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@Auroraviolet 22 June 2022

End of exams! finally done with second semester 22 June, 2022 Finally terminal exams ended today and now i am all free , i feel a little relaxed but honestly speaking at this hour i felt it difficult to write cos i didn't knew what to write about and how to sum up, but i wanted to share anything and i remembered that i have decided to be active here after my exams soo i can't break my promise. I woke up at 9:00 am yesterday morning and still i am unable to sleep,lol dunno what's happening with me,i am also a little astonished upon my self Neither i get sleep nor i wanted ti eat...still surviving haha, anyways today when i was waiting for my bus to arrive i just thought time passes very quickly i still remember last year i got admission here at islamic and today i am done with my second semester, one year back when i got admission at a medical college in abbottabad but i was not able to continue there i decided that i will never get admission anywhere else cos from my childhood being a doctor was my passion, i got admission too but still i wasn't able to pursue my career in medical field and honestly the reason was that my family didn't allowed me to live far away from them,lol, also it was my father dream to do CSS at any cost, here in our culture you have to give priority to your family memebers first and then yourself . Ahh well but today i thought what happened was best, i am happy now with my field, i am happy with the friends i found here , amd also with this university, they have just became beautiful part of my life even though i can't imagine now being without them, haha yeah i am being soo touchy, soo "what happens, happens for the best". Lol.. this snap was clicked when i was just seeing whether one of my friend is standing or not on her stop,Weather now a days is being very pleased, while standing on the bus stop i felt really cold. After sometime the bus arrived and i just wanted to reach uni and get rid of the last one exam, of of my bestest friend gifted me a beautiful bracelet that means alot to me, ahh bibijani i will gonna keep it with my self forever. You just reminded me how we met, while being with you on the same van i never thought where the future us taking both of us, i never thought of such a close friendship relation , its beau-tiful. Anyways the butterflies on this bracelet reminded me of my favourite kdrama " sound of magic" ..haha Afyer reaching the uni when i opened my notes it seems that i am reading it first time ..haha..Bad thing that happens with me is that i forget what i read and write when the paper was infront of me i was just blank although i studied hard but then i just wrote my own concepts and it went well but not as much as i expected. After paper everyone was happy and now we have summer vacations for two months. But I'll really gonna miss all my friends. Because everyone has gone to their hometown to spend vacations and maybe I'll also have to go to abbottabad with one my cousin. But being soo overthinker these days made me think what if i was not able to cone back after two months? cos of some issues but i hope everything will gonna be okay in these two months . Anyways after the paper, Firstly i thought to go the the gymnasium with kne of my friend but because of severe headache i have to go home and we went towards the bus stop. but now i think if was in the gymnasium at evening my day would gonna be good.. Life is really unpredictable we don't know what will going to happen with us on the next spot. So take care of yourself, while being grateful all the time. All the images are clicked by me. Special thanks @foryoubtc09 @Tanain143 and @Ellawrites for the sponsorship renewal. Your encouragement means alot for me . If you guyz haven't visited the profiles of my sponsors do visit them as all there writings are really worth reading.

@Auroraviolet 21 June 2022

But really,who am I? 21 July, 2022 Greetings to all from my side! It's been many days since i kast uploaded an article here, tye reason behind my inactivity is not the situation here at read.cash but some other issues and my final exams, now i am left with one last paper and while writing i am just thinking these exams were really really hard for me, but thank god exams went well. I have many things to share many thoughts but i was not able to resume my writing, and sometimes heart is really heavy you want to share some things, some emotions with someone who can understand you but still you can't, why this happens? I don't know. I drafted an article on the start of june and still i am unable to complete it. Yesterday me with one of my cousin met with an old friend of mine, ahh i still remember those days that we spend together, while gossiping she said to me that "you are changed, why are you not talking, you are now being too much proud of yourself and really arrogant,and some other words that i don't wanna remember or mention,in some situations you are being too sensitive, omg really is that soo? I am not praising myself but i never tried to act arrogant, literally i hate this word cos i have seen...i have seen what does arrogance really mean and i have to suffer alot due to someone's arrogance. So her words were a little hearting, cos friends means alot to me and i have always tried to not heart any one but maybe being a human you make many mistakes unknowingly. Her words compelled me to think who am i? It doesn't mean what others say or think about you but when some near or close one say such things you really have to think, maybe i am wrong or maybe not. I don’t think I know what it means to know who you are. I’m so caught up in my identities to other people that I’ve lost who I am to myself, which is what’s probably most important. It’s hard to practice effective self care when you don’t know who you are and what you need. It’s hard to fill up your cup when you don’t know what to fill it with. `But, I think in order to heal, there needs to be a level of forgiveness. I don’t think I can ever really heal from all of the trauma I’ve been through without first forgiving myself for all the blame I’ve unjustly placed on myself, and then learning how to love myself.` So often I find myself asking questions that I don’t have the answers to, and I wonder if anyone really does. Maybe it’s okay to not have the answers, or maybe the answers are much easier than I’m giving them credit for. I want to know who I am. I owe it to myself and I owe it to the people around me. Feeling lost when I’m alone is very…unsettling. It’s uncomfortable, and it’s unpleasant. Am i the name my parents gave me? Am i the one others define me ? Am i defined by the role of my relationship? Am i the face that the mirror reflects ? I love on trying to find my true identity? Until then i should ruminate on who i am! Anyways one of my cousin being lover of non vegetarian food, rushed towards the butcher's cafe and grill at f6 markaz and ordered some food, after a month or two she will go abroad with her husband and I'll surely gonna miss her so i try to keep her happy and not to say No to anything she does and says...haha that's why i have to eat with her being not in mood. Anyways i have to forget all these thoughts cos i have to prepare for my exam. It's the last one after that i will be free from one tension..lol. One thing that i learned is: "Friends are those you never judge you and are always your side in difficult times" Thanks for reading and thanks to my sponsors, also special thanks to @Talecharm and @Roojoroojay for sponsorship renewal Images are clicked by me. Lead image is from #pinterest. Note : ~~Each and everything in this article belongs to my personal experience and all the words are mine free from any kind of plagiarism.~~

@Auroraviolet 10 June 2022

Greetings to all from my side! From past some days i am not feeling well and due to these health issues i am unable to post anything, or to read any article, also i am having my exams, so remember me in your prayers and pardon from my side, will meet soon in my articles and in yours!

