@Idksamad7869 21 March 2021 edited more from that month

I quite study: Reason behind this step

Greetings **Here I'm with another interesting and emotional story of my life but if you didn't read part 1 yet then go and read it.** Here is **direct** link to that **article** i worked as a waiter https://read.cash/@Idksamad7869/i-worked-as-a-waiter-for-2-years-to-support-my-family-b0de1178 After **reading** that article now you can read this one it will help you to **understand** easily. By **reading** previous one you can think reason behind this but not **exactly** those are **reasons** but you can say it right. **So let's get started with story** College days Story started when i passed ***8th*** class and went to next one as you know if you i was good at **studying** and how things got worst as time pass but real things and **destruction** is still ahead to **face**. So i was studying in **evening shift** and it was government **college** basically we don't need to pay fee's there but what they did with me and how they ruined my **future**. Not gonna say it's already ruined but just coz of them i am now way **behind** from others. Things exactly happened in 9th I've many **reason's** to do this but it's not my **mistake** or i don't want to do this but you will know later why they made me to **waste** my own life. When i was in *****9th***** it was decision taking and here we all think *****9 and 10***** will decide your future and i was one who love to study and take **positions** in class. But as i said to support my family i worked in hotel and face different things i can only attend 4 days in school and they never asked for a reason why you're not coming properly are you fine how's your work. Like normal schools their opportunity was at least to ask me about what's going on with me but literally not a single time they said anything. You guys will think i was a back bencher etc but no i was just a normal student who's passion is to do study to be a good guy and able to support my own family. Days are passing and just passing teachers are not giving their attention and i started doing absence in Monday coz of tiredness . I've good friends and every one knows about my situation. I never take any tuition and academy help for studies i always prefer to study in home and mom always focus on my study. As i can say school teachers are not focusing and no matter how much day i was attending class asked my mom that I'll study at home and take some guide books from shop for all subject past paper. Started new journey and now my routine was to attend school for 1 or 2 days in school. Things was going good but then i bought a mobile android one's and started using social media games etc and loss my too much time's and i feel like i left to behind from others to cover syllabus. My middle exams was almost there and i got sick and was in depression and don't know what to do know. And school management played their own role they played their very important role to make me more depressed. They said the one who didn't clear this exam we will not send their admissions to board. And one more i interesting thing they added was less than 50%attendance student means his admission will not going. Now i was like broken and depression tension and my job. I started thinking what thing i need to choose I've to option's left *****Study***** *****Job***** But no i prefer both things i asked my self be like a man and it's easy for you and somehow i cleared my 2nd term exams and attendance or passing in exams was no more just a joke so student can focus on their studies. They don't just coz of this how i felt and depression at that moment. Now final exams are after 2 months and didn't studied at all and was not prepared for it. ****My routine was like**** **Attending 2 days in a week** **Using mobile at night instead of studying** **3 to 4 days on work** 1 week has just 7 days and you guys can think how i can take all thing's at same and annual exams are almost there and zero preparation except passing marks. I never think about this I'll be pass easily it was not in my dictionary and always aim to get higher marks. Now final exams arrived When i entered in examination hall i was thinking if i don't know about answer I'll ask for help who sitting next to me. First paper was of chemistry and i like chemistry coz it's interesting subject for me. Before paper arrive to us teachers are all around us everywhere i look i saw one teacher there and my heart is pumping like what's going to happened next. Objective paper arrived means only have to choose correct answer. Lots of peoples forget those and just tick whatever they think. But i was prepared for it and finished it in less than 5 minutes. After this now its was time for real paper and after seeing paper it was quite difficult coz lot's of questions are like i didn't saw in whole year and don't know from where they come. But luckily we have choices and i answered those who i prepared and know much better. After completing first paper i was happy to complete my paper so easily and i was sure to get good marks in it. What about next ones After giving first one i was like exams are easy and will get good marks easily and using mobile