@Ainsley
Maybe.. you've been through this phase. Maybe.. you know very well how it feels to lose. But, that doesn't mean you can generalize. You never know what other people are going through.
@Ainsley
@Ainsley in July 2021
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I never know that dark chocolate will taste really good like this😂 I never like bitter taste.. Even my body will be hurt if i drink dark choco😂
@Ainsley
I have watched vincenzo movie And i just saw 2pm MV I can't stop thinking about the psychopath.. Everytime i see taecyon i will think he is psycho😭😭😭 Even though he has charisma and his expression r right for every lyrics he brings.. He is amazing.. Ah.. i'm gonna cry😭😂
@Ainsley
Good morningggg.. Ahh.. is it afternoon? I think i really have a good rest last night😂
@Ainsley
I remember when my mom pregnant my bro.. We ate 1 hump of garlic and I feel so sick of it😂 So u don't eat garlic for 5-6 years laters😂
@Ainsley
I want to plant some flowers in my garden.. Do you have any recommendations on what flowers are good for planting at home? Or maybe you have other good plant recommendations? Please tell meee.. Hehehe😁
@Ainsley
Do u like a stone? What kind do u like? And why? If i, i like crystal stone.. Bcs crystal stone can change color over time
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Good afternoonn.. Waaa sun is on fire right now🤣 Still waiting for the rainy season😂
@Ainsley
It's kpop timeeee😂😂 Do u like kpop idol? What idol do u like? ㅋㅋㅋ I really-really like blackpink😂 Every time i watch blackpink my mood gets better😅🥰
@Ainsley
I am grateful in this phase. Where all liked his life and I lived it in tears. When I felt unable, there the power came. And yeah.. We will only realize what the ability is at the limits of patience. Now i know that I'm strong🥰
@Ainsley
You know, we can't say "forever" to something that's still going on, Loving someone forever is almost impossible, but losing someone forever is possible, But.. we always live for the things that don't last forever, Like dreams, memories, love, regrets, and other people..
@Ainsley
I said to my mom "Tadaaaa~ this is my lunch box" My mom laughing hard, and she said "ㅋㅋㅋ happy eating 1 box of leeks, if it's not enough, iwill buy it again" ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ😂
@Ainsley
Sometimes all we need is to accept everything that happen in our life.. Bcs.. in reality we are just humans who can't fight fate.. But, we can still fight for it right? It won't change the outline, but it can minimize or enlarge I think.. Hmm maybe?
@Ainsley
ㅋㅋㅋ Mom's cooking is the best😂 What's ur favorite food?
@Ainsley
Why? Why do memories of you always come to my loneliness? That's so scary.. Time doesn't always heal, sometimes time will kill you slowly..
@Ainsley
I know, on the one hand u find it difficult to admit ur mistakes.. But, do u have to treat people like 쯔레기? Why do u have to twist the facts? Why do u have to slander? Well, this isn't the first time I've come across someone like this anyway😴
@Ainsley
Even if the whole world changes, i'm still the same.. But u'll never know unless u walk in my shoes, U'll never know my tangled rope, Cause everybody sees what they wanna see..
@Ainsley
"He's only gone for a while" "He'll be back" "I'm not alone" "He'll always hold my hand" "He's always there" "He's always with me" "Don't be afraid"
@Ainsley
I used to wonder why people lie to themselves.. And that's what I do now. Evidently.. Sometimes we need to lie to ourselves in order to move on with life.