@Auroraviolet 7 June 2022

The Zombie Kid 07 June, 2022 At the start of june i thought to publish articles regularly but my health not allowing me to do so, anyways let's move to the main topic: When i was child i used to read story books, fairy tales and alot of encyclopedias also, but one of the tale that i read in a magazine is still in my memories, in my mind ,and later on i watched a kdrama in which the same story was told by a girl, both have a little difference so let me tell you what the story was: There was a small village and there lives a women, she gave birth to a boy, a boy with big eyes,and he was not good looking at all. So his mother always treated him with hatred but indeed a mother love his child , so she also loved him but didn't showed nor expressed it. Time passed and the boy has no feelings at all for anyone, he didn't even felt any relation, his parents used to be busy and were not able to give him much love and priority that he needed, that was his right. He used to spend his time alone , not interested in anything,the only thing he was more interested is earing.. eating and eating... His mother was too busy to keep an eye on her son, but she started noticing that he was acting weired, one day she saw her son eating alive hen, she was astonished to see this face of her son, he was just acting like zombies, his mother noticed that he has completely transferred into a zombie kid,but he never attacked any human he used to attack animals and eat them up, instead of giving some care to him, searching for the cure of her son, she put him in a secret place, on the basement of their house to hide him from the villagers. She used to bought some food for him on her way back from work at the evening, and he was spending his life alone, all alone in the dark cave , sometime she used to buy a hen, sometimes a wolf, a cow and every animal that she found. But a time came when an epidemic broke in the village and all the animals started to die, and the zombie kid was starving. His mother searched for the animals but she didn't found one , on the day she started crying, although mother love is unconditional but sometimes expressing it is more important... She felt soo helpless that she cut down her legs and gave them to his kid, then her arms, her limbs, at the when epidemic broke she was with her son, After her legs , her arms , her limbs she waa left with nothing but only her torso, she embraced her son for the first and the last time to let him devour what was left of her, for the first time she said to her son: *****"Come here"***** Her son hugged her tightly with both his hands, the boy tightly held his mother's torso and spoke for the first time in his life: Mom... You're... Soo warm... *****Mom! You are soo warm!***** He forgot eating and was just hugging his mother torso with soo much love and affection Sighs... then tears just blew out of my eyes! For the first time he felt something, some emotion, all he wanted was love and a little care from his loved ones, maybe he was not the way he is,Love is all that we want sometimes, it act as a healer sometimes. You can't have a heart without loves and care! This content is plagiarism free and All words belong to me. Images are from Pinterest.

@Auroraviolet 3 June 2022

An article without any title! 03 june, 2022 Today was a closing ceremony of the spring gala sports event at my university but due to bad health i was not able to attend the ceremony. I was totally blank today, i didn't knew what to write cos i am at my home from yesterday and all the time i used to write articles about my daily routine. So i just want to share some random thoughts with my read.cash family, i have much more in my heart to spell it out that's why i haven't any idea of title for my article. So i started scrolling the read.cash, snack video tyen i came across my gallery and while watching downloaded videos i came across the video of billieeilish in which she said a line: **Don't post everything you think, don't post your feelings.** Few times back i used to share each and everything, i used to put status on what i am feeling, i was like an open book, anyone can come read me and left their opinions and judgements, if you do so you will notice that peoples will start judging you, they will keep making ideas and thoughts about you that you can never think about , some are good some are bad, even if i talk about myself many peoples came in my life, i used to share everything, trust everyone, and many times i got heart, they start judging me the wrong way, assuming things that i can never think about, but there are also some good ones who said me not to trust everyone and don't tell each and everything, anyways i am really blessed to have some food friends. Although there are some friends who are close to your heart, whom you can share anything without any hesitation cos you know they will never make any wrong idea about you. But now i stopped doing that, i only share my happiness, my problems with some of my friend's whom i can trust blindly. Nowadays we have no privacy left in our life we should try not to post each and everything we think on our social media platforms. But what if your heart gets heavier and heavier, like it will just burst away then only you want to share things with your soul mate, you wish to have a person, a friend who can never judge you the wrong way, who feels what you are feeling , who try to understand your situation. Who is with you all the time even it's a happiness or any problem. So what you guyz think is it good to share your thoughts with the some special peoples?, not share them at all with anyone?, or to share them with the whole world i mean with everyone around you or on your social media platforms? While watching another video of bts and it was about self love,nowadays i am much addicted to the videos of these 7 normal boys from korea(lol), really watching their videos make me happy sometimes, sometimes motivated also. ****What is self love?**** Honestly speaking i don't have any idea how to explain self love. I think it's about loving and caring about yourself more then anything, from some days i realise how important is self love, yeah it's really important if you want to be successful, if you want to take a decision for yourself. We should try to love ourself but i found it difficult every time when i try to think about what's beneficial for me, i should take a stand for myself but i kept thinking like am i being selfish? That's the reason sometimes we can't stand for ourselves although we are on a right path. So try try to love yourself, but don't hurt anyone, don't even dare to do wrong, to follow wrong, try to get the true meanings of self-love and lemme know too! ****If someone is carries it so well it doesn't means it's not heavy .**** Ok so sometimes we advice someone not to give up. Not to be upset , its really good if someone around you is in trouble or is facing something bad if you can't solve the issue just try to console them, try to make the person feel happy, nothing make me much happy then bringing smile on someone's face , i still remember the dialogue from korean drama serial "the sound of magic": In the scene a magician was showing some magic tricks to the girl and the girl was a little upset, she was facing some ups and downs in her life and while seeing the amazing magic she started laughing and asked the magician that how he can do that? She also wanna learn magic and the magician replied: ***all these are simple tricks , the real magic is that you are smiling now"*** Anyways try to help others, but sometimes some peoples started criticising, "ooh come on it's not a big deal, you are worried for such a small thing, its not that much big issue, you are such a fool and creating a mess" Avoid these kind of words if someone carries it easily it doesn't mean it's not heavy, the person who is facing knows the real meaning, you can't get the feeling unless or untill you face it by yourself, or you try to feel the pain of others. So we should try to keep quite if we can't help and if we can then try to help, helping some one gives me real happiness, i haven't found the kind of happiness anywhere that i got by helping someone, by making someone smile. These were just some thoughts that were clicking in my mind , do share your opinion about these. All these three are the questions that i wanna ask you too, what you think about this? By the way tomorrow is my first terminal exam, , remember me in your prayers. All the images are screenshots from the Videos(snack video) Lead image is from Pinterest. ~~● Article is plagiarism free, these are purely my thoughts~~