and job in time when i need to give my best. Next papers arrived and everything i saw there was never seen before or from another world but still write whatever comes in my mind. Cheating I know everyone do this when they don't know what to do know and in hopeless situation. But i was unluckiest person in life coz teacher there and strict system didn't allow me to do cheating and can't move my head to ask anyone for help even i was not able to go to toilet or drink water. Results are here Now it was time for result and i never felt so much ashamed in my life that day i was like I'll suicide and finish my self my mother and relative everyone treated like and i was so much disappointed to get too much low marks I got passed with 399 marks out of 650 and worst day in my life never felt ashamed ever people's who knows our situation also did their best to make me feel more ashamed but i somehow don't know i did prayers and stand again to fight with this world. **I'm not going to make this complicated i want to finish this article in short so I'm directly coming to next class exams and result and what college did with me.** Matric second term exams Now real story begins and you will be shocked what happened in the last. Second term arrive our school management ask this time same thing like previous class But with a twist and business. They asked if someone got failed this time you will be charged fine of 500pkr 3.21usd per subject. Okay so i ignored what they say like i know they are just trying to make student do more practice and i was still busy doing job and mobile. Mobile was my worst enemy at that time this time i decided to study in academy with my friends where they also study. In start everything was fine studying there properly and then my friend started bunking and every day they go in snooker club to play until school bus time and i started same. Sometime i miss my bus just coz i don't want to go there and back to home and use mobile my mother started noticing and she warn me if this time same thing happened then it will be not good for me . 2nd term results *I got failed in* *****2 subject***** *and they asked me to pay 1000 rs then you will get* ***admission*** *form for* ***final exams****.* *I don't have money and can't tell my family and other* ***friends*** *there saw students* ***changing*** *their results and taking* ***admission*** *form by giving fake* ***results****.* *I did same thing and got my* ***admission*** *form* ***without paying*** *any fine.* **I didn't expected this thing is going to destroy my 2 years of studies.** After final exams results **Now result's arrived got supply in chemistry of 10th and now I've to collect my mark sheet from college.** **Guess what happened** Thing they did with me and wasted my 2 years *When i reached their* ***students*** *are in line and* ***depositing*** *money to get mark sheet* *They are those who* ***changed*** *their results and i didn't* ***expected*** *this will going to* ***happen****.* *When i reached to them and asked them to give me mark sheet to* ***re appear*** *in fail* ***exam*** *to take* ***admission*** *in next class.* *They asked me to pay* *****1500***** *fine to mark sheet i was like from where I'll get* ***money*** *and why I'm* ***studying*** *here or it's not their job to take fine with students as it is government college and they are doing their own* ***business****.* *I almost go* ***regular*** *15 days to take my mark sheet almost every time when i go their to take my sheet the* ***person*** *who has was not* ***present*** *and after 2 weeks i was able to* ***meet*** *with the* ***person*** *who is giving it.*

But what happened When i pay *****1500***** and get my **mark sheet** he asked me to go to **federal board** with triple fine and **submit** your from to re appear in **exam** I literally started crying there and ask him to take **mark sheet** back coz i knew it from where i will get **money** and it was last **day**. Started **crying** loudly and what he said to me : he asked me its too late you should think it when you **changed** your **mark sheet**. After **hearing** this words i left college crying whole way to stop and when i **reached** my home i asked my **mom** what happened and i said I'm not going to waste my **money** coz we know how much **effort** and **hardworking** was required to **earn** this amount. From then i asked her to I'll re **appear** in next year just to clear one subject and will **continue** with my **job** till then. After this next year **corona** pandemic arrive and my **grandfather** was at Karachi and he was sick my **family** moved to **Karachi**. I already **submitted** my re **appearing** form and when date sheet arrived my **grandfather** **brother** was also there and he was coming again here coz he also **live** here. And i lived *****1***** **month** in their house and **exams** got canceled and they give me **passing** marks . From then my **interest** in study loss and I'm now way **behind** from others Before ending i want to share a screenshot i take previous week

yes this msg is **received** in 2021 after 1 year **hats** of to them Must drop some motivation words in comment which will make me to stand up again Fin.