Ang Nasa Isipan: Nakakawala ng gana.
Where did I go wrong? What Did I do something wrong? Why they don't like me? This is the questions that keep appearing in my head all the times, I can't help it but to ask myself "Where, Why, and What".
Jealousy is a big part of ourlife, especially to the people who don't want you to see being above them. Yes, jealousy can do a lot of things. Jealousy can make you suffer and can make your life not easier.
Ang ingay dito sa bahay, sobrang ingay rin ng kapaligiran ko. May sisigaw doon, may sisigaw dito, sa totoo lang feeling ko walang lulugaran pagiging tahimik ng utak ko.
I just want to have a rest, walang ingay, walang kahit ano na pwede makapagpagulo ng utak ko. Hindi ko rin masuway mga tao dito, the more na sinasabihan the more na matitigas ang ulo. Minsan ako pa yung napapagalitan, sasabihin lumayas nalang daw ako o humanap ng tirahan.
As if naman, kung may pera lang ako baka naghanap ako ng boardinghouse eh.
Di naman ako busy, wala ring ginagawa. Pero nasapoint ako ngayon na tamad ako sa lahat, tinatamad ako umitindi, tinatamad ako magnigay ng pansin sa lahat at tinatamad ako pansinon yung nga bagay-bagay. Ultimo pagsusulat nawawalan narin ako ng gana, di naman sa literal na walang gana pero to the point na tinatamad lang talaga ako or maybe may pinakamalalim na reason pa kung bakit.
Yung about naman sa desisyon ko, napagusapan namin na itake ko nalang daw as opportunity yung pagalis ko dito.
Gusto ko magtapos ng pagaaral, pero di pa umaayon panahon sakin kasi the more na gusto ko mas the more na pinapakita ng panahon na unahin ko muna magulang ko, sa ngayon iniisip ko responsibilidad ko sakanila.
Di naman nakakatamad mabuhay o ano paman, sadyang kailangan ko lang rin muna matutunang tumayo sa sarili kong paa para sa sarili ko at para sakanila. Di ko man mabigyan ng kasagutan lahat, pero di magaan at di rin to mabigat sa pakiramdam. Kung pwede ngalang sana magkaroon ng kahilingan, hiling ko lang sana maging maayos lahat.
Sabi ng jowa ko, may mga kapatid naman ako pero bakit di daw nila tinutulungan si daddy? Yung reason naman nun is di nila ako tanggap as kapatid dahil anak ako sa katulong, siguro naiinggit sila kasi yung atensyon ni dad nasakin.
Mukhang magpapublish ako ng rant ngayon ah, mukhang dito ko nalamg rin ilalabas saloobin ko.
Diba, di naman masama tumanggap ng tulong? Di rin masama magtake ng isang bagay at gawing opportunity, pero nakokonsensya ako, dahil sakin may tao na isesetaside yung pangarap para muna tulungan ako. Mahal na mahal ko yun. Gusto ko sya kontrahin pero wala akong magawa kasi onpoint sya magsalita, tama naman siya. Sino bang tutulong saakin? Wala, ako lang at sarili ko.
Wala akong ibang pwedeng asahan kundi sarili ko lang lalo na at iisang anak lang, wala akong pwedeng panigan na iba kundi sarili ko lang kasi sarili nalang rin ang meron ako. Sa gulo ng mundo pati utak ko gumugulo.
Kapag iniisip ko na may mga responsibilidad ako na gagampanan para sa pamilya ko, at kapag iniisip ko sila di ko maiwasang wag umiyak. Di ko rin maiwasan na wag maiyak kasi alam ko mismo sa sarili ko yung hirap na pinagdadaanan namin.
Nagpapadala naman ate ko, 5k perweek. Pero sa 5k nayan kulang pa, kung wala dito anak ng ate di rin naman siya magpapadala ng pera.
May pension si dad, pero nakasanla ATM nya kaya wala kaming makuha each month. Mababa lang pension ni dad, 4-5k lamg natatanggap na permonth at sa nakasanlang ATM napupunta kaya need talaga naming magtipid.
