My Childhood Memories
I have been blessed with my family because we are a productive family. I was the 9th child out of 9 siblings ,some of my neighbors they told us before to my parents, why are you not using family planning, you have a lot of children now? How could you let them eat? , you are just a construction worker pointing my father, and you pointing my mother, you are just a farmer? HOW ARE THEY QUESTIONING MY PARENTS?!
My parents are so kind to everyone, they never think negative to them. Instead they are just ignore them,because for them it's not their problem to look food for us it's my parents obligation and in fact never that happen my parents begging them to ask for food.
The more they notice our family the more my parents striving for us. They fought together with my father. And we are so happy of our simple life before and that's our secret as long as we are living together. BUT, the times goes down when my father left us.
When He Left Us
Papa left us when i was young at 7 yrs old, i was grade 1 that time. A day before our recognition, since before we do not have cellphone, my brother came home early just tell us about the news, i was about to hug my brother because I'm very happy to see him came home, it was turn out into sadness. I could still remember that everyone of them are crying, while me left with confusion. I just remembered that my sister hug me tighter crying and me started crying also without understanding the situation. All i could hear was Papa having an attack by highblood pressure. Since Mama was not around. My brother follow her in the streams. Mama was shock and she could not imagine herself. Since my Lola was still alive at that time when she know the news she follow also our mother there and she was the one finished washing our clothes.
Recognition Day
I never expecting that all of my parents was not around. Mama needs to took care Papa in the hospital. I was so sad because Mama was not there, i ask to myself "who accompany me when i get my award when both of them was not around? I was dismayed with papa because a week before our recognition he said to me he will be the one to accompany me when i get my award. Of course i was so happy at that promise. But sadly it opposite of what i was expecting. I just present my self in school but not in a good mood. When i got in my classroom my teacher ask me how was my father? I just answer them, i hear my mother and brother talking that papa was 50/50 i don't know what's 50/50. They are shock. One of the parents of my classmates took care of me, they let me change my clothes for our presentation and fix my hair. When i was called in the stage to get my award so lucky that my Auntie was present she was the accompany me get my award. Still i am not happy enough because i saw my classmates with their parents together, but i am thankful to my Auntie that she was there.
A Bad News
Days goes by i think it was 12 midnight i just heard the serine of ambulance without knowing what happened in the outside of the house. I just sleep again. I heard some voices of people but i don't mind it, just to sleep. When my Mama opened the door she called me and woke me up, i was happy and said "when are you home Mama?" She just answered me "just tonight". She said, you change your clothes now, because its wet. I just follow what she instruct me. When i go outside, i was shock,our neighbors was there my uncle, Auntie and cousins was there, my older brother was there i don't why they are there. I just do the old tradition "Mano po" to my Auntie and uncle. Auntie told me, you go to your father she pointed, i saw father lying in the bed. I don't know why is he not moving. I was about to hug him but I'm afraid because he slept with a straight body. As They sad touch your father now,but i don't. But my mind wanted to him. I could feel that Papa is so cold. Then i saw Mama, my sister and brother crying. There, my mind change maybe this is what i saw in the television how people died. I know it that papa was died already but because of my young age it still not sink in into my mind.
When I Look for Him
After Papa's buried. Our home turns into silent. I could still remember the coldness of the house and the people around. My family facing a financial problem when Papa's left. Mama was so sad, because she ask herself how can we proceed studying without papa. Because at that time we were four siblings studying, 2 in elementary including me, 1 in high school and 1 in college. So there, our older brother told to my Mama that he will handle the needs of my brother which is the college one. But my brother opted the offer, he said we need financial, he said maybe i will stop studying and look for a job so that i could help Mama So there, it was agreed by everyone.
Even if we my brother got a job it was not enough our needs, Mama has a lot of borrowed money from our neighbor, and we feel ashame 9f it because we are afraid if we cannot return it to them right away. Some of our neighbors got angry us and hated of our experience but we did not mind it because we know ourselves than everyone. My thinking before that if we could finish studing i will never allow them to be part of my journey but that thing never been happened because they are our relatives. If we had a little celebration they included them because we don't want them to think about us.
The Success
Yes, we're two succeded studying college, but a year after graduated our Mother left us. I am not yet a license teacher that time. I was the who took care our mother. I cried when i am not in front of Mama because i don't want her to be sad. She's got an NGT because she couldn't eat in using her mouth because almost of her body was in a comma. Almost for almost 6months i took care she surrender her life to God. And i was hurt, it was so painful for me because she left us without any says because she cannot talk. She only nods her eyebrows. Before she left i took an exam without a review because im tired and i lost my confident to took because Mama is not cheering me because of her situation. A month after mama left the result was out and it was failed. I told to myself i will never took the exam again. But my brother told me to review again and took the exam. Also to divert my sadness. And it was very effective but when I'm alone i could not deny the truth i missed Mom already.
I took an exam with a better determination and prayers to God also dedicated it to my father and mother in heaven. And we are very happy of the result because i got it. And so thankful to God.
P. S i had a lot of childhood memories to share but i don't have enough time to share because i am busy. Hope you like it.
GCash: Everything You Need To Know To Make Life Easier
These days, it's feasible to do brilliant things through your cell phone. You can converse with anybody anyplace on the planet, play music at whatever point you need and look into anything on the web instantly.
