@Gaftek 17 July 2021

The lonely me

No matter how jovial and funny I can be,I will still remain lonely. Why did I say so? Hmm, if you have followed my articles strictly then you should have understood the type of person that I am to some extent. I am funny, I know that right,you can ask people around me. But funny to who? Where do I crack my jokes? Who do I crack my jokes to? All these questions I am going to answer just relax,hahaha,you think I am just asking myself and I won't answer? But wait is it your article? No,is mine and why should I answer it by force? Ohh, 😂😂😂😂 I forgot I was expected to pass an information to you guys. I will tell you about myself, don't worry. I am just kidding anyway, let's get back to business. Like I have said earlier that I am funny to people around me,who are the people? They are the few friends I have. Trust me when I say I don't know how to approach people and that's why most of the time I just have to keep to myself all I have gotten or all have to say. How did I meet the people I called my friends. If I tell you I can count my friends,will you believe? I met some of my friends at the school and some on social media. Those I met in school were approachable maybe because we are in the same department of in the same group for a project,and there's no way as a group member that you won't participate in what others are doing,so from there friendship started. And sometimes,maybe I need some assistance and they are the one I was referred to that can help me out and from where friendship started. Those I met on social media were approachable because I derive so much joy in chatting to people online,the confidence is just there for me,social media platforms give me chances to display all I can and all I have. I never saw anyone looking at me whereby I would be frightened. I feel comfortable chatting with them all the time. But did you know what? At some point I anticipate seeing them when I know I won't have that confidence to talk to them straight in the eye like I can do online. Only a few of them I was able to face in the eye and talk to them,that might be because I think they are my type and they got the vibe I wanted. So unto the question where do I crack my jokes? Obviously it is among my friends I should be cracking my jokes when it is not that I am a comedian that is expected to crack jokes facing a large crowd. Hmm,are you thinking what I am thinking? I am thinking I should try becoming a comedian since I am funny or what do you guys think? Wo 😇😇😇 let me just continue being a writer on read.cash Even though I know I am not really good at it,I will keep improving as time goes on. My jokes are being cracked within my friends but mind you there are some friends that I don't crack jokes with, we only talk about serious matter not because I cannot crack joke with them but I only sense it that they are not the type of person who derives joy in listening to jokes. Hmm,will I say maybe because I haven't studied them well or what? But they are my friends,how will I not be able to know what they want? Let me just conclude that I haven't been able to flow with them well order than just discuss about serious matter and I am shy in between. I am an Ambivert, I think that what I am. Sometimes I act like an extrovert, I tend to be social and concerned with outer affairs and sometimes I act like an introvert,I tend to be social and only focus primarily on my mind,feelings or affairs. I am in between and this makes me be myself. How do I know I am an Ambivert? I can perform tasks alone or in a group,I don’t have much preference either way. Social settings don’t make me uncomfortable, but I tire of being around people too much. Being the center of attention is fun for me, but I don’t like it to last. Some people think I’m quiet, while others think I’m highly social. I don’t always need to be moving, but too much down time leaves me feeling bored. I can get lost in my own thoughts just as easily as I can lose myself in a conversation. Small talk doesn’t make me uncomfortable, but it does get boring. When it comes to trusting other people, sometimes I’m skeptical, and other times, I dive right in. If I spend too much time alone, I get bored, yet too much time around other people leaves me feeling drained. Source for how do I know I am an Ambivert? https://www.forbes.com/sites/travisbradberry/2016/04/26/9-signs-that-youre-an-ambivert/?sh=beb608e3145b All this makes me feel I am truly an Ambivert and I am glad I am even though sometimes I feel I shouldn't,anyway that's me for you. I can't be like someone else or compare myself with someone,I am just me😇😇. Let me now ask you guys that have been reading this since,Am I lonely? Tell me the truth I am and at the same time I am not. My phone and books have kept me going and did not make me feel really bored because when I read I forget everything around me which makes me feel am in another world where only I can be ruling myself and I pick up my phone to write how I feel,what I have learnt and what I think should be corrected In an article. Thanks to @MarcDeMesel for creating this platform for the lonely me where I can express my feelings freely without anyone to shun me of not listening to me. At some point I am lonely because I cannot be on my phone and books all day I need to Interact with people, but I find it hard to because I am the shy type. The case is worst now because we have been sent away from school to go to our houses because of covid 19. I have only two (2) friends in the whole of my area and they are not always available like that because they are also busy. It is school that I have a few numbers of friends,how do I cope with this loneliness like this😂😂😂😂 don't worry, All will be well. I think you know me now with this little that I have written,hmm,I hope breeze have blown my bombom to the open😂😂🙈🙈see let me drop my pen here and say good bye to you all. ***Thanks for reading,subscribing and for upvoting,you all are the best😘😘 for reading. Take care,till tomorrow again.*** If you are interested in my other articles,click the link below,I promise you that they are educative and a lot is there to learn; Why are they after my life https://read.cash/@Gaftek/why-are-they-after-my-life-ea4a5f0b Habit: is yours good or bad https://read.cash/@Gaftek/habit-is-yours-good-or-bad-74d77f55 My doubt: I think I lost it all https://read.cash/@Gaftek/my-doubt-i-think-i-lost-it-all-35f5a2e9 17th july 2021.