Got myself check and guess what...
September 15, 2022
Hello to my passionate co-writers of the site. How are you doing all? It's been days that I was away, as far as I remember because I was and still in pain. I have a severe pain on my back, down to my butt and legs. The pain really stop me from doing something. It was a sharp and intense pain. I have this pain since last week. Earlier, I decided to have myself check with a general doctor.
I went to a clinic near our work. Good thing we have health insurance because I am running out of money for this week. Last night, I was really worried and had a slight panic attacks. I can feel I was not okay. I even had chills but with no fever. I assumed I have UTI because most of the reason why we have back pains is because we are dehydrated. When we do not drink water, we can have UTI because water flush away bacterias and some impurities out of our body. There will be a buildup of bacteria in our body if we are not drinking water. That buildup can cause us to have pains or our body signals that there is something wrong with us when we feel pain.
I know this eversince because UTI is always my illness, but I am still stubborn to drink water. I am not a water person. Even if you leave a water container by my side, I will still forget to drink it.
So I went to a clinic and got myself check. I had a laboratory and just before two hours, I got my results and guess what, its shocking!
I have UTI. Sorry, it's not shocking, lol.
UTI or Urinary Tract Infection is an infection in the urinary part of the body. These are kidney, urethra, bladder and ureters. Some says "oh it's just UTI, you don't have to worry", but it's not. When you have UTI and you didn't try to cure it, it can lead to kidney problems. I know a friend who have kidney stones because of eating salty foods and fried foods. I don't want to be like her. As much as possible, while healing, I don't want to be just like before. I want to make drinking waiter as a habit. I should have water always by my side, ready to drink and I need to remember that.
Having UTI is never a joke. There is a growing bacteria that is roaming around our body. It could cause cancer of there are build up also.
I bought the prescripted drugs. Ciprofloxacin is the antibiotics that I will be drinking two times a day for seven days. Celecoxib is for pain. I told you I have severe back pain. I think this one is effective as the pain lessens. I have difficulty in sitting, standing and walking. I can only have relief when I am lying down. Now, I can move but still the pain is still there to endure.
I even bought cranberry juice because this is very useful for me. It can cure UTI too. It is proven. Now I realize, I just include cranberry in my diet and lessen intake of coffee to survive this. I cannot eliminate coffee because I am an addict of coffee but I can lessen the intake.
Now, I hope it will go well with me as I don't have plans of using my vacation and sick leave for the rest of Ber months as I am using that for next year's savings. I hope the medicine will able to cure me. I promise I will never be the same stubborn monster of the past when it comes to my health.
My advise to you guys is to drink water. Please always remember that it is vital to drink water as it flush away bad bacteria inside our body. Don't get sick. Please always be healthy!!
Hi guys, before ending this, please follow me on Noise App. I want to leave a comment on your post. I learned that you cannot message someone if you don't follow each other. Thanks.
This is my link https://noise.app/GrecyG
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Sino sa inyo naka ramdam na nito? Kasi parang 2 weeks na akong ganito, parang maduduwal, pero hindi naman araw-araw. Hindi po ako buntis, impossible po hehe. Then sobrang sakit ng likod ko, from back to pwet to legs. Uti lang kaya ito? Nag woworry kasi ako baka mas grabe.
This doggie is so cute. I had a hair trimming in a nearest salon and that dog saw me. It seems he like me. I am not sure if he is a male or female dog so let's us assume. He seems to get bored. She is really cute.
I am my Own Bully
September 12, 2022
Hello everyone! As usual, I am still late in making this article because I had a Me time earlier. I also have an intense pain from my lower back, to my butt, down to my legs. When I sit down, it is hard. It is more harder when I stand up from sitting. I cannot walk comfortably too. Now I am worried how will I commute in this situation?Do you have any idea what is happening on me? Sciatic nerve or sprain is the nearest to the symptoms and some of my friends are thinking I have slip disc. It will only be answered with a visit to a doctor.
Yesterday, I was cleaning the storage of my phone and I saw some of my selfie. I really cringe of what I look like. I am not confident with what I look like. I always think I look awful that is why I do not try to change or I will change and be inspired to do it, but I will stop in the middle when I am seeing no progress.
I look awful!
That is the word I describe myself yesterday. I was even laughing at myself because I a person who doesn't know how to selfie. For sure in the future, I will make a selfie that is either I am capturing my back, or I will put my hands in my face to hide it. To be honest, I am not really look awful but compare to my good looking friends, I am. I look like I don't care about myself. Some says I look okay, but I want to look good. Unfortunately, I cannot see it.
I notice I am my own Bully
While deleting mostly my selfies, and laughing at myself from what I look like, I realized that I am my own Bully. I am bully myself. My friends bully me in a funny way, yet they are the ones that uplift me. Too sad that I am hard on myself. I am talk to myself harshly. I told you I am a pessimistic person and I can only function when I am feeling negative. When I am positive minded, I will just wait for something to happen, i will now work hard to achieve something. Because of that, I even influence my mind to believe that I am not worth of a beauty.
I thought I already Overcome this..
I thought I already overcome this. I have some selfies that I feel happy because I look good but the selfies I saw yesterday were forced and the smile is not genuine. I think I just do it because I saw someone's selfie and I try to do it, but it doesn't look good on me. What I need is to work on myself not comparing myself to others. I need to believe that everyone of us are truly unique and we have our own beauty. I need to believe that I have that too.
Working on mind setting
I was watching Memo 2021 and I read on subtitle when Jhope of BTS told the members that their mindset is wrong. There was something that had happened that lead them to making mistakes, but it was a funny one. Then Jhope said, "your mindset is wrong". I realized that words are for me too. My mindset is wrong. I need to work on my mindset slowly and learn to know how to love myself. However, I know I love myself. I make myself happy. I make myself satisfied. My only problem is the lack of confidence to bring myself up and to stop bullying my own self whenever there are good things that is happening around me and it is not happening on me.
Need to change the way I talk to myself
I already have a solution to this poor mindset I have. Since I talk to myself all the time (only in mind), I need to change the dialogue. I don't have the series of dialogue but I have the simplest for now and that is what I will be saying to myself every morning.
***" No matter what happens to you, good or bad, you are worthy of life and love. No matter what you look like, you are unique. What you are now, is the best version of yourself. Keep up the good work"***
That came from me. That is what I accomplished yesterday after bullying myself. I feel sad from what I am doing with myself and I get tired of having it as a habit. I will not promise I will get heal soon, but my healing process will be slow but magical.
Before I end this, I was laughing wholeheartedly about what my BFF Diane told me on the chat earlier. She said that her Vacation leave on December 4, this year, is already approved. I was shock to know that, but when I realized what it is all about, I blurted a laughter and chatted her back, cursing her in a funny way. She said she looks like a wife that preparing for her husband's birthday. If you are a BTS fan, you know who's birthday on December 4. Someone is turning 30 years old!! It is no other than Seok Jin of BTS. Anyway, we need to celebrate Jimin's birthday first, lol.
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This is steamed shrimp that we bought from Causeway. Causeway is a restaurant in Banawe Qc. It taste sweet and the shrimps are all fresh!!
Guys, I don't know what is happening to me. I feel pain from my lower back to my butt to my legs. I cannot sit for long and when I sit then I have to stand up it is very challenging because of the intense pain. What do you think is happening to me? Is this slip disc?
These are my comfort food and my comfort place is RKive cafe, where I can spend most of the time withy friends and I will be one with my favorite BTS members.
Just had a good time visiting this new cafe of my dear friend and I guess some of the designs on the wall is the subject of my future post. It is a good energy to have met good people.
Any update??
September 9, 2022
Hello my passionate co-writers of this site, how are you all doing? I just got home and was reading my notification. I missed the site. Just yesterday, I able to register on the new Noise.app. I posted my link on Noise.cash account of mine (Joocha) if you want the link. First 25 members can used that link.
