Teacher "LANG"
May nakita ako dito na tagalog ang wikang ginamit kaya susubukan kong gumawa ng article na tagalog.
So, bakit Teacher "LANG" ang aking paksa ngayong araw na'to? Ganito kasi yun.
No'ng bata pa ako, sabi ko sa sarili ko, gusto ko maging guro paglaki. Kasi gusto kong makatulong sa mga bata na matuto paano maging mabuting tao. At gusto ko din ito kasi alam kong yun lang ang madaling trabaho. Siguro kaya nasabi ko na madali lang na trabaho kasi yun ang palagi kong nakikita araw araw nung bata pa ako. Kasi nga di ba, palaging nasa paaralan lang tayo.
Noong tumuntong ako sa high school, doon ko nakita na di madali maging guro. Marami silang ginagawa na kung ano ano para sa mga mag-aaral. Kaya sabi ko, ayoko maging guro kasi mahirap lalo na't karamihan sa mga mag-aaral ay di na nakikinig sa kanilang guro. Pero noong nakapagtapos na ako sa high school, di ko pa alam kung anong kursong aking kukunin. Nahinto ako ng tatlong taon dahila walang maipanggastos ang magulang ko sa pag-aaral sa kolehiyo. Naghintay ako ng tatlong taon hanggang sinabi ng Papa ko na mag-aral ako pero yun nga lang "Education" ang gusto nilang kunin ko dahil yun lang ang kayang tustusan ng magulang ko. Dahil walang regular na trabaho ang aking Papa, wala akong magawa.
Noong nasa kolehiyo na ako, lalo kong napagtanto na mahirap maging guro. Ang daming gawain at proyekto. Mararanasan mo ang palaging kulang sa tulog dahil sa kagagawa ng mga learning materials at para sa demonstasyon. Meron pang mga gawaing portfolio sa lahat ng subject. Magre-report sa harap ng kaklase at may oral-recitation pa. Meron pang demonstration sa P.E lalo na yung sa sayaw, nako yan ang pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat. Ang pagsasayaw dahil alam kong sing tigas ng tuod ang katawan ko at para akong bulate na naputulan ng buntot pagsumayaw. Noong mga panahon ng Pratice Teaching, doon ko lalong napagtanto na di madali maging guro. Buong linggong walang tulog dahil sa paggawa ng mga learning materials para sa bata at lesson plan. Pero nung grumaduate na, lahat ng pagod at paghihirap na pinagdaanan, lahat ay worth it. Yung magutom gutom ka dahil kulang ang allowance mo, yung sabay-sabay ang bayarin sa school at di mo alam paano sabihin sa magulang mo. Yung mga panahon na lumalapit ka sa mga kaibigan at kaklase para manghiram ng pera pambayad dahil wala ka, lahat ng yun ay worth it na ginawa ko para lang makatapos. Mula ng pumasok ako sa kolehiyo, pakiramdam ko naging makapal ang kukha ko kasi natuto akong manghiram ng pera sa taong di ko kaanu-ano. Pero lahat ng yun nalampasan ko. Noong araw ng graduation, nakita ko kung gaano kasaya ang mga magulang ko. Natupad ko ang pangarap nila na magkaroon ng isang anak na guro.
Pagkatapos ng graduation, akala ko magiging okay na ang lahat. Akala ko lang pala. Kasi iyun na pala ang simula ng pakikipagsapalaran ko. Hindi madali ang magsaayos ng mga kakailanganin para sa board exam. Kailangan mong kompletuhin ang mga kakailanganin gaya ng TOR, Cedula, I.d Picture at marami pang iba. Mahirap dahil magastos ang paglakad ng mga iyon para makapag-exam. Hindi ko naranasan ang mag-review sa isang review center. Halos lahat ng aking kaklase sa kolehiyo ay nagrereview sa isang kilalang review center ngunit ako'y hindi sapagkat nahihiya na akong humingi sa aking mga magulang. Kaya ang aking ginawa'y mag-aral ng sarili lamang. Nanghihiram ng review materials at kung kaya'y nag ba-browse sa internet.