A later and remarkable computerized advancement in this space is the e-wallet, of which the Philippines is no more unusual to, because of GCash. Seemingly an easily recognized name for advantageous electronic exchanges, GCash is an application that you can introduce on any of your gadgets — be it a cell phone or a tablet. It permits you to take care of your bills, buy labor and products, and even send or get cash any place you are.
Until now, GCash has made monetary exchanges simpler for its 33 million enrolled clients. Furthermore, with more than 73,000 accomplice vendors in the country, it really has upset the manner in which Filipinos execute.
The Philippines have been slacking its neighbors in embracing advanced installment, however is currently playing catchup.
In this present reality where computerized is the new ordinary, monetary innovation ought to be viewed as the bedrock of advanced administrations,
Beside the accommodation, it is additionally safer than cash dealing with, more productive than actual installments, and is likewise exceptionally straightforward,
The Philippines was a worldwide early-mover in computerized installments, with the send off of versatile cash in 2001...(but) the way to boundless reception and use has not been direct," the report said. Thailand and Indonesia are presently in front of the Philippines in utilizing computerized cash.
In any case, the pandemic has come as a strong driver for electronic installment. The lockdown forced in mid-March constrained most shops to close and made it hard for shoppers to pay at bank or store counters.
While the severe quarantine measures were facilitated in June, individuals and organizations are as yet expected to do whatever it takes to guarantee social removing. Everything going on has set off an enormous shift toward advanced cash, which is remembered to lessen the spread of microbes that could some way or another be passed on in the utilization of bills and coins.
Both GCash and PayMaya are zeroing in on regions where interest for advanced cash is supposed to develop quick. GCash, with help from the public authority, will assist with equiping taxis with check to-pay frameworks utilizing QR codes. Clients will pay by filtering QR codes showed on charge meters with their cell phones.
Until further notice, rail, transport taxi organizations still generally acknowledge cash installment as it were. Snatch, the area's driving ride-hailing application, acknowledges Visa installment, however numerous clients actually pay in real money. The new QR code installment framework for taxicabs could speed up the utilization of computerized cash to pay for public transportation administrations.
PayMaya Philippines, the administrator of the advanced installment administration, has additionally entered a restrict with Makati Medical Center in Makati, a city in the Metro Manila area, to take installment for telemedicine administrations. The teleconsultation administration permits patients to "see" their PCPs in their homes on a videoconferencing application. Patients can pay for these arrangements by utilizing QR codes.
"By empowering their teleconsultation with computerized installments, we permit them to bring down the gamble of securing or spreading the infection among specialists and patients while assisting them with proceeding to give truly necessary medical care administrations in spite of the general wellbeing circumstance,
Why Bitcoin’s become popular
Key motivations behind why Bitcoin's notoriety is developing among worldwide financial backers
The worth of famous computerized money Bitcoin has been contacting new highs consistently as numerous good financial backers are wagering enthusiastic about the digital currency to turn into a standard resource. Bitcoin as of late beaten $34,000 (Over Rs 25 lakh) and cryptographic money specialists accept that the advanced cash will rise further in 2021.
In any case, as the worth of Bitcoin rises, it appears to have set off an equal discussion between the Bitcoin bulls and bears. While the bulls anticipate Bitcoin is to turn into a satisfactory resource, the bears remind how unstable the computerized coin has been previously.
Bitcoin, known for its instability, has bobbed back emphatically in 2020 after it experienced a serious accident in 2018. Since mid-March last year, the advanced money has flooded about 800%.
Things being what they are, the reason is the dubious computerized coin's worth flooding so quickly? The following are a couple of plausible reasons
Fame during pandemic
The fame of Bitcoin, which experienced a gigantic blow in 2018 and was torpid for most pieces of 2019, abruptly fired getting pace during 2020, additionally named by IMF as the extended time of the "Incomparable Lockdown".
During the year, the Covid-19 pandemic battered economies all over the planet, its frenzy constrained the whole world to force severe lockdowns. The effect of the resulting factors likewise had wrecking outcomes on the world economy and a wide range of standard speculations and resources took a major blow.
Developing feelings of dread among financial backers in regards to customary resources established an ideal climate for Bitcoin recovery. The cash that was discounted by specialists a couple of years prior took a total U-turn and flooded as many bid brand financial backers and organizations stored the advanced money.
Digital currency specialists have said that more worldwide speculation portfolios are presently embracing the advanced coin as an elective resource for conventional ones like values, gold and cash. Antoni Trenchev, overseeing accomplice and prime supporter of Nexo in London, told Bloomberg that Bitcoin is presently extended past the circle of "tech nerds" and theorists.
Worldwide venture bank and monetary administrations gave JP Morgan Chase and Co has said that in the long haul, Bitcoin's worth might see a sharp ascent, gave unpredictability stays taken care of.
An elective resource during the pandemic
As financial backers hurried to get their cash in places of refuge like gold during the pandemic, some picked to wager on the less customary Bitcoin.
The two classes of financial backers acquired. Notwithstanding, the individuals who gambled with their cash on Bitcoin were compensated abundantly, multiple times higher than whatever gold financial backers acquired.
An expanding number of worldwide financial backers are examining putting resources into the computerized coin rather than gold. Nonetheless, such an improvement is probably going to happen over a more drawn out period, thinking about the enormous market capitalisation of gold.
Restricted supply
The restricted amount of Bitcoin available for use is one more probably explanation for the frenzy digital money is as of now seeing. It very well might be noticed that the inventory of Bitcoin is restricted to 21 million; 18 million of them have effectively been mined and available for use.