@Ainsley
Dad, I know you really hate to see me cry. But sorry, I've done the best I can.. I miss you so much.. Why? Why did you leave me alone in this world? But.. Thanks a lot dad.. 20 years I was with u, but u never alienated me at all.. When the whole world, when all the people closest to me turned away from me, u were waiting for me, u welcomed me.. Thank u dad.. 🥀
@Ainsley
ㅋㅋㅋ Dad, do you see it? Our mom trying really hard to make us happy.. She always pays attention to what we want or we like.. The more I come here, the more I see you dad in mom.. P.s : So far, mom is not so dizzy because everything is filled with dad😂
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My mom bought this to put in her room, But until now it's still placed in the living room.. At first I didn't know, Then my bro showed it to me.. When i saw it.. My mom said "it's to be put in the room" And i said "just buy a new one to put in the room" 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 And then? She said "I'll buy a new one later" And i said "hahahaha, just kidding mom.. I like it, but I don't need it yet" 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
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Me : Mom, i need buy ***, Can u order it for me mom? hehehe.. Bcs u who usually buy it from her Mom : i'll buy later Me : No, I wanna buy it with my money Mom : How about 50 50? Me : No prob.. (Pause 20 scnds) Me : aahh.. or how about this.. I just got money from ***, it's Rp.*** And u can add the rest (Actually this is just a joke) Mom : Ok Me : Mom, but the money went into my account, not ur account.. Isn't it the same as u buying me with all ur money? Me, mom : (laughing…
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One day, i wake up from my long sweet dream.. I know that sometimes many people tryna broke me into the deepest abyss.. But i never really mind it.. And then, right now, i'm very very aware that i never understand the meaning of life It feels like i've only been alive for 2 months.. That's funny but real😂
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When i'm in high school, my father bought me new motorcycle.. After a few days, he asked "Have u make any scratch on ur motorcycle?" He laughed.. And i just think in my mind "what does he mean? Why i make any scratch? How?" (At the end i make any scrath on my motorcycle bcs i fell) And now.. see it guys..😨😱 There's some scratch.. Yes, i make it.. I never crash or graze anything.. But look.. How can? I can't think about it😨 My father use this car for a year.. He never make…
@Ainsley
Finally i can open noise.cash🥲 But still can't upload any picture in noise.cash It's okay, it's still better😁 Gahhh.. my signal r really bad from yesterday.. I even have a hard time opening noise.cash I can't do anything.. My browser r slow moving too.. Hmm.. how bout u guys?
@Ainsley
Sometimes.. all u need to do is stay quiet, close ur eyes, close ur ears.. And the most important close ur heart. ㅋㅋㅋ Don't care about anyone.. Don't trust anybody.. Cs when u believe, u will be betrayed.. When u have good intentions, ur intentions will be misinterpreted.. When u do good, it will come back to attack u.. Never imagined that there was a concept of life like this before, but it's real🤫 But.. is that right? Is that right keep ur heart like that? U know…
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I'm making Boba.. Suddenly, my mom and bro come to me, and they started help me with it.. They're so funny.. They make some size of it.. And they laugh very hard bcs they think they annoy me😂 And i just like "hahaha why? What r u doing guys?😂"
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Tadaaaaa~ My mom make it🤭 Isn't it look delicious?🤤 Yeahhh this is so delicious.. Btw, can you see it? 1 chicken with the same ingredients, my mom made 3 versions🤭🤭🤭 My mom said "when u cooking don't stick to the rules... just adjust it" 😙😙😙
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Hmm.. i'm started thinking about what i'm gonna do right now.. And i end up watchinh Blackpink MV🥲 I really think hard about the outline.. Gahh.. i don't even know what genre that i want😂 Too much things that i need, too much idea that i have.. But i think not today.. So i will just watch blackpink🤭😍
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I don't know why.. Since 3 or 4 years before, i have shortness of breath.. It's really tiring.. Like when I had to run around the field when I was in school, I was out of breath, and my eyes became blurry.. Luckily I didn't faint.. ㅋㅋㅋ But I never had the intention to check with the doctor.. I think that for example I have a disease, it will make a bad suggestion in my brain.. And i must eat many many medicine🙂 Gahh.. i really like my father🥲 We hate hospital.. But don't be…
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ㅋㅋㅋㅋ This is unintentional, but subconsciously becomes a face shape😂 Whose face do you think this is? 😂😂😂😂😂 This really looks like a face right? Hmm.. I almost thought it was face-shaped plasticine I almost forgot that it was cookie dough😂😆
@Ainsley
Good morninggg~ What will u do today guys? ㅋㅋㅋ btw....... Do u still remember tha face dough last night? From the face, i turn it into this😂 What do u think guys? It will success? Or not? ㅋㅋㅋ
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And yeahhh.. this is the result😙 How bout this? What do u think of it guys?😂 Is it fail? Or not? My cake r get better from time to time But.. i think, this will be my last time making cake😂 I think i started being mad with it😂😂😂
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This plant is too tall, it must be replaced with a new one.. The turmeric leaves are starting to turn yellow, the basil leaves are not as fresh as they used to be.. This plant is still being maintained until the last 2 months🥲🥲🥲 Until finally we are rarely at home and don't take care of plants.. And we will replace it with a new one as soon as possible🥰🥰🥰
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Another hot day🥵 Summer is really long🥵 Waiting for the rainy season, but the rain continuously also causes flooding everywhere😂 I hope the season will be balanced immediately between heat and rain😂 I mean rain only during the day, and the rest of the weather is normal😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 What will u do in summer guys? And what season do u like? And why?
