Sometimes...
*Sometimes I just want to be alone*
*My thoughts are my most preferred company*
*Wandering far away from my painful reality.*
*Sometimes the painful reality is this*
*People you showed up for will not always show up for you*
*So you just have to be strong all by yourself.*
*Sometimes being all by yourself sulks*
*So in the end no matter how strong we are*
*We still need people.*
*Sometimes the people we still need will let us go*
*We never can tell why or how*
*They just left and we have to move on.*
*Sometimes moving on isn't as easy as people advice*
*Some days you'll feel like a bad bitch "I've got this!"*
*Next day you're crying and screaming and letting the pain all out.*
*Sometimes letting the pain all out is the best thing to do*
*Why pretend you're okay if you're not?*
*Can something that's in perfection need healing?*
*Sometimes you don't need healing but cure*
*Total cleansing!*
*Cleansing from all the lies you were fed, pain you're going through and hate in your heart.*
*Sometimes in your heart lies the truth you're seeking*
*Answers to the 1,000 questions in your head*
*Direction in your state of confusion.*
*Sometimes in the state of confusion, pain and sorrow*
*Nobody understands, everyone criticizes, everyone condemns you*
*But all your soul is yearning for is understanding and love.*
*Sometimes I think long and hard "understanding and love"*
*Are these two just pillars enough to hold a relationship firm?*
*And because I don't know the answer to this, I stand right there pondering endlessly.*
Sometimes is an original poem of mine and the photo up there is me. It's just a simple narrative of what people think about or go through sometimes. Thank you for reading.
Women...💔😭✊💝🌹
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**Women!**
Weaker vessels they call us but we are the nation builders.
In pains we've birthed babes who grew into men, and men who grew into leaders, husbands, God's representatives, all together making a community grow into a nation.
**Women!**
The pains we go through... days of rolling on the floor because of menstrual cramps or is it a journey to the land of death when we groan in pain and push while screaming our lungs out during childbirth?
Need I remind you of the pains of breastfeeding when the little lady bites the nipples and thinks "I'm playing with a soft sweet stuff" but the woman winces in pain.
Have you thought of the pain of risking her life to bring a soul to life and later watches her child bleed to death or just lay devoid of breadth either through accident, sickness or for a cause unknown to men?
Have I spoken about the shame? The shame of trusting a man she thought loved her, risked her all, gave her all and when pregnancy surfaced she was left to her fate?
The fear of abandonment from parents, the pain and shame of mockery from bystanders, the trauma of loneliness, the suffering of raising a child as a single mother, how about dropping out of school or even the dilemma of keeping the pregnancy or risking her life in abortion...💔
With tears I write about the abused. The tears from pains, the groans, the screams, the emotional torture, the trauma of being forcefully bonded with someone you didn't choose, you didn't accept, you didn't agree. The slow healing process that takes forever to come through 😭
**Women!**
The pain of surviving all these and raising a child to the best our abilities and still have the world blame us if the child goes astray, do people even understand this pain?😢
**Women!**
No one really believes in our capabilities, we are weak - this is always the excuse to limit us. But we are fighters! We fight for our rights, we fight for our freedom, we fight for our peace.
**I Am A Woman!**
I'm strong, I'm lovely, I'm beautiful in sight and at heart. I'm brave and as bruised as I may be, I'm kind, I'm an advocate of peace.
I was designed as an helpmate and helping is just what I do. The world may be bad and filled with evil but good people exist and I see them, I celebrate them.
**I am a woman!**
That I'm the weaker vessel doesn't mean I'm weak. I simply understand that the man is the head and I submit to his authority. I respect the one placed above me and I fulfill my duties as a helpmate.
**I am a woman!**
I am the keeper of my home. With love I raise God's children kept in my custody. Daily teaching, correcting and leading them with examples.
I am led by God and I'm His own representative. With my lips and on my knees I help fight battles yet unseen.
I'm light and I'm salt, I'm life and I'm love, **I am a woman!**
Happy women's day!
To all the strong, good women alive today and to all heroes who we've lost on the way.
To all the men who appreciate, value, love and celebrate women in their life, I say thank you ❤️
Didiee writes!
