My Thoughts About the Lucifer: TV Series
When you hear the name of Lucifer? What's the first thing that comes to your mind? The Devil or evil incarnate, right?
But, the TV series make it more interesting that everyone would beg for the next episode. Lucifer there was a hot, self - centered, young man who was always glad of making favors, and owns a night club. He loves sex, booze, cigarette and alcohol. Together with a demon, they enjoyed their vacation on earth in luxury.
His story evolves around his "Daddy Issues". Which he believes he was being thrown to Hell to rule for eternity and become a torturer and he is never happy for what he become.
He believes he is not a monster. By when he is around with Chloe the Detective, he is changing. He even called himself "The Good Devil". He becomes angry with himself and wanted to punish his own self.
But, Chloe made him realize that whatever bad things people would he is not responsible for it. Everytime people say, "The Devil made me do it," "Blame it to the devil," or "The Devil misleads my way," he should not carry the sin of the world on his shoulders. He is in fact the Devil not the evil and the punisher of bad people.
I think, Chloe is right there. We are responsible for our actions. We should not blame others for what we have done. We should face every consequences of our own actions because in the first place, we are the one who does have control to our own mind and body.
This is Me!
I always been called crazy, weird, and alien. Back when I was in highschool, I was an outcast or a loner. I could feel that nobody wants to be friends with me. So,I try very hard to adjust to my environment in order to fit in. I try making friends and I manage to have some somehow. But, still they're distant.
I don't really know why. Is it because I can't tag along with them anywhere? Well, that's because I'm busy running errands when I'm off from school. Is it because I'm not smarter like them? Yeah, sorry I'm just an average person. Is it because I'm poor? Sorry, I have to be a vendor's niece. If we can't sell, we can't eat. I can't really be in the same level with them.
I'm afraid to be with them when they're roaming around the mall. Like what would they say to my clothes or my outfit overall. What would they buy? I can't afford anything and in fact, I'm saving. I can't even do some of my projects because I don't have enough money to buy some materials or buy a load for internet data so I can research my assignments.
It is kind of depressing. So, I started to put my headphones and ignore the world. From then, I'm always alone. I don't care about them anymore. I started to listen to rock and metal music. It also make my feelings hard as a rock and the sadness makes it cold.
Atleast, I'm not hurting anymore, right? But, in the end I started to love myself because I know nobody will. I also get tired of always adjusting to people. I just let the real me comes out and stop thinking other people's comments. I found a few friends who accepts me and totally likes to be with me.
Isolation
Hi, ako po si Ching.
Na isolate po ako sa bahay namin last 3 weeks. Hindi po dahil may symptoms ako ng Covid19 kundi nagka bulotong po ako. Na isolate po ako ng 15 days. Napakahirap pala ng pakiramdam na ganun. Wala ka man makausap, puro cellphone lang ang katabi, hindi mo magawa ang gusto mong gawin, nakakulong ka, at hindi mo sila pwedeng lapitan dahil baka mahawa din sila.
Kahit na nakakapag internet ako, nakakalungkot pa din pala yung ganoong sitwasyon. Nakakalungkot na, parang mababaliw ka pa sa katahimikan na nararanasan mo. Minsan nga kapag natutulog ako bigla na lang akong nagigising kasi parang marinig akong bumulong sa tenga. Alam ko guni-guni ko lang yun kaya babalik na lang ako sa pagtulog.
Minsan hindi ko gusto yung pagkain na binibigay sa akin pero hindi pwedeng ibalik kaya kailangan ubusin. Kahit masusuka na ako, sige lang kasi nakakahiya naman sa kanila. Nag-effort silang magluto tapos di ko lang kakainin.
Sila din naglalaba ng mga damit ko. Naka-gwantes si Tita pag kumuha ng damit ko tapos bubuhusan niya ng mainit na tubig, sabon, at klorox ang damit ko para mamatay daw ang virus. Kada labas ko ng kwarto, dini-disinfect nila agad yung lahat ng nahahawakan ko. Nakaka-down lang na para kang virus kung i-trato pero wala ka naman magagawa kasi nga nakakahawa kaya todo ingat ang lahat.
Daig ko pa ang may Covid19 kung ma isolate pero okay na rin para din naman sa kapakanan ng lahat.
@Ching