@Auroraviolet 1 June 2022

First day of June and a soothing morning walk after many days: 1st June, 2022 Happy June to all my dear friends, it's a new month and on the start of every month we all make some plans and schedules, every month I used to write this line on the first page of diary (month) " life is too short so try to help others and find your happiness in the happiness of your loved ones" cos you will know the true meaning of life if ever you have focused on the real aim of life and it's living for the sake of others, it really gives happines, Although some people's take advantage of your politeness but no worriesif there are some selfish and careless people's there are also those who are loving, caring and so kind hearted so focus on try to positive side, but today a line just clicked in my mind and I wrote it down on my diary: "Love yourself! Try to also take care amd focus on yourself" How will you gonna take of others if you are not fine, not good? It was just a random thought. Any ways last night I was unable to sleep and I slept at late night but after two hours I again woke up, I offered my prayer again I went to my bed to sleep a little cos I have to go to uni but all n vain so I stood up and asked my little sister to let's come for walk with me, initially she was upset with me that why I ruined her sleep(lol), but anyways we both went there at a nearby park, this park being my all time favourite I have spend much time there so I have a special kind of attachment with that place. After many days when I reached there I was feeling happy, so I just started walking but what's that? I have no stamina I used to take 5 to 6 rounds of the park but today after only two rounds I was exhausted, much exhausted that I thought I will not be able to go home back. Spring has gone so I didn't found much flowers there in the park but when I saw a white rose I immediately captured it. Anyways after coming back I took a shower and got ready for university, at 7:10 bus arrived. Reaching the university I was wondering what to do cos I have to go to library or either gym but both open at 9:00am so I just sat down there outside the cafe and I saw that the new block which was under construction is just fully prepared now. Not 1 infact two or more new blocks. So at 9:00 am I went to the library and started studying there as I am little tensed about my finals and some guests are arriving at home so I better came to library. It's difficult for me to spend time alone dunno why but I hate being all alone and it haunts me sometimes(haha) so at 1:30 I went towards the gymnasium it's my favourite place in whole University, when I went there, I met with everyone and while everyone was talking about sports and co-curricular activities aunty said to me you can pour out all your frustrations here listening her I picked up basketball but literally after 5 minutes I can't handle anymore so I sat down feeling a little looser cos my stamina was really good I used to play for 2,3 hours and still I was a little tired but nowadays everything is becoming difficult for me...sighs Today was the most tiring and hectic day, also it was not a productive day at all, because at the end I was wondering how to reach bus stop(lol), I have lost all my stamina and when I reached home my mum just gave a plate full of rice,cos today my aunt said my mum to give me more rice and chicken so that I will be feeling better I don't know what's that philosophy bit the words of the elder sister means a lot to my mother so she wanted me to eat all that(lol), how I gonna eat that much but she wants me to get healthy as soon as possible by eating more and more(haha), anyways I don't like much rice it's ok to have a half plate but not more then that I also don't like chicken, beef and all non-veg food but in my home everyone is fond of non vegetarian food, me only being the single vegetarian piece(haha). I wish to get rid of this headache as soon as possible. Wish you all a very happy and healthy june! Nothing is more important than your health and your happiness ***Disclaimer:*** *~~Everything in this article is related to my personal experience and is free of plagiarism. Nothing is against the rules of community.~~* All the images are captured by me. Special thanks to @foryoubtc09 for sponsoring me, all my sponsors make me feel motivated, so don't forget to read their masterpieces.

@Auroraviolet 30 May 2022

About Today_ not in mood of doing anything 30 May, 2022 While writing date i was just thinking how fast the time moves, isn't it? Well yesterday i got a message from one of my friend that she needs a shirt cos they have a basketball match today and they have to wear black and the opponent team wearing red, firstly i thought to hand over her shirt to my another friend living nearby but there was nobody at home and also i wanted to see the match and spend some time out to relax my mind, last night i was unable to sleep but i didn't used my phone due to a little headache but thank god i woke up at 6:30, got ready and went to the bus stop, morning time is really soo soothing and consoling and while waiting for the bus i saw a cook, i have never seen a cock with such type of neck, so i found it a little interesting and captured him(lol). Have any one of you ever seen a cock with such type of neck is it normal or is he facing hair loss on the neck side? Anyways i reached university and the match was about to start at 10 am, i don't know what's happening with me but i am loosing my interest in some things, the things which i loved the most, one of my friend asked me many time to get up and play a little but i don't wanna do, infact i didn't even dribbled a ball nor picked it up a single time, when match started everyone gave me there phones to capture some videos and pictures so i started watching the whole match while clicking video it was fun though and after doing it i was feeling a little good. But one thing i was really feeling good being in the gymnasium as usual. This is really a place where my heart truly belong to(haha). But after some time pain in my head started and at a point i was unable to bear it, so thanks to my friend bibijani01 who bought a painkiller, juice and some cake for me after taking the medicine it was a little relief but still the head was aching badly, so i came home by uni bus and when i reached one of my cousin texted me to come let's go for soft swirl ice cream, i am just crazy for this ice cream, not this every type of ice cream, but today i don't want even ice cream. At evening i visited the doctor and on my way home, again my cousin forcefully took me to the Roasters coffee house and grill in f7, its one of my favourite, there she ordered a chicken parmesan pasta again its my favourite of that place but dunno why i was literally not interested in it nor craving for such a delicious one, the one thing to which i can never say no is the black coffee but doctor strictly asked me not to consume a single sip of coffee, so i came back without eating the pasta, she packed that for my little sister, coming home i was just thinking to focus on studies as terminal exams are near. By stub born cousin, she is really very stubborn girl but really loving and caring,she started blackmailing me that she will tell my friends,my parents (lol), all she wants me to do is to eat ice cream, again she bought a cornetto for me, i was unable to say no, maybe she feels bad but what can i do as when i want to eat a single bite of anything i feel my ribs and head aching again and it seems like vomiting, so i took that from her and secretly put it in the freezer i hope she will not find it out(haha). **But i really feel happy and blessed having such caring and loving peoples. They are the best part of my Life. It also includes my read.cash family, so special thanks and my special love for all of you.** I have never been a moody person, still thinking what's happening with me? But its normal it happens with peoples sometimes but it never happened with me to such an extent, Anyways sweet dreams to all of my readers . Thanks for your time. Please Do check my sponsors writings! All the images belong to me. **~~Everything in this article belongs to my personal experience. Its plagiarism free.~~**