Rants.... Pissed!👿
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**Ssss.... Ssss, Rude!**
Can you guys explain why you make that sound when trying to call a girl on the road???
Don't "ssss" me! I'm not hawking! Walk! Use your legs! I'm walking too fast? Run after me! Why would you want to talk to a beautiful lady and you're yelling "pssst pssst"? It's very rude.
If you want to talk to a lady, kindly walk up to her and say "hello, please excuse me"
That's very polite and will give the lady a reason to give you an audience.
It's very rude to make that hissing sound in the name of calling a person, it's not nice at all. Guys, take note!
**Me? Come? No, You Come.**
Another thing guy's do and I don't like it is standing some distance away from a lady and beckoning on her to come.
Excuse me mister, who are you? Grand Commander of the Federal Republic of Nigeria? My boss, My life giver?
Why don't you do the walking up?
Guys, this is wrong! You have to do the coming if you want to talk. It's you who needs something, who wants me to listen to you so swallow your pride and walk up to me. Don't make ladies look stupid because you're a cute guy, you have ego, excuse you! Don't do that.
**Boring Greetings To A Lover**
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My lodge mates have been laughing at me recently. Not exactly as if they're mocking me but there's this laughter I hear each time I say I'm out to see my boyfriend. That's usually a joke on my part but they're always like "Didiee you? Boyfriend? I'll shoot a gun"😂
If I ask them what they mean by that , they ask me what the guy must have done to make me agree.
This is because they know I have standards. I've been turning down advances from both the people they set me up with and all others.
As a girl, I cannot be your girlfriend and wake up to a text that says "good morning", just that. Good morning who? Did we fight? Did I do something wrong? I mean this is your lover, did you have a bad dream? Even if you did, was I the one trying to kill you in the dream? You gotta be sweet...be romantic. Add a sweet name to it, don't be boring.
**Strangers keep your hands down please?**
It's a total turn off for me and a lot of other girls when a strange guy gets touchy. Why would you do that? I mean we just met, we don't know each other, we're just trying to get started and you're already misbehaving. Sometimes I feel these people forget there's coronavirus, there's infection, there are diseases. Be cautious, be well mannered. Take a chill pill guys, don't always be in a rush.
T for thanks!
And to all the gentlemen who don't do these things, I celebrate you 😌 I'm glad your kind exists, I'm glad we still have good guys out there, I hope you keep up the good behavior.
To you all who take time to read my post, like, vote and comment, I say a big thank you, I appreciate the kindness.
Happy weekend! ❤️
The world needs more of genuine love
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More than anything, I think the world needs more of love, genuine love. The rate of suicidal deaths could be reduced, damaged people, broken people, mentally derailed people could be reduced if there's a bit more of love.
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When you love a person, absolutely nothing on earth makes you want to hurt them. Nothing makes you want to cheat them, nothing makes you want to deceive them. Nothing makes you want to do anything that will cause them harm.
**But does love really exist?**
I've thought long and hard, does genuine love exist? These days spouses are deceiving each other, parents are maltreating and abusing their children, a lot is really going on...
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Recently, I've even been thinking if I really want to be in a relationship or not. I've been through things and I've discovered too many things that has made me doubt the genuineness in any relationship these days.
You see someone in a committed relationship desperately and unashamedly trying to cheat and even cheating, feeding different girls lies, professing the same love to another girl and I'm wondering what sort of love triangle that is.
The rate at which people are manipulated (speaking of both genders here though I see more of female victims compared to the male)in the web of love these days is so alarming.
Married people take off their rings and turn single for a short while to woo a lady and have a taste of the cookie. Some even go so real and state their marital status but it baffles me how ladies have nerves to go ahead and get entangled with another woman's husband, no respect for God or for a fellow woman, it's really alarming.
The side of the story that breaks my heart is the part were men of God who were called by God to lead the lost, give hope to the hopeless, renew the strength of the weak, groom the young and prepare the church for the 2nd coming of Christ, boldly, without fear, mess around and still stand on God's altar to shout "God is good".
For this reason, the young have given up on holiness,purity, righteousness... Young people who are upholding positions in church are messing around and if you confront them they tell you that even the pastor is doing it so if you want to preach start from the leaders. 💔
I've been sick trying to comprehend a lot of things. How did we get here? How do we end this? Will this even ever end?