Buti nga, kahit papaano may naiipon ako. Sakto narin yung bagay nayun kapag aalis na ako, need ko lang na wag magalaw lalo na at minsan may gustong bilhin nanay ko at kapag diko maibigay nagagalit. Gusto ko man maglabas ng saloobin sakaniya, wala rin akong choice since mas di niya ako maiintindihan.
Although gusto ko magopen up sakanila na medyo napapagod ako sa lahat at nawawalan ng energy, problema alam ko rin na malabong maintindihan nila punto ko. Di nila ako maiintindihan at mas lalong di nila megegets yung sasabihin ko. Swerte ko na sa part na di rin sila disapprove sa part na may flight na ako papuntang Baguio, nakausap ko narin sila. Sinabi nila na okay lang daw kung para naman sa ikakabuti ko, di ko rin pwede iasa lahat sa ate ko dahil baka may sumbatang maganap sa huli so much better nang tugunan ko na muna lahat ng responsibilidad at pangangailangan para sa part nayan matulungan ko sila.
Jusko, iguide sana ako ng nasaitaas. Wala akong alam sa magiging buhay at magiging results ng mga pwede mangyare. Pero nagpapasalamat parin ako sa mga tao na andyan para maintindihan at ingatan ako, para tulungan at gabayan ako. Madaming salamat sainyo.
Pasensya na, eto lang ang maisusulat ko muna sa ngayon. Munting karangalan saakin ang inyong pagdalaw.
Sabi nila..
Wag ko daw muna pagtuunan ng pansin lahat, bigay ko daw best ko, bigay ko daw lahat ng kaya ko. Wag daw ako susuko at wag tatalikod, sure daw sila na sa oagalis ko isang bagong buhay yung naghihintay sakin sa aking papatunguhan, ang swerte ko na sa part na sobrang supportive sila sa bagay na ito.
Sa financial problem.
Napagusapan narin namin to, magbibigay si dad ng konting tulong sakin bago ako umalis para pangdagdag sa kung ano man gagastusan. Sabi nga ng jowa ko, hayaan ko daw muna yung gastos sakaniya until sa magkatrabaho ako. Sana nga magkawork agad ako na wala pang 2weeks mismo sa Baguio, ayaw ko abutin ng matagal na wala parin.
Any work will do basta magkaroon.
Mga bagay na need ko pa iconsider.
Eto talaga eh, iniisip ko to eh tulad ng anong mga bagay ba mga kailangan ko munang iconsider? Meron ba? Kasi alam ko oo pero di ko sure kung ano..
Author's Note
Sobrang walang kabuluhan article ko ngayon, puro worries yung laman. Diko alam kung tutuloy ko paba pagsusulat ko o titigil nako, kung may kasagutan man sana please enlighten my mind, I really need the exact answer about it.
11-14-21
By: GyraG.
What Does Song Lyrics Means To Me?
Do you guys love songs? Today, I will make an article which is full of song lyrics and with explaination each of them. I hope you guys like it.
When Hugh Grant, and Haley Bennett said, "***I've been looking for someone to shed some light, not somebody just to get me through the night***".
I was looking into someone who will fulfill the love that I am wishing for. Someone who will understand me, and someone who will appreciate me. Its something that I didn't expect but suddenly appear in the most unexpected moment. I still remember when I wish to find a person who will going to understand my family background and also my life, not the person who just want me just because they need something. And last February 14, 2021, I accidentally meet someone who fulfilled all of my hopes, and that person..is the one who giving me strength to go on.
**Song Title: Way Back Into Love.**
When Sheryn said, "***You tell yourself you believe, that in every feat. It takes a heart to endure, all the pains and grief***"
And I realized which situation I am in right now. Maybe I hate my life because of my family, my parents, and everyone who's near me. But yes, I always telling myself that no matter how worst the situation is I should go on and not to give up. I should fight back and do the best that I can, maybe the word "Giving up" is in my option. But it doesn't mean I will give up, I'll endure everything right now..and in the next, I am the one who will wins all the fight in life. So I'll keep fighting.