By the way, any update? Any update about what happened to sis Pachuchay? I am kind of worried because when I saw her picture on Noise, it brings me to the time when my father was in the hospital. I had the same feeling and I realize I am still traumatised by what happened in 2017. My anxiety got severe because of that. When I saw the tube on my father's mouth, the pain is so intense I want to die instantly. Now I am feeling down again. I hope my prayers will save sis Pachuchay. That's the only thing I can do for her and I will seriously, religiously pray for her.
Any update?
Back to the topic because this is the real topic. "Any update" is the most used words at work. Once my manager call on me from local number and ask "Any update?", she means a complete story and history of what concerns us, like problems and complains at work.
The sad part is, we all know that we are all human being prone to mistake but still some people are feasting (unli buffet) on your mistakes. My manager loves to know the truth first from us. She will ask the facts, but she will only remember our mistakes and never the reason why we made such mistakes. Not all problems at work started from us, mostly, it started from other department.
Any update?
So the next one is me. A person who goes to every social media to get an update on my favorite Kpop group, BTS. It starts when I open my eyes in the mornings and of course it ends when I shut my eyes to sleep. In my sleep, I still dream about them. I am an addict I know, and I don't care, lol.
Unfortunately, today is different. My phone is lagging. Even I already deleted some duplicate pictures and videos stored in my folders, my phone is still slow. I try first deleting Facebook and 3GB was freed on my storage. I deleted Twitter and Instagram, it freed 3GB for both too. I decided to delete Messenger App and it deleted 4GB. All in all, 10GB were deducted on the storage that created some relief and movements when browsing. I want to delete TikTok too, but I will think about it.
Because of that, I feel like having no sugar intake. I don't have energy because I don't check on social media. However, life doesn't stop when you are not updated. I will feel sad, I will feel old again (BTS is my energy), but life must go on or else I must buy another phone.
To add to that, I able to do what I need to finish because I am not chatting. I wonder if my BFF missed me for today's video because I am not in the chatroom. I hope I able to do this up until next week's or next month. Can I really do this, let's find out
Any update?
How about you guys? Is there anything new in your life or progress to the plans that you've started. Nag reply na ba si kras? Naks!
I think I am dieting from social media now and I will try to continue this one up until, tomorrow? But Queen Elizabeth already passed away, what will happen to the throne, update me!!
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Went to visit my bias wrecker Jimin. I went to a new renovated Rkive Cafe. Going to give you some pictures with stories too.
It's my Birthday but please pray for Pachuchay!!
September 6, 2022
Yesterday is my birthday, September 5. We had a simple celebration just like we have most of the time. My cake was given by my bestfriend and some of the foods are contribution of my family.
I was tired at work because of new procedure regarding documents. I had a headache. I thought I will not come home on time, because my family was waiting for me for my celebration. I able to come home but late, we ate, blow the candle in my cake and make a wish.
After that, me and my bffs had a chat. A certain situation I am facing right now made me feel stress and down. There is someone that makes me feel sad and heart broken but I think it is all my fault. My attitude makes me feel that way. My personality and perspective in life is bringing me down. I hate being pessimistic but I cannot live a normal life if I am not that kind.
When I feel positive, I will just wait. I will just rely in manifestation and affirmation. I will not do anything. Being pessimistic works my brain. I continue to find solution to problems and I have plans. However that kind of attitude is draining me. Addition to that is my personal problem with someone but I will just keep it with myself.
Because of all the thinking, I felt down. I even had suicidal thoughts instantly. I immediately think of ending my life, but only thoughts, and I don't care of the people I will be leaving behind. I stop using my phone and chatting with my friends. I felt exhausted. I took a nap, woke up and the decided to go to Noise.
While I was sharing tips, I saw a post of someone asking prayers for her ate is in critical condition. She mentioned the name of her ate and she is familiar. The I remember she is my sissy here in Read.cash. Do you guys remember @Pachuchay she is now in the hospital and in critical condition.
I started to panic and prayed immediately. I remember I make a wish before blowing the candle of my cake and I remember wishing for something else. If I found out about sis Pachuchay firstly, I guess I will give my wish for her.
I seriously prayed for her. I felt that all if the bad feelings I was feeling earlier are all gone. Someone needed me to be positive so that she will be okay. Someone is needed me to be alive for she needs my prayer. I had suicidal thoughts and someone is fighting for her life. I am ashamed of myself.
I am glad that I visited Noise because I saw the post and I know I will do everything to pray for my sis Pachuchay. The power of prayers are amazing and we have a faithful God that always hear us. I hope He gives his blessing and heal sis Pachuchay.
It is my birthday today, but this post is for my sis Pachuchay. I am asking you to join me in praying for her. Let us save her, she wants to live and she is a fighter. She is a mother and I remember lots of inspirational thoughts of her. Let's help her through our prayers guys. Let's pray for her.
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My Pre-Birthday Celebration
September 4, 2022
Today is not my birthday, but tomorrow!! Happy birthday to me!! I'm growing old a year tomorrow but my heart feels I'm only 22!!I don't have anything for myself for tomorrow but I think I already celebrated my birthday with someone's birthday. We had a series of celebration happened for 2 weeks now and it is just enough for me to be happy. I have no idea if my family have something for me for tomorrowu, but if there's none, that's okay!!
First, I started my pre-celebration when my BTS bias Jungkook celebrated his birthday.
This Is my simple greetings and preparation for him at work. We had a little snack for my officemates who are BTS Army too!! His birthday is ON September 1. I am glad he made a weverse live for army as lots of his stans and all army are missing him. He had a message for and did the noraebang (videoke/karaoke), serve as a mini concert for army.
On September 2, we had a Pre-Birthday celebration for my BFF Diane. We went to Purple Cafe, as our own celebration of Jungkook's Day.
After that we went to Oedo for dinner and had a little chitchat.
Then we went to Starbucks to continue our bonding moments!!
Yesterday, the celebration didn't stop as we also celebrated at the office. It was a fast celebration actually because we are rendering overtime. Also, we thought that our boss will be visiting the office so we had a snacks for 30 minutes as far as I remember.
Those celebration makes me feel exhausted because I've been too many places for this week but it made me happy because of all the people I got to be with. I have nothing but being grateful and thankful that even if I got sick last August, I am healthy and feeling good physically as of today.
Tomorrow will be my big Day but due to not enough funds it will be a regular day for me as I am at work. If my family have plans to celebrate then that would be amazing, if not, then I am still grateful.
I will still post whatever happens tomorrow. It feels like I am blessed for this year because I get a chance to be like this for this year and it makes me genuinely happy. I go for positivity for this month of September!!
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I failed my August Goal...
September 1, 2022
Advance Merry Christmas everyone! This is the start of the longest season of Christmas in the Philippines, but I think not all are excited as of the moment due to high prices of commodities and I honestly cannot feel it, compared to last two years that despite the pandemic I am so excited for Ber Months. Today, I don't have any excitement at all, but let us see the following day.
Hello everyone, I hope you are still doing good and okay, safe and healthy. I am again sharing to you my August goal. I had my run through my articles for the month of August and I found out a very sad news...
Followers - Failed!
My goal last August is to add 10 people as my subscribers but unfortunately I only added 8 people. The number of my subscribers last August 1 is 215 and now it is 223. It means I only added 8 person. Even so, people subscribing to you, regardless of the number, even if it is two or one person, it will really means so much as it means someone wants to read more of you future articles. I hope I am not failing these people.
Number of Articles - Failed!
My goal last August when it comes to posting articles is 20 and now I only had 17 articles. I know what divided my time and that is trying to be active at Hive. I love the support of Hive writer's and communities. I am a member on Discord and Telegram but I am only reading the chats. The people who try to answer your question is really a big help to me. I don't know them all but what matters is that they are very helpful and accommodating.
