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Let go of what doesn't serve you! I had been tired of living with old grudges and hurt that filled my heart with sorrow and stopped my growth . Eventually I understood that I can't keep feelings from past haunt me old trauma to make me a prisoner of a better me I can't keep hating people for something they did 6 years ago it's childish .I should Forgive and forget but is it that easier to do? I suppose no it never was and it never will be life is a deep struggle in what to keep and what to let go . Just a lil thought. Also I'm back to Karachi and guess which place I visited first ? The sea 😍😍😍😍 my internal mermaid is happy and this drink was just yum too #Randomthoughts
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In the past, I could not forget two people who caused me more pain than you give up. I lost because of their cruelty the most precious thing that I have, I can explain more, but believe me, forgetting is better for you.
I am sorry to hear about another person who is dealing with past trauma. Believe me, I know how it feels about painful memories from several years ago that if I were to start thinking about it, it is harder to stop. My painful memories come from my father and stepmother to a lesser extent. I remember him punching me in the stomach very hard like I was a man when he was teaching me how to ride a bicycle as a child. If it was the only time he has hurt me, it would be much easier for me to forgive him, but he had continued to treat me so badly until I became an adult. It was not until a year or two ago that I finally stopped talking to him because he is NOT SORRY about how he has treated me and how my upbringing has made me feel like a weak and stupid person. Even though I no longer talk to him, my memories are still there and I want nothing more than to make him suffer for his cruelty. The only thing to help is to cut all contact with awful people. They do not deserve love when they do not give love. Speak with people who are willing to listen to your problems, such as a therapist. If you can not afford a therapist, surround yourself with good people to help dull the bad memories. There is a lot that I can discuss learning to heal from trauma. I may even start posting again so that I can reach out to more people with helpful advice.
Yes please do it my trauma is different than u but I was bullied by my friends n I didn't even know that they were abusing me and bullying me I always thought it was funny to see me being the clown everyday I went home to cry alone only to realize later that they did it just to me it was normal for them to degrade me push me in stairs throw things like compass on my hands .It was abusive the whole class knew n no one stood up for me no one told me my friendship was toxic later I transferred to another city. Where I currently live and I was in highschool and I changed I was standing up for everyone who was bullied. I was the one person who would be there to solve fights to help any who cries .I was being who I didn't have and I came to my previous city last Friday and its just been awful because I saw my old classmates they recognized me they were talking as if they were always there for me and asking favors it just made me sickened it made me hate them more
I just made the post I promised you as I am now ready to start sharing the book for everyone to read and learn from. I understand your situation. It is much easier to cut people who called themselves "your friends" away from your life. I learned a long time ago to not care about people who do not matter to me. I would rather yell at someone who I do not like and reserve my affection for people who matter to me. If I were you, I would just tell them that they were never your friends and do not feel ashamed in letting them know exactly how you feel.
I would love to read more it's really motivating to hear brave tales of survival especially mental abused one cause so many people can relate to this