Sa araw ng board exam, di mawari kung ano ang mararamdaman. Subrang kaba sa takot na baka bumagsak. Pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko at maipapasa ko ang exam. Marami sa aking mga kaibigan ang nag deactivate ng Facebook account nubg malapit na ang resulta ng board exam. Pero ako, hindi ko ginawa pero hindi na rin ako sumisilip sa aking facebook account. Pero sa awa ng Diyos, nakapasa ako. Subrang pasasalamat ko sa Panginoon at dininig nya nga panalabgin ko at ng aking mga magulang. Nakita ko ang pag-asa sa kanilang mga mata.
Ngayon naman ay nag-aapply ako sa posisyon na Teacher 1. Hindi madali pagkat marami akong kakompetensya. Marami din kailangan na isaayos. Mga papeles na kailangan tipunin para ipasa. May Demonstration Teaching pa at interview. Kailangan ko pang mag take ng EPT. Pero lahat kakayanin para sa magulang at pamilya.
Hindi madali maging guro pero gusto kong maging isang huwarang guro. Lagi kong panalangin na sana'y maabot ko ito hindi para sa'kin kundi para sa pamilya at aking magulang.
Hindi madali ang mga nararanasan ng mga guro. Kaya wag e la-lang dahil hindi nyo alam ang lahat ng kanilang pinagdaanan. Ako po ito, Teacher "LANG". Pero kayang humanap ng paraan para sa magulang.
Mabuhay ang lahat ng guro.
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I told her to stop.
Do you have a friend who will ask for your help than at the end will not listen to your advice? Well, that surely is tiresome and made you say "Duhh, my advice were useless so why bother give her an advice next time."
I have a friend, actually she's my Aunt cause she's my mother's cousin. She is a he. She's a lesbian. She have a girlfriend since year 2012. It was okay with us because we can't force her to be straight. For me, she's a beautiful girl. A fair white skin, pointed noise and small lips. She's a beauty having small face. But then, despite of having those features, she's a lesbian. We respect her for being like that cause it's her life. Now, she have this girlfriend. Let just say my friends name is Julie and her girlfriend's name is Jane. Their in relationship since year 2012. Their relationship is full of ups and down. My Ate Julie is a daughter of a retired army so she can receive every month from the pension of Papa Ed. Now, her girlfriend which is one of our barkada always stick to her before. Especially when they were new in the relationship. We saw how Jane treated her as a partner. This is not just my opinion but lots of our friends told Ate Julie that Jane was just using her because of money. I cannot judge the person so I just observed Jane. For me she WAS okay before. I can say that she really loved ate Julie.
Five years ago, Jane went to Manila. There she worked as a saleslady, Ate Julie didn't want her to go. But then, Jane insisted and went to Manila. J knew they were jot in hood terms but still Ate Julie did for their relationship worked. Ate Julie always sent Jane money even if Jane was working. I was a little disappointed with Jane because she was like taking for granted Ate Julie. Of course, I felt pity to my Aunt. A month later since the day Jane went to Manila, we learned that Jane have someone another lesbian. And we learned that they were living in the same roof. And she blocked Ate Julie. That time Ate Julie asked our advice what to do. We adviced her to just let go of Jane. She said that she will moved on. We knew she didn't, we saw her so depressed. She got thinned. Her friends aside from me, helped her to enjoy life without Jane. After two years, Jane went home to our hometown. She then that time broke up with her other lesbian lover. We learned that the lesbian she's been with was hurting her physically yet she love that person so much. We don't understand. So, when Jane went back we told Ate Julie not to mind Jane and never talked to her again cause she will just give her heartache. But then, we learned that they were back together. Like what? We thought she will move on and never let Jane to fool her.