Earnings - Failed!
I am such a failure in meeting my goal but it is not surprising anymore as the market is down. I failed to meet the $**50** earning goal, and I only had $**32.96.** I might failed my earning goal but I still earn. For me $32.96 is a big digits already. I will be using that on my birthday. I hope I can make someone happy with food I will prepare for them on my birthday. That includes my family, friends and officemates. It is just a little amount and I hope there will be more blessing to come to me before my big day so that I can add something from that amount.
Notification Activity - Failed!
Okay, it is a failure for August, but let me explain. My available time was divided by two blogging platforms. I am trying to hustle hard but I don't have much time and sometimes I don't have anything to share so I go to reading instead and learn from the co-writers. However, I am an old lady that needed to sleep that instead of reading and visiting the site, I sleep instead. I am not really active at all, both of the platforms I am in at present. I hope I will be given enough rest and strength to do it all.
September Goal
For failure results times four, I am not sure if I will start a goal for this month and the succeeding months. I already know how hard it is for me to find time. I would rather feel relax, write an article that could benefit a lot, share my real self to the world, be honest with what I feel, share my wisdom and everything, in a way that it is not force and not always for the earnings. We are all living in the world where we take responsibilities of our actions and thoughts so I rather choose that. I just wish that God help me to become a better person for myself and for everyone. I still want to leave a legacy. I want to be remembered as a person who help someone even though they don't remember my name.
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Happy Birthday Jungkook of BTS!!
September 1, 2022
Four days before my birthday, is the birthday of my bias from BTS. He is Jeon Jungkook, the golden maknae of BTS, meaning, the youngest member of the group. He is now 25 years old, international age.
As I was waiting for him to make a vlive or live On Weverse, I was editing his pictures. I was busy for 2 hours selecting pictures of him to edit. I will be sharing all of my edited pictures of him in this article.
So sad that he didn't do the yearly Vlive. Last year, was the best as he had a live conversation with Army (BTS Fans) for two ans a half hours. He even made a mini concert and he sang for the Army. It was the best night, even though he finished at 2 in the morning already. Jhope, one of the member of BTS visited him in his studio and gave a cake. Now I miss him and I wish he will have a live on Weverse later.
Jungkook is my bias. I know I shared a story why he is my bias in my past blogs. Jungkook and me are almost the same. That is why you call it a bias because you will find yourself on your favorite person.
Jungkook is very talented. He can sing, dance, rap, composed or make music, he can paint and he is smart too. He is a health buff. He is a gym addict. What I remember about him is the way he sing. I love the sound of his breathing, his voice, his passion and of course, when he dances. He is also a brand Ambassador, Louis Vuitton is one of their brands. He also do video edits and he has a YouTube channel called GCF.
Right now he is working on his solo album but recently releases collaboration with foreign artists, Left and Right by Charlie Puth and Bad Decision by Benny Blanco and Snoop Dog, together with vocal lines, Jimin, Taehyung And Jin of BTS.
I guess I am waiting for nothing as of this moment but I am hoping an d looking forward of something special later today. For the meantime, let us celebrate as it is a day 1 of the longest Christmas season in the Philippines. We will all be hearing the national Christmas song Christmas in our hearts by Jose Mari Chan. I am working on financial goal for Ber months and in the future I will be sharing it to you.
Again, happy birthday Jungkook. I hope your day will be filled with pure happiness and food, as you love food so much. I hope BTS will gather and celebrate his birthday. I wish you everything but the best Jungkook and good luck on your solo album.
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Words are Powerful, and I'm Pessimistic
August 30, 2022
Hello everyone, how is your day!!!
I only remember that I haven't been posting anything for today just now. I was like slumbering in bed for whole day. I'm super tired and lazy. Yes, you read it right, I always say those words "tired and lazy". I say it to myself every morning.
As soon as I wake up, as I was drinking water, I will have a conversation with my mother and I will say "I feel tired" or sometimes "I am tired". While preparing myself going to work, I will feel tired instantly. I don't feel like working at all.
At work, I will see the pile of documents to review and process and I start to say "I'm lazy". While doing it, I stop from time to time if the pile of documents are lessening in number, but I always feel that my work are getting increase every minute, and laziness starts to spread in my system, then boom, I'm lazy.
When I am looking for clothes that will make me feel presentable, my friends will say some of their recommendation. I will answer them, "I'm fat, it will not fit me". It is a reality for me that I am fat, but the other person who recommended me something will not pursue looking for another because my pessimistic blood is working.
There are lots of scenario actually. One that I remember is when a friend ask me to try a side hustle in Remotask. There is a training there and I tried to learn all by myself. After an hour I gave up and said to my friend that I can do it because I am not smart. I stop already because I am not smart to understand everything.
Same goes with the training in Supahands. It is difficult too, and I am honest in saying I don't understand anything. There are people that could help me in the slack, but I already told myself that I can't do it, it is not for me.
I know you are irritated to read this further, but my thing is, I need to share this to you because you can see yourself in my story too. Have you ever done something like this? You start talking to yourself negatively and negative happens. When I say I look ugly all the time, I become ugly all the time. I am not the kind of person you want to be with because I am pessimistic. I am glad that I have two friends who stayed by my side despite my ugly sides. It is just good that they are not affected and get influenced when I look down on myself. Of course, as a friend, they will say it is not good but they cannot influence me to change.
I tried to be positive. I am positive when someone is feeling negative, at least it is not me who is positive. When someone is feeling bad and thinking negatively, I am there to contradict. I am there to lift a hand to make them feel good. However, it seems I cannot do it to myself. I let the bad events pass before everything will be okay.
Again, I tried to be positive for myself too. There are times I am telling myself that I am good, passionate and I look nice. Sometimes I tell myself that I look beautiful and I am great, however, it doesn't last long. I can count minutes that positivity will stay in my system.
I work best when I am negative. For example, in the morning, while taking a bath, I am picturing a scenario that I am busy, I have piles of work in front of me and I am stress. For me, I appreciate this kind of visuals in my brain because while going to work I am already planning of how to manage my work and time.
Another, when it comes to finances, I feel bad when the salary is not enough. Some of you will be grateful for you have your salary, but my initial reaction is to feel bad and feel stress for I cannot control it all. However, it serves as a signal for me to work hard and add additional side hustles to able to fill-up to insufficient amount. I will always remember that amount swimming in my mind everyday and that is my target number. It became a goal and I always achieved it in the end. I use that negative energy to pursue something and the end results is always positive.
Let me end this now. The purpose of this post is to know if anyone of you are feeling the same, or having the same kind of personality. Please let me know on the comment section.
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One of the Hero of my life is Read.cash!!
August 29, 2022
Philippines is on a holiday because today is National Heroes day. Filipinos are commemorating and honoring all the heroes that help the country to be independent. Since the topic is about heroes, let us talk about the real heroes of our lives for today's article.
I have my people to save me from all the worries and sorrow but let me include the almighty because he never let's me down, he is always faithful.
God
My life is for you God. When I have Anxiety attacking me, when I don't have anyone with me, I'm telling it all to God. All that I can't say to anyone, I'm sharing it to God while praying. I know the almighty will always listen. It has been a lot of times that he saved me from all the worries and troubles of my life. Before going to bed I have all the worries and I will just tell it to him, as soon as I woke up in the morning, I feel like I can do it again, that I am back to a fighting mode again. I rely on God in things that I keep a secret and he never fails to guide me in all aspect of my life. He is my God. He is my amazing God!
Family
My family had a lot of contributions in my development as a human being.