**Song Name: Follow Your Dreams.**
When Brent said, "***Don't listen to the voice inside your head, you're doing just fine, you're trying your best. if no one ever told you, it's all gonna be okay.***"
sometimes, we do everything on our own despite of having a bad day or worst day. The result is good, the result wasn't bad, and result is not what we hate for but it's our mindset. But the line was correct, if we listen to the voice inside ourhead, we are the one who'll be defeated. We doing our best, so the result is fine. This song reminds me of the people who's on myside whenever I'm having a bad day. You guys knew that, you already know who you are. All the readers and the friendship that I build in this platform is one of the reason why I am still standing until now. Thank you.
**Song Name: Gonna Be Okay.**
When Corey said, "***If I hold onto the memories, and use them to guide me. Will you be right here, beside me?***"
It reminds me of my grandma, I'm always holding on my grandma's memory back when she was still alive. It keeps me alive. I know I'm not in a good terms with my parents, but I am hoping that they can see all of my sacrifices for them. I'm doing this for best, not for myself but for them.
**Song name: Hold Onto The Memories.**
Do you guys notice that someone we do funny things that we're not aware? Like being floated or being forgetful. Most of us experiencing this 🤣. I've been really forgetful this oast few days and barely understand what am I thinking, like I'm thinking of something and whenever I want to spill it out here we go again. We will suddenly forget it and we will start thinking again about what we were thinking 🤣
Ahh those moments 🤣.
So how's everyone? Today I'm done doing one of my online lesson and I still have 7 lessons to go that I need to answer and submit them on friday.
One of my teacher was so strict, she were giving us 10 activities per day and the deadline was on the same day. It's not that I'm complaining but she's not the only one who's giving us activities 😅. Maybe she can consider one of her activities and let her student rest.
I still prefer face to face than this.
Author's Note.
The problems don't want me to escape 🤣. Aww, so heart touching 🤣. By the way, I hope everyone is alright today! Thankyou so much @ZehraSky for the huge upvoteee. And super thank you to the users who's dropping by! Sending my love to all!
11-10-21
By: OfficialGamboaLikeUs
Hey, it's me. OfficialGamboaLikeUs: A Weird Mindset and My Concerns.
Let's talk about something today. We only have 1 month left before 2022, this year become a survival year, huh?
A lot of problems appeared crimes, laws, elections, and common problems that everyone's had. But, what are the most Unpredictable things that happen? Maybe, soon we will find out what that thing is or we already know that because it happened to us already.
So let me share with you what's on my mind, and why did I call it weird.
I've been thinking about why we can't eat the clouds and what it taste like.
I know it's funny, but sometimes I was wondering if we can eat the clouds or not, or it taste delicious or what. I can't get rid of it in my mind what the cloud taste like 😭, sometimes I'm just wishing that someone will going to sell them but in a low price.
Why there's no any car made by chocolate that we can drive.
Okay, okay..I know it's impossible okay? I love food and this things was wandering inside my head for almost many years. Sometimes I'm imagining that there is a car made by a chocolate and we can eat it. But how can we supposed to eat a car made by a metal? Hehehe. Nothing, it was just a mindset where Am I supposed not to think about it.
Why there is no candy tree.
Am I always thinking about food? Yes, always I think. So, I was wondering why there is no tree that made in candy. Yes yes, it's impossible, I know 🤣.
A ballpen who can read your mind.
To be honest, sometimes I'm hoping for something like this. It's lazy to write in a notebook sometimes and I just want to think and think and think and hoping that what am I thinking will suddenly appear in a book.
Why the sky don't have a rainbow color.
This oneeee, I'm asking myself sometimes like "Why the sky have a color blue, orange and pink sometimes but it doesn't have a rainbow color? Don't you think it will be great if they have that color? Yes, I know it would be nice but at the same time it was impossible.
***I know it's weird but..***
Sometimes I was thinking about things that is impossible.
**Like zombies.**
I love zombie movies, the first time I watch them it was a movie from Resident Evil, since then I'm became fan of a zombie movie. I know it is super impossible to happen but sometimes I'm dreaming about it like there is a zombie everywhere and I'm hiding from it.
**An item who can read our minds.**
I don't know if this thing is existing or not, but having this is good right? Like we can read someone's mind using that gadget, like a glass. A glass who has its own earphone and when we plug it in we can hear everything around us. Here we go again in this crazy imagination 🤣.
**Hey, I wanna share something.**
I've been too worried this past few days. What if I destroy someone's plan? What if because of me I destroy someone's goal? Uhm, here it is why..