So, they started to be together again. Before Jane's father was against with them. But now he was a little bit fine with their relationship. They continue their relationship until now. But this New year 2021, Ate Julie went to our house asking for help with us. She want to talk with Jane. We learned that she had a fight with Jane's cousin's in law. The husband of Jane's cousin got mad with Ate Julie, I will not elaborate it here but what I learned that almost all of Jane's clan got mad with Ate Julie. They got mad because Ate Julie want to talk with Jane. There was a man who Jane was being closed during the Christmas until New year so Ate Julie want to talk to her. But Jane's clan got mad aside from his father. Only Ate Julie knew that Jane has a relationship with the man. Now, Ate Julie want to get her phone but Jane will not give it to her. So, Ate Julie went to the house and asked our help that she want to talk with Jane. As we want to help her, we can't because we might also end to have fight with the clan so I talked to her that she should not talk to Jane that moment because the clan was mad at her. I told her that she should let the fire gone and she should talk with Jane not drunk. Cause Ate Julie that time was drunk.
I adviced her to stay away with Jane cause she's not good for her. Jane always gave her stressed. If I was Ate Julie, I will focused on taking care of her father who is sick now. Papa Ed was now in a wheelchair due to stroke. But then Ate Julie is wasting her time with Jane and also her money.
I don't know what had happened to them now but I knew they broke up because of the guy. But last February, I saw Ate Julie and Jane posted on their Facebook account that they're together again. Haaayy, so marupok di ba? So, I decided that if ever Ate Julie will ask again an advice, I will just shut my mouth and will not say anything else cause it will be useless.
If you have a kind of friend like her? Will you still give advice?
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I threw his phone.
Have you knew someone who's an addict with phone games? Like mobile legends and clash of clans? What will you feel if the person who's close to you is addict with those games? How will you help them stop playing those?
My boyfriend is a gamer. He's day will not be complete if he can't play clash of clans and mobile legends. From morning till night he play. I don't know why he likes to play that game though he can't gain money from it. I mean, it will just make him to buy load everyday.
When we were college, he played clash of clans. He will play that game till dawn. One time, we have this so called "barkada sleep over" , so we sleep in our boarding house together with our friends. Now, the girls already fall asleep. We sleep in my room. And then when I felt that I need to go to the comfort room, I heard our friends 'boys' playing clash of clans. It was okay with me but when I saw his phone which was connected to his charger, I don't know what I felt that time but I know I am only mad and out of rage, I get his phone and threw it. He looked at me with shocked and get his phone. I saw that his phone was broke. It was our first fight because of his addiction of clash of clans. He got mad at me cause I threw his phone. I also didn't mean to threw his phone, it's just that I was afraid that the phone might explode because he used it while he's charging it. Since we both angry that time, we didn't talk for 4 hours, even if there were our friends with us. Our barkadas knew why and they didn't tried to intervened. I knew the boys was shocked with my behavior that time. They can't believe that I did it to my boyfriend.
The reason why I did that because of fear. I saw many post in Facebook regarding explosion of cellphones because the person was using it while charging. Also saw lots of post in Facebook regarding the effect of playing games in cellphones. There were lots of young adults got hospitalized because of over using of cellphones. Lots of new generation have this cases because of this games they were addicted to. Of course, I am afraid for him cause he might also experience the effect of playing games too much.
It's okay to play but better to know the limit. But I knew that if someone was hooked with phone games, they can't easily stopped themselves in playing those games. That is why I always talked to my boyfriend to minimize playing phone games cause it's not good for the health especially that we were college students that time. I'm just glad that he didn't forgot his responsibility with his studies. After that fight of ours, he did minimize his play with clash of clans.
When mobile legends launched, he played it together with our friends. Our friends were the one who introduced it to him. At first, he knew his limits but then as time goes by, he was then again addicted to it. I told him to play but I gave him schedule. One time, I was in the school, I've been calling him cause I will ask favor, but then he didn't answered. I called him again and this time he answered but said he's playing so he hanged up without giving me chance to speak. So, I got mad and it was our second fight. He then again said "I am sorry." and I accepted it. He limit his self in playing and focus in his studies. But then another came, I went to their boarding house and saw them playing and he was charging his phone again. Another scene happened, I threw his phone the second time around and this wasn't working and it's dead. He got totally mad and me also. So, we broke up. But the next day he asked sorry and promise not to play games too much.
I still let him play but he knows his limits now. Since he's working now, he don't have much time to play. I am glad that he changed to better and not addicted to games now. I also showed him those post regarding the effect of too much playing games in cellphones. Now, he knows that body always should be taking care of.