I got my perseverance with my mother. My mother will try everything just to earn money. When I was young, I saw how she works hard, alone, for the family. Eversince, she is my hero. She always saves the family. Even up to now, it seems she never get tired of helping us. She contributed lots of help and wisdom to us, her children. If my mother is not that strong, this family is long gone ruined.
My sister is a fighter too. When she needs to give way for school when we were in college, instead of staying at home, she finds job and help the family with expenses. I have my scholarship and allowances that is why I able to finish my college. She still helps me when my allowance is not there and I pay her in return. Instead of feeling sorry for herself, she lift herself up and help the family. She is so brave and a giver.
My brother's knowledge in technology saves me a lot of times. The trouble shooting, the terms in computers that I didn't know, I learned it all from him. He is so useful that he saves the day.
They are all my heroes!! I am not sure if I able to be of help for them, but I think my contribution is on the food side ans I always prepare foods when they are celebrating their birthdays, lol.
Best Friends
They saved the days! My day will not be complete without a conversation with them through messenger. I share them what I feel when I am stress at work. I can't share it to my co-workers because it could start a misunderstanding sometimes so it is safe to share with my best friends. We will just laugh about it. If we will not take it as a joke, we will feel evenly bad. It will not help me. They do the same with me too.
My friends are one of my hero for being there with me. They believe me first and they will tell me the truth. They are not the kind who will be bias when it comes to problems and my understanding. That is why we really need atleast two people that will stay by our side for our own problems. We cannot always rely on our family.
Pets
Not really a human being but I treat them as heroes as they are my stress reliever. Being able to relieve my stress is a big work, but my pets makes me laugh. They don't realize that, yet they make a big role in my life. That is the reason I provide for them and take care of them. We have a give and take relationship.
Read.cash, RR and You
My new heroes are you, Read Cash and RR. It is hard to find side hustle that will not scam you and promise you of earnings but when you are already there you need to invite people to join and you never get your investment back. I was like that last year. I was scam by an investment group. Then I found this site and my money problems are solved one by one. I even get bonuses to my family.
Having Read.cash really mean so much for an average earner like me. I cannot find money somewhere else. You had helped me a lot. I might not earning good, but I take pride of all the help you had provided me. Thank you. You save my life and everyone else here. I'm so grateful for Read.cash.
Guys, who are your real life heroes? For sure you a lot, you can share it in this post!!
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You Must Face the Truth About Yourself
August 27, 2022
I am watching the 7th episode of Today's Webtoon. This kdrama never fails to amaze me with all the wisdom it has to offer. I can relate to the scene and I think I am seeing myself to two of the characters in the drama. Because of that too, I realized that there are something bad about me, or negative, ugly or whatever we call it, but I accept myself. Even my friends accept me of who I am but I cannot deny that I am giving them trouble everytime I am being pessimistic.
Let me share you first what happened to the 7th episode. Spoiler alert, please forgive me. You will pick something from this episode, I promise.
In this episode the 10th year trainee and still hasn't debuted webtoon writer Dong Hee, joined a webtoon contest, but he failed again. I assumed he was always joining webtoon contest that promises a career but he always fail. Again, he failed and he got frustrated. After checking the results online, he saw the work of the new trainee Dae Ryuk. He is specifically reading the violent and irritating scene that the monster on the drawing come out to life, not literally come out alive, but it means that the story is so strong it looks realistic. He then realized that the trainee Dae Ryuk has talent and passion in webtoon that makes his jealousy to be strong. He slammed the laptop in the floor after being horrified by the scene and left the place. The next day, Dae Ryuk was all stress knowing that he can't continue his draft as his laptop is not working. He reported what happened to his producer On Ma Eum (the leading character).
Writer Baek invited Dong Hee for a drink and there they talked about what Dong Hee feels. There Dong Hee admits being he is jealous about the talent of Dae Ryuk, besides being young, he knows that the latter has a big dream ahead of him compared to him that almost all his life has been wasted for not getting what he wants. Writer Baek comfronted him and said below lines.
No matter how ugly or pathetic it is, you must face the truth about yourself
A demon is already growing with Dong Hee as he is getting jealous about the bright future for the young webtoon writer Dae Ryuk. In our life in general, we are jealous of someone younger than us because there is more to life with them being young. They have more time to make their dreams come true, while us, being older, we always thought we don't have enough time to make our dreams happen. Do you feel the same way with others, younger than you? Like you will say to yourself, "Good for them they are young and their minds are fresh, they will go further, but me I will be rotten". Harsh, but true.
We are all not perfect. We all have dark and ugly sides and what is best is to accept it and be responsible for our actions. To be honest, I am cannot pretend about being sensitive and pessimistic. All of the people around me knows that I have these kinds of attitude. They learn to adjust to me and still hear my concern. I look ugly with these kind of attitude and if I fail to work on it, the people who are always there for me, will all be gone. Of course, I will not allow it to happen.
Having our ugly side doesn't mean really ugly. It is just our reality that we should accept and work on. It is part of who we are. What matter is we should learn from what is happening in our lives and inspire others with our achievements. We should adjust our personality to others too, because not all people are able to understand who we are. We should develop to be flexible with our environment, learn to study how we react so that we will not hurt others based our action and reactions. It is like having the ugly side but being responsible with our actions and decisions.
All original content by Grecy095
Images credit to : Screenshot from Episode 7, Today's Webtoon at Viu App.
Today's Webtoon story plot is about Co-workers Relationship, what is life ofa webtoon artist and how a webtoon works in every platform.
The Story of Quiet Quitting
August 25, 2022
I came to know the term while watching TikTok. The content creator tackles about a person who was passionate at work before but lose it while she stays longer in the company. Those who stays at work to finish the job, are now coming home on time, thinking that the job could be done for tomorrow. Those who are willing to learn and expand their knowledge, are already tired and just do what they need to do that are in front of them.
I cannot blame those individuals for feeling that way, as I have that kind of feeling last Tuesday. The company declared an early out at 2 in the afternoon due to typhoon warnings. I automatically felt relieved although I didn't expect it to happen, yet still I want to go home. There are still work to be done but I am thinking of my own safety so I want to go home. As my officemates were one by one getting out of the office, my feet was itchy to grab my bag to go home too, unfortunately another set of documents where given to me and it was requested to be done immediately.
The old me will accept it and do it willingly, as the old me doesn't want a job to be left undone, but the new me felt irritated while doing the report needed. I noticed my officemates are not complaining at all. They already know or perhaps we all know that our department are normally not going home even though there was an advisory. Our team are known to stay for long in the office always. We are not excuse at all and our manager doesn't care. We adopted her hardworking attitude that doesn't care about her safety.
I told myself, while doing the report, I will go home. I will go home after this. Nothing can stop me. If they want to stay, then stay, but I'm leaving and going home. I did and I feel relieved prioritising myself. I am not sure about my team's side comment if there is. I don't care. I am unbotherd. For me I was advise to go home and I am not guilty about what I did.
Is this Quiet Quitting?
To be honest I don't understand it at first, even so, I found myself doing it. I am not that hardworking anymore. I realize that I am only stressing myself and tiring my body. I am not getting any younger so I must look on my health, especially my mental health.
Also the company doesn't recognized or appreciate me and what I do. Yes, there are times they thanking the employees, even the managers thanking their team members, but I don't feel the sincerity at all. Sometimes I am in doubt if I am really needed, I prefer to think that when I quit I am easily replaced.
I feel like I am just working for money. There are learnings, I embrace it everyday, but some co-officemate are not with the same energy as mine. They are not doing their best to learn. Mistakes become normal and they will just change it. They already depend on our team to double check them when it is not part of the job anymore.
That is also the reason I get tired. I am doing more jobs that are not in my job description. I have lots of responsibilities that should be not mine and I am underpaid, while some individuals at work are working less but receiving more. How can you inspire to work like that? Team work makes the dream work, but not all in the team are working fair, they outsmart us and they keep on doing that.
