@Don26 12 October 2020

My regrets in Life

When I was young, I am annoyed by this song called " You're too young " ( Batang-bata ka pa ) in my language. This song is about telling the youth that they're too young to know everything in life. I am annoyed because I felt like I have nothing to prove as a child. But that changes when I grew older and I realize that this song turns out to be true. Some adults say I want to go back to the days where I don't have to pay bills. Days where your parents will let you sleep in the afternoon and you'll get spank if you don't. Now, you're a sleep-deprived corporate slave. You have no choice but to get up early in the morning and finish some tasks even after working hours. Adulting. It's a trap. Now I know why peter pan said don't grow old. ( He's my favorite character by the way ). When I started working, I don't have any concrete idea about my plans in life. All I do is work and spend. that was the year 2014, fortunately, I landed my first job at the age of 19. 2 years had passed, I have nothing but memories from my travels and concerts that I attended. I spend a lot of my salary for all the experiences that I wasn't able to attain when I'm still jobless. No regrets but I wish I save. Someone asked me. *" what is your biggest regrets in life ".* *I told them that I haven't got the chance to tell my dad that he can retire from his work and now it's too late because he's no longer with us.* Everyone was crying after I said that. We always want the best for our family and sometimes I felt like I'm not giving enough effort to obtain my goals in life. What I hate the most before is when my mom needs to ask someone to lend her some cash just to survive for a week until payday. It always ends up that the hard-worked salary will go to the debts. We're like a one-day-millionaire. We can only eat decent food every payday but they next day it will get back to normal. Canned goods, instant noodles, and worst are condiments. I told my mom I don't want to go back to those days. I'll try my best. I'll work hard to give her a better life. Yes, that is my responsibility now. *Some might say that your children should not be considered as your retirement plan but as a child who grew up seeing my parent working hard day and night just to sustain our needs, It is my honor to give them the life they deserve.* Dad will be forever in my heart and I promise him that I will take good care of my mom until my last breath. I can't wait to share my dreams slowly turning into reality with my mom. I'm 25 now. I always thought that I'm running out of time but the truth is I still have more time to reach my goals in life. Keep safe. Love your parents. goodnight. ;