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My Cousin's 5th Birthday My mother is the first child in the family. She has two brothers and two sisters as well. I'm the first child too and also I'm the first grandchild on my mother's side. My brother is second grandchild, named Brandon. The third is Angelou and fourth is Randolf. Sadly, their mother passed away. She's Ninang Bec (she is my godmother). She is the second child. The fifth is Abigail and sixth is Klein. Their father is Tito Boy, his the third child. I experienced playing with Klein when he is still baby but I am not able to take of her as her oldest cousin or sister because I was so young when he is still a baby. All I have in my mind that time is playing. I keep playing outside the house. That's my thing. And my youngest cousin, Marc Nathan. Her mother is Tita Shy, fourth child. I experienced taking care of him because he is only 5 years old. Yes! You are right his birthday is the topic today. Nathan is a handsome boy. His eyes are beautiful and his eyelashes are so long and thick. I find it really attracting. The truth is I'm very jealous of it. I swear if you see it, and you were like me that has a thing eyebrow, you will feel what I am feeling right now. When he is still a baby, he has a long hair. Not just long, it is also curly. I called him "Kulot" (curly in English) but after he got his first haircut, it did not came back to beaing curly but still his hair is very healthy. He likes to dance and play. Whenever he hear music, he dance. He always wants to play with us but he gets annoyed easily whenever we teased him. He started listening Kpop at the age of 4. He has been hearing it from us because me and Abigail likes Kpop and he's been into it. He likes Twice Songs and BTS Songs. He's into Seventeen and Enhypen Songs this days also. I've been taking care of him if I have an opportunity and if my aunt need me. I am giving him a bath sometimes that always starts with tears, I really don't know why sometimes he dislikes taking a bath but it always ends up happy because he always throw water on me making sure I'm wet and clean also. When he doesn't to eat with his mother, I make sure to give him food that fills his stomach because be needs it. His favorite is fried chicken, like every kid we know. He maybe stubborn and spoiled sometimes but he is a sweet boy. Sometimes, he suddenly gave me a kisses. When I'm making jokes saying there's something aching in my body, he always say, *"drink medicine.".* August 31, 2016 is his birthday. Before this day, his mother already bought what we needed for decorating and food. Some are prepared already the night before. I waked up and go straight to my aunt's house to do the decorating. My mom got there early for food preparation. So we make the letter balloons with his name "N-A-T-H-A-N". We put up a glittery see through curtain that I find cute. We made sure that it was placed perfectly. And put the HAPPY BIRTHDAY banner. It was color silver together with his name that was also silver. We put two blue balloons on the side. We hang another two balloons. After this we made the hotdogs. It was hotdog sticks with a marshmallow on top. It was a thing here in the Philippines whenever there is a birthday party and it was placed in cabbage. You will stick , like push it in there literally. My mom on the other side cooked Spagetti and Lumpiang Shanghai. My grandfather cooked Pancit Canton. After all the foods are cooked, we took a picture with Nathan on it and we sing for him a Happy Birthday and he blow the candle. There was a funny scene there that he find it hard to blow the camdles. After that, we distributed it house to house, because we can't invite people in our house because of the pandemic, Covid19. It was sad that Nathan won't be able to play with his friend. But we keep him entertained. On our distribution we made sure that if we will be giving a house of Nathan's friend, we will always put hotdog on sticks in there. After that we ate. Spagetti is my favorite. I mean, everyone loves it. I forgot to tell, we also have pizza. It was given by my mom's cousin as a gift to Nathan. It was sad because I don't have a gift for Nathan but I will make sure to give him present when I already have money. I ate many pizza because I've been craving it for so long. After that we watch music videos that Nathan like. We ended up to Kpop Songs of course. After that we ate ice cream, Dark Chocolate flavor. We loved it. And after that I went home. I hope he had fun on his birthday. I wished him to be a very kind, understanding, patient and healthy. I hope he will be happy growing up and pursue what he wanted. I will always be here supporting him as his older sister. I will guide him in anyway I can. I don't him to go in the wrong way. I will make sure it will be fun for him growing up. I will always be your ate even when we are old. I love you Nathan, Happy Birthday!