I get tired. I am not happy at all. I might be laughing at jokes but the sound of the laugh has lots of air. I laugh because I'm just stress or I am relieving it. It is not fair anymore. Specifically, quiet quitting can be resolve but that depends on the person doing it. I am not quitting my job soon, but I am not having the same energy I was and I am not sure if it will come back. Or maybe I am just burnout?
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My mind works at 1 am, please help!!
August 23, 2022
Hello everyone, I am on the very low energy and severe demotivating right now. I don't know what happened to me. I am on the reading side now and I can't pick up a topic out of reading those articles. I remember before that once I read something, I either reflect on it or see myself on it, then I will find myself creating my own story. Right now, I am not sure if I could finish this article in an hour.
I am now on a phase that whenever I write something, it is always hard. As a writer or Blogger, topic to expand is one of the challenges. You need to attract readers from your title itself. You need to attract them so that they keep on coming back. You need to get their attention. I hope I survive this.
However, it has been a week that I noticed that I have the urge to write in a specific time. I was about to shut my eyes and then certain topic will come out and this will keeps me awake until dawn. It will just roam around my brain until I am not posting or making the draft. But I hope to sleep that time, so I try to sleep while my brain is working. The result, it ruin my sleep and I failed to create something.
My brain works and I feel creative starts at 1am. I remember before that instead of sleeping, I starts sketching and it ended at passed 3 in the morning. My creativity ruin my normal sleep. I felt satisfied but my health is at risk. I had a migraine the next day.
I wonder why I am more creative starts at 1am. Maybe because my brain resets from all the exhaustion I had during the day. Also at night, I am using less energy since I already rested or about to get a rest, and that rest is use to power up my brain. That is why resting is very important. If we know we will use up all our energy during the day, let us allot time to rest long during the night. This will prevent us from exhaustion and burnout.
Also, I am nocturnal. I remember when I was a wattpad writer, my small number of readers will wait for my new update at 3 in the morning. That is because I start writing at 12 in the midnight and I will finish before 3 am. My mind is always fresh and resetting at midnight. A good sleep is my engine and I am like a machine starting to work on.
I also start blogging at 1am when I was blogging at Blogjob. My article has sense and I believe, with quality during that time. However, my goal is to get some sleep at 2am or even earlier than that, because I am taking care of my health, physical and mental. Now I don't know what to do. I feel bad and demotivated because I wnat to develop my writing and learn from everyone, but health is my priority. If I will not write then there is no side income, but I will be healthy and I should be. Please recommend something that could help me survive this challenge!!
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Do I need to plan for my future, when there is no assurance of tomorrow?
August 22, 2022
Hi, how are you my passionate co-writers of this site? I hope you are feeling great despite the exhausting first day of Face to face class. There are lots of scenario that happened for the whole day and mostly, the student are affected. There were also lots of children in the road that makes the road busy and congested.
I work from home for today since I need to support my nephew for his new journey in his education, but tomorrow I will be back for the normal hustle and bustle of life.
A friend of mine asked me on messenger, "how is your heart?". I stop for the meantime to absorb what is the meaning of the question until I realised I know what she was talking about. Recently, there are lots of news about people being missing and their bodies are found elsewhere. There are also people who had gone missing and are still missing. Some are found and alive, some are brutally killed. Some met an accident in the road and some are became a victim of stabbing and gun shooting. There are lots of events where the population of people got deducted and the reason is, they got killed. This is really scaring me, though I don't want to attract it.
Just recently, I've posted about a co-writers who recently passed and that became the reason why I changed my perspective in life. I realize, life indeed is short and you cannot say what will happen next. Then the question, do I need to plan for future when there is no assurance of tomorrow? Below are the things that guide me in changing my perspective.
Kilings, violence, death are all part of our life eversince
Since I got scared about my own life, my family and loved ones life, my pets and friends, there is a part of me that had difficulties to resume from daily lives. There is one day that I don't want to get out and if I get out of the house, I already have Anxiety. However, come to think of it, we don't hold our life in our hands. We cannot detect if something bad will happen. Maybe we can feel a sign but not certain or exact. We don't have any idea. Killings, violence, death will always be part of human's life. It happens because there are problems. It happens because someone decided to do it. We are all responsible for each other. Even if I decided not to resume my life, these things will still happen.
I Pray
What I did was, I prepare myself everyday, but in the sense that I am preparing to live, not to die. I clear my thoughts about it. I pray for myself, family, friends and pet's safety and protection. I ask forgiveness for my sins. I pray to be a person that will help other people for today. I pray for a valuable and memorable life everyday. I pray the serenity prayer and this one is really powerful for me because it clears my populated, negative thoughts. That is the only that I could do now. Lastly, in time of death, I pray that God guide my soul back to him because it is where I belong.
I am literally having goosebumps while writing this one. Up until now, I can feel I am terrified of what is happening everywhere. We are not safe anymore and we don't have control of everything. There is so called destiny and we don't know that because we don't have results. As we are all living and breathing what we need to do is to live and do your plans. Get results. Change for the better. Be responsible, be understanding. Eat the food you want, but take care of your health. Do things that makes you happy, help in making other people to be happy. Make your dreams come true and be the reason why someone will fight for their lives as you are fighting for yours.
We don't know our end game, so we live the gift of life for now, that is the best decision we need to follow.
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Please do this! Emergency SOS
August 21, 2022
Hello to my passionate co-writers of this awesome site. I hope you are feeling good, safe and resting. I had a full day yesterday that is why I failed to share a post again. And now, I just remembered that it has been two days that I haven't posted anything. Now here I am and here it goes.
Last Friday, my friend shared to me an instruction that I need to do immediately. There is a trending post at Facebook that is all about setting up an Emergency SOS. You see, here in my country, there are lots of people that are missing. Some of them are found dead and some are still lost. Our lives are always in danger not only with people but with our surroundings and environment (remember the man who were struck by lightning). It is not safe anymore.
Just in case, you are in danger which I so not wish to happen to anyone, or you are lost in a place, not feeling okay but on the road, you can use this emergency SOS. You need to setup this on your mobile and always remember to use it when you feel in danger.
On my phone, my brand is Huawei, you can start clicking Settings and then choose security.
Then you need to click the Emergency SOS. It will brought you to below image.
Click the emergency information, fillup your whole name, your blood type and other information. I can't share you the screenshot as my phone says unable to screenshot confidential information.
Also you need to fill up Emergency contact person/people. Just click the emergency contact on the above screenshot and fill up the people on your contact list. The contact people I made are those people who are always holding their phone. They are my BFF, one co-worker and my siblings. My siblings are always watching on their mobile, I am hoping that they able to see my message.
After you already establish your emergency contact people, you need to try the emergency SOS message. Just allow it and try it if your emergency contact people will able to received your message.
As instruction, you need to press the power button rapidly five times. You just press it quickly five times and all of the people in your emergency contact will receive this sample text.
My BFF tried it on me and I received a text. On the above screenshot, it stated that there is an emergency and she needs help. It also show her current location. If you received this kind, don't ignore much more if the person needs help is unresponsive of your call. You must save an emergency number like 911, as it is the national emergency number in the Philippines. You need to contact this number immediately to rescue the person. Also, you need to save the mobile numbers of their immediate family or guardian just in case you need to report a concern. Our goal is to save lives and be urgent with our response to help.
After learning this one I overthink on how this would be of help when someone has been kidnap or pass-out in the road, or if you meet an accident, I guess if you still aware that you can use your phone ans press the button rapidly before you lose consciousness, but this is not applicable to people who met an accident. However, the rescuer could use their phone once they are found and will press the power button rapidly to let the immediate family know what had happened.