In time past, it was a thing of dignity for ladies to maintain sexual purity, today dare you tell people you're a virgin, 80% of the universe will mock you and make you feel very stupid.
**And I Ask Why?**
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The world says we're evolving, "welcome to a new dispensation" they shout. An era where everyone is evolving and by evolving it means throwing away morals and good values that was handed down to us from generations before us.
By evolving it means "gone are the days God stroke people dead instantly for touching the covenant ark, we can do anything and get away with it"
By evolving it means Christ died and now grace is available, God's grace is sufficient unto all.
But ***"What shall we say then, shall we continue in sin that grace may abound?"*** Paul replied ***"God forbid!"***
That someone is doing the wrong thing isn't reason enough for us to do that, we can not be doing something because everyone is doing it, that everyone is even doing it doesn't mean it's worth doing.
I Corinthians 10:23 Amplified version
**All things are lawful [that is, morally legitimate, permissible], but not all things are beneficial or advantageous. All things are lawful, but not all things are constructive [to character] and edifying [to spiritual life].**
If we love God, if we love people as we say we do, we will not do a lot of things we do to them.
We've been taught and shown the attributes of genuine love as Christians in the Biblical standard in 1 Corinthians 13: 1-9, 13.
New International Version
1 If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.
3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.
6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
**13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love But the greatest of these is love.**
Any love that doesn't posses any of these attributes isn't the genuine kind of love.
**And On Romantic Relationships..**
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I have seen people say they love a person and they're in a relationship, later on they break up and most times when I ask why the responses I get to hear are mostly of physical outlook, the lady wasn't looking attractive, she's slim, or I hear she's not so educated, she can't speak English properly, she's poor, she's from a poor family, she doesn't dress well, she is not submissive and the list goes on and on...
I watched a movie one time titled WORLD APART, the protagonist Kenneth Okonkwo said:
"We should learn to make the people we love become the people we want them to be
People marry illiterates and make them educated
People marry drunks and make them stop drinking
People marry thieves and make them born again
If you want to marry a girl and poverty is an hindrance, let your life as a rich man influence her life and place her in a standard you want her to be
*Love changes everything!*
I quoted the lines, they're unforgettable. Sometimes I feel guys especially make flimsy excuses for leaving a particular girl. I read a post yesterday and the writer said **anyone can be the one** and I totally agree.
Any girl can be the girl for you and any man can be the man for you if you want him to be. We must always put effort in helping to mould people become what you want them to be. If we love them we can help change them.
Criticism doesn't help change people, judgement doesn't, gossip doesn't, hatred doesn't, grudges doesn't, love does and God does. The way we relate with people goes a long way in changing them positively or negatively.
**And on submission**
I'll say, submission is a response to being loved correctly. No man or woman will be submissive to a disrespectful partner, abusive partner, ungrateful partner, unfaithful partner. Submissiveness is never commanded it is earned. When you treat people right, love them right, they submit to your authority without much Ado but if it isn't so then submissiveness is near impossible.
**In conclusion**
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Love is communicated through actions, it can be seen, it can be felt, it can be heard. If we act with love in our dealings with each other a lot of things can be avoided. Let's act in love, speak love, walk in love everyday of our lives. The world needs more of genuine love not manipulation, let love lead!
To you all who take out time to like, comment and upvote my post, I say a big thank you, your kindness is much appreciated.
Now I put the focus on me...
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*In life, some days you'll look around for the ones you thought you had yet you won't find but help will come from the least expected people.* https://pixabay.com/photos/camera-phone-girl-hands-1869430/
@Didiee
It's been a sad morning of reminiscing on events of the past five months. Last year between November and first two weeks of December were the hardest months of my life. I went through a very difficult situation in school, I felt very depressed about it and I wish I had someone to talk to about the situation and also get helped. Sadly, a close friend that could have been of help to me, I kind of lost him.
He didn't die, he wasn't ill but we were not communicating anymore and I didn't see the need to reach out to someone who literally abandoned me.
As hard as it was, I kept going, stayed strong and gradually I pulled through. I forgot about looking up to people and decided it's best I look after myself.