Since the stockpile of Bitcoin can't be expanded, its worth was unaffected during the Covid pandemic, not at all like customary monetary forms which fell because of more cash printing. Despite the fact that it is known for its wild changes, its worth rose consistently in 2020 and noticed less unpredictability.
Another air pocket?
While those for putting resources into Bitcoin deviate, numerous specialists dread that it very well may be one more air pocket really taking shape for the unstable computerized money, which had seen one more outstanding ascent in 2017.
In the next year, Bitcoin crashed pointedly and an excited auction followed. In a month, the worth of Bitcoin plunged 65% and the advanced money's market capitalisation had fallen beneath $100 billion in October 2017. Indeed, even on Monday, the worth of Bitcoin fell strongly by more than $4,000 or 17%, helping financial backers to remember its unpredictable nature.
As the discussion on Bitcoin's future expected proceeds, the truth will surface eventually whether the digital money turns into a more adequate resource in future.
Life without parent
Losing a parent transforms you. It changes the manner in which you live, it changes the manner in which you love, it changes the manner in which you view things throughout everyday life. Except if somebody has experienced it, they would never comprehend.
I have regularly stayed there and thought why? Why me that needs to carry on with existence with the death of a parent. Not one but rather both Mom and Dad. I laid there late around evening time thinking for what reason am I not sufficient to carry on with life and have guardians. I asked myself was it me? Could it be said that i was not sufficient to have the honor to carry on with existence with guardians? Presently that I'm more seasoned I understood that God had various designs for me, and that it wasn't my shortcoming.
I have my awful days and the upside. Like each ordinary individual in this world. Not regular will be a truly amazing day. I go through days when I'm miserable, desolate, distraught, and disdain everything. I have days when I sit peacefully not having any desire to converse with anybody. I stay in my room and simply stay there trusting that life will pass on. I'm frantic in light of the fact that I miss my folks. The most awful part is that there's no way around it. I have no control over it what so ever. I go step by step without my folks and I'm distraught with regards to it. I'm distraught in light of the fact that I don't get to see them, converse with them. In particular let them know I love them And it harms like damnation.
Yet, I would likewise be lying in the event that I said I didn't have the great days. Despite the fact that I don't have my mother and Dad I was as yet honored with an Amazing Grandma and Great Grandma. If not for them I presumably would not be the place where I am today. They have helped me to be solid, mindful, and a decent individual. I have additionally met a few pretty astonishing companions on the way as well. My three closest companions Brianna, Zabrina and Katie. I can't express gratitude toward God enough for placing them in my day to day existence. Despite the fact that a few days can be hard for me I make a decent attempt as I can to place a grin all over. I need to be the young lady my folks would be glad for. I need to be the young lady that my folks would grin about and wouldn't be hesitant to acquaint with their companions.
Life for me is trying now and again. I miss my folks such a lot of that I cannot really express it. However, I have gained tons of useful knowledge since they have passed. I generally figured out how to be solid. Assuming I could effectively bring them back accept me I would. However, tragically I cannot and that is the reason I attempt to make every moment count and be appreciative for what I do have. I love you perpetually Mom and Dad until the end of time. Until we meet again I hold you in my heart wherever I go and regular.
Returning to school
You may be uncertain about returning to school after somebody near you has kicked the bucket. You might have loads of inquiries like, do my companions and educators know, will they say anything, will they treat me in an unexpected way, do they need me to discuss it, imagine a scenario in which I cry. In the event that you are uncertain with regards to any of these things, it very well might be smart to converse with your educator or companions about your sentiments and the amount you need them to know. Assuming that you would like, you could ask another person to do this for you. Many schools have plans where assuming you wish, you can pick an instructor to on the off chance that you are battling whenever with your mourning. These are generally calm and discretionary. It very well may be astounding, yet regularly youngsters when they have endured mourning, see that school assists them with adapting. School can be an alleviation on the grounds that while everything at home is changing, school is as yet unchanged.
Continuing on with life
Eventually in the lamenting system, you will feel that the power of your misery is reducing and you feel prepared to continue on with life, despite the deficiency of your parent. You might see that you can have longer periods when you observe you have not contemplated your parent or been feeling pitiful. Ideally, you rest OK, eat typically and are participating in exercises with your companions like you used to do. This is typical and positive, as when time elapses, you are figuring out how to acclimate to your mourning and existence without your parent. However much you rest easy thinking about things, you may likewise have a liable outlook on this as it can feel like you never again care and are letting your parent down. Nonetheless, changing in accordance with another life doesn't mean neglecting, and you can in any case love recollections about your parent and life previously. Continuing on is tied in with adjusting to the new circumstance and not let the distress be the focal point of your life.
In the event that you are from a solitary parent family and are living with another person, or on the other hand assuming your well parent gets another accomplice, it could be especially difficult to become companions with them. If so, it is essential to recollect that these new connections won't supplant the one you have lost, yet they can and will assist you with getting new wellsprings of affection and backing. Nobody thinks you are letting your parent down and you should not think so by the same token.
Our daughter Sunshine ☀
Babys diary
I just wanna share to you the experience of my baby, it was a Wednesday morning, i and my baby had a bonding while i am changing her clothes. I heard of my neighbor that there someone is asking the name of the person.And i was about to ask to my neighbor whose that person. My neighbor said the delivery boy is looking to "name of my husband" , she just answered that she doesn't know. I laughed because i told her that was my husband name😂. And we laughed and call the delivery boy to go back.