I realize we are all responsible with each other and if we want to save lives and be saved, we need to do this now. If you have additional information or question you can leave it on the comment section so that this article will be informative and helpful.
Images are all mine
Fire Incident made me horrified again!
August 19, 2022
I told you that last few days I was down and scared. I was really scared earlier tonight too. I think I am absorbing the negativity and this is bad. But before we go there, let me greet you a good day, good night and good day for tomorrow as I don't know what time this draft will be posted.
I was exercising at 7 in the evening. Nope, I was about to do some exercising when I was hearing a siren. It doesn't sound like an ambulance, it sounds like a firetruck. The sound is getting near. Imagine my face that time, I have trauma about fire incident as last year we had three incidents very near to our house. The fire siren really makes me scared. I got weak instantly.
What I did was to check Facebook live. Whenever I hear a siren, whether from ambulance or firetruck, I check on Facebook because people in our place are always doing live whenever there is a fire nearby. Then I saw, there are three people doing the live.
One of them is from Gloria Ibo Benico.
You see, when I view the live, there are lots of viewers already. When I saw this, I don't have any idea where is the place is. I was shaking because the sound of firetruck are getting louder, it makes me feel that the fire is just nearby. I was praying while waiting for a reply from the person who posted, I'm was really scared.
Then the poster replied and said "Dimasalang kami". She meant that the fire is in Dimasalang St. Vergel Pasay City. I checked on other live and even Doc Willy Ong is doing the live. I realised that doing live whenever there is a fire incident is very helpful. It keeps you updated of what is happening, especially if it is near your place.
Also, during the live, the poster need to be complete with their information as my anxiety attacks instantly when she answered one of the comment. The comment she read is asking where is the exact place and the person who posted said "sa amin", in English it means "in our place". I was panicking because the title of the live is Sunog sa Pasay and I was asking her, where in Pasay, because I live there. Good thing she responded the exact place and some viewers answered the question as well.
It was scary because I can hear the explosion. As if the comment, someone said that it is from the cigarette factory. I am not aware that there are cigarette factory there. In less than an hour the fire is already out. I was waiting GMA News to report this but it was not reported, maybe tomorrow or later.
While watching it, I really prayed. I prayed. In Jesus name for the fire to be controlled immediately, that no one will get hurt and all of the people are safe. I hope we all be protected with this one and pray to God to save us all for this kind of incident.
Images are screenshots from Gloria Ibo Benico. I want to thank her for doing this live.
Wisdom I got from Watching Today's Webtoon 3rd Episode
August 16, 2022
Hello to my passionate co-writers of this amazing site. Last night was not a good night for a lot of us, especially to those members of the other blogging site. We are all sad and down and I talked about it on my post last night. Before I sleep last night I prayed. I pray the Divine Mercy and the prayer for the dead and passing. I still can’t get rid of what happened. It is hard to breathe, up until now.
Last night, I decided to continue watching Today’s Webtoon on Viu. It stars my favorite Kim Se-jong (Business Proposal) and she cut her hair there. Today’s webtoon is a korean version of a Manga named Juhan Shuttai. I am watching this korean series because I want to have a source of motivation. The main character On Ma Eum (Kim Se-jong) is a person who loves reading webtoon. She applied in Neon and work as a Webtoon Assistant. What I watched last night was the third episode and I can say that it is the right decision to watch that one.
If you are watching the series too, I apologize for giving you a spoiler as the 3rd episode leave a great impact on me. I am starting to like the character of On Ma-Eum, all over. Kim Se-jong, for me, is a perfect artist to portray that because her eyes are so expressive. I can easily detect if she is just excited, just happy, just inspired and just okay. There are differences. This artist is really smart and very passionate of her craft.
One of the thing that leave a great impact on me on the third episode is when one of the rookie told On Ma Eum that her hard work will not be of used as the Webtoon Team will be disbanded after a year. The Webtoon Department is the lowest when it comes to performance. The other male rookie with the name Jun-yeong talked to On Ma Eum about the status of department. Instead of feeling defeated as the future of her in Neon is uncertain, On Ma Eum had a different response to what Jun-yeong had said to her. It seems that Jun-yeong is demotivated to work and learn the work because of the sad news, but On Ma-Eum didn’t treat it as a sad news, but a challenge.
***Two things I picked from that episode. One is..***
Hardwork Works Wonder
If you try to work hard, you learn. If you learn, you grow. If you grow, you can influence others and it will be a great help for you and everyone. You continue to learn and grow if you work hard. Hard work pays. Hard work pays if you will not stop. This is the part when On Ma-eum is talking to Jun-yeong that she decided to try her luck even if the team could be dissolve after a year. She will embrace the learnings and experience. This is an advantage for her to learn new things and see her capability as a Webtoon Assistant.
You can change the future
Since, On Ma-Eum already knows the department can be dissolve, she decided to still try and work hard. The results can change everything. What if the results could stop the decision and made the department to stay little longer. What if during the time that she is working hard, it gives a good impact, they get great views and redevelop something that could help the company? Anything can happen. In fact she still have number of days, she is positive for reconsideration.
If you try to work hard and work on your plans, never surrender and open to changes due to uncontrolled circumstances, you can change your future. Change is the only permanent in this world, so why not create a great changes.
Before I end this, another from the series, I never thought that it is so hard to create wonders in the Webtoon world. The pleasure that the readers of webtoon gets is the pain of the artists. Being a webtoon artist is not an easy job. Even if you are passionate of what you do, you really need to have a strong and determine heart. Your mood is your number one enemy. The number of views from the series update is the one that make the company survive. Readers are great help to business like this and you need to satisfy them. This job is hard.
Images credit to Today's Webtoon SBS, Viu screenshot, edited using Picsart
I feel down...
August 15, 2022
Hi! As much as I want to greet you with good energy, I think I can't for today. I was doing a draft earlier when I get a notification on a social group, and it was a sad news. Someone I know died but I cannot share anything since I want to respect the family and my group there. Also, I am not close to the person, I just happen to know her. I owe something from her because as I check on my post on my other blogging sites, she helped one of my articles.
I can't believe it. I am scared, goosebumps, and I can't accept. I am scared, I'm sad. I have all the negativity inside me. I want to get rid of this. I want to stop this kind of feeling.
It makes me realize that life is just like that. You never know if your time is up. Even if you take care of yourself, there will still be something that will happen that is uncontrolled. Even if you take care of yourself, you still get sick. Even if you stay to be nice, there is still people who will hate you. All of the sad events and unfairness, they are all iny head. I'm really affected. I don't like this.
I try to change my mood, I went to TikTok, but someone posted that she happened to see Jimin Park (one of the member of BTS) at the Incheon airport. I feel down more. I feel sad for myself. That is the chances I wnat to happen to me, the luck she has, I want to feel it too. I am happy for her, but I am sad for myself.
I exit TikTok, because the next content shows a fan meeting with BTS. I am always jealous for the people who already saw them before ans wishing it could happen to me too. I hope everyone of the fans of BTS will able to see them in the future. I hope we all have chances.
Then I exited TikTok. I started crying. I was willing to get rid of what I am feeling. I watch our television and as soon as I was looking at the television, the scene went to a car accident. There are lots of casualties. The Kdrama that is being shown is About Time. It is a story of a woman who can able to see how many hours you are left on earth.
Isn't it just a destiny to see that while I am feeling down? Or there is really a sign why I saw that. Is there something I need to realize?
Then I read the blog of sweet Mayie, not sure if I grab her name right. She said that she got irritated. It changes my perspective immediately. What is only in my mind is that we are alive. What matters is that we are still here. I started to get scared for my life, for the life of my loved ones, my bff and even BTS members. You can laugh at me in this, its okay but I really prayed immediately for the life of all of us. I am not ready to go and I guess everyone else too.