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Perks of being poor.
Have you watched the trendy show of Kapuso mo, Jessica Soho? It was about a ten years old child who's been working in the farm. His name is Reymark, living in Sultan Kudarat and was raised by his grandparents.
He is a 10-year-old boy yet he did plowing a land with a measure of two-hectare farm. He have a horse, which is always with him when he do the plowing. He named the horse Rabanos, twenty-four years old horse. While he did the plowing, his grandfather will be the one to harvest.
I will not elaborate the story here but if you want to know, you can watch Jessica Soho. There, you can see him how he suffered and tell he's already exhausted. For sure your heart will melt.
**Freedom of a Child**
Every child has the right to do things a child should do. To enjoy childhood with friends. But then this child never had the chance to enjoy himself as a child. A child which can play with other friends. It is because his life was focused in the farm. To have food to eat, he needs to work hard under the sunlight. It's so sad watching his situation. I can't blame him to be tired cause it's really tiresome. Every tears fall from his eyes, I felt a stab in my heart looking at him. Really the world is unfair. He was like the head of the family. Who would have thought that a 10-year-old boy will able to manage despite of hardships. There were lots of father in the world who were so irresponsible and doesn't know how to support the family but here's a child who do everything for the family to have food to eat.
What touched me the most is when he said that if he's together with his parents, he will surely be the happiest person in the world. That he can't accept the fact that some children didn't respect their parents. Indeed true that many children nowadays don't know how to respect elders even their parents. The way he talks seems like he's already and adult. I cannot imagine how he fight everyday. His body was totally exhausted, you can see it in the video. If you had watch it, you will really touch. The child is so mature because he experienced hardships. He looks life so wide and the way he talks, he's like he knows how cruel life is but yet he knows how to respect especially his parents. He's eager to do things for the family even if he's exhausted.
I remember my childhood days. I and my siblings also went to the farm with our parents to get some crops like kamote, gabi and many more. It is for our alternative food if we don't have rice. I can say that I am still lucky than the child cause I have my parents and they didn't let us do the "pagdadaro". My parents just want us to come with them so that we will jot be bored in the house.
Each person have a problem, but then again this little child has already experienced the cruelty of life. I saw nother video yesterday that someone sponsored him and gave him two horses. I think the horse is a mother and a daughter/son cause the other one is still a little. I just hope that many people will help him. If only I am a rich girl, I will sponsored his studies until he finished but then truth slaps me that I also was in need. Anyway, all I can do for him is to pray for him that he can achieve his goals in life.
To have our parents beside us is indeed a blessing. There will be someone who will defend us and will able to care for us. It's just so painful to see someone, a child, suffer at a young age which he/she should enjoy.
This post is an acceptance to @Bjorn challenge in his published article yesterday. Hahaha I don't have any idea today. I've been lack of motivation to write this past few days, but I am doing my best to be interactive here anyway.
The challenge rules are:
Write about freedom. ( As you can see, my title is not about freedom but I written about freedom in the body of this article.)
Write 100% original content. (Though I write about the child I have seen in tv, my words in this article are pure original from me, lol. Sabaw talaga. )
Write atleast 600 words. (Glad that I able to write more than 600 words, lol.)
Tag @JonicaBradley ( There you go, I already tagged him, hahhaa just kidding, anyway I am sorry Sir if my article is not good.)
Have fun. (I actually don't know if I had fun hahaha I almost out of words. My God.)
How I showed that I am proud of my parents?
As a daughter and a son, how will you show to the world that you're proud of your parents?
My parents are not like other parents who can give their children what they wants and needs in life. My parents can give what we need but not with what our wants. I understand cause they're not like with other parents who have work and have owned land which can get money from it. My parents are so simple, a simple carpenter and a simple housewife. My father's salary is enough only for our food, si we cannot buy good things for us that we like. My mother is a housewife so obviously, she don't have money at all.
Though my parents are just an ordinary person, they see to it that I and my siblings was taken care by them. They support our needs as family.
