellow writer's,. Last night I keep on trying to open my account but I can't be able open my read.cash account due to slow internet connection. It's been raining since yesterday here in our place because of the Low Pressure Area (LPA) but I hope this LPA won't formed into a typhoon, otherwise I can't go to work again. Anyway, I'm so excited today, after I opened my notifications I saw the Random rewarder was in my notifications lol! I screamed out while dancing with joy. I felt like I won a million dollars, hahahhahah. I really felt the magic of motivation, and all I saw is a place that full of butterflies. The sun was up and the flowers are blooming, I saw myself wearing this beautiful gown like a princess. I suddenly travel into a fairyland with that one million dollars lol. But I finally get back to reality because my mother pinch me, as I scared her hahahaha. Oh my God I can't control this positive energy that flowing in my blood right. So now I can understand why they love Random rewarder, it's really because he brings a lot of positive vibes and positive outlook for our goals. I wish and I hope he will continue to inspires me. This is really a quite unexpected, as I am just new here. I haven't met a lot of friends, but I'm hoping I will. From now on I'll be keep staying in this track. Thank you so much rusty, for motivating me. I promise to continue being active. Thank you for appreciating my article, though I found lots of wrong grammar from it,😅. I was too tired that time and I really didn't notice that some of the words are not right, but I admit that it is also because I'm not really good in English. But I am willing to learn and enhanced it, so everyone can understand my article very well. But for now I wish the read.cash can bear with my poor English. So today since it's raining, and might just have a movie marathon with my son as our bonding. I'm always busy at work and every time I went home he was already sleeping so I felt a little guilt as I can't give him enough attention. That is why every day off, I totally spend my time with him so I can catch up my absence. I want him to grow with love and joy. And now I must be more productive because I already have two reasons, why I should have keep going fighting in my life real battle. First reason was to give my son a better future and the second was my dream to finish my college. For now it might impossible, but I know with God it can be possible. I should have just trust his plan. Anyway from this article I also wanted to send my greatest appreciation to the first person who showed to me a support . Thank you so much miss @Jeansapphire39. Thank you po, for your support I wouldn't disappointed you as am I going to keep working for your trust. I wish more BCH for you.. Closing thoughts: In every failures there's always a new day that may bring new hopes for our dreams. It doesn't matter if how long we've keep on battling, the important is we never stop believing. Life is too short for us to keep ourselves in regrets because of our mistakes. They are just a memory of yesterday and today is a different battle to be winning. Thank you for who may want to read my today's article. Please stay safe. God bless. Lead image source was a screenshot from my phone.

@Jemz 23 October 2021

"The White Lady Ghost" October 23,2021 Blog #2 I know must of us that living in a province have some scary experience as we all know they are common in our area. I wasn't been active this past few days because of my work schedule. So I always don't have any energy to write or to read articles as every time I came home I really feel sleepy and tired. But today I go home earlier than the other so I got a chance to write and to read some articles. Last night is our last over time so we make sure that everything was good and everything was settled so we go home a little bit late. And since I have to commute and it takes 30 minutes of travel from my workload to our home I arrived home at almost 11 P.M. Our way home is a bit dark because it has no street lights that's why sometimes I asked my brother to fetch me a itlong the road, but last night my brother fall asleep as he was tired from work. So no matter how many times I tried to rang his phone he didn't wake up to fetch me. I was a bit pissed off but somehow I understand my brother. And since I don't wanna stay longer outside, I bravely walk by myself over that dark road to be at home. In our way we gonna pass our small church and then some houses of our neighbors but since it's already late, they are all sleeping and the surrounding's was quite. I feel a little hesitant to cross in our small church as I knew that some people has died was being blessed in that church and that makes me scared. Actually there's still another way but the church is a shortcut so I walked faster without looking at our church. But when I was about to pass in our church I suddenly saw something that was floating and it's all white. I was so scared and so I run faster as I can. I feel a cold wind touches my body while I'm running. I was so scared to the death last night. Specially that our neighbors dogs suddenly howls. I continue running until I reached my brothers house. Last night has a full moon if you have noticed. So our field was filled with light and while running I suddenly reflect someone in my way. I get curious if who was that, but it looks like it didn't moving. It's just standing in the middle of our field. I was terrible scared last night. Before I reached our home I will first pass my older brothers house. So last night, I knocked their door. Luckily my brother opened it so I asked him if he can accompany to home, and he says okay. I feel relieved but still scared as I remember that reflection that I have seen. My brother asked why I went home by myself, I told him that our brother didn't pick up his mobile so I went home myself. Before we go out to my brothers house I told him first the reflection. And he went inside their room and get something, he bring something with him. It looks like a small sword. But when we went outside, I didn't see the reflection anymore. I don't know where it went, but I know it was just standing in the middle of our field. While we were walking I told him also about what I have saw in our church. And my brother told me that it's normal, he even saw it there also. Those are the lost spirit's and they can't find their way to come out that why they're being locked up inside our church. My brother says that it's a white lady and sometimes it showed up specially when the All souls day is approaching. This is the first it happen to me. I couldn't believe I can saw a white lady for the first time. I have read a lot of stories about our small church but I wouldn't believe any stories from other people, but now is my own experience, so there's no doubt that they are real. But somehow I was curious with the reflection that I have seen. I wonder who's reflection was that. This is all for now. Thank you in advance for those who will love to read it. Stay safe everyone. Lead image source https://powerlisting.fandom.com/wiki/White_Lady_Physiology