Suddenly life is worth living and I just want to appreciate it. I'm still scared. Sorry for sharing this negative feeling with you. Actually I want to share it to let it go. I want to start a new, but it is crippling me inside. I hope changes tomorrow. I'm going to talk to God. I going to pray wholeheartedly. Please, I hope all have chances to live, be protected and be safe, for we are still making our dreams come true, for ourselves and our lovedones.
Virtual hug everyone!!
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I don't feel like posting for today. I'm really sad
, I'm really scared. I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to do. I'm down. Virtual hugs everyone and please stay safe.
I miss the old me in blogging
August 14, 2022
I was reading articles here at RC for whole day. There are lots of quality topics I read today and most of them are added to my new learnings. There are lots of passionate writers in the site. They are like breathing with massive and useful thoughts, they are sharing it all. It makes me question myself because I was once a diligent writer before. I have lots of thoughts to share, some substantial stories that you can pick up something from it. It makes me wonder what we're the things I did before that makes me constantly motivated to post.
Year 2007 when I met Mylot. I know I was still a student back then. I earned good on that site when I started to have a group. I believe the biggest earning I got from that site was PHP 1000 every month. Mylot is a forum site and if you don't know how to earn from there, you will not earn anything. I am not sure if Mylot still exist though.
Then Bubblews came, another blogging site. It brings me back to the time where I have time for blogging and even had organized a setup at home. I have my own office at the kitchen where I work there after my daytime job. I was taking advantage of the limit of number of blog I can create in a day at Bubblews, to earn more. The limit is 10 and now I am wo sering how can I able to write 10 articles for more 500 words. If you sum it, I was making more than 500 words a day, with research and photo sources.
Not only that, Blogjob came to my life and I was earning good too. It has a limit of 10 blogs in a day too. I was earning PHP 10000, max in the site. How can I do that?
These is what I remember
Number one enemy of mine at present are being tired at the end of the day and demotivation.
Before, I remember I have all the energy because I need money. I became resourceful, passionate and I am just happy to write everyday. Also, I have loving friends who are active like me, and we inspire each other in each post. Aside from posting blog, we were active at gc. I was very busy and happy.
So I am not happy at the moment?
I guess, being tired at the end of the day is one of the reason I don't have thoughts to share. Some reason of demotivation comes from mood swings, it changes my plan and I really don't have anything to share. I have something to share sometimes, but I can't explain my thoughts. I have lots of drafts that are all buried here but I am not posting it since I failed to give justice to the topic.
I miss the old me
I miss the old me when it comes to blogging. I always challenge myself before. I got improve everyday. I always have a topic to share and mostly it came from the people inside my group. They always invite me for a challenge too, I never run out of topic to share. I guess right now, because my time online is quite limited, my activity limited too. I cannot say that I am inspired too. There are times I am happy, but being inspired is different for being just happy.
A lot of things changed in my life. A lot of beliefs changes too. My time is limited and writing became my average priority. I wish I could have my old self when it comes to blogging, I think prayers will work wonders on this one.
I apologise for making you read a sad post. I don't know what to do with motivation to write anymore, but I know there will times that I can write again.
Images are from Unsplash
Five Things You Love About Yourself
August 12, 2022
Hello to my passionate co-writers of this amazing site! How are you guys and I hope you are okay and safe. I had lots of series of demotivation since I was really tired at the end of the day. During Bubblews days (another writing sites year 2012), i can write 10 articles in a day and I do it all after my dayshift work is done, but now I can't even create one, for the reason that if I will create a topic and is nonsense, I rather not write anymore. I want my readers to remember me and stay with me. I want to share a thoughts that someone could pickup from it.
For today's article, let me share to you **Five things I love About myself**. I don't know if I will come out with five things, or maybe lesser, but I am quite excited of what I will remember about myself. Let me have it as five things I love myself which I appreciate, too.
I love myself from Being a Pet Lover
Not all people are pet lover, not even all appreciate pets. Not all are open to taking care of them, and not even all are willing to help them. Me, I am a pet lover and I appreciate pets. I care about them and willing to help them. There are animals that I dislike but I will not harm them. There are animals that I am scared of, but I cannot hurt them. I take responsibility of my pets and I take care of them. Even if some of them have personalities that I hate, I will still earn money to provide for them. I can do what is best for them, even if they will not appreciate me. I love myself for being patient with my pets. When we have new pets, which mostly stray cats, I just let them in the house because my purpose is to take care of pets and I know I can take care of them.
I love myself for being a Good Person
When you say good person, I can only describe myself as someone who always have good intentions. I follow rules and I want to know the rules. I do not cause harm to other people. Even if I am quiet and introvert, I do not let someone feel awkward, but with the limitation of what mood I am. Even if I am an introvert I have some what they call selective socialising. I have my own radar of people, whom to approach and make friends with.
I am a good person because I always give a second chance. Some might do something awful to you, but always leave a benefit if the doubt as everything happens for a reason. I am a good person because I help when I can. I respect other people's space and opinion. I am also understanding and show my little care. I can be a good friend, but I have my own flaws so it is a must for me to accept that first.
I love myself for being Passionate of what I love
There are lot of things I love to do. I love to blog, that is why I am here. I am happy that we have a platform like this where we can share our thoughts and we can find friends as well.
I love singing and dancing. Maybe I am not good at it, but because it makes me happy, I do it when I have time. Before I sing, I will do a vocalization. That is what I learned when I was in choir before. You need to have a lip and mouth exercise ans vocalization to prepare your voice and diaphragm. In that way, you are not pushing your voice when you cannot reach the higher pitch.
In dancing, I stretch first. I am not young anymore and wrong movements could cause me to have muscle sore. To avoid that, I have to stretch my arms, neck and limbs. I also exercise for lighter feeling while dancing. I love myself for being passionate for the things I love because I still give myself a chance to be happy while doing it.
I love myself for being Diligent and Hardworking
Let say I don't have motivations and laziness, I am diligent and hardworking. At the office, I finish all my priorities in a day. I do not let any documents left there without proper delegation. If I wi have a pending work, those are the ones that are not really needed in daily basis and could be done the next day.
Even on my online jobs. I finish it all in a day. I don't want to be a problem to my co-team so as much as possible my everyday presence must be very helpful. I am diligent too. It is how many times my hardwork and diligence pays, and it is not only me that benefits but other people. However, I am only a human being so there are times I could be lazy and demotivated but my alter self is always working and very diligent.
I love myself for trying, and helping, and not taking advantage of people
I am proud to say that even though we were so poor when I was young, my parents thought us to be a person who will not taking advantage of the kindness of people. In our lives we can meet a mixture of good and bad people. There are people that are good and will be there to help you. Some might done you bad, but at the end of the day, choose to be kind. That is the legacy you will leave the world.
I am a person who always wants to help. If I can help, I will help. If someone ask me for help I try. I try of what help I could give. I try to learn other things too, this is for me and for the people around me. Some learnings maybe difficult for me but I will not know if that is for me, if I will not try. I am glad that I am a person who trying everything. I might stop at once due to exhaustion but I know I will keep on doing it.
How about you? For sure you have characteristic that you love about yourself? Care to share what they are?
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A Confrontational Dream...
August 10, 2022
Hello my passionate co-writers of this awesome site. I want to apologise that due to not enough time, I have been absent on this site for 2 days already. Right now, before I lose something to share for today, I rather finish this draft. I want to share my dream last night. I don't want to question it, or I don't have question why I had that kind of dream but I still want to know your thoughts, if you have.
I remember I had 4 hours of sleep only and in the midst of it, I had awaken a lot of times because of this dream.
In my dream, it seems I am a student that is working in a library. I am aware I was wearing a uniform, a blouse and a long skirt. I know the school was my university when I was in college. Then I was returning books in the shelves.