Actually, it's not that I'm avoiding those people who wants to help me or who wants to do anything for me. It's just I'm too worried that maybe I'm the reason why they can't proceed to their goal because they still need to help me, uhm it's not against to them that they were helping me but my question is...why? Why me? Am I being too negative? I guess yes. I feel like I'm too negative to the point where I want to disapprove and to disagree about anything.
It's not against my will that my cousin book a flight for me to go to the Baguio, since she said my mental health is more important than anything. And my partner have plan to go abroad next year but the problem is I'm going to the place if where she was and she just can't leave me there since I'm not familiar in her place.
I already told her about that, about what I'm worrying to. And she said, maybe her plan going abroad next year is not for her so she plan to stay here any longer. But for me, it's not the reason. She told me that she wanted to help me because she's worried also about my mental health.
But that's not my point, my point is I'm out of their responsibilities but why? Why they want to help me despite of everything? Why they want to catch the responsibilities that's not for them at the first place? I know they're out of it. I'm not their responsibilities but still, they want to catch it. I'm not their priority also but they are prioritizing me. I didn't do anything for them, but they said I've done too much and I do everything that I can until now..and my cousin said, it's time for her to Payback.
What worrying me is, I don't want them to set aside their goal just because of me. It's already against my will that they set aside their goal and chose to help me first. It's against my will that they set aside it because the reason they had is about my mental health . I know it's a valid reason why..but for me no... it's isn't.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much, yes maybe.
Well, thank you for dropping by. I appreciate you all.
Author's Note
I know it's not against their will..but I'm just worried because they set aside their goal and choose to help me first instead of choosing their own happiness. So it's really against my will and I want an answer.
Thankyou so much ate @Bloghound for keeping your support, thank you so much ❣️ I appreciate everything from all of you guys and also thankyou @ExpertWritter for the huge upvote. May the God bless everyone.
11-9-21
By: GyraG.
Madaming salamat po @Sweetiepie sa walang humpay na pagsuporta ❣️ madaming salamat talaga ate.
Those Are Bad Days, Stop Pouring It To Others.
You always not in the mood, always struggling, always angry. You want others to understand what you feel but neither you, you can't understand what you really feel. You always ended up shouting to others, telling them that they can't understand you without knowing you're not the only one who experienced the same case.
But why do you think this is happening? Maybe because you're having a bad day, lack or sleep, being stress or depressed or rather anxiety is eating you.
But keep on mind that no matter how bad the situation is, you still can't shout to others. You can't blame the world either and you can't blame everything around you. What is the purpose that you alive, when you not experiencing this way?
Who told you life is easy? They said, a small life task can change everything. 'can you figure out what life task is that?
Look, no one likes having a bad day. No one likes having a rough day. But, why are gou blaming the world? The world don't have anything against you, the world didn't do something wrong about you. You, you just the one who's making your life more complicated.
Whether we accept it or not, but there's a peoppe who will scold someone just because they feel upset, they're not in the mood and they can't handle the pain that they feel. We don't need to act like that, take a deep breath and keep on mind that no one wants to have a bad day, that no one wants to have a rough day. It's only a trial where our mood is put into some test to learn something.
***But wait, if you ask to learn something ..what are those things?***
Learn to be calm despite having a bad day.
most of us can't keep theit mood calm is someone is talking to us. It is where you anger will suddenly blown out and it will end up scolding someone against our will, and that's also where we can't handle our emotions and also that's where we became not aware from our actions.
To practice our mind that having a bad day is not bad either.
why did I say this? Because, that's where we realized that having a bad day is something that we don't need to avoid. It's a trial that's testing our mood right? So after the trial expect the happiness or a lucky things that will come. Someone I love having a bad day, but for me sometimes no xd.
To think that you're not the only one who's experiencing the same way.
Most of time when we not on the mood, we didn't notice about our action or what action did we make. What if we scolded someone who's suffering from their problems, instead of cheering them of? What if we suddenly say things that is against from us and suddenly realized it? We're the one who's affected again right? We will blame ourself afterwards, we will blame our actions and it will end up in hating our inner self.