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@Aliug0729

Drained. This past few days, I've been feeling empty all of a sudden. Even when I'm jusko scrolling through facebook, watching videos, and even when I'm playing games on pc. I was wondering why is this happening to me. I want to be happy as much as possible but behind the smile I'm showing, there's still sadness. I'm trying to make myself okay because I don't want people around me and loves me to worry about me. I don't want to cause trouble and be bothersome. I've been trying so hard entertaining myself as much as possible, I don't like this feeling. I felt like I was alone. Like no ones cares for me. My tears just suddenly fall, especially at night. I have been crying my ass out. I'm tired. Really really tired but I don't want to give up and I'm also scared. I want to share what I've been through because I think this one of the ways for my feelings to be light. First, this pandemic. I know everyone was stress out. This pandemic have a big impact in everyone of us. My schedule at first became skeletal (alternate schedule) and started to lessen my work hours. Also experienced like no schedule totally. This stage is really hard because I was so guilty that I can't help for our family's finances. I can see my mother trying so hard for money to buy food for us. I started to have schedule again and still ended up, no schedule at all. It's really hard. Second, my grandmother died, due to Covid19 last April 27, 2021. This is worst thing that will happened to a human, to loss someone you adored and loved. I may not be vocal, but I love her. She maybe hot-headed sometime and pushing us away because we are so stubborn but I love her. I can feel that she cares for us not only me from a simple question, If we already ate. She made the most delicious food I've tasted and forever thankful for that. I was so happy that I planned for us to have a family photo last Christmas 2020. Just a random thought because didn't do it even once. It's sad to realize that it was our last photos together. I missed her, so much. I always ended up thinking about her at night. Thinking if she only listening to her family to take good care of her health. If only we knew this would ended up like this, we should have really take a good care of her. We know that she don't want us to find it hard taking care of her. She really cared for us, she chose us intead of herself. I love her so much! I hope she have known that! Third, my cousin died last June 28, 2021. The worst part is he didn't passed away because of illness. He killed himself. It's really sad. Everyone knew him as a bubbly guy. He always smiles and we never saw in him that he has a problem. I miss his sillyness. He always make everyone laugh. Even he will look stupid, he'll do it. I miss his sweetness. Whenever I will go to there house, he always asks if he can pick me up. Everytime we talk to them on videocalls, his beautiful smile always welcomes us that will make our day. He's has the most beautiful smile with his two little dimples. But the sad part is we won't see that in person again. We can only see it on pictures. We can't hold him anymore. We can't hug him. I always told him, I will make up for him, I will treat him but it never happened because of pandemic. If only I have given a chance, I could have given him everything he wants. I was really sorry that I wasn't there for him. If only I have seen here facebook post, maybe I messaged him and forced him to tell me what is wrong, maybe he's still here. Depression sucks! It's not a joke. Always take care and ask your loved ones if they are okay. You'll never know what worst can happen. This thing has been draining me this day. I may be feeling this almost everyday but prayer is a must! I know God will help me get through with this. He knew I can handle this that's why this happen to me. I know that once I passed this test he hd given me. I will be stronger that I am today. I believe everything happens for a reason. He will never let us suffer. God loves us with all his heart. I hope you won't be bored if you read this. I need to let it all out or I won't be able to handle this. It's too stressful. Thank you everyone who read and will read this!

@Aliug0729

First timer. Hi! I'm Guila Angela. I'm 24yearsold, from Philippines 🤍 I like KPOP. I love listening to music. I love to write short stories, sometimes fan fictions. I would surely love it here ☺️ My aunt told me about this so I gave it a try. So far, I've read some articles and stories, and I like it. I also wanted to share the stories and articles I wrote and also the stories I will be making in the future. So far, I have been learning new things from the articles and stories I've read. I was looking forward for more knowledgeable and more interesting articles and stories to read. I am loving how clever your writings are. I will be enjoying here! 🤍