@Jemz 20 October 2021

Anong nangyari sa ating dalawa? Minsan kapag nakikita ko ang aking anak ay bigla ko nalang siyang naaalala. Masakit kasing isipin na lumalaki ang anak ko at wala siyang ama. Bilang isang nanay pangarap ko siyang mabigyan ng buong pamilya, ngunit hindi kasi talaga kami ang para sa isa't isa. 19 year's old lamang ako nun, ng makilala ko ang ama ng aking anak. Tumagal kami Ng isang taon bago ako nabuntis. Dala Ng kapusokan, hindi talaga inaasahan ang aking pagbubuntis nun. Nung nalaman nyang buntis ako, ay bigla siyang kinabahan at nataranta. Sinabi pa nga nyang ipalaglag ko kung hindi pa ako handang maging nanay, dahil ganun din naman siya. Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya, nanghina at tela nagulo ang mundo ko. Hindi ko inaasahan ang mga narinig ko sa kanya, ngunit nangingibabaw sa akin ang konsensya kaya tumutol ako. Ang sabi ko ay kakayanin ko to, basta kasama ko lang siya. Sabi nya ay hindi nya alam kung anong gagawin, pero sabi nya kung yan ang gusto ko ay bahala daw ako. Hindi naman nya ako hiniwalayan agad, pero unti unti nagiging madalang na ang pagkikita namin. Halos mabaliw na din ako sa problemang ginawa ko, takot akong sabihin sa nanay ko na buntis ako. Disappointed na kasi ang nanay ko sa nakababata kong kapatid dahil maaga din yung nabuntis at iniwan din ng nakabuntis sa kanya. Araw araw ay nakakaramdam na ako ng guilt, na e stress na din ako dahil pakiramdam ko any time ay may makakapansin na, na buntis ako. Kaya napagpasyahan ko ng sabihin sa nanay ko ang totoong kalagayan ko. Mag asawang sampal ang natanggap ko mula sa nanay ko, okay lang naman dahil ang tanga ko. Nagpakatanga ako sa taong akala ko ay may paninindigan. Umiyak ang nanay ko dahil sa sobrang sama ng loob. Sobrang sakit sa dibdib na nakikita kong umiiyak si inang. Ilang linggo din at umabot ng buwan bago ako muling kinausap ng nanay ko. Pero araw araw ginagawa ko ang lahat mapatawad niya lang ako. Unti unti ay tinanggap na din ng nanay ko ang pagbubuntis ko. Kilala na naman ng nanay ko ang boyfriend, nagalit lang siya dahil ang akala nya ay magpapakasal muna ako bago magpabuntis dahil yun talaga ang pangarap nya para sa aming dalawa ng kapatid kong babae. Pero nabigo siya sa aming dalawa. Kinausap kaming dalawa ng boyfriend ko ng inang, tinanong nya kung kelan namin balak magpakasal at ako nga ay buntis na. Hindi makasagot ang boyfriend ko, ang sabi nya lang ay kakausapin pa nya ang kanyang mga magulang at nang sila ay makapamanhikan na. Natuwa naman ako sa narinig kong iyon, pero hindi ko inaasahan na iyon na pala ang huli naming pagkikita. Pagkagising ko kinabukasan ay bigla akong nakatangap ng text messages mula sa kanya. Medyo nanibago ako dahil madalas ay sa messenger naman siya nagmemsg sa akin. Binuksan ko ang kanyang text at iyon nga ay binasa ko. Tumigil ang mundo ko sa nabasa ko. `Patawarin mo ako, pero hindi pa ako handang magpakasal. Madami pa akong pangarap, mga bata pa din tayo. Makakahanap ka din ng taong magmamahal sayo na kaya kang pakasalan.` Nag uunahang nagbagsakan ang mga luha ko pagkabasa ko sa text message nya. Sinubokan ko siyang tawagan sa number na iyon ngunit out of coverage na. Sinubokan ko siyang kontakin sa messenger pero nakablock na pala ako. Agad agad akong bumangon para puntahan siya sa bahay nila. Nagpunas ako ng luha ko, bago nagbihis at dumiretso na sa bahay nila. Pag dating ko sa bahay nila ay nanay nya lang ang naabotan ko. Bumati Ako ng magandang umaga at tinanong ko kung nasan ang anak nya, ngunit hindi ito agad na sumagot. Tiningnan nya muna ako mula ulo hanggang paa saka siya nagsalita. `Halika na muna dito sa loob, nag almusal ka na ba? Gusto mo ba ng kape ening?` Susunod na tanong nanay nya, sabi ko ay hindi ako nagkakape at hindi pa ako nagugutom. Hinahanap ko lang yung anak nya. Nagtimpla muna siya ng kape at saka umupo sa harap ko. `Pasensya ka na ening pero hindi pa kasi handa ang anak kong mag asawa. Patawarin mo sana ang anak ko, at sana ay alagaan mo at palakihin na mabuting bata ang apo ko. Maluha luhang sabi ng nanay ng boyfriend ko.` Ano hong ibig nyong sabihin? Asan po ba siya? `Umalis na neng kahapon pa, galing yata iyon sa inyo. Pagbalik ay nag empake na at umalis na, humabol sa huling bus trip papuntang maynila.`. Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa mga oras na yun, pero nagpakatatag ako. Umuwi ako sa bahay, at doon na ako nag iiyak. Sobrang sakit ng ginawa nya sa akin, pati na din sa anak ko. Pero nagpatuloy ako sa buhay, naging lakas ko ang anak ko. Na sobra ko namang naging kasiyahan ng makita at nahawakan ko na siya. Mag tatatlong taon na din ang anak ko, at magtatatlong taon na din na wala na akong balita sa ama niya. Message: Magkamali man tayo ng desisyon sa buhay, ang gumawa ng isa pang kamalian ay kelanman ay hindi maitatama ng isa pang kamalian. Maraming salamat po sa magbabasa. Lead image source https://www.amazon.com/Anong-Nangyari-Sa-Ating-Dalawa/dp/B091Y5JFWW