When I saw family having an outing or vacation I sometimes say, will we able to have a trip like their's? I mean, we haven't experienced to hang out in the beach together with my parents. It is because we don't have enough money for that. Well, it's not that I feel envy but I wish we can experience it. I saw some children who were so proud and happy with their parents especially when they post on Facebook about gifts they received. I always think, will my parents can give us too? But then my other side of my mind told me that I should understand my parents because they can't afford. I always say to my self that taking care of us, giving us food in the table and supporting our studies is enough.
When I was in college, I want my parents to visit me there. It is because I want my classmates knew my parents. I want them to know how amazing my parents is. They might not like my classmates's parents, cause they're parents were almost professional and look elegant unlike my parents who were so simple. Still, I want to show the world who are my parents. Every meeting if there is, I always felt so excited. Since Elementary to College, I am always like that. I want to show the world my parents, that I am proud of them.
My parents always self pity, they don't want to attend sometimes in our school events especially when I was in college. It was during our pinning ceremony, my father don't like to attend because he said that he's ashamed and also mama. I told them why not? They respond that they don't have decent clothes. I told them that of course they have. Anything they wear would be decent and I am proud of them no matter what they wear. Yes, my parents can't buy clothes. It started when we were still a child. I know why cause as what I have said, they don't have regular work and my father's salary was enough only for our food. So, I told papa that he don't have a choice but to attend cause who will pin my name to me? I know that my father that time was so hesitant. But then he still attend. I was so happy that time. I saw how happy he is while we walked to the stage. He was even trembleng while putting the pin on me. I told him to relax and he just smile. I know what he's thinking, he's so happy that time cause he knows that we're getting near to the dream we build for our family. And that is to have someone in the family who will graduate in college. He maybe can't believe it.
During the ring hop, it was my mom who attended. She was also ashamed and she's not fond attending parties but then she has no choice. I told her that she should attend because it's once in a lifetime of her child who will graduate soon. I was the one who made her beautiful that day. I am so amazed cause even if my mother was always in our farm, she still have good skin. She didn't use any beauty products but she still have this good skin. Well, she got it from me , lol. Anyway, I saw my mom not at ease on her chair during the party, so I stayed in her side. I am making her company for her not to be out placed. I saw some parents who were so jolly, but my mama was there sitting and just looking at me while smiling. By looking at her, I cried cause I know what she's feeling she's proud and so happy. And I am too. I am proud of her too.
During the graduation, I didn't tell my parents that I am a Latin honor. Lol. I just told them that we need to stand in the lane in front where the honors were standing. My parents was wondering why we're standing there cause they saw my co-majors behind us. I just gave them the program and show my name under the list of honors and I saw them cried. I told them that I did everything for them, and here it is, they will go up to the stage. They just hugged me I know they still can't believe cause I didn't tell them. I saw them smile when we marched. I know they're proud especially when my name was called and my father putted the medal on me.
I am proud of my parents despite of our situation. Even if they're poor, still I am proud of them. This is the reason why I want to be successful in the future. Because I want them to give things they deserves.
I would like to mention ma'am @leejhen for upvoting my previous articles and sir @Eunoia . Thank you po.
When my children gets older.
**What will you do in the future when your children gets older? Will you pursue your dreams though them or for them? What's the difference between through and for in the sentence I used? Will you support your children in the future or will you be a toxic parents for them?**
In our country there are lots of cases where children were not happy anymore with their parents when they gets older. It is because of the way their parents guide them and nurture them. I can say that lots of Filipino parents wants their children to follow their choices in life even if their children were choked by them. There are lots of stories that some children were suffering because of their parents choices in life.
I am glad that my parents were not toxic. They didn't made our life, their children, to suffer because of their choices in life. They nurture as in good way. They support us with our needs and plans in life. The guidance they give to us is immeasurable. I still can remember what my father said when I asked him an advice, he said "It's not me who should decide, it is you because your future lies on it. I want you to choose your path, just make sure that the path you're going to choose is best for you.'. It was the time when I ask him what's best for me to earn a course in college. I want him that time to decide. I told him that he will decide since his the one who will support my studies. But then he said that I should be the one. So, I chose education. Why? Because, I know that my parents can't afford if I take engineering course. Of course, I am thinking of them, I don't want them to suffer much cause I know, supporting a child in college is not easy especially in terms of financial support. But I am glad that my parents didn't force me and my siblings to do things that was not good for us. They support us to things they think would be better for us. They also reprimand us when we made mistake and advice to do things right.