@Auroraviolet 28 May 2022

A little about my choice, and my favourites! 28th May, 2022 I was thinking to write about this from many days but every time i end up writing about my daily routine so today i want to change the topic. One of my read.cash friend @Raheela mentioned me in her article which was about her favourites and she wanted to know about mine too. Without wasting time let's run towards the topic. Everyone's choice is different but sometimes your taste meet with few peoples, maybe the thing that i like are the ones which are in the list of someone dislike, there are somethings that i am addicted to or the things that are my first priorities so let's talk about them: MOBILE PHONE: My most favourite top priority mobile phone brand is ***Samsung***, i also used iPhone, and huawei and when i was using huawei i though that it's the best one and i will never change my choice but i was not on the level of addiction l, so last year when i went to buy a new handset for me i decided to buy huawei again but then my father told me that Google features are missing in huawei and without google ot would be difficult for you so i bought Samsung and it was my first experience, all the features are just amazing and my likeness for Samsung is on the level of addiction, even few days back when my father gifted me another phone i still haven't switched it cos i am used to and addicted to the SAMSUNG. NOVEL Actually i haven't read many novels, my younger sister used to read a lot of novels and she kept recommending me novels all the time, she asked me to read *jannat ky patty, ab-e-hayat* and many many more so i was thinking to read them but yeah i read one novel *forty- rules of love* and it was amazing. So i want to add the point of drama here coz i haven't read much novels, i l am in love with kdrama , my addiction for them is just on another level(lol), i have watched many but my all time favourite is just " ***The Sound of Magic "*** and when the drama ended after just 6 episodes i was thinking what will i gonna do now, and then i started watching it again. Reason is that each and every dialogue and scene was just like someone is consoling me, ahh i am going to watch it again after my exams..haha. COLOUR: Ok now colour, hmm here my choice meets Raheela i love ***purple*** 💜 and grey purple is my first priorityand , i always go for purple, but the problem here is my mum doesn't like purple colour so she says me not to buy all the things purple purple so i just priorities her choice(lol), i remember in spring our whole uni and street outside my house was covered with small purple flowers and i just wanted to kept seeing them, they were really looking soo much soothing. But purple is also my favourite because of the purple world yeah i mean BTS. So after purple i love grey colour. CLOTHING BRAND: All my clothes and shoes are bought by my mother, she always buy clothes from khaadi, but i like both ***khaadi and bonanza,*** their clothes and designs are really good and descent. But again i like koreans dressings, haha... COUNTRY: Firstly i want to visit Saudia Arabia to see the most beautiful and holy place, the place where every Muslim want to visit and fulfill their dream, but now comes my second dream place after Saudia, and its ***South Korea***, it's such a cute country with cute and beautiful people's, its my dream to visit korea and attend bts concert, although i have planned with some of my friends(lol).I hope my this dream will be fulfilled, one day while sitting i was thinking that after visiting saudia arabia i will just directly go to South korea, haha its hilarious. HOBBIES: I have many hobbies, when i was in 9th or 10th grade my only hobby was studying coz only thing in my mind was to become a doctor and from my child hood i like all the sports except the one amd that is table tennis, i don't k ow why but it's the only that i don't have any interest, i used to play badminton . Here i want to tell you a small incident. Actually i used to play badminton very well, our inter college competitions were just about to start when i started noticing pain in my joints and i was unable to even pick a glass cos my fingers started to bend and hurt alot after getting checkup, doctor said that i have rheumatoid arthritis and because of this one the day of competition i was not able to participate i still remember my sports activity mam said that she is really upset about my situation and i literally she started crying, after much hard work in badminton i got a chance to play and compete with other colleges but my bad luck and i was soo much hurt because of this that even i never played badminton again although i am fine now but still whenever i saw racket i remember the defeat and the loss of my hard work and passion. But anyways now in university i used to go to the gym and after seeing one of my friend playing ***basketball*** i got really interested in it and it is interesting so nowadays when ever i am free i used to go the uni gym and spent my time there with basketball although it's a way of pouring put all my frustration and anxiety..haha. second most favourite hobby is ***clicking memories, and the nature*** but the main point is camera should be awesome...haha `All the images are from Pinterest` Special thanks to all my sponsors @Talecharm @MichaelBCH @Ellawrites@Ellawrites @Raheela @Roojoroojay @Tanain143 , your courage and support really means a lot for me. All of them are really amazing and lovely writers if you haven't read their articles yet then do visit their profiles, all their Writings are worth reading. *~~Note: Nothing in this article is copied from anywhere, everything belongs to my self and my personal experience~~*

@Auroraviolet 27 May 2022

Reasons for not being active on read.cas, some health issues. 27 May, 2022 Well, i am soo addicted to this platform that i always kept thinking of publishing an article, sharing my thoughts here but from the past few days i was unable to do so , firstly i was really busy in some assignments and presentations and i just wanted to submit them and lower the burden by any means so i thought that i will upload my article after doing all the work. On Wednesday when i woke up i was happy that i have done all my work, only one assignment of computer was left, but then my mom came and she told me that one of my cousin is arriving from abroad and she wanted me to welcome him at the airport with her, ahh i was difficult for me although i have to do some work and i just don't want to... but my mother was insisting me and i don't want to say no to her so i went to the airport, i went that i will get some stuff for my article (lol), from there my mum took me to their home. **There are some peoples who don't care about others, when i was child i used to think is there any person who can intentionally harm someone, who can hurt the person who cares about them, but yeah this world is full of good and bad peoples, some peoples are two faced that when we came to know about their other side it become difficult to face all those, really difficult, but still i am just thinking how can such peoples stay happy, aren't they having any guilt. I have no words, i don't know how i gonna explain my feelings and to whom? So i just opened my read.cash , although i don't want to worry any one, telling them about some bad incidents of my life, some times i think why this happen even when your heart is clean and pure but then i just want to forget all those and focus on the good side of my life** There are some places and some peoples in my life whom i never want to visit nor want to have them in my life but i feel helpless, cause i don't want to hurt anyone and this all is now becoming difficult, our society has set some awkward rules which we have to follow, no matter how we want to lead our life, some ritual that are really hard but still have to do. Some incidents completely change your life. Anyways back to the topic after going to my aunt house i wanted to go back to my home so i called my cousin to come and pick me so that we can go back home and have some rest. After leaving my aunt home and when we were on the way my mum texted me to come back. I went back there and i met a person who always creates mess and tension in my life nothing else, being rude, being so proud , thinking that nobody can compete nor nobody is like him, many times i told him that a person should be down to earth, should be grateful don't wanna say anything. A small incident happened that i was unable to bear, i just felt that my head and heart gonna burst, i went ti the room and asked her for the laptop to complete my computer assignment, but still i was having severe headache i thought i will not be able to complete my work as i can't focus on the laptop screen , also on Wed it was last date to submit l, i stood up made a cup of coffee for me and by hook or crook i completed my assignment. At evening i felt like i am fainting, i asked my mum to let's go home but my aunt has soo much to talk with her sis and i also didn't want to tell them anything, my head was hurting like hell it seemed that i gonna die , after that i don't know what happened but when i wake up it was Thursday my cousin told me that i got brain haemorrhage attack she told me that everyone was saying i will not be able to get recovery quickly, they were just shiftinge to the icu when i opened my eyes and one of the doctor told my cousin that maybe i will get into comma *****I don't want to make anyone worry but the purpose of telling you guyz all this is just that sometimes we have to stay strong***** and after this incident i came to know that my Allah has made me really strong, everyone was thinking how can brain haemorrhage person recover that soon although the chances were low but i am really happy that I'm quite fine now ,cos terminal exams are near and if hadn't recovered i may have to repeator freeze my semesterand i really can'tthink about doing so. Anyway i also don't want to stay at hospital and i wanted to go back home, doctor said that you should stay at hospital for one more day at least but i really don't want to so at evening i just came back. Also i want to go my university, don't know why but i really want to go to the gym, my bad luck still if i speak a little loud i get a strong pain in my head so can i go anywhere else. I just wrote some random thoughts in my mind **So these assignments and a sudden health issue made me unable to be active on readcash , i was not able to post anything and also didn't read any articles so pardon from my side.** ~~Note: Everything in this article belongs to my personal experience and nothing is plagiarised~~. All the pictures and gifs are clicked By me