***How can we avoid it?***
Be aware of our actions, not all the time we will let the anger eat us or having a bad mood teach us what we can't be. There's a possibility that because of anger we might hurt someone's feeling and end up killing their ownself or will end up having a depression. There are people who can't keep their wings.
**Who's that people?**
Someone who mean to us, someone who love us and someone who shows their care to us and etc. When we angry, we end up saying things that's really hurt them..we end up saying bad things which is we should hold up, something that cannot solve by saying sorry or explaining it. Because, their feelings is their feelings. We can't change that, or erase it on someone's mind which is one of a valid reason why we don't need to pour our anger into something that we not mean to.
WELL BEFORE WE END LET ME TELL YOU A STORY.
Naalala ko nung sumakay ako ng jeep noon, tapos di ko alam ano nasaisipan ko. Naybayad ako e, supposed to be Christ The King bababaan ko, eh pagbayad ko inaso nako if saan ako bababa tas yung katabi ko may pinapakinggan tas sabi "Praise the Lord, Praise the lord" justo mga sis, kesa na christ the king sabihin ko nasagot ko ng **"Praise the Lord po manong".** Edi ung ibang pasahero nagtinginan tas ako deadma, nagtataka ako bat may nagtatawanan e. Narealize ko bigla simabi ko nung bumiyahe nako sa pangalawang terminal pauwi samen :).
Author's Note.
Hi everyone! So it's me OfficialGamboaLikeUs at your service. I'm just relate to this topic that I made days ago HAHAHAHA. It's really relatble tho, like having a bad day is teaching us to scold someone and to be angry with then even if we didn't mean that. We can't say sorry either or explain it because we already said it and we already hurt someone, that's happened to me while ago while I was so stressed. I can't keep mg mood up so I ended up scolding someone who's not meant to be scolded. I feel sorry but I can't take it back.
Well, hope everyone is doing a best day! Godbless.
11-7-21
By: GyraG.
How's My Day Going?
All of us wake up being too energetic or tired, it depends on what we do last day or this past few days. Some of us are lack sleep and some of us will be just sleeping right now.
But today, I woke up feeling tired and not okay. Maybe because of my monthly period and I was bleeding for almost 2 weeks and 5 days now. I have no idea about my health issue, but sometimes I'm worried about what if I get admitted again because of loss of blood.
*I hate my health issue at home.*
So today, let me share with you what I do after waking up.
**I wake up at 7:00 AM**
Usually, I'm waking up early at 7 but today I feel tired and not okay. I feel like a headache is waving at me, by the way...I watch movies last night and maybe that's one of the reasons why I lack sleep.
I told my teacher that I'm not feeling well so that I'm excused from her class, I feel sorry for my absence but I need to rest. But how am I supposed to rest if I'll go to the town to update ng voter's certificate?
*Okay so let's go back to the topic.*
After waking up, I do light exercises for 5mins just to restore my energy a little bit.
I go out of my room and eat my fast, and after that, I check ng Gmail if there are any school works that I need to do and yeah, there are too many schools works and hard copies that I need to pass online and at school.
**I play with my 2 dogs.**
So this is one of my daily routines which is I will call both of them and I'll be playing with them. It's just a stress reliever because I feel like I'm stressed after waking up.
One of my dogs is super naughty, he loves trolling around and my mother was always spoiling him.
**Getting ready for today.**
And because today will need so much work, I take a bath all ready and dressed up for meeting up with one of my friends who transferred away from the province where the two of us are from.
She's in her 2nd year also and has 1 child which is a boy. She's one of my good friends who used to be one of my comforters before.
I'm getting excited about seeing her since it was already 5 years since the last we saw each other. She still didn't change, she had a lot of text mates 🤣.
**The Philpost Office**
We lost our way while looking where the Phil-post is, we thought it was inside of the municipal office but they're kinda far away from the office and we need to head back again.
She's very talkative, I miss how talkative she was since it has been a year already. I've missed her a lot.
**Way On Jollibee.**
While we are on our way going to Jollibee, we noticed a lot of teenagers taking stolen pictures in the plaza. I don't know them but looks like they are just wandering around. Yet, it's not funny because they will take a picture then laugh it off.
When we are on Jollibee, we talk a lot about what's happening in our life. I get to see one of my old friends again who used to be my classmate when I was in elementary and high school.
