@Dawn_Dii 9 January 2022 edited more from that month

I'm going back in time thanks to my just found DIARY. Today I planned to do general cleaning for our house, because the last time I check, It was two weeks ago when the last time I cleaned our house thoroughly. As I start cleaning the house, arranging, wiping, organizing, I never expect what I saw ..  It was my Diary, then it suddenly came into my mind. I never thought that I still have my diary, I thought I lost it or thrown it away  when we moved out to our new house.

As I open it, many memories come back to me, from my Love to Hatred, Happiness to Sadness, from my pain to longingness.

As I read every part of it, the love and hatred comes along again, but I said to myself that it was only in the past, they're forgiven. I smile when I read how happy I was. I thought that I was never happy before because all I can remember was the hardships that I encountered. As I read the part of my sadness, I can't control myself but to be sad again, I really felt sorry for myself because I was too young and I cannot even protect myself from the pains that came my way.

I remember the person who I was longing for, I smiled. I never knew that I was loved before, because All i can remember was the day that he was gone, leaving me all alone. I remember the time when my friends invited me to a karaoke and I chose to sing " When You're Gone: by Avril Lavigne. I can't even sing properly because every lyric hits my heart and I end up crying. And because of this, I stopped cleaning and started to search on youtube as I reminisce my memories through my diary. **Ps: I don't know where to find the link to the video on youtube. That's why I write only the lyrics, as I traveled back in time.** ***I always needed time on my own*** ***I never thought I'd*** ***Need you there when I cry*** ***And the days feel like years when I'm alone*** ***And the bed where you lie*** ***Is made up on your side*** ***When you walk away*** ***I count the steps that you take*** ***Do you see how much I need you right now?*** ***When you're gone*** ***The pieces of my heart are missin' you*** ***When you're gone*** ***The face I came to know is missin', too*** ***When you're gone*** ***The words I need to hear*** ***To always get me through the day*** ***And make it okay*** ***I miss you*** ***I've never felt this way before*** ***Everything that I do*** ***Reminds me of you*** ***And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor*** ***And they smell just like you*** ***I love the things that you do*** ***When you walk away*** ***I count the steps that you take*** ***Do you see how much I need you right now?*** ***When you're gone*** ***The pieces of my heart are missin' you*** ***When you're gone*** ***The face I came to know is missin', too*** ***When you're gone*** ***The words I need to hear*** ***To always get me through the day*** ***And make it okay*** ***I miss you*** ***We were made for each other*** ***Out here forever*** ***I know we were*** ***Yeah, yeah*** ***And all I ever wanted was for you to know*** ***Everything I do, I give my heart and soul*** ***I can hardly breathe; I need to feel you here with me*** ***Yeah*** ***When you're gone*** ***The pieces of my heart are missin' you*** ***When you're gone*** ***The face I came to know is missin', too*** ***When you're gone*** ***The words I need to hear*** ***Will always get me through the day*** ***And make it okay*** ***I miss you*** And now?  I fell in love again, and thankfully I am married to man I love. Realization: When I think about it,I shared almost half of my life writing in Read.cash and I joined just a week ago, and I am thankful for it because anybody can read my story. When I was pregnant I said to my self that I will share my history to his/her and now I am sharing to everyone amd someday when my daughter will be at the right age I plan to give her my diary.

Last Thoughts: Read.cash bring back old memories, because everytime that I think on what should I write next, old memories come into my mind just like flash haha, and I thought I now know myself more than before because of read.cash for bringing my memories back and it gives me more excited to write.