@Auroraviolet 19 May 2022

Yesterday_ the most tensed day and Today being the most beautiful day! 19 May, 2022 My routine is just like going to university, making assignments after coming back home and barely i found a little time to sleep but thank god i didn't feel sleepy nowadays as I'm able to stay awake during night. Yesterday i went to bus stop but i kerp standing there for half an hour and then i went back and asked my father to drop me and he was a little angry at that time he said that he is already late from his office and why don't i go with my friends by booking a cab as he asked me this i was a little upset as i don't have Internet package to contact my friend and their phone num were unreachable dunno why but then my father asked to let's go as he will drop me on the way, i didn't even informed my friends as i wanted to pick them up on the way but because of my father anger i didn't asked him to go anywhere else so finally i reached university and then i had to print out my presentation and being in this uni for 7 to 8 months i think still i don't know about the photocopier in my block and due to this i have to go to the another block for printing anyways i went there, came back in class and found that i copied the wrong document again i went to the 2nd block and printed out my assignment and after some time i was not feeling well, i just feel that i will vomit, i quickly went to the washroom and because of vomiting my ribs were hurting, i knew the reason why this happened, it was all due to heat cos doctors said me not to spend much time outside and keep your head covered with wet cloth, ahh its a different task. Anyways at the end when i we were about to leave and were waiting for bus, i just wanted to check the time but what's that?my phone was not there and me and my friend ran inside the university, she asked me to remember where i last saw it but really i didn't knew, only thing in my mind was that while leaving the class i put my charger along with phone inside my bag anyways we checked in washroom where i last went but all in vain i was tensed because all my data was in that phone, we missed our bus while searching for phone soo i was feeling a little bad because my friend has to face all this just because of me, special thanks to bibijani for always being with me as there's a saying that' friend in need is a friend indeed' btw when i reached home seeing tension on my face my mum said to me not to take stress i will gonna give you a new latest phone but i just wanted that one cos sometimes you got used too and habitual to some things, my sister said to me what will you gonna do with that phone phone,it's old now, you will better get a new one , haha , i remember when we were child she used to torn and destroy her toys just to gain new ones lol she is such a cute and chill person, but at night when my father came he gave me phone and i was like where you found this? He said just sit and rewind all the things, he said i am tensed about your mental situation why are you not able to remember anything, i will tell you when you remind everything anyways i literally didn't know where i forgot it and then he told me that one the girl from my uni contacted him using the emergency num option that i had saved in my phone, and send him the location , he went there and picked the phone, and the girl said that she found it from the washroom lol still i don't know how i forget it in washroom, anyways thank god i found it aoo yesterday was soo tensed and depressed day in every manner. But today i went to gymnasium and we enjoyed much there, at evening weather was really good and it started raining, i love rain and love enjoying in the open sky raining and thundering, everyone was enjoying and seeing the smiles and cheers on everybody's face, hmm i just love it, but one of my friend is afraid of such weather she was sitting inside and she asked that she wanted to watch the drama so just sat with her cos i though maybe she will feel alone if i go outside, anyways i enjoyed watching with her, making videos in the wind storm it was such a nice time ahh one more thing one of my friend gave a pakora(pakistani dish name)party to everyone , well pakoras in such weather are just on another level after wards i came home and then i realised still i have to do many more work and suddenly my sis came scolding me that how i gonna forget her birthday actually i wished her at exact 12am but i literally forgot that i have to reach home at 3pm cos they have planned to celebrate birthday in f7 markaz, soo she was soo upset with me, even she was not talking to me, i asked my brother to let's start my grandfather's car and come with me we went to nearby bakers shop "tehzeeb" in hurry i picked one cake and i picked her favourite flavour ice-cream actually it's not her soo favourite she likes the orea supernova flavour of soft swirl so when i saw oreo cookies flavour i just picked it from the shop cos i really didn't have the time to go any other place cos the it was last date of assignment submission, her mood was a little better but still she is upset with me as i forgot to came to the celebration at day time and again i forgot to mention her name with birthday wish on the cake..lol. And again one more good thing happened a few minutes before i opened whatsapp and saw a new msg from my lovely CR that assignment last date has been delayed to 23rd i got a little relief. But on the next spot i again got the notification of one new assignment of computer, i am just fed up of these two words "assignment and presentations". I have much more to share about today but i think then my article would just seem like a novel but i am really happy today as after a long time i am free some kind of tension I was really tensed and depressed , facing from past few months but it's all good now, and i really don't want to remember that again , all thanks to Almighty Allah . May he bless us with life full of happiness. All the images belong to me. ~~Note: Everything in this article belongs to me, nothing is copied nor against the rule of community.~~ Special thanks to all my sponsors for the encouragement, don't forget to check their articles. Thanks!

@Auroraviolet 17 May 2022

Spending all day in the gymnasium and_the spell of "sound of magic" on me: 17 May,2022 Well today was most tiring but also a reproductive day for me, i went to university just because i wanted to complete my presentation and my assignment with my friends but my bad luck my group memebers were not feeling well so they didn't came and one of my friend missed and when she texted me i was little sad cause i was thinking what will i gonna do alone but then i directly went to my all time favourite place of my university i.e gymnasium and started practicing there after some time one of the friends came and she taught me does and don't about basketball i love the way she explains everything anyways she had a class and she went after half an hour but at 1 pm one of my friend came to the gymnasium with her class fellows and she said to let's play a half court match, haha it was full of fun and fouls as all us are beginners and it was first time when her classmates came to the gym so it was all about fun and after playing for approximately 1 and half hour i was exhausted too much cos i haven't done breakfast and feeling much hungry i went to the cafe but due to scorching heat and unbearable temperature i was unable to eat anything so i just grabbed a glass of cold slush and went towards my bus stop so the time in gymnasium was good , it's always good i never felt bored in gymnasium but literally i was missing one of my friend cos without her i feel a little alone alone (lol). I wanted blueberry flavour slush but it was not ready and the aunty there was soo angry that i just wanted to leave that place quickly cos i am too afraid of anger maybe it's because she was tired and some girls were not cooperating with her, we all should take care of everyone btw i grabbed orange flavour and after drinking it i was feeling some pain in my throat. Anyways after coming back home i just wanted to sleep but i have much work to do i offered my prayers and then starting watching drama "the sound of magic " omg i an just addicted to the Dialogues of this drama, some characters match a lot with your real life, and it seems that each and every dialogue is written for you , i learned many things from it cos sometimes i feel that I'm just running on the cold road although i want to walk in a field full of flower's, i read each and every dialogue of this dram with soo attention that i never had done this before because while watching it i was seeming to real and i was totally watched this drama one time and whenever i am sitting alone i again started watching some of its scene i remember one the dialogue that hit me most when my all time favourite magician says to a girl : ***All these were tricks simple tricks but the real magic is that you are smiling now, the smile on your face is the real magic*** Isn't it heart touching? Verily it is .Cause making someone smile, making him/her forget her worries and tension and smile for some moment is the biggest magic one can do. Then my mum came and scolded me to just sleep for some time as i have ro make assignments, suddenly it wind started to blew i ran toward the roof my house then quickly came back and slept for a while because after playing continuously for 3 hours i was just too much exhausted and i was praying continuously for rain and thank god it rained and the weather is now really good after the rain buy i didn't enjoyed much the weather cos i just slept and when i woke up i just wanted to complete my all work after competing my assignments and the only tension now i the presentation i hope it will be good cos my I'm having sore throat because of the cold slush. It was a good day and again I'm thinking to watch my all time favourite drama " the sound of magic" . As I'm in love with it i think this drama has really casted a spell of magic on me and i was just a little sad because it ended only with 6 episodes. But i have to focus on my studies as finals are bear and also i have to prepare two presentations for tomorrow so that's the reason i haven't read some articles of my lovely readers i will surely gonna do that after this hectic schedule. Keep smiling and keep shining, try to listen to your heart not to the people who are judging you wrong but one important thing is to never ever do the wrong nor follow the wrong! Do check the profile of my lovely sponsor, they are doing great work. ☆All the images and gifs here are clicked And edited by me. ☆One part of lead image is from Pinterest And other is captured by myself. ~~Note: Nothing in this article is plagiarised or copied from anywhere else, all the words belongs to my personal experience.~~