**When I got home, I do some of the house chores.**
After I got home, I rest a little bit and then do some of the house chores like changing pillowcases, and later at night, I will go to wash them. Maybe I'll sleep after I published this.
I feel sleepy and tired, yet full of energy again but IDK. I feel like I'm full of energy but yet I feel drained. I just want to sleep all day.
By the way, one of my friends last day got her Phil-post ID and she only pays 540php, I go there earlier and ask how much I need to pay when getting postal ID but the staff told me 850php, to be honest, I'm shocked why last day it was 540 and today it was 850..*may kurakot bang nagaganap?*
So Let's have a small storytime
My auntie saws me waiting for a car outside because I'm going to the market, it is where I will meet my friend. She asked me if I had a date and I told her that, "**No, I'm just meeting a friend**". But she just laugh and said, "**Meeting a friend or meeting someone? Seems like you're denying something**".
By the way, I feel insulted by how she talked, I feel insulted like, why would she ask me if she had an answer already even if it's wrong? She can stick with what she has on her mind than minding someone's business. I'm not even doing anything wrong and what I do like meeting an old friend of mine is not wrong also. She's a girl and she has a child, *maigi Sana Kung lalake.*
I also hear what she said like, "**you can stay inside of your house naman than going outside, wala namang kwenta**", ey ey ey. Something is not correct, I'm the type of person where I don't go outside without permission from my parents and I'm not the type of girl where I'm always outside 🙄. I just go to the Philpot office because I need my ID before going to Baguio next June, so there's wrong with it pala eh?
But, to be honest? I hate how she judge someone without asking, maybe she's asking but yet she'll not believe what you said. That's what the real insult is there lmao.
Feeling Good eh?
She's always doing that...I feel sorry for the people who judge by her. I hope she change.
Author's Note
Today is really rainy. I forgot my umbrella again somewhere and when my mother finds it out I know I'll get scolded again. I feel sorry for the umbrella.
I always forget about my umbrella, not until someone will tell me about that.
Buy the way, don't forget to bring your umbrella guys when it's rainy! Also, don't forget it somewhere like me 🤣.
Nov 4,2021
By: GyraG.
My Family's Characteristics: Good and Bad Sides.
Hey, it's me. Creating a new account is a challenge for me since I love my old account and I have a lot of memories there.
I know beginning with nothing again is hard but this is better than nothing.
In this new account, I hope rusty noticed me already because it's really hard to leave one account to create a new one. But yeah, let's set aside that first.
So because I have no topic today, let me share you anout my family's characteristics 🤣
I ask my partner about what topic will I write last day andnshe told me to write the characteristics of my family 🤣 so here it goes.
**Mama sang.**
This is the partner of my auntie, she’s kind sometimes but most of all times it’s a prank. I really hate her, why? She had a dog before and she ket it die by not giving the dog a food to eat. Whenever I give her dog a food she’ll get angry and here we go..the world war 1234567890 starts again inside the house.
Bad sides: she always killing her pet.
Good sides: I don’t see any good sides of her even those times I’m still living on My auntie’s house.
Lany.
This person loves to stay inside her room all the time and I didn’t see her go out, I don’t know what is her blood related to mama sang but they seemed close. Lol, my auntie don’t even care about lany’s life but when it comes to us she’ll get angry all the time and says random things that doesn’t make sense.
Bad Side: chismosa sometimes.
Good Side: she’s also quiet sometimes.
Kyeopta.
well some of you knows her because she’s one of the inactive writers here in readcash, well she’s good enough because she’s also the one who booked a ticket for me. What a good girl right? By the way, whoever don’t have a lovelife here I recommend her to you.
Bad side: she loves cursing other.
Good side: she’s generous and kind.
Olet.
So this girl is one of a gossip member of my family, yes. She loves gossiping. She always do that and sometimes you’ll not surprise anymore if you have a new life story that is not related to your real life. She’s toxic tho, she hate it when someone is entering her life but she loves entering other people’s life. How weird?
Bad side: gossip here, gossip there, gossip everywhere.
Good side: nah, she’s maldita.
Merlyn.