Now guess what did the delivery boy delivered? It was my order, the dress of my baby that supposed to receive before Christmas. Because of the typhoon Odette that's why its too much delayed. So here i tried to fit the dress to my baby and she was so happy 😍 she cannot hide the laughter after i let her wear the dress i brought.
Second Dress
I was planning to have a family pictures together with my baby last Christmas and get a dress "My first Christmas" but her outfit is not been delivered also. And because of the typhoon we could not feel the spirit of a happy Christmas because of Odette. We were just simply celebrating sleeping a night of Christmas but still thankful to God because they kept us safe.
Now go back to the dress of my baby it was also delivered same date of her dress for new year. I let her fit the dress. Happiness in her eyes will tell that shes happy 😊 no need to let her pick a boo. Look at the photo below.
Watching her smile and laugh out loud is my privilege that i have best gift ever given from God. Now, that as the days go i witness how she grow and how she develop herself from kicking her feet, clap her hands, close open her fingers,touching her hand to her feet, biting my niple from without tooth up to her first tooth is coming out, practicing crawling, starting walking with her stroller, getting something using her hand, talking without any words to be heard up to the Ama, Apa, Mama, Papa, Ababa and etc. That was one of the best thing they show to us that she's grown up.
Stroller
Her first try in her stroller. She cannot balance it will of her body because she was about to learn a technique. But no one can stop how happy she is. Since my sister in law gave us a money 💵 as her Christmas gift to us, she gave also to my daughter a money and that's the reason that we bought stroller for her. i don't care if i don't have mine to bought as long as for my baby its okay for me.
Second try
Her second try of her stroller. Since my sister in law gave her all dress of her baby that are not fit for her baby including of her nephew. I let wear to my baby the clothes of her nephew, but it looks like a boy of her outfit she wear so i put some ribbon in her head to look a girl ☺️
My wants
As a talk to my baby i already told to her that i want her to be involved in sports soon so that she will be physically fit. And hope in her schooling she can join any sports for her extra curricula. I was just too much advance but if baby can why not i will support her all the way. So here i let wear that she looks like sporty girl. ☺️ Even that she has a runny nose she can still manage to smile. 😍
Monthly Shoot
I have her some pictures for her 6months old photoshoot. My preparations, since the dress that i bought did not use last new year. I let her wear. This is my random preparation :
Before the 📸
Before the photoshoot i need to make my baby in a good mood no one can disturb but only us so that she can gave her biggest smile☺. And here were together in good bibe, i love you baby with all my heart ♥
And these are the some photos i wanna share to all you since it was honor to celebrate everymonth a simple photoshoot made by me. This photoshoot i made is for her to look back when she grows old. I took her a picture last January 23,2022 for her 6months old and i use the dress that supposed to wear new year. Here are some photo 📸 😍♥️ hope you enjoy reading ☺️ that would be all. Thank you♥️
My Baby Baptism
Hi there, hello December 😊
Last time i had posted an article about i will try my best to earn more here for my baby's baptism but suddenly i got tired of typing because of a lot happening and i am busy. I posted on noise but here not because it takes a long time to share my article.
So here, i will start of saying even if I don't earn here because of my tiredness, I could still find a way to help for my baby's baptism something special.
We've got a lot of sponsors and we were so blessed to them. My niece, my brother and my friends and most of all my mother in law and father in law. We were so happy the result from looking money for food up to church payments there's a way. God will make a way.
I told to myself i don't even wish to have special that a lot of money spend but theirs a way. I'm so thankful to God for allowing us to make our babys special to us. Receiving the Blessings from father is our privilege to show that we were a good mother and father to our baby.
God parents
My baby's God parents I only planned 2 pairs only but because of having a lot of friends turn into 9 pairs. I never expect them to answer me, I'm so happy because they attend from seminar up to the baptism. I am glad also because we meet again and it seems like we are having friends reunion. Soon our baby will have a lot of God parents to guide if I'm not around.
Her Gifts Received
This was the gift she received from her God parents. And she had also cash.
My supportive Brother
My brother never fail me to feel his love to me. He and her wife are so supportive to us. I do not expect my brother that he will attend. He is living from bantayan Island and he attend. My heart ♥ is melting. Even if my brother had a bad attitude sometimes but he still have a good heart especially to me. And he said to me that my baby must call him "Daddy" 😊that's why I include them as one our baby's God parents.
Her first Roll
After she had her baptism a day after the baby baptism got her first Roll and feel her tummies time. She was happy that after a couple of days she tried rolling she was now succeeding. And gave her beautiful smile to us. We're very proud to her.
Third Immunization
A day after her first rolling Baby got her third immunization and got a 3 needle touch in her thigh. She cried a lot because she feel hurt. I was hurt watching her also. I couldn't not deny that can feel pain she felt. That's why when we got home i assure that I'll be at her side.
Her height is 59cm and weight is 6.1
A Gift
A day after her immunization she received another gift from my closest friend. I let her fit right away. She was so happy on it. My eyes won't stop watching her growing already 😍
Happy baby
When her first went outside our home. We went to the store of our Mama before but now my sister store. She was so happy. She show to us her biggest smile😍
The baby Now
We are so happy and blessed to have her now. We can now go to my sisters house not like before.
I am happy to share this article to you because of my baby i get inspired more. Hope i could still again here. God bless 😇
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Guilty
So here i am again, i just wanted to share how i feel today. I had a niece which is we always fought. I am just ahead to her 5 years. She was our eldest niece. The reason why i felt guilty today is, i feel regret of what i had done to her before maybe i am too harsh to her in desciplining. By the way guys we always fight something that i don't like her to do,the reason is i don't want her to be like somebody else that they change their personality because they wanted a social life.