@Auroraviolet 16 May 2022

Outing with Cousin after long time and it ended with a small Accident 16 May, 2022 Yesterday i was sitting preparing for my quiz although it was not difficult at all but sometimes i keep forgetting and not getting small small things dunno why anyways i decided to not touch the phone nor laptop until i complete my one assignment and the political science quiz, I was trying hard to study but a i have a bad habit to study at the last day infact not day but night soo after some time one of my cousin and friend texted me to let's hang out cos she came from peshawar after an year and also i haven't celebrated her last birthday nor gave her any gift so i told her to bring her car so ride was from her side and all other expenses are from my side lol, every time our deal was same. She is soo fond of shopping and perfumes so we headed towards one shop and i asked her to that you can take whatever you like and she was just kidding me to stop being acting elder than me as she is 6 years older than me, haha Anyways i took one dress and one perfume for her and when we were crossing the road i just remembered that i forgot my bag inside the shop she went to the car and i rushed towards the shop to grab my belongings, i took my bag and while crossing the road a bike just hit me hardly on my leg and my foot was trapped in the tire, thank god it was not any severe injury then instead of going anywhere else we just came back home cos my knee was hurting badly, i got some rashes on my upper arm and foot, arm was hurting more because it was rubbed on the hard road, i was really angry at time time but i didn't asked anything and also it was not his mistake cos i wasn't paying attention amd thinking something else while crossing the road but after applying my all time favourite gel voltral emulgel i got much relief. It was too hot yesterday but at evening hot winds started to blow and i was just wondering why it's too hot? Instead the wind was literally hot but at night we were blesses with the rain and then i ordered two pizzas for everyone cos my siblings and my mum just arrived i thought to give them a little party so i ordered two flavours, tanduri and the other one hot and spicy as one is my cousin favourite and my mother likes tanduri chicken tikka flavour , but i don't like pizza soo much cos i am just tired of eating pizza and pizza all time and my cousins and siblings used to say me that what kind are you off? As no one can ever hate pizza no matter what flavour it is , anyways i was missing all of them badly in the past some days and then i realised that hostel life is really difficult .. haha I'm really coward in this matter, i really got attached with some peoples in my life, no doubt everyone is attached with his/her family, so after all this i just remembered that i haven't prepared my quiz till now then i ran towards my room and locked it to prepare well but when i read it once it was quite easy except some paragraphs anyways after that i wanted to publish an articles but because of the tiredness and pain in my right leg and arm i wasn't able to do so. And now today I'm not going to say it was hectic day cos each and every day is becoming hectic and hectic in my routine(lol), but today was a really good day don't know why but sometimes you feel happy just without any reason, although the quiz was good and after the quiz when I went to the cafe, i really didn't want to eat anything because of the scorching heat, one of my friend bibijani01 who bought mango shake for me and nothing is more good than cold mango shake as mangoes and watermelon are the reason of my love for summers. So after coming back home i just grabbed watermelon from refrigerator and then i was able to do anything else. So that was all about yesterday and today. Special thanks to all my sponsors as they means alot to me, if you all haven't read their articles then do visit their profiles as all of their Writings are worth reading. Thanks to @Ellawrites for supporting me that much as she didn't even forget to mention me in her writings, i really owe your support and I'm feeling really motivated. All the pictures and gifs are clicked By me including lead image.

@Auroraviolet 14 May 2022

Renewing some old memories,visit to lake view park 14 May, 2022 On 12 may night i texted my friend to let's go to the gym to play some basketball and like me she was also ready to go, then she replied me that the president of the sports activities has organised to visit the blood donation camp as guest's there, firstly we thought not to go there as the weather is too hot. So at morning(yesterday) i woke up and get ready for the university but i have a pain in my foot, still i just wanted to go because there was nobody at home and i don't like spending much time alone so when i left home with one of my younger cousin i saw bus has reached the stop and i thought i will miss the bus as i asked my friends that i will come and then not going will not be fair , i just tried to run but because of the foot i can't , thanks to my friend who saw me ask the bus uncle to stop the bus as someone is coming(lol), the moment was hilarious, so at the start i lost my stamina, but was fine after some time. So we directly went to the gym played there for some time, i was feeling soo good and then at 2:00pm my friend asked to let's go to the camping at lake view as it will be fun, we will enjoy there, we booked cabs and went to the lake view omg it was too hot and i was feeling a little exhausted because from the past one day i was just surviving on liquids because of the hot weather and also i was not feeling well because of the vomits,ahh my ribs were hurting badly.After sometime we reached at our destination i.e lake view park When we reached at the lake view suddenly some old memories began to click my mind , some golden days, i remembered the time when i used to enjoy the rides here being child with my grandma, i remembered when she used to take horse riding with me, hmm those were the most beautiful memories of my life, i was just seeing all those moments in that park, i tried much to forget all this for now and just enjoy this time with my friends but i was not able to do soo, all my attention are diverted towards the past days even yesterday being at that place i was unable to understand a single word, my mind was just going to burst, but i tried hard to calm myself and forget all that, even i was not able to click these beautiful moments but my friends were doing soo so i was not worried about snaps(lol), sometimes, some moments don't allow you to move forward from the past 6 months i am noticing some weired change in my self, it's first time i am worried about myself, may be I'm unable to live without her or may be it will take some time to accept that she is not with me . One of my friend kept asking me ' are you okay' and i just said to her that yeah I'm fine because if i started telling her the reason behind my sudden sadness, i was just about to cry and i don't want to make her sad and ruin her mood cos whenever i tell someone about something sad i can't control myself and started crying (lol), and also my grandma used to say that crying makes you weak so try to not cry . Anyways it was a good time i enjoyed soo much with all of them we sat at the camp for sometime, the weather was extremely hot and everybody just wanted to have some water and juices and then we took a full round of lake view it was fun though i remember when i enjoyed taking a ride in the boat with my grandmother, we always used to visit lake view just because of the beautiful view of water and then taking a ride at motor boat. The view of this lake was eye catching. After that my friend bought finger chips for all of us, then while coming back we saw a man with gun and balloons, yeah then bibijani tried to shoot at the point and guess what she didn't miss even a single target, well she is the good shooter both in basketball and also in this one(haha). So overall it was really a good and nice day the only thing that i want to move forward but I'm unable to do so. I wanted to donate some blood but due some weakness i was not able to do it, so they awarded all of us with the certificate of participation and then at 5:30 we all came back . Well then after coming home my head was aching badly i hope that this headache issue will be fine cos its irritating and now out of control, and because of this I'm not able to even talk with anyone. Still i was in the memories of lake view with my grandmother. I took shower and then to divert my mind i started watching drama after some times i ordered some food for me, at night i was craving for soft swirl ice-cream but nobody was at home nor anyone was there to cone with me so i just grabbed my favourite flavour cornetto and some snacks from the nearby shop cos living without ice-cream and watermelon is impossible for me in summers soo that was all about yesterday. All the pictures and gifs are clicked by Me. Note: ~~Each and everything written in this article is according to me personal experience not even a single word is copied from any source.~~ Special thanks to my first beautiful sponsor and a good writer @Raheela , do check the articles of my sponsor they are worth reading , you will surely gonna enjoy reading.