What I remember was, there is this one male student, who is very fair skin, and is wearing a beanie. He saw me putting the books one by one in the shelves and he said that why I was alone in the far end side of the library. I answered him I was returning the books. Then I told him if he is happy with his girlfriend.
I don't why I was saying that, but it seems that this guy knows me too because he responded with sarcasm, I don't remember what he said but he is sarcastic. I didn't get scared or offended by his remark and it seems I was pushing something on him. I am the bull that pushing him to do something bad.
I was like talking in pouty way, and kept on insisting something on him. He is just looking at me like he couldn't believe those words are coming out of my mouth. And he said if I want him to cheat with his girlfriend and I know I am urging him with my words. He was like in real shock by what I've said.
As we keep exchanging words and he is in real shock, I realised who he is and I could believe it. He is someone I know and I like. Never in my life we had a confrontation like that. We haven't met in person. What I know is that before I slept, I looked at his Instagram account. Maybe my subconscious mind absorb his face before I gave in to sleep.
What I can't believe is that, his face was clear in my dream. I can see clearly his face in the middle part up to the last. I can feel that this person likes me too jn my dream and he was having second thoughts with the look in his eyes if he will choose me or his girlfriend. It seems he wants to tell me something instead of insisting he should cheat. I don't know when the confrontation ended, but the next story was when I was walking in the hallway and I see from the side of my eye that he saw me and he followed me. That time I was walking really fast because it seems I'm not ready to talk to him but he grab my hand. Unfortunately, I don't remember what happened next. I woke up thinking about what I can recall. Still I don't remember how it ended. I just can't believe that I could talk to this person in my dream when he is always part of my daydream.
I don't know the meaning of that dream. Maybe it doesn't have a meaning at all. It is just one of the normal dream. I am happy that I dream about him but I wish the dream is a happy one, not that kind of confrontation. Now I imagine how he reacts to confrontation lol, yet what do you think is the meaning of that dream.
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Read.cash Gave me $1090.79!! 263 articles
August 7, 2022
I was reading some articles on my notification and then I browse through my articles too. I read a certain article and the author shared she earned more than 10 BCH and I wonder what is the amount in dollar. I got curious about mine so I start browsing on my articles. Even it requires a big effort, I wrote all my earnings in all of my articles in here.
I started to become active here last year August, but I know I was a year old member of this site already on that day. I was not active and almost forgot about the site because I am not earning and there is no one to guide me. A good friend asked me if I am a member and I said I was, and then the rest is history.
I started writing again and get active. As of now, I have 263 articles written on the site, this article not included. I have lots of inactivities, I know and that is because of my busy days and demotivation. I started doing the total earnings and I found out that I earned $1090.79 and the is equivalent to 50k in Philippine peso. Woah!!!! Php 50,539.50!! Where did my money gooooo!!! For sure most of it are given to Charity. And the name of the Charity is my Mother, lol.
That is the biggest amount I received from blogging site. Or maybe during the time of Bubblews I was earning more and I worked hard there, I gave too much effort, however in here, I know, I was not even active in the Notification site, what more if I am active. I even has the lowest number of subscribers compared to the new members, consider I am an old member by the way. I should have 500 followers now, but it is quite obvious I didn't roam around that only a few subscribe to me.
The effort of Rusty or RR to visit my articles is also the reason of that earnings. For you guys who are really veteran of the sites you must be laughing at me now for that earnings are really small hahaha, but for me it is massive!! I want to thank all of you guys, my sponsors, RR and readers, in supporting me in this field. Truly it is such an honor to know the site that could help you survive your everyday living. Effort and quality is the key!!
I am not bragging. The older members know that every little earnings is worth a day. This could not be possible without Rusty. You cannot tell if you will get any from the bot, but when you get one, you should be very happy!! I am thanking RR wholeheartedly even though the bot will not understand. Thank you Rusty and thank you everyone!!
Now, I am having a little panic. I don't know why, but when I saw that earnings I realised there are so much time to embrace the site more, to be active more, to learn more and to give more. This is the time for me to start all over. We just need to try and let's see what will happen. Do I sound serious about this, but atleast now, the number on my title will always flash on my mind whenever I feel demotivated. The value of BCH will still affect the earnings, but let us be happy we still have this and find more sources of earnings. Truly if you want something, you need to create something.
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My dream is happening on my friends' life, what about me?
August 5, 2022
I never thought that it is 5th day of August now and I skipped writing yesterday for unknown reason, maybe because of demotivation again. I worked at home and I felt useless, but I have the time to talk to my old friends when I don't have nothing to do.
I able to find out what is happening their lives and just now I realize, some of my dream from long long time is happening to my friends. I am not sure of this will be some episodes of rant post, because I want to share you how I feel but at the same time I am happy for them. All of my manifestations and sharing of my plans and thoughts happens to them. Or maybe I gave them an idea that they apply in their life and it reach success on them.
First friend, Work Shift
Back in 2015, I shared to this friend that I love to have a straight 4 day work. Regardless of time duration I stayed at the office, I want to have the work to be for 4 days only. One friend shared to me her schedule after we exchanges the time of our daytime work. She said that she works 8am to 8pm in this one Bpo company in Makati and she only works Tuesday to Friday. I was in awe because I remember I dream of having that schedule and it happens to her. I have an 8 to 5 job everyday and I worked 6 hours, Saturday is for OT. She is happy for her schedule because now she has more time for her family, which is should and must.
Second Friend, Got in on my dream Job
My dream is to become a graphic designer and translator. Yes, sometimes in year 2020, my dream changes and I want to be those two, to be a graphic designer and translator. She works in a company and she is on permanent work from home. She works as a graphic designer during the day and at 7pm she has an English class to Korean students where she she speak Korean in order to teach English to them.
I really envy her for getting three of my dreams, one is to be a graphic designer, second is to be a Korean translator and third is the permanent work from home. Plus she is earning good. I am happy for her that she told me that she is now having a savings and she is just happy to the careers she have. I am happy for her. I just want to be happy for her and I want to remove this jealousy. She deserves it, she is a hard working woman eversince.
Third Friend, Already in Korea
A friend is no longer here, which I thought she never left the country due to pandemic but she said she left in middle if 2021. She is now in Korea and working in my dream company! It was bit her first company but when she found out that there was an opening year 2021 she grabbed the opportunity and applied. The work is not easy but the pay is really really good according to her. I was really shock when she shows us her ID, and I am so excited to join her there!!! There is no opening as of the moment but she will let me know if SNS work has an opening, because I can work online with SNS. SNS is about social media.
To be honest, I felt sad for myself
I felt sad for myself because I didn't push hard to make this dream come true. I really want it but I failed to make a concrete plan to make it happen. Before, I think it is impossible. If only I believe that everything is possible, it could happen to me.
What went wrong?
I failed to make it a plan. Right now, I am thinking if I really want those dreams because if I superbly want it, I make ways to make it happen. But I didn't. I even neglect those dreams. Now that I am seeing it happening to the people I love, it makes me question my capacity to make my dreams come true. Or maybe I will change my dream now because it looks like I am copying others dream now, lol.
I didn't work on a plan. I have a plan but I didn't support it with a realistic approach. Also, it has been a long time I am supporting someone and not myself. It shows I am living some other's life because I am helping someone to make their dreams come true while my dreams are left in the drain. That dreams happened already to my closed friends and I am still behind. I am always the supporting side, never became the lead role in this lifetime.
What needs to do?
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, why not continue making that dreams come true. It never too late unless I will die tomorrow. Today is another day for me to reassess and reorganize that plan. In fact, it will be my advantage to make that dreams happen as I have people who are there already, living that dream. I can just ask them how did they do that? I already have a guide now. This is something I will look forward and this is my day 1.
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