Way back Before
Anyways, my nephew is a simple girl, she's like me. She always follows my footsteps. She always idolize me in everything. When she become in college i notice she change. I always her negative, that's why i always interrupt her whatever she do that i don't like. One day she went in a mall without my permission, since she was with me, we stayed in the same home. I was angry, i reprimand her,but i qas shock because she taught i was angry to her because she did not inform me. But the truth is i was angry because she was with her classmates, and that classmate tried cutting classes. So i tell her be wise in choosing your companion, make sure it will make you better. I don't want you to be like me, that i am still in the stage of doubts, shyness that full of what ifs.
I said to her, you chose those companion whom for you they can help you in your studies. Why not you will be friends with the niece of my classmates, she's nice. And then, she follow what i say.
And i just notice again that she had another companion, since the niece of my classmates was too old to her to be her companion. She accompany another group of friend. I just observe her, i am just happy because every time she share it to me she was happy. I just said to her that's good. BUT, there was one day she lied, they go somewhere without my permission again. And i just know when i saw in the Instagram there picture. I was angry again. They went out just for fun, i was angry because i wanted her to save her for a reason that her father was just jeepney driver and her mother is housewife, we don't know yet in the future they will be in need of money. So i reminded her again, she was angry to me, all she taught to me, you will always see what's my negative side you don't see my good side. I just said to her, i see what's good in you, but i reprimanded you in your bad sides because i don't want it become bigger. Since you're with me, i have the right to reprimand you.
Biggest Fight
One day, we agreed that we had schedule our household chores alternate of the days of our class. Since her class is Monday to Thursday and mine is Thursday to Sunday we had agreed that when she don't have class she will be the will clean the house and do washing her clothes. If i don't have class i will be the one to do too. And as i observe it was in the first place she d, the longer the day weeks and months, she always make excuses that she cannot do household chores because something reason. I just accept because she was in first year i know how pressure it was. But, one day i got home early that she don't know. I saw her lying in bed and had a chitchat or maybe texting.. I said to her that's why you cannot do household chores you always do your stupid texting. Cellphone cannot help you. Do you want to confiscate your phone? I said, she feel angry to me, and do the household chores. But she excuse in washing because she promise do to it by tomorrow. And i don't have class, in the morning i told her, i will be the one who do washing just fix your clothes there. She insisted to do washing and she make me angry that cause us fighting she do laundry without separating the colored and white clothes. And gues what happens my light yellow pants got colored red. I was angry, i told to her you didn't listen to me, i told you a while ago that i will be one to do laundry and you insisted. Because of your clumsiness that's what happen. You get out of here and fix your clothes there. And I'm the who continue laundry.
Did not Obey
When i finish i go inside the house saw her lying again, and said you did not fix again your clothes? How many times that i am going to told you? She cry, she just said you always see my negative side my bad side. Me that i was angry, i will not be angry to you if you always obey me, just a simple doing you cannot do? If you think i am always your enemy here then your free to look for another house to stay. Did you know what she did, she just hear my words and did not do. So me as her Auntie, i wanted her to make her a lesson i put some of her things outside and told her fix it before you get inside, learn to fix your things because i am not your maid. And then she interpret it that i let out of my place. So we did a fight. I explain to her what i am supposed to lesson her. And we ended up fighting we did not talk eac other. Me as her Auntie i always approach her first. I treat her just to make okay. And we become friends again. That was our biggest fight.
When i got married
When i got married, even if we always fought, she still help me in our wedding. She's the one decorated our venues. Since she's fun of decorating i just trust her even if i don't tell her it was nice. That's what make me guilty even though that we fight each other she has still a heart to help. And now she's planning again to celebrate thw baptism of my baby with a decorative but i don't have enough, i don't where to find money now. I wanted to celebrate too since she was encouraging me but the problem is money. 😭
I feel so thankful for my niece because she's always at my side from the start i was pregnant. I'm the reason she look for job just to help me. I owe her a lot.
To my niece i owe you a lot. Thank you was not enough, thank you so much for everything. Tomorrow is her birthday i don't know how thank her.
My purpose in Bch
Since i have a target now for this month to gain more bch. I still need a lot of articles to write but sad to say i can't do it everyday. But I'm happy to update here now that my first day of this month was great, i gain another bch. It's just small but i think it is better than nothing. I have took this photo just a while ago.
My plan for this Month
We planned together with my husband to have a baptism for our baby maybe by the end of this month or by November, but since we don't have enough money yet, I tried to help him to look for money in a good way. But for now, this is the only way that i could help him.Making an article to gain more bch. I just want my baby to have Baptist for her to be bless by the priest and to be a Christian also. I feel so worry for her. I cannot control myself of being so insecure as a mother to her. That i couldn't gave her right away of whats best for her. But, i cannot control also if this is just the only amount that we had.
Now that i am planning and set this goals for babys baptism hopefully this could help me. First i need to target is her dress since the dress that i barrowed from her cousin was not fit for her.
I am not having fun of buying dress for her because i don't have money, only her Ate cousins bought her a dress for pictures every month and i just supported her for picture taking, because I'm happy to watch my baby over the cam.