@Auroraviolet 12 May 2022

Heat wave, the role of slush and bad health at the end. 12 May,2022 Well I'm gonna share something about yesterday, i went to the university at 11:00am although the class will gonna start at 2:30 but tye bus time was not allowing me to rest for a little while so i have to go 3 hours before although one my friend texted me that she wants to prepare presentation so i should come a little earlier, after Ramadan it was my first day at uni and coming back from abbottabad i was feeling much heat here actually it been more years since i last visited my home town and i luckily got chance this ramadan to visit, but now i really am addicted to the beautiful weather. So after reaching university we directly landed in the gym as usual, but i was not able to play cos i was feeling some sort of pain in my stomach and that's why i haven't done my breakfast my father just made a beetroot juice for me , ahh it was not tasty , not a little tasty but he asked me that i have to drink it during the whole summers so i just obeyed him. Another friend called me and i asked her to cone to the gym as we are already here so when she came we started making our presentation and two of our friends were really free of stress as they gave their presentation last week so she was playing peacefully(lol). Afterwords time passed very quickly and it was 1:00 pm now, one of my friend was feeling a little exhausted after playing basketball so she asked to let's have some juice we went to the tuck shop grabbed some juices and ice cream and felt a little relief from this hot, cruel weather. We headed toward the class at 2:30pm and everyone started giving presentations and listening to all the presentations for two hours, again i started feeling dehydrated and a little hungry so when we got a 10 min break we all quickly went to the cafe but again the same thing it was really hot there and standing there in the queue was a little difficult so one of my friend asked to let's go to the slush corner, as it the best medicine for heat wave. So after having the cold slush i was feeling a little better,i haven't felt such hot weather before although it's been soo much time living here in Islamabad but today something weired was happening to me i wasn't able to bear all this, i just wanted to go in some cold place. And i also can't present my topic as i was not feeling confident at all and also not prepared well so i was sadat the end as usual(lol), thank god the class end and 5:50pm we went to the bus stop and there was so much rush in the buses luckily i got the seat just because of my friends she was able to get the seats for us but still she was standing, hmm i was thinking she must be soo tired , after coming back home, i just remembered that nobody is at home there was silence everywhere , i really missed my mom and siblings ohh hostel girls are soo brave really , its not been one day and i was just about to cry and then i made a cup of tea for me added a little coffee in it(haha), i just tried this combination one day and i liked it, you guyz were wondering that it was hot and still i was heaving tea.. yeah because i was having a severe headache and also my foot was hearting so it was a tiring day, soo while making tea i found some biscuits and nimko in the kitchen but i was not able to eat a single piece don't know why. but whole day was on liquids after some time still my headache was increasing more and more and there was nobody at home, i was just about to scream and suddenly i felt a pain in my ribs, i ran towards the washroom and vomited, ahh it was really painful, after some time again the same thing happened and after some time my father came and we went to the his doctor friend he said it was all due to the heat wave also i got rashes on my arm skin because of the harsh sunlight, so today i am at home although i planned that i will go to the gym to play some basketball but because of the bad health all plans ruined. And thats why at night i was not able to even write an article so that was all about yesterday. **Although it was a tiring and hectic day for me but i met my friends after many days and i was really feeling happy with them, when you spend time with some of your friends you forgot all your pains, sorrows and stress, Isn't it the most beautiful relation? I think yeah verily it is if your friend are caring and loyal to you , while being at uni with them i didn't felt that my health is a little disturbed and after coming back when i was alone at home i suddenly felt omg i am having pain in my head, foot ,stomach and even ribs were hurting because of severe vomiting (lol)so yeah i always remember the time spend with my friends their laughs and all that i try not to pay attention towards all the pain weatger it's physical or mental.** All the gifs are clicked by me including Lead image. NOTE: ~~EACH AND EVERY WORD OF THIS ARTICLE BELONGS TO MY EXPERIENCE NOTHING IS AGAINST THE RULES OF COMMUNITY AND NOT EVEN A SINGLE WORD IS COPIED FROM ANYWHERE~~

@Auroraviolet 11 May 2022

Bundle of Assignments and a family function at the same time. ***11 May, 2022*** Yesterday early morning after the prayer my mom came to my room and asked me to get ready because i have to go to islamabad for help in shopping with my Aunt and she asked to come back with her i said to her that you can ask someone else to go with her as i can't came and go at the same time , she said ok, but after some time my mama and my khala both came to me with innocence 9n their faces they again asked me to help them in this matter and now i wasn't able to refuse. I was really worried about my attendance at university and there are bundle of assignments, a presentation that i have to submit. And the presentation is today so yesterday i thought that I'll not be able to give my presentation as i have to go back because of weeding and engagement of my cousins so i was stuck between both these situations. Any ways we left from abbottabad at 9:00am on the way the weather was really beautiful and pleasant but when we crossed a place i don't know it's name there was a sudden change i felt the warm and hot breeze being living in that greenery and close to nature i am a little addicted to that environment so i was confirmed that islamabad weather is at its peak, on the way my cousin captured a beautifuk video, a little away from nathia gali we saw these umbrellas pinned on the big walls i was amazed with the view, a little fog and also the colourful umbrellas were looking amazing after 2 hours we reached home and as expected it was too hot here. Still i was worried how to give my presentation otherwise i will loss my marks then i thought that I'll do paper work and send it to my friend as she'll print that out and submit it, so that at lest i can gain half marks, then i text my both cousins the bride and groom that if they ask can i stay here without attending their engagement and the answer was completely 'NO' , my cousin asked me that you are going to miss my function just due to the sake of some marks, how can you do that, another cosuin said to me that she will not wear the ring if i will not attend, with hum-drum mood i stood up and asked my aunt to let's go to the juice land at markaz as i was feelin3a little bit dehydrated, i asked my cpusin my sister and my aunt that I'll pay you just have to go but but when we reached there i checked my phone ohh where's my phone? I forgot it at home my cousin passed me a taunting smile and said don't worry I'll pay( haha) and because of this i was even not able to click a single pic at markaz, While coming back still i was confused shall i go back or not and then i decided not yo go and also my father had some work and meetings here so he asked me that he will stay with me here, at night i asked my aunt, sis and cousin that they can go I'm not coming cos i also have to submit assignments next week and then I'll not be able to come again before attending the weeding ceremony of my cousin, i also informed my mum and she was in anger but i asked her that's why i was saying that don't ask me to go for shopping(haha) after a while i got a message from both of them that i have to come by anyways as my sis has informed them that I am not coming but at that time everyone left from there and then i was thinking what if they both were upset with me ,ohh no worries i will manage, so these assignments and presentations ruined all my enjoyment and my mood now I'm going to get ready for university. All the images were clicked by me. ~~NOTE:ALL PARTS OF THIS ARTICLE BELONGS TO MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE AND LIFE, NOT A SINGLE WORD IS COPIED FROM ANYWHERE ELSE.~~