**What took me down the memory lane**
I got a call last night from a long lost friend. It was so shocking to me and I immediately began to feel different emotions all at once - surprised, sad, angry, abandoned.
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I summed up courage and answered the call. It was from that old friend of mine and all we talked about was how we stopped talking, who's fault it was, how I wasn't there for him anymore, I turned him off with something I said... How a lot of everything was my fault, I saw him at a wedding and just greeted him formally and that was it....
I took a deep breath, thought critically and composed a message afterwards apologizing for my short comings and explained how I've dumped the life of bearing people's burdens in the name of friendship, letting people use me and leave me when I need them, I ended the message by saying I deserve to be taken care of the way I take care of people, I deserve to be loved correctly and I'm focused on giving myself all the things I wish for.
**Truth be told**
I was somewhat angry deep down to hear him say he expected me to be there for him. All through my life I've been so kind to my old friend, I remember when he decided to rent his own house, I was worried about him, I wondered how he'll survive because that was a huge leap on his own part. I took it upon myself to provide some household utensils for him.
On occasions he wasn't available at work, since we worked together, I always replaced him and managed both his duties and mine.
I felt like I was a slave sometimes, I always knew anytime he needed help he would count on me and I never disappointed him because we were friends. So many times people talked about us that maybe we were in some sort of romantic relationship but that wasn't the case. Despite the things people said, I still stayed friends with him.
Later on, I quit work and relocated to further my education. We still talked from time to time then as he was trying to bury his parents whom he lost last year. Though I wasn't physically present, I still assisted him with the planning. Staff refreshments, what to cook, quantity to cook etc. After the burial, he never really reached out anymore. So from October last year, we never communicated as friends till last night.
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The whole thing made me look like I really had no one, like people always need me to be their peace, their comfort, their consolation and I keep wondering what about me? I don't remember a time I let my old friend down and just this one time I really needed a friend he zoomed out on me. https://pixabay.com/photos/girl-sitting-jetty-docks-boardwalk-1822702/
**And now**
Now that my old friend came back to talk about who's fault it was or wasn't, I quietly apologized for my short comings but I made it clear I've moved on and **I'm placing all of my focus on me.**
I feel that the less I put my hope in humans the better it is for me.
I honestly hold no grudge and I'm much better now but I'm certain I don't want to restore our relationship.
People shouldn't be in our lives when all is not going well for them and when they get better they are out and think that whenever they choose to return, life will get back to normal.
This is my honest opinion, do you think otherwise?
To you all who take out time to read my article, comment and upvote, I say a big thank you. I totally appreciate ❤️
Hello March 💃
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It's a thing of joy to always see a new month. For me as a Christian it feels more like a privilege, I see life as a gift from God,a gift given to me by grace not by my own doing. Thinking about things sometimes I really don't understand how people live and how they die either.
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It's a new month and I'm excited as many other people are. Every new month reminds me that I can start something new or evaluate my last month performances in all I did. This time it's more about evaluation. Below are the few areas of specialization I'm evaluating myself on.
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EDUCATION
On education, well Nigerian Federal Universities are on strike. According to the Punch Online News, ASUU demanded for the payment of 1.3trillion naira else the strike won't be called off.
For this reason, most academic activities are on hold for the time being. Some students have travelled back to their home towns but I'm not one of them.
Since the strike began, I've been neglecting my studies. I only do some assignments that was given to us and that's it. I don't really read.
Before the strike, academic activities were a bit overwhelming for me. The work load was too much, we have classes from 7am-6pm most times, plus the night readings and assignments, it was so hard to keep up. Though I didn't want the strike because I was looking forward to writing my semester exams and moving on to the next level but when the strike came, it dawned on me that I've been stressing myself beyond normal and was at the verge of breaking down. Couldn't go out for days, was just indoors resting. With this I clearly need to step up my game and strike a balance between all other activities and my education. I need to really read up because once the strike is called off, the school will be talking about examination without any further delayance.
SOCIAL LIFE
My social life has been okay in the month of February. I'm a bit anti social. I really don't like to be around people a lot but I tried. I went for a picnic last month, attended a festival called 'Bolè Festival', went out for ice creams with a few friends twice and to me this counts. It's a huge leap for someone like me.