She really have a good characteristic, she’s not materialistic tho and she’s helping me whenever I need a hand. She’s also one of my news reporter when there has a new life story Which is super different from the original story of my life. Ang chismosa ng mga tao dito ano pangaba?
Bad Sides: I don’t see her badside
Good side: she don’t care about gossips and fake news.
Tita Didi
so she is the child of my grandma’s sister, she already 80 now and she really love social media. She’s also noisy but not in a way where she can hurt someone. Uhm no, she’s good enough to copy someone’s attitude. She’s also a retired teacher from the school where I go now.
Bad Side: None, she’s so energetic despite of her age.
Good Side: super friendly xd
Linda.
She’s also love gossiping. Whenever she see things that’s just put on the table she’ll get it and throw away without asking 🤣. She hate garbage and also she really love customizing things around the house 🤣
Good and Bad sides? Be a seer.
Crisal
So this is my father’s younger sister, actually I don’t hate her at the same time I hate her. She’s too perfectionism, she loves stepping down into someone’s life if she saw you in a worst situation. She’ll gonna compare her life and your life to her, she loves expecting more than what you can really do and it’s bringing me into the worst reality where she insulted me during those times that she figured out that I didn’t take the course that she love.
Zeng.
aww, this is the most lovable cousin that I ever had. She’s the older sister of Kyeopta, what I hate about her is she’s too clingy.
What do you think about my family? sometimes they are good but most of the times they’re not. Let’s just pretend that it’s not hurt anymore when they try to suffocate someone again 🤣. That’s their life, but I really hate it if how they show their attitude towards others.
*For the additional in this article, let me share some questions and answer from me, I have this on my account for almost a month but unable to publish this.*
**Hi everyone! it's me at your service.**
Tell me about myself.
I am the type of person where I love socializing but also a quiet type of person at the same time.
I'm not confident when it comes to other things like solving math, or numbers because I struggle when I answer them.
But above that, I'm a person who loves being in a new experience and who loves gaining more life lessons. Well, as we know gaining life lessons helps us to build ourselves 🤣.
What Am I Expecting In Myself In The Next Few Months, or Years?
I'm expecting myself to be more confident in the next few months or years.
it's hard for me to gain confidence in something that I'm messing up. Just like trying to be close with everyone because I felt like I'm not attractive and maybe they call me feeling a close person.
And I'm expecting myself to be more vulnerable than before.
Am I Wishing For Something?
Yes, I'm not selfish or what but I'm praying for my happiness. I've been through a lot since I was a child and it seems like happiness is running away from me.
And one of my wishes is to create something new from me, out of my comfort zone.
But the most wish that I have is that I'm praying no one will change especially on the things that I have right now.
What Am I Afraid Of?
Actually, I'm not afraid of anything. These past few weeks I'm afraid that maybe I can't able to express how much pain I feel because of my mother. I have no problem with her but only her childish attitude. Yes, my mother is kinda childish when it comes to the things that she wanted but she didn't get any of it since I don't want it..but she throws a tantrum every time I said no to her.
I'm afraid of losing my happiness just because I love them so much. I already let myself be in pain. I hope she can understand that sooner.
What My Happiness Is?
I'm happy in a single things, like watching funny movies or reading any comedy stories. My happiness is not that deep so sometimes I'm that open to everything.
One of my happiness is writing through notebook, I have one box of diaries here since I was a child. Maybe I'll share them here soon, but ofcourse it's for happiness only 🤣
And one of my happiness is searching random things in youtube, like raw food asmr, modded games HAHAHAHA. Modded games is the center of my happiness in my phone since I hate doing my best for level up 🤣
Author's Note
So today, I didn't do anything good. I have this problem where I'm bleeding for almost 2 weeks and 4 days and It still didn't stop. There's nothing wrong about it since I'm taking pills, what pissing me is I feel so tired everyday and unable to finish my day task because I feel uneasy.
And today, I was thinking if I will share on of my weight loss journey update again. Well, it's hard for me for about this weight loss since I can't eat all of the food that I wanted 🤣. although I don't have a choice but to follow what my obgyne told me.
Do planking, light exercise everyday is the worst nightmare that I had since I need to wake up early 🙃. But yeah, self discipline is a must..they said.
Nov 3, 2021
By: GyraG.
@GyraG.