@Jemz 18 October 2021

Hello! October 18,2021 Hello read.cash fam. how was your day? I hope you are having fine. Anyway I am jemz, a newbie from this platform. I have learned that there's these kind of platform from some users in noise.cash because of their post. Out of my curiosity, I checked this platform. I register and do a little exploration in this platform. Upon my observation I get a little idea of how I'm gonna start my little journey in here. I hope I can be your friend too, somehow let me introduce myself to you first . I was born in Leyte Philippines, my parents are both Leyteños. I have five siblings and out of six children's of my parent's I am the second, yet the first daughter among the two girls and the rest are all boys. I came from a simple family, my father is a construction worker while my mother is a stay at home momma to us. I only finish high school because of financial problem. And currently I am working as a salesclerk in my hometown. I already have six nephews and one niece, from my two siblings. My mom is already a window for six years, since my father left us. I have been a noise.cash member since March this year. But because of my busy schedule, sometimes I can't visit my account. I was this shy type person, so interacting with other users might be a challenging on my part. I also consider myself as an introvert as I love being alone. But I wish, read.cash family will welcome me with all of their hearts. Despite of being simple and shy, I can give my full support and willing to open myself to everyone. I am not really good in English, but I can speak basic. Anyway I am currently 23 years of age and soon to be 24. But I am already a mom to my one and only son. And he is the reason why I keep on looking for another site to earn some extra. Though writing is not my passion, but reading is one of my addiction so I think I can adjust 😅. My life is full of challenges and I am willing to invest some time and effort to achieve my goals. My goal as a single mom is to make sure that I can give my son a better future. I already failed to give him a perfect family as we've been separated to his father since he was still in my stomach. At first it was really hard for me to think that my son will grow up without a father, but it is more unfair to him if I will let him see his father and let him saw how miserable our lives was. Nowadays the cost of our living is increasing and still we're facing pandemic. A crisis that the whole world is facing. It's very hard to find a stable job and because I have a goal I need to double my effort to support my son's needs. Sooner my son will attend his school, so at this early I must prepare for it. Let me tell you about my hubbies anyway. I love reading novels and watching some movies in my spare time. I don't have sports but I love watching sports in TV. I also use to like play some Mobile games but now my son took over my place. I also love cooking and baking, that's one of my favorite hubbies. Cooking and baking is my greatest stress reliever as I am a food lover. Anyway despite from that I'm just these thin woman, I don't gained weight. I'm interested about dreams, scary movies and stories. And I have so many stories that I love to share those here soon. Some of them are my own experience and some are from my siblings. And since the Halloween is coming, I think this is a great time for me to share them. So I'll be planning to work on that tomorrow. So these is all for now my dearest friend, I will share more about myself next time. It is my pleasure to new virtual friends soon..😊😊 Thank you and may God bless you. Lead image https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hello_(web_series)