The next Target
My next target is payment for church, i don't know if how much but i need to prepare it ahead of time. Maybe tomorrow i will let my husband ask in the church if how much is the payment for baptism so that we can prepare.
Third plan
My third plan is, i know this is not really important. But if God's prevail this then why not, i planned to have simple Salo-salo so that both of our families, with the Godparents will spend some time together in our house after the baptism. This is just my imagination, but hopefully it will come true. Despite of our difficulties we could not deny the truth that we have so many plan for our baby. For her to have a good memories and for her to feel loved by many. I really wanted my dream for her will come true.
Feelings of being a Mother
The feeling of being a mother is not really easy. That no one can control you to dream for your child. I know it's not bad anyway to have dream. My baby is so important for me, i don't want her to feel that i don't care of anything to her. I know she feels that she has been a unexpected baby. But, i never let feel that i am not with her. I'm trying to fullfill everything she needs since she's still in my tummy, but sad to say all i could give to her for now is to breastfeed her with a healthy milk, i always eat a healthy food because i wanted it to share to her the vitamins i ate.
Final thought
Even if we are just poor, i am not stop dreaming for her. And this bch i trusted this from noise.cash to read.cash. ☺️
My life before I know bch
I don't even know what is bch. Only my nephew explained it to me. And then I just ignore it. For a reason that i don't understand him. More than thrice he told me that bch. But me, just don't care. One time he told me, Auntie i have something to share to you. This is like facebook you'll just need to post their. And i ask what's i am gonna supposed to post? He just told me, you'll just need to post anything what you want to share their. And then what happen if i posted something? He told me, once you verify or approve you can earn a tip from reaction. And then i ask how much i earn? He just explain that i need to post that can catch attention. But, then i ask, what if i am not good in posting how can i catch them? He just told me, just try Auntie it can be useful to you and you will enjoy it. And this is what we call noise.cash
Days Pass
I just forget the one he teach me. And saw him again, then tell him, i already posted their why i am not earning. He told me just wait Auntie. Time will come just post their one day you can earn it. In my mind why should I give this more time since i am enjoying watching funny videos in youtube i just give more time t0 it not this. But, i posted once a day. Then weeks pass, i open again the site he gave to me. And check my account, still don't have. And post again.
Another week pass by
One day I saw number below my post and i doubt about it, is this the one that i am earning? And show it to my nephew, yes Auntie that's it. I saw his face so happy 😊. So i will posted here again so that i could be earn more? He said yes Auntie. Okay then, how can i claim it. He said through Bitcoin. In my mind whats bitcoin? He showed to me a bitcoin apps and then he said you can use also your Coins. Ph since i have coins.ph so i understand already.
Finally Understand
When i understand what's bch, i become eager to post their to earn more. And then my nephew told me again, Auntie make an interval time when posting and also by time you react or comment, i just yes. I just follow of what he say. When i reach $1 i feel happy. Nothing can replace my happiness because i already earned. And it makes me encourage to post more. I said to my mind if this $1 i earn, will earn me everyday this can help my financial for our future baby, since i am still pregnant that time. But, i could not reach $1 just for one day. Maybe i will earn $1 for one week but its okay. I don't spend money for data connection that time because i was connected in wifi.
When 1 becomes 2
When $1 becomes $2, repeatedly i feel so contented. So i planned if i could reach more, i will pay my first earn to my friend, i barrow her 3k during our wedding last April. She helped us a lot that time. Besides of my brothers and sisters, Only her i can lean on that time that i could share our financial problem. Since, i cannot let my husband shoulder everything i barrow to her. Well so much story about our wedding i will share it to you soon in another article. Let's go back to Bch.
When 3k becomes 2k
Since i had planned that my first earn i will send to my friend, it was not granted because the 3k i earn i use some of it for my load data. And then it comes that bch becomes low, i don't really understand by it why? So the 2k plus becomes 2k already. I converted it by the way because I'm afraid if couldn't return the money i barrow from friend.
My Goal
Now my goal is to earn again to be exact 1k and more hopefully. Starting tomorrow October i will tally my earnings so that i would know how much i earned for 1 month. I am planning also the next i earn is i will reserve for my babys baptism. Since the earnings my husband was just enough for our one week needs. Hopefully i can gathered more bch for 1 month so that by November we can Baptize our baby. 🙏😇
Lesson Learned
My lesson learned for this is never stop dreaming to reach something. 💪
P. S.
My nephew told me also to share some article here,i ask if its still the same to noise.cash, he said Yes Auntie you can still earn there, that's why i am a newbie here so sorry for not so updated day by day because it was difficult for me to construct article if there's a baby. Hope you understand. Enjoy! 😊
Peaceful Home
I had this house from my parents. This house owned by everyone, me and my siblings. Since my brother's and sister's are got married also they build their own home. They had already their own house. Our home become so peaceful when Papa's left. My two married sisters are still with us at that time. Since they have already their babies our home becomes happy. Their babies becomes our pain reliever. I am still young at that time i think 7 or 8 Years old. So i couldn't deny that I was a babysitter before since elementary.
When they have Their Own
When they decided to build a house our home becomes peaceful again. So quite and i really feel the sadness in this house. When one of my single brother got a job he started to renovate our house. Then changes becomes a way of happiness again, despite the problem way face. We do feel comfortable that time because our house got finished the division of the room and had finishing the floor. Something change but, sadness is still their.
