@Doctor5588 6 June 2022 more from that month

Assalamualaikum All Noisers ! Well , Its been a long time that I was not here and I missed NC a lot ! But I was busy in my exams and now I am free ! But during the exam session I decided that I will leave NC forever ! I will just focus on my health and will spend time to the people who are important to me ! So , I have uninstalled everything which was hurting me including PUBG ! It's better to leave then to be suffer from something. Btw I am not well now a days and I can't explain what happened to me ! At the night of Forensic Paper , I went to shock conditions and I was helpless . Actually , the fact is that There was something which was hitting my mind so hard and I can't even get rid of it ! That thing disturbed me during exams and due to which I couldn't prepare much but I was confident that I will not fail my paper this time . I was confident before exams but the night of exam , I went into shock and Cardiac pain due to tension . My breathing was irregular and Pain in heart . I was crying because I was helpless and Just wanted to pass my exam. I sent voice msg to my NC Aapi , My baangro , My Sweet Hamsai , every one said that I will perform well and they will pray for us . But I was crying . Then I asked my Friend to be in my room because I was thinking about Very Very Very Bad thing Due to Tension . So , To change my mind , I ordered my Friend to be here. When he came ,I hugged him and started crying . He said , Why ? Then I explained . He said I will ask one question . How many days have you given to this subject during preps. I said 15 ! Then he threw my book to the other side and Said "Jaa Too Pass Hay , Men Likh K Dey raha Hun InshaAllah" Just relax ! He asked a question and I answered right ! He slapped at my face slowly and said , Why are you creating mess in your mind . You are doing Penic to yourself without any reason. Just be confident and I promise your paper is pass InshaAllah ! Then I said , I know my paper is pass InshaAllah . My how to get rid of this thing ? This phase of my life ! He said You will be normal in a while ! When I became normal I said him to go because I have to study ! Even after 4 hours of weeping , my heart was not satisfied ! So ,I did a mistake and That mistake was really worst ! I send voice to my Father , I was crying , having difficulty in breathing, also telling my father that I feel Pain in my heart ! I wept all the time During voice. After that , I was a little bit easy and started studying again . After the morning prayer , I deleted that voice because I didn't want my father to be worried because He is ill . I also sent this voice to my brother too because I used to share things with him too about my studies . After paper , My brother called me and Asked about paper. Then he said what you have sent , you shouldn't be so much emotional . I said I deleted that voice before my Father heard . But he said , Father has listened that voice . Then I received my father's call and by the voice I realized that My brother was right. From that day and still even right now , I am not well . I am in shock what to do and How to do ! I have decided that I will leave NC and Next post will be my last post . In the last Post I will dedicate something to someone special . After that I will move on and will never look upon before with the exception of Date 2 Feb !!! So ,right now I am going to sleep because my headache is hurting me . It's better for me to sleep and take rest ! I haven't went for check up still lol ! Just All I want to say Is , "داستان ختم ہونے والی ہے "