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Super big big big fail😂 I was bored, and tried to paint, but failed The picture is torn, the paint ink has a problem ㅋㅋㅋ😂🥲 When I woke up, my surroundings had become a mess, my hands and feet were covered in a lot of paint😂😂😂 It's time to say "yasudahlah" But that's okay, as long as I'm happy it's fine right? 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭
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Next to my house is a vacant lot, but it's ours.. And one day, after my father died, the RT chairman in my house came to meet my mom.. He said "A few days ago he (my father) asked me to clean this land" My mom "alright" After a few days news came from the workers that the head of the RT intends to use our land as a garage without permission.. Then my mom is angry, and it seems he finally heard about it.. And then he disappeares But today, he came to our house and said "If…
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This afternoon struggling again with writing.. My mood was instantly ruined, and now I'm too upset to even think about my work😭🤯 My pen is neglected, my paper is still clean😂 What should i write???? ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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ㅋㅋㅋ I'm very surprised that this grilled chicken tastes so good🥺 At first I bought it just because the food I wanted wasn't there But look, even the seller is very unique They not usually give soy sauce.. I don't know about ur area But, here this things r very unique😂😁
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I sleep there, at red pillow when i was writing Suddenly i woke up and was shocked So i wake myself up And yeah.. I think u know what happen😂😂😂 Right.. The tabble hit my head.. Oh no, am i the one who hit the tabble?😂😂😂 I can't even understand myself, why am i lying under the table😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Ainsley
PPKM really makes the signal bad😭 I think it's been about 1 week like this, it's very tiring.. Even work becomes difficult because of the bad signal Look, I got stuck on the stairs just because I wanted to get a signal😂🥲 How bout u guys? Still good?
@Ainsley
Eat donuts for a better mood🤭🤤🍩 It's more than perfect for breakfast for me Not too heavy, and contains sugar.. P.s : i always have a super late breakfast time😂 ㅋㅋㅋ I can't help but eat sweet, because my body will go limp if I don't eat sweet food.. But for sure.. that's not good for me too😂 Because I've to keep my sugar level🥲 How bout u guys? Do u like sweet food too? Or what food do you like?
@Ainsley
Scrolling down timeline and i see many people post about rain.. I hope it rains in my place too.. I mean just afternoon come😂 But actually no matter it rains or not, it's still a good day🤭🤭🤭 I had a nice day.. Hope u have a nice day too guys🤗🤗🤗
@Ainsley
Yang Hyun Suk said "Before you become a person, be a human first" I used to just think "ah, he wants his artist to be a person who has good manners" But for now, I realized, not everyone is really human🤫 Some people only resemble humans🤔 Time for self introspection, have I really become a human?😶
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I often read or hear "black and white life" Finally it's enough to affect my mind.. I think life is only white and black.. Even though in the middle of all that there is also a gray color.. Where what you think is true, is not necessarily true, and vice versa, what you think is wrong is not necessarily completely wrong🤗
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I take this picture to send it to my mom.. Bcs she wanna buy some lamp.. But after I saw it, I didn't expect the lights will be beautiful because of the flower background Inadvertently the picture became colorful😂🤭😁 Should I fulfill the house with flowers? so whenever taking pictures will look beautiful😂 Just kidding😂😂😂 Cs i will be dizzy if my house full of flower😂 I will think my house is a garden😂😂😂
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ㅋㅋㅋ When i'm stressed, it's fun to randomly color like this🤭 "What color should I wear?" "How far will i color it?" And my mind is distracted only on the color🤭🤭🤭 I know this isn't neat.. bcs i made it like that.. This is just for fun.. Don't be too serious yaa🤭🤭🤭🤗🤗😢
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I stuck in front of the paper for more than an hour.. I don't know what i want.. I really got no idea🥲 And i draw it.. Can someone explain to me what is it? Cs i don't know🥲😁 I just tryna find any idea, but i can't No matter what i write it will be sad story🥲😂
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The atmosphere tonight is quite scary What's wrong with tonight? It's so cold here, it's not usually like this🥶 It's midnight here It's 00.10 But.. the strange thing is, I keep hearing the sound of a child laughing He laughs really hard, and very happy ㅋㅋㅋ Normally at this time the child are already sleeping, right? But for sure.. my air conditioner r too cold😂🤣 ㅋㅋㅋ But, i dunno about the child😱🤣 Just kidding, i'm not afraid.. I write this just for fun😂
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One shot of cafeine in the morning😂 To boost self awareness and strength😂😂😂 Actually I rarely drink anything that contains caffeine, But for some reason, today I want it😄 I'm a type that is quite sensitive to caffeine, usually at the end of my bones day will start sick because of caffeine😆 How bout u guys? Do u like things that contain caffeine?😁😁
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It looks fine, looks normal.. But, I don't know why, the last few days, the weather is very hot🥵 Much hotter than usual😷 I think this has been happening for 1 week All I can do is hide in front of the fan😂 Maybe after this i will catch a cold😂😂😂 But it's okay.. Before I get tired from the heat🤭
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In the past, I often heard people say "Live a healthy life, so that you live a long life" But for now, i don't think so.. I think, u need do healthy life style just for make urself enjoy till ur time come.. I don't think that people with healthy body can long lived🤔 And vice versa.. Even people who are seriously ill can live long.. Isn't this just about ur lifeline? as u r destined? Even healthy people can have accidents or other things that take their lives.. And people who…
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I need to go out.. But all i do is laying on the floor watching the roof.. ㅋㅋㅋ Today i feel very unwell😂 I don't know why, but when I wake up my whole body hurts😂 My agenda : wake up, take a shower, eat, and go But it's really not going well😂 I hope I'm not late😂
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All of them r pink😍🥰🙈 Actually, if I could, i will turn my whole room into pink.. But I'm not sure about that idea.. I think I'll just be happy for a while🤔 or not maybe? ㅋㅋㅋ i don't know about it😂 But what do you think? What should I dominate the color in my room with?