@Auroraviolet 9 May 2022

She lost her confidence! I hope you all are well and doing great! Today i want to share a real life story of a girl with all of my readers. So let's run to the topic: There's a girl, confident, bold , sweet with everyone and also she tries to bring smile on everyone's face but she had one issue that is she really face difficulty while speaking, means she was stammering, unable to speak fluently like a normal person. When she was child, everything was okay, she was really confident and bold she used ro take good marks and she was a top position holder in her class but when she was in grade 4th she suddenly started stammering while speaking words, and the issue was really severe that even she was not able to convey her message and thoughts to others. Her class fellow's and friends started bullying her and she was really heartfelt even though she started to speak less and spend time alone with herself, being a child it was difficult for her to face these Bulley, and one day she asked her father that she want to change her school as it was difficult for her to face all this ,but he completely refused, he asked her to not focus on anything and just continue your studies here as i have admitted you in really good school so by anyways you have to study here till your ssc, she can do nothing she used to go to school everyday and everyday she had worst experience as some teachers also taunted her cos private schools have much name but no quality in some places, she never shared anything with even a single person then one day she told each and everything to her grandmother, she used to cry by hugging her for even hours. When every student and her classmates noticed that she scared and a little bit frustrated they started teasing and bullying her even more when teacher asked to read anything she was really unable to speak and whole class was making fun of it. Slowly as the time passed she was completely changed even though some peoples asked her why are you soo much changed? You doesn't seemed like as you were before! She lost her confident, and she was really sad that why is he not able to talk properly? Why suddenly all this happened with her. Even though she stopped talking in front of crowd, she was afraid to talk in public, yeah she was the same girl who used to participate in many activities, she won some speech competition but now she was not even able to talk with a single person. One day it was a pack up time in her school, she was sitting still in the class and wandering in her thoughts that she doesn't payed attention that all students left the class, she quickly stood up and and ran towards the door but what's that? The door was locked. Her classmates locked her in an empty room she wasn't matured, she was frightened that what will happen now, qhole school was closed nobody knew that she was inside, she kept sitting there being scared, her family memebers were searching for her every one was thinking that she will not be in the school as the school is closed, but when she heard magrib azan she started crying in helplessness, the darkness of night was spreading everywhere, she thought that nobody will come for her but after some time the door was opened, she widely opened her eyes, it was her father thank god, her eyes were swollen.Actually her father has a good friends with VP of school and he requested him to once check whole of the school. She again asked her father that she doesn't want to continue studies here but when her fathers decides something it was final. Then her grandmother used to take her a different doctor every other day, she took some medicines some said she has severe stammering issue and she has to live with her maybe it will be cured or maybe not. She used to practice speaking perfectly for hours when she failed she used to cry and scream. She was living her life in silence, her personality was changes still she was a hard working girl getting good grades but losing confident is her biggest loose, she used to speak less and unable to speak in front of many peoples. Suddenly she started recovering, her stammering issue was lessened as the time is passing and when she was in grade 11th she was able to speak fluently, back to her original position, she was really happy that she is recovering but still she is not able to talk confidently, she face difficulty to speak face to face with peoples, still her confidence is not back, she is still not even a 1% confident as she used to be when she was child! Still now when she is frustrated, hearted or angry sometimes she started stammering a little but she is trying best to not stammer in front of anyone. I hope th older version of her will come back one day! She suffered many things, suffering this is not a little thing, it's very difficult to cope with such peoples and environment they never understand the others situation, if you can't do anything good just stay away even don't do such things don't hurt anyone so badly that(s)he needs to completely change his/her personality Although it was not that big problem but she was tortured mentally, she was suffering loneliness and depression although she is a much loving girl she used to gave more and more love and importance to every person in her life. **We should help someone if we can, otherwise we have no right to bulley others, no right to Bulley anyone who is helpless, who has no control over any thing that is happening.** **There's a difference between joking and bullying!** **Never ever bulley someone, although try to treat such peoples with more love and care as they are really fighting a fight with their own self !** **There are many things that some peoples are hiding perfectly behind their smile, so try to spread love.** All the images are from unsplash

@Auroraviolet 8 May 2022

Avoid being Marked as Spam or low-Score! Greetings from my side! Some of my friends may think I'm new user that i joined here today as it's clear from my profile.I joined this platform few weeks ago when one of my friend explained about it and i developed interest to write articles here. I want to add something here: When i was in 12th grade my cousin told me about read.cash , she has much information about crypto world, online tasks, and blogging websites . I made an account infact she created an account for me and i used to write my whole day routine, some silly things(lol) on readcash. I earned $51 from that account but i didn't kept safe my seed phrase, i lost my 12 digit seed phrase and all the money in vain although it was my mistake as a newbie i was unfamiliar with many things, i only used to write something on the readcash and that's it. Many times I asked my cousin to guide me completely how to use and withdraw that money but when i noticed she is ignoring me i didn't asked anything to her again. I really don't want to say anything about her attitude the purpose of telling this all to you guyz is that " if we know something we should help others, and if you are spreading some knowledge convey it will full meaning" , spread full info about that particular thing just like my beloved friend @Bibijani01 , cos now whenever i got stuck somewhere i contact her , some friends are like gems, they are always there to help you . Okay the lesson from this is that: ● **keep your seed phrase safe, backup it to Google drive or write it down on some.** **● Convey full info, spread full knowledge. Don't hesitate in helping others it really gives you some sort of inner peace, an unexplained happiness when you help others i myself has experienced this.** Now coming to main point I said I'm a user for just three weeks than why am I using a new account because my old account @sumaiyyakainat is spammed! Yeah unfortunately. It was painful for anyone to loose all your activity, subscribers although three weeks is just short span of time, I'm still learning and new in this field but i felt a little demotivated after my account was marked as low score. Lemme tell you how this happened: It's been 3 to 4 days i commented on an article and i used a word abcd...in that comment(I'm not going to use it here cos I'm afraid of that word..lol) and a warning notification pop-up " ***you have to chnage your comment, spammers have been using this word many times in the community from the past 24 hours, if you use this word your account will be under the threat of spamming "*** I quickly changed my comment but next day in the morning I published an article and i used the same word many times in my article, i completely forgot about that warning notification, i even used that word in my titl cos the whole article was about that. After some times i checked my activity and noticed that all the comments that i dropped after publishing the article were marked as low score and also my article was not shown on the home feed, i talked about this with one of my friend she said to me fo wait for sometime maybe it's only for 24 hours, i kept checking for 1 day and then i was confirmed that my account has been banned . Firstly i was really disappointed and disheartened, i was like i will not make a new account now, but then i thought not to give up ***because if we want we can learn from our mistakes and failures,we learn not to repeat those mistakes in future and many more things.*** So the 2nd lesson from my this article is: **If you don't want to loose your account, then don't ever ignore any warning from readcash community.** These are some sensitive things that we all have to take care of to develop our account. I want to inform some of my friends, my regular upvoters, commenters, @Bibijani01 , @Raheela , @Ellawrites , @Talecharm , @Roojoroojay , @Tanain143 , @Tilawat , @Bilqees , I'm not using that previous account and due to this reason I was not able to comment and read your lovely articles so accept apologies from my side. I have mentioned only few to prevent spam tagging. All the images are from unsplash. Thanks for reading!