SPIRITUAL LIFE
On a scale of 10-100% I'll grade my spiritual life and performances for last month 60% I missed service for 3 Sundays. I don't know what really happened but I pray almost everyday, still do my Bible study. It's the first time I've acted like this and I really need to improve.
PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
I'm excited about this one. I've been doing very well in this aspect. I used to feel I wasn't good at writing, I was so insecure about things so I decided to try being consistent on my writing blog and I did well last month. I didn't make post on about 7 days, last week I posted everyday of the week and I was awarded a badge. I received more upvote than all other months, I was 80% active and I've been feeling good about it.
I've also been able to let go of people who used to be my friend but changed in a bad way and were no longer good for me. It was hard because sometimes you wake up to memories of the good times you had together but when you remember how they changed you feel sad but such is life right? Not everyone is meant to stay forever. Just maybe these people are done fulfilling their purpose in my life so I just let them go. I still pray for them and I wish them well.
I think that's the basic areas. So in summary I have to study better, Keep up the consistency in my writing, maintain the social life and improve on my spiritual life.
How about you? What are your new month resolutions? Have you made plans yet, set out little tasks for yourself this month?
So here's to wishing everyone a happy new month. Good luck in all your endeavours. Much love from me! 💝 I am @Didiee
A New Gem Is Here To Stay 💃
Hello everyone, I'm Didiee and I just joined read.cash. I was introduced to read.cash by my close friend @zellypearl
**A picture of** @zellypearl **and I.**
I'm a student of University of Nigeria Nsukka, I'm studying English Education. I am a young girl who's passion driven and focused on her goals. I'm most passionate about teaching. I worked as a teacher for 2 years before I gained admission to further my education.
I'm outstandingly known for my happy spirit. I'm mostly always happy and I wear a beautiful smile everytime.
I also sing, dance, motivate and write poems. Apart from read.cash, I also write on Hive - a decentralized social media platform that allows users to earn by writing creative content.
I am skillful in cooking, it's what I love doing the most. Though I love baking, I'm yet to begin baking I'm still in the learning process.
I'm an ambivert - one leg in, one leg out😂 I enjoy solitude a lot. I like to read a whole lot too as it's one of the ways to gain and improve in knowledge. I love adventure, nature, travelling, sightseeing, kids and eating. I eat food very well - not junks, real, tasty, spicy cooked meals.
Did I mention that I love modelling? It's one of my biggest dream which is yet to really become a reality. I love photography, I can't imagine a day without taking pictures. I love posing for the camera so much.
I'm very picky and shy but at the same time so outspoken and bold - sounds complicated right?😂
I'm a beautiful soul through and through though I have my flaws.
I don't like trouble, I'm a huge advocate for peace. I hope this platform looks out for people who try to abuse others or pick on them.
I love God, I'm a born again and dedicated Christian. I love going to church a lot to fellowship with the brethren.
I love complimenting people a lot because I feel bad good compliment can influence someone's day positively.
Did I mention how much I love cars? I actually do! I call cute black cars my baby. Here's a beauty I'll love to buy. It's a Mercedes Benz CLA 250 😍
I hate stress, with everything within me😂 I really hate stress but nothing good comes easy right? One way or the other we'll always be stressed somehow.
Love is my strongest weapon, I speak love, act it, breathe it, show it. Even the bible says that if one possesses everything worth possessing on earth yet have no love then our life is good as empty.
I don't really know much about read.cash as my friend is far from me but I know of some people who used to be here but left with the excuse that the stress is too much, rules and all but I'm determined to make my stay here worthwhile. I'm not letting any negative thing I heard hinder me from being an active member of this platform.
I have a lot to explore and learn on my own as my friend isn't close by to assist me so please bear with me if I make mistakes at this initial stage, I'll improve overtime.
I'll really appreciate a comment on the rules and regulations of read.cash so I'll stay guided.
Read.cash seems like a lot of fun to me though. I hope to be entertained and educated here and I'll be sure to keep you all motivated, educated and entertained as well. I'm so pleased to meet you all.
Thank you for having me.
@Didiee