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I really love crystal stone.. Cs over time the color will change, Although it tends to turn into clear or white😂🤭 But the stone itself has a very beautiful texture.. It has different fibers in every stone😍 P.s Sometimes for a few stones, after cleaning, the color will return to normal😂🥰
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Tonight is the full moon.. I have bad memories with it, When my father died on the way to the funeral home, I saw the full moon shining very brightly in the sky😒 Even so, i think I still like it, I still wanna see it.. But.. tonight i can't😂 Bcs i'm sick😂😂😂 Take care of ur health guys, good night💫
@Ainsley
Pizza, pizza, pizza🤤🤭 All u need in the middle of the night is food🤭🤭🤭 Even though pizza is a heavy meal, it's still very delicious to enjoy it in the middle of the night🤤 I really love pizza with many cheese for topping like that🤭 Maybe bcs I really like cheese, but I think if i add other toppings besides cheese, it will spoil the taste🤔 How bout u guys? Do u like pizza too? What toppings do u like?
@Ainsley
Good morning guyss.. How r u today? Hope u good.. Today I don't have a specific schedule that I have to do.. But I will try to be productive😁😁😁 How bout u guys? Do u have any schedule?
@Ainsley
I stuck here, On the 2nd floor of my house, i mean in my mom bedroom😂 I really need signal😂 There's something I need but it gets stuck due to poor signal🥲 How bout ur signal? Is it good? Hmm.. i think ur signal good.. bcs PPkM only in my country right? (I'm not sure 'bout it)😂😂😂
@Ainsley
On the one hand, I feel guilty for forgetting you, On the other hand, I have to do this in order to move on with my life.. My tears will continue to fall every time I remember you, it hurts me so much.. I'm sorry, because it seems that I failed again to make peace with myself.. There are a lot of things to sort out right now, I have to get my life completely back Please forgive me.. I hope this doesn't hurt u, u will always be in my every prayer
@Ainsley
26th.. It's been 3 months, We've been through a lot, but we're still not used to ur leaving.. But it's okay, we can definitely get through it, don't worry.. Hope you are happy there, and are in the best place🥺❤
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Today i made thisㅋㅋㅋ Usually spaghetti toppings are meat, tomatoes, peppers.. But thanks to my mom's idea, I made it with meat, carrots and chickpeas😁🤭 I know that it doesn't look colorful, but it's really delicious😆🤭
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Can u guess what is it?🤭🤭🤭 At first when i received the package, i was surprised like "why is this so big, what is this" But after remembering what my mom used to do lately, i can guess what this is😂🤭 What do u think about this? What is this?🥲
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When i open the packet, it feels like.. You get a large package, but only the package😂 It's like when u buy snack, only the package is big, but the snack only part of it😂🤭 (Just kidding, Inside the bubble wrap there is a big flower pot) Btw good morning, hope u have a good day🌻
@Ainsley
Tteokbokki, tteokbokki~😍 I really love tteokbokki.. Tteokbokki is a korean food made from rice flour, Usually cooked with gochujang seasoning, Tteokbokki has a spicy and sweet taste.. But, on my tongue the spicy taste of Korea is not too spicy🥺 I want to add chili sauce, but I'm afraid to destroy he taste So I just add chili powder😂
@Ainsley
Good night guysss🤗❤ How r u today? For me, today I'm still a little sick, and still feel a little weak.. But despite everything, I still feel happy and grateful for today🤭🥰 Hope u had a good day guys, and from now hope u have a good sleep🤗 Good night😴
@Ainsley
This should be bedtime But as usual i can't😂 So i came to noise.cash I really enjoy it, see beautiful pictures, read inspiring status.. But I think this will only add the difficulty of sleeping😂 How bout u guys? What time is it?
@Ainsley
Good afternoon🙆🏻♀️ What r u doing right now? I'm having stuck now, but I hope it will be resolved soon and i'm sure it will be resolved soon😁😁😁 Sometimes all we need is time, just to get back to trying😊🤗 Fighting for all of u guys, and don't forget to eat ur lunch🤗
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Someone suddenly came to me and complained that he wasn't doing well, Then he said again "I don't know why, the world feels really bad, but don't ask me why" And I said "Everything can change, depending on the point of view you see it" Yeahh, that's all I can say🤷🏻♀️ Bcs basically everyone will experience that period, and all of that will soon pass as long as you have a positive mindset, right?
@Ainsley
Every bad day we pass, While trials feel heavy, When all things hurt physically and mentally.. God is preparing a good thing that is far greater for us, As time goes by we will begin to understand, Be able to get the lesson, And we will start gratitude for that day.. So keep ahead, we never know what will happen tomorrow💖
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When i see it, i remember when i'm on national exam in the high school.. Our class president suddenly decided that the test card will be kept at school, so that no one forgets to bring the exam card.. All of us immediately agreed, because thinking for the common good.. But, we don't know, if the schedule of the subjects being tested is on the exam card😂 When i got home, i just realized, i don't know what to study, bcs there is no schedule😂 Finally i asked the student in the…
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I've been at the point, where everything turned to attack me At home, on campus, it feels uncomfortable.. My routine is just waking up in the morning, go to college, empty hours go to the library, stay in the library for 4 hours, continued the next class, finished class i went again to the library to be alone until it was almost night and i went home At that time i think i was really chaotic, until suddenly one of my lecturers stopped me, and said "can we talk after…
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My graduation album👻 It feels strange to see it after a long time😂 When I realized, I didn't communicate with most of them.. But yeahh.. Some memory remembered when I saw the picture😂 How bout u? R u still communicate with ur schoolmate?
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I feel so sleepy.. And I'm listening to music right now Then i press next button.. And the "Masked Wolf - Astronaut in the Ocean" song is playing😂 So yeahh.. i lost my sleepiness😂😂😂 It's 2am, maybe i'll stop using my phone, and tryna sleep😂😂😂 Good night guys😂😇🤗
@Ainsley
Carrot carrot carrot😝😝😝 When i was little, i was one of those kids who didn't like carrots😂 But recently, i started to drink carrot juice in peace😂 without feeling uncomfortable🤭 And right now, i love grating carrots long and putting them in fried rice😍 It tastes so good, and i can even cook it every day😍😍😍 How bout u guys? Do u like carrots?😍
@Ainsley
Meatball chicken noodles in the afternoon😂🤤 It looks ordinary, but I didn't expect it to taste so good😂🤤 Maybe it will be even more delicious if you eat it when it rains But yeahh.. until now the rain hasn't come too.. I don't know why, but it feels really hot these past few weeks🥵 and the heat feels unusual😂
@Ainsley
When my phone stand, look like this.. Do u know what will i do right now? I will watching korean drama while having dinner😂😂😂 Let's forget about losing weight😂 P.s I'm losing weight for health, not because i'm overweight, nor because i'm not confident😁😁😁
@Ainsley
My bro bought hello panda while he was going to the mart with me.. And he offered me, do i want too or not I said yes, and I took one and see what i got😂 This hello panda looks like me😂 I really love sleeping😂😂😂😂
@Ainsley
My movie is running out, I wanna download it but my signal is bad enough.. Just for 4 episode spend more than an hour😂 But it doesn't matter, I'm glad I can still get some😁 I hope my signal will be better soon, So i can download much episode😂😂😂 And i can surffing internet easily😁😁😁
@Ainsley
Donut donut🍩 Honey donut🍯🍩 My quote is "eat donut for a better mood"😂😂😂 I really like the texture of the soft donut bread and the sweet topping🤭 I wanna spend it all at once but i can't😂 I still have to control my sugar level But it's okay, i stil very very happy🤭😁
@Ainsley
When it's sweet food, i can't say no😂 I really love sugar i think?🥲 So i decided to ate it😂 Even though it's midnight now😭🥲 Hmm butt yeahh, i think i've prepared it I even brought this to the room, and don't forget the drinking water😂 I usually don't really care if there's drinking water or not in my room😂