My parents told us that they will not force us to give what they want. That they will just wait for us to do what they want to do for them. It is because they said that we are not obliged to give them things they need cause it's their responsibility. And that they wouldn't ask for return from what they did for us. They wouldn't asked because they didn't do to nurture us to have something in return. I am so glad that my parents were not like with other parents who gave burden to their children. That is why I am doing my best to be a successful child so that I can give things my parents deserves.
It is true that it's good to give someone who knows how to wait. I mean, people who knows how to understand situation. As for my parents I am so blessed that they understand our situation and my situation. Especially that I don't have work yet. They understand that I can't give yet their needs. Though they're not asking me I still want to give them what they deserves in life. They always show me that it's not my responsibility to give returns.
That is my when I have a child in the future, I will not burden him/her to obliged their selves to do things which is my obligations for them. I will not make them take my responsibility for them. I will nurture and give them the needs they need in life without asking in return same as my parents on how they cared us until we gets older. I will never let my children felt the hardships of my own choices. I will never be a toxic parents for them And I will support their dreams in the future. I will apply what and how my parents show their love and support to us.
***Parents should know in the first place that when they want to have a child, they should put in mind that the child the bear will not be obliged to give return for their sacrifices in nurturing the child because it's their responsibility to take care and support until they gets older.***
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Wishing to have twins in the future.
***As a woman, have you ever dream for a twin babies? I mean, did you imagine yourself having a baby? Cause, I am wishing and praying to have twins in the future.***
I am not fond with children, I mean, I am not good in taking care of children or a baby. I don't even know how to take care of a bay. I already have niece and nephews but I never had a chance to take care of them before when they're still a baby. Sometimes, I got irritated with baby's cry. Especially when the baby cries a lot. It likes giving me a headache. One time my niece cried at dawn, I think 3 am in the morning, she'll cry on that time. I can't go back to sleep every time that I will be wake at dawn so early in the morning I already have headache. My mom told me before, since I am not fond with children, she said that I will have many children when I get married. I told her that I don't believe such thing cause what's the use of family planning, right? My mom also told me that I should know how to take care of a baby cause what if I'll get married then I don't know how, my future husband surely will get mad at me. But then I told her, that being a mom will be learned maybe. She just laugh at me and she'll look forward when I have my own child, like what is she talking about? Does she like me to have my own family now?
Why did I like to have twins? It is because I think that would be cool. Lol, it might be the effect of watching drama and reading wattpad. I like to have twins so that the hardship in pregnancy journey will be one time only,lol. Joke! What I mean is that, I just like to have twins. It might be so cool and especially if the twin is boy and girl. Waahh, that would be great.
I know it's not easy to be pregnant, especially in whole journey of pregnancy. There are lots of changes that a mother will experience. I am willing to embrace those changes just to have a baby. I might not know yet how to take care of a baby, but I know someday I will be a good mother. I also know that taking care of a baby is not easy. I already saw my sister how she managed her time with her baby. I just hope that if that time comes that I became a mother, someone will be there for me willing to help and support me. I can't say that I will be a perfect mom but for sure I will do my best.
I am dreaming to be a mom. Dreaming how will I go to the Ob-gyne clinic to have monthly check-ups and all. Also, dreaming to buy vitamins and milk for me and my babies needs. I am also dreaming that when baby comes, I will buy his/her needs like baby clothes, diapers, vitamins and all he/she needs. I will see to it that I will give my everything to them as their mom.
Of course, if I want to have twin babies, I also wish to have a good and responsible husband and father to my child. I know that it is still a long journey for us with my boyfriend. But I can see him a good father to our future children, lol. It is because he had lits of plans for us. I mean, yeah, I know we're like fool dreaming for the future but I think it's not bad, right? In fact, it's good to plan our future so that we know what to do. We just hope that our plan today will be our tomorrow. My wish is to have a simple family someday. I don't need fancy and luxurious living, what's important is that we can eat thrice a day and can have savings for our children's future. I want to secure my children's future so that they will not have to experience hardships that I and my boyfriend had been through. I am nor saying that my parents are irresponsible because we're having bad times cause we're poor, what I mean is that I want to do things I can just to make my future children in good situation.
