How Online Class and Family Problems Affect My Mental Health ?
I was never under any kind of academic pressure during my entire academic career. I had no idea it would be so difficult that I almost cried because there was so much to do. Our family also experienced a significant setback, which exacerbated my mental health.
In my experience, offline /modular classes taught me nothing. It was simply making me lazier, so I decided to transfer to another school for SH after finishing JH. The main reason I want to transfer to a private school is to learn more and to see how effective online classes are. The first week of online class is fine because there aren't many activities, but by the fifth and seventh weeks, I'm feeling the strain. Our Adviser called my parents and then they informed me that I would not be among the honor students when the first grading grades were released because I received a grade of less than 85 in one subject. And that time I started not to attended class.
Another problem was added ,it didn't become apparent until after my debut. Mama and papa fought, and our Sunday Fellowship Service was disrupted until my older brother left, followed by mama but going somewhere else. Mama never said goodbye; we assumed she was just doing something, but a day passed, and then weeks. She couldn't deal with the problem, so she decided to leave for her own peace of mind. In some way, we were all affected. It got to the point where the lenders wanted me to pay off the debt, which was traumatic. It's a good thing I have a friend and her mother I can confide in. I lack the courage to complete my unfinished tasks. I overeat even when I'm not hungry; I just want to eat to relieve my stress. Time flies by so quickly that I didn't notice Christmas was approaching, and when it arrived, I cried when I saw a post of a family together, because we weren't complete until New Year's.
The deadline for completing all tasks is approaching. I do, however, still have 20 tasks to complete. It got to the point where I went to a friend's house and returned home early in the morning because no one in our house could help me and only my friend could. The Marites gossip about me having a boyfriend even though I don't, and I'm also depressed and insane due to my intelligence. Depression is not the same as stress. Gratefully, I overcame all of the gossips and tasks to be completed, and I'm pleased that I received a line of 9 grades despite the fact that I passed very late.
In conclusion, what happened was not the only disadvantage, but it did have an advantage in that it resulted in my parents reconciling after nearly 24 years of marriage and for me to make stronger than I thought. My family still has a problem, but everything is under control. And as for my online classes, I'm hoping that even if I'm having difficulties, I'll be able to overcome them, as I did in the first semester.
Trying to be ok
I never thought I would come to this situation were I struggle to my academic and to my family and it really affects my mental health though.
After my birthday , (Nov .14 ,2021) My parents fought again verbally . It was very early in the morning at sobrang pangit ng bungad ng umaga .Sunday pa yun ng biglang sumagot si mama dahil 'di na niya kaya ang mga pinasasabi ni papa .And this happened when he declared na walang simba ngayong Linggo .Nagtuloy tuloy ito ng dalawang (2) Linggo . And we can feel something is kulang kasi nasanay ka , eh , na may simba every Sunday .After many foughts my mother left.
Actually maayos pa ang pag -uusap nila papa that day .Nagtataka na nga si papa bakit naligo ng madaling araw at bihis na bihis na then she did her plan. Noong una di pa namin ma confirmed na umalis nga siya pero ng umabot ito ng hours, days and weeks we already confirmed it .She has a lot of secrets and problems that she's hiding and I think she did this because she can't handle it anymore .This is so heavy for her .And i felt sad for what happened , sabi ko pa "Nahihirapan na nga ako sa acads dumagdag pa talaga 'to?. Hindi ko lang sinasabi but I do cry every night, my eyebags are big already .
We're 3 left here my mother went to her friend and my brother went to his friend also .I become the second mother to my little brother and I do some of the house chores that I usually did when we're still complete .I thought I would be happy if we got separated kasi peaceful na siya wala ng ingay but I didn't expect my tears will drop and makes me sad .
I'm still trying to be ok and I'm praying also that we can overcome these challenges and struggles we're facing rightnow . My prediction that my new year would be happy but still I will continue to live and find the purpose of living.
Friendship
For you , what is friendship for ? How important your friends to you? Do you have a big circle of friends? Selosa kabang kaibigan?
I remember when Alex Gonzaga said to her tiktok video "We used to be too close , before but now we're not ". (Hindi 'to mismo sinabi niya pero same idea lang)
That's one of my closest friend that is near at me .Most of them live far ,why they live far ? Because I was studying kilometers away from our home. Since I started my Junior High Journey wala na akong naging kaibigan or should we say close friend like I've mention earlier na kapitbahay or dito man lang malapit sa tinitirhan namin .When Covid -19 started and the our School declared no classes ,we were so happy about that.However, we didn't expect that it will last for long . COVID-19 was already 2 years from now .
These are my classmates at the same time my classmates .We were classmates from Grade 8-10 .They are lesbian and boyish .Nagsimula ang friendship namin dahil lang din sa common friends . I don't have big circle of friends but I can assure that they may not many but they are true friends na malalapitan sa kalungkutan man yan.
Mga kaibigan kong girly talaga .Bago Yung mga lesbian at boyish kong friends sila muna .Grade 8 classmates ko din 'to .Gusto gusto ko kasama si Leikka, yung babaeng nasa left side and ka same height at age ko lang din .What I like about Jelsie is being funny but sometimes I didn't like her attitude towards us her friends . Sad to say noong lumipat si Leikka to other school hindi na kami masyadong nag uusap at nagkaroon na din siya ng mga bagong kaibigan like me .
They were my churchmate and friends back then .Nagkaseparate kami dahil sa mga ibat ibang problema at challenges na pinagdaan natin .I miss ate Beng a lot .The woman who wear white shirt and black and white shirt .She was the eldest among us and I treated her like my real ate since I don't have one .
Selosa akong kaibigan at gusto ko lang nasa akin atensiyon niya pero hindi ko Sinasabi .I know immature pa 'yong ganong act . Though gusto ko mawala pero di ko alam paano.
Siguro nga may mga taong darating sa buhay mo sandali at iiwan ka agad and friends are one of them we can t dent it . However , there are some who last for long and I'm looking for that kind of friendship.
Noise.cash Journey
Hi I'm chel18 ,your new read.cash user .
Can you still remember when you joined in noise.cash platform? Can you still remember who recommended you and became the reason why you're earning like me? Can you still remember how hard you start?
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I promoted that platform to different fb groups like 50 groups every morning , afternoon and night .I am so hardworking before .I was answering the enquiry of my invites to 10 - 20 persons a day and my hand is clasping . Of course, I met different kinds of people online with a different kind of attitude.There are some who are scammers and some aren't but I'm not dumb . My inviting skills was developed. haha When it started to had an issue I stop inviting and I was looking for a new pastime activity .
I remember noise.cash when I started .I still have some my notifications to their old system which was free tips . I registered and asked her to guide me . What's the rules and regulations, ways to earn and how can I withdraw my money. I don't what to bother here so I explore and teach myself in my own . I earned 100 pesos or $1 in a week .Since I don't have verified coinsph I asked small favor to one of my internet closest friends to transfer my money to Gcash .It all started there .When I'm earning that money I was happy because if I'm going to compare noise.cash to all the website that I had try noise.cash is one and only and the best of all .Some may last for 2-4 months then gone . http://noise.cash
I've been a noise.cash user for 7 months. What kind of system was it then, compare now.I've also been through a lot with my noise.cash account. I used to earn very little at noise.cash. It got to the point that I lost my value twice for 3 weeks. But when my account became stable, my earnings grew somehow. I'm saving because my debut is coming . I'm about to reach legal age. I earned $100 and but a big help for me.
My gratitude to the person who introduced me noise.cash .I started to own in my own ways without asking my parents nothing .It's the first time that I make a money that big(it's big for me already ) .If I didn't spent my money to nonsense things maybe it will reach higher .
In my new journey here in read.cash I hope even if its hard for me to start Judy want to enjoy , develop my writting skills and earn little for my load.
@Chel18