Since the day Papa left, i always have a question in my mind that never been answered. Why is he left? Is he came back? When will be eating together with a happy big family? I taught that Papa will came home so soon. I don't feel him like he died. I just feel he is just left us for purpose and get a job in a far away place and then come home soon. I usually used to it that he came every Saturday afternoon and brought some bread. Then when I'm getting older, i understand all that it would not be happen again.
The Called Sadness
The sadness in this house is still there up to this day. And it was just do it again since Mama left us year 2017. Since she left i think the more pain i felt. It was so sad in my side because I always believed that they'll be back together with Papa but it's not. Up to this age I'm still longing there love and care special with my Papa. I just remembered him that he will carry me wherever he go not like the others that they can bond together until they got married.
Got Bored
A while ago, me and my daughter got bored in the house. No one visiting as. I call my sister to be here but she doesn't answer. I realized what if i will try to go there house. But sad to say that they are not there. So we go to the store beside the road. And then there they are. We feel happy now with my baby it was our first time to go out with no permission with her Papa. Hehehe.. Her Papa is so strict when it comes to baby but it's okay i just tell him when he got home from work. And he just ask if there are other people there, and i just answered nothing but only my sister and my nieces and nephew. He was worried because we know we are still in pandemic. We know tha couldn't tell what they feel,that's why he won't allow us to expose other people.
So much for that, this is our photo a quick picture with my baby outside the house. I just add it a different filter 😊
My thoughts
Even if i already have a daughter i could still remember the pain inside our house that's why this house was so memorable to me. I got married with no parents guiding that's why I am still longing for it. Somehow, I am not satisfied with their love and care because they left 😔 I know you will understand me. It is not easy for me.
I will just end this until next time.. 🥰
Failed Plan
Last night, i planned that I'm going to wash baby's clothes because they're so many already. Suddenly baby doesn't sleep early, she loves talking to me that's why i cannot leave her. I just said maybe after she's sleep i will make it fast washing so that she will not cry. But then she sleep but woke up after 30 minutes because her Ate cousins ruin her sleep. That's why my plan failed again.
When they Leave
After they left my baby awake, i let her sleep again. So here, she cannot sleep because she's angry because of her sleepiness. I sing her favorite song but did not. I let her listen a song,, she feels asleep already, and then cry again. My God how can i proceed my plan with this. So i realize that she likes tiktok music i just scroll it and let her listen to it. When i scroll i saw a kind of effects that amaze me. Since she's still crying i let her face poit in this kind of effect and i was happy to see her cuteness faces.
Preparing the Use clothes
This is the use clothes of my baby, i will washed this one after my baby sleeps.
About to Washed
When I'm about to wash i saw my sister pick up her goat in our backyard of the house. She really loves her goat. It helps her family also when they don't have money to buy for food she will sell her goat and the buy it.
Can't Stop the Rain
Now, that I'm gonna go, the rain is coming and i think now it's not good that i will continue. Maybe my baby's clothes will not dry. And its gonna smells fishy again. Because I've already tried it previous days.
Lesson Learned
My lesson for this is I must wake up early and never let my niece ruin my daughter sleeping so that i could proceed my plan for that day.
And in the case of my sister i really adore her for continuing raising a goat since they got married. It helped them sometimes.
For my side, i want to have a sideline also for us to help my husband financial income. Hope i could find a good sideline so soon. God bless 😇
My precious Life
Whom would have thought that i will be a mother? I just wanna share it to you. I had a long time boyfriend for almost 11 years. We get into relationship during our high school days. Never been serious with it. I know it was just a puppy love. We are different from the other relationship that they are very close together. Maybe it's rare that we talk. Me that time never been serious but i don't make our relationship as a game. I just don't want to make it as my priority. All of my thinking those times was to graduate and maintain my grades.
Some of my classmates said to me. Hey! Why are you not like them? I just answered, don't compared me to them because I'm different. I know what i was entered but this was not my priority. That's my thinking before.
The revelation
My mama doesn't know our relationship but she know he courted me because he went to our house one time, but mom refuse him to pursue his attention because we were too young at that time. When we graduated high school. I went to city and find a job. Him also went to Manila together with his father because his father had a project there that's why he go. When i heard that there was a laundry shop hiring. I eventually apply and luckily got a job. But that time my boyfriend is in city already. We're still communicating and updating each other.
One day it comes up into our mind that why we should hide it, we were old enough to handle a relationship already. He said. I am still afraid because i am still planning to school in college. Maybe it will change if i should reveal it to my family. I ask him a favor maybe we could save our courage to tell if i will get enrolled in college already so that i can assure that i could still study. And he just okay.
And yes! We revealed it after i got enrolled. We were so happy because we taught Mama won't allow me. But as i see in Mama's eye she was happy for me. Besides she showed more care for my boyfriend than me. But it's okay!
During College days
Got a smooth studying first when i get in school. First year college is cool for me even if I'm in a relationship. BUT, during my 2nd year, it was not my intention we had a misunderstanding, and this time he went school also but far away to my school in the north side. I couldn't imagine myself without asking how is he there. I was blinded with my PRIDE. I don't listen to him and i did not let him explain his side. I was in the tip of conscience because Mama always reminded me how he is good to me. I stop communicating to him but they are still texting with my Mother. I feel how mama voted him for me. I just waited that my boyfriend approached me in person but he did not. Until i graduated college without him. But, honestly I'm still love him. It was just my pride.
Jealousy
While i am reviewing, i still have more time already for social media. One day, i just realized what if I'll try to open his account in social media? trying if i could open it. And guess what?! I opened it. He doesn't know. I read all of the convos there with his friends. Since i am updating and fishing his account. I feel comfortable. At least i know how he's doing there. Sometimes he message me but i ignore it. Sometimes I'd reply but it could be feel that i am interested with the topic. I was being so paranoid. And then i opened again his account and then BOOM! he had already a chatmate. I don't know what I feel those times, but all i could say is I was jealous. Started that day, i always do fishing in his account. Never expected that it can make my heart more pain. I've read everything they chat.. And only one line that make me hurt more is they exchange "i love you". I feel down! I do not have the appetite to study/review already. Since i am fishing, his brother was being close to mind we texted and then comes into that topic. And i was relieved because he said that those girl link to his brother was just for fun. Because that girl had a crush to his brother and then he just tried it if how easy she is. But, in my mind i don't know if i will believe it. I know his brother was not of a kind a play boy. The more painful to was they had a picture together and upload it in social media. So there! I can feel that we do not have a chance to come back. I started to forget him. But my mind was not cooperated. But I'm still trying.
Reasons we meet again
My mama got sick, i was her care giver those times. His brother and i still have a communication that's why we were still updating of what happened. My mama go referred one the hospital in the city. And then it's just coincidence we texted with his brother, he texted where am i, i just answered that we are in the hospital because of Mama. It wasn't my expectation that they go together with my ex which is his brother. And then he call, he said hello what hospital are you? I just answered the name and then they said we will visit your mother if it's okay, i just said OKAY. It was shocks they went there and visit Mama, and me that time confuse because i didn't fixed myself. But since i am the one who took care with my mother i don't mind it anyway. This was our first meet since we were apart.
Communications Back
Because of Mama we meet again. And then he texted me. He communicate me again and asking of mama situation. Now, i don't mind of what happen in the past all we had is we were texting again.. While he is busy in finding a accompany for on-job-training. I was thinking what if i will try to open again his account. I opened it, then there i read another revelation, he chated his close friend there that something that he was caught by his gf that we are communicating again, because he tell to his one friend and that one friend was there in the house of his gf that's he caught. His gf read everything they chated. Me also thinking, i taught it was only one girl involve but it's another girl. My ex cleared everything his damage. Since we're texting already, i ask him that who is his gf now? He just said, no one. And then said can i courted you again if you don't have boyfriend. I just answered i am not sure to enter again. I'm tired. I took Mama, maybe i will just focus to her. And then it cames that he revealed the he link before. It was just nothing to him. But, i still not believing on it. I challenged him to meet after my board exam if he can do it then maybe i will give him chance to court me again. And yeah he never fail.. He did. Starting those times the more we make closier but not in relationship. Since Mama left after a month i took the board exam he was therw for me that time. He visit me in our house because he knows I'm sad.
He became an inspiration again
Since i feel worry of what mama's happened and i got failed my board exam again, my brother wanted me to divert my mind. He let me enroll in a review center again, this time i focus my review already. And this time i am in relation already to him. He made me forget sometimes of whats happening to our family.
Getting closer
Years pass by since Mama's left, our relationship is getting stronger. We were so serious for looking a job. He did it, and me also continued studying in Masters. Until pandemic came.. It was not our expectation that i got pregnant with our first baby, unexpected happened even if how careful you are. And because i got pregnant i stop my tutorial and focus with my pregnancy.
Our Everything
The most painful and happiest happenings into my life came and that is my baby came to us. And tomorrow we will celebrating her 2 month's Old. I always thanks to God of what happened to us now. We may not in stable job but we are here together striving and take the challenges in life
This is my true story, i just cut some it because i am already sleepy.
A job hunter
Last week i was planning to apply a job, maybe i should try on it so that i have something to wait for. Suddenly my baby was not in good condition with her tummy. I think it's bloated because of the cold weather. Last, Monday morning i woke up early to because i wanted my baby to take a bath, i prepare everything we need, when i check her temperature it was okay, but her tummy is not. So i get some manzanilla to put in her tummy. I feel worried with her, because i cannot afford watching her suffering of the bloated tummy. So, what i did is i just carry her all along, when i feel numbness in my arm i will just let her lay in bed for a while. UNTIL, Tuesday comes and Wednesday.. I am still undecided to apply because of my baby, i cannot afford to go without her, i cannot afford to walk without seeing her if she's okay. Thursday comes, i had friend asking me if i will apply? I just said, yes of course but i just wanted to secure my baby first that she's okay. I will just follow you there friend.. I Never expecting that my could feel what i have plan. She never stop crying even if i gave breastfeeding her, i don't understand her why but all i can say maybe she knows I'm about to walk. What i did is I decided not go. How can i walk like this? It's my lost if there something happen to my baby.
My prepared Requirements
This requirement i prepared was not so difficult because it's just a photo copy certificate that related in computer, including TOR, VALID ID, APPLICATION LETTER. I made effort with this because it is required to put a trademark or tabbing for them it will easier to look for that certain documents. I prepared a lot of folders because i planned to apply 3 available positions which is still related in computer.
God's Purpose
Maybe God doesn't allow me to this opportunity because he has another plan for me. Maybe he wanted me to took care my baby, because my baby still needs me. And i never regrets my decision because i know it's his planned. I thank you Lord always.
Why do insecurity hint me always when ever i saw people achieving? Is this an axiety? I always feel insecurity in silent, never tried to burst it out to someone. But i think it can make me feel uncomfortable with this feeling like this. How can i change it? May i know piece of advice please 🙏
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