Building a family is for sure not easy but I will be strong fo my own family in the future. Well, I hope and I wish to have a twins someday so that "isang bagsakan lang." Lol. Hahahah
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Sometimes joke is not funny at all.
I remember a story, I just forgot where did I read it. But it really can't be erased in my mind. I will just write a story from what I had still remember. This one really hurts and yeah, sometimes joke is not funny at all, it depends with hat kind of joke you pull through.
Ally is my name. I am now here in our classroom. It's just I can't relax and I felt my heart pumping so fast. I can't even breath properly.
I put my phone in my arm chair and went outside of our room to breath fresh air. I can't relax. It started when my Ate texted me that Mom is not in good condition. Her condition is getting worst. It's only one year and a half that she can't talk and even move a muscle. My mom is sick, she was diagnosed for diabetic decease. And this early morning she was run into the hospital, again. My Ate told me that she'll text or call me for update that's why I can't relax while looking at my phone. Upon remembering the phone, I hurriedly went back inside the classroom. I realized that I left my phone in my armchair. I went inside and walk towards my chair but I didn't saw my phone in my armchair.
"W-where's my phone?" I felt numb and look to everyone inside. I am trembleng.
"W-who took my phone?" They just I move their head and shrugged, telling me that they didn't know. Some of them were smirking.
"What? Guys, please give back my phone!" I shouted at them but they just all laugh at me.
"Nathan, were you the one who took my phone?" I asked him cause he's the one who loves to bully me.
"Of course not!"
"Blaze?"
"Nope!"
"Alexa?"
"Why me?"
"Guys, please I don't want to play with you this time. I need my phone back." O pleaded them.
They just looked at me. I went to my chair and cried. My Mom, what's happening to Mom now. I don't know what's happening to her now. I want to know. I want to know. I can't breath.
"Ahh, Alliya! Ally. Here's your phone. We're sorry."
I looked who was talking and handling me the phone. I saw Janina. I looked at her intently and I know she knew that I am mad at her. I get the phone from her with force. I didn't mind if she got hurt.
"I didn't mean to get your phone, it's just that they---"
"Stop, I don't need your explanation!" I shout at her. I was mad because of what they did. I am in an urgent situation. My Mom.
"I'm sorry. By the way, Ally. You're phone was vibrating awhile ago. I am sorry again." She then bow her head and went back to her chair. She's also a shy girl. I know, it's not intention, she maybe also was afraid with our classmates.
I remembered what she said that my phone was vibrating awhile ago. I look to my phone and I saw lots of text messages of my Ate.
From Ate Allyna:
Alliya! Mama wants to see you.
From Ate Allyna:
Iya! Answer my call. It's Mom. Huhuhu.
From Ate Allyna:
Alliya! Iya! I know your class doesn't starting yet so please answer my call. Mama want to see you NOW!"
From Ate Allyna:
I-Iya! Huhuhu, M-Mom'gone now. Uou didn't gave her, her last wish. Where were you, why didn't you answer my calls? She's gone. She already left us. First it was Dad, now it's Mom. They're gone, they left us and yet you didn't mind me. Iya, she wants to see you. Your name was she's been calling until her last breath. Why Iya? Why didn't you answer my call. I don't know what to do. I don't know.
When I read my Ate Allyna's messages and her missed calls, I felt like time stopped. I am just staring at my phone. A few seconds, I can't stop my self to cry our loud. I felt my classmates stare at me. Hey maybe wondering why I am like this.
"It's all your fault! It's all your fault!" I shouted at them.
"Because of your nonsense joke and trippings, I didn't able to see my Mom before she died. I should have seen her alive. It's all your fault!" They was shocked when I shouted at them while blaming them why I didn't saw my Mom.
"What happen Ally?"
"A-are you okay, Ally?"
"We're sorry. We didn't mean to. We didn't know."
"My Mom now was gone. She's gone! She's gone! I didn't even gave her her last wish and that is to see me because of you. Because of you, all of you. You're games and jokes we're not funny anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I didn't know Mom was looking at me because all fo you hide my phone. You hide my phone. My Mom. My Mom, she's gone!"
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**Reflection:**
There are times that jokes were not funny at all. Like, some people thought it was funny but for you it was not. They didn't think that they might hurt you because of their doings.
Prank and games of other people we're not all funny. Maybe they're enjoying it but some don't.
I was also prank before. I was being tripped and they tell me words they thought was funny. Jokes that turns bad. Jokes that turn into quarrel. My cousin was making joke of me. Her joke is not funny at all. Until I can't control my self so I also joked aroun and then she got mad. You see, you like to joke around but if your were the one who's been joked, you don't like it and you got mad.
A person should know when to do pranks or joke, cause not all people or not all the time, joke is in good timing. Always remember that there were lots of consequences that joke me bring.
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How to accept 'Correction'? Own thought.
***Have you experienced to be corrected? How did you accept correction from others? Will you able to accept correction or not? How will you differentiate correction from criticizing?***
We knew the sometimes correction is kinda painful and offensive, right? Like you will feel you are so low and you will think of negative things. Sometimes when we're corrected, our pride will activate on it's own without permission from you. Like, where did it came from? And with it, we will not accept others correction and we felt like we're been criticized. There will be a big tendency that instead to accept correction, your pride takes place that will make you mad to the person who corrected you. But if you are wise enough, you will admit that you're wrong and accept the correction and live in it. You will admit your mistake and you will consider the correction made by others for you. Because if you will not accept correction, you will be boastful and will never improve. But if you'll be humble of others and to yourself, you'll admit it and start to change from wrong, with it you will be successful and be matured.
But how will you cope? I mean, how will you differentiate correction from criticizing? Of course, we people were not dumb. We can easily tell that we were being played foul, right? If the words were in good tone, then it is a correction but if the tone is like mocking you then it's criticizing. Sometimes, correction will make your self esteem low, it is because you're not mature enough and this means you didn't accept correction. The correction made was send you like it was a criticizing. Try to be open minded and accept mistake.
When I was a teenager, I was being corrected with my father. I still remember it was about chess, I never thought that he knew about chess. I was so confident that time. I am trying to explain with my siblings on how to play it. But then my father intervene during my lecture to my siblings. And the argument started. I was a little offended that time, and I can't accept his opinion. I told myself that time that I knew it because we just had a class about it. But then the next day, I found out that my father was right. I was a little embarrassed but I didn't show it to father. I, again, taught my siblings and this time I followed my father's suggestion. I know that he already knew that I accept his correction that time. And since that day, I always consider my parents correction especially about academic. Maybe, the reason why I wasn't accept my father's correction because I felt that I knew better than him because I am the one who was studying. I admit my mistake that time and felt disgust of myself for thinking that way to my parents. Since that day, I felt so proud of my parents because though they're not able to enter high school they're good in academic.
Proverbs 12:1 "Whoever loves instruction, love knowledge, but he who hates correction is stupid."
What I learned with this proverbs is that if you love to knowledgeable, you should accept correction. It doesn't mean that you already knew something, you knew everything. You should accept correction despite the fact that you know something about something because maybe you knew about it but still lacking. Accept correction even if it's painful. Why? Because with those correction you will able to be guided in to the good way where you'll be successful. The pain will fade as times goes by and when you witness the good changes from you. Don't think that all corrections are criticism, let us be more open minded and try to weigh if the word is correction or criticizing.
Correction is good for success. It will lead you to be on the right track.
I am still Proud of you.
Today is the crowning of the Miss Universe 2020. Miss Universe is very known in every country where countries have representative for this pageantry. All the women that joined this pageant were totally beautiful and amazing. They bring the name of their country with passion.
I am a Filipino and of course I will support Rabiya. I can say that the contestants are all beautiful and they really knew how to show off their talents and attitude towards the pageant.
After the preliminary competition, some Filipino's were disappointed with Rabiya of how she showed in the pageant on their National Costume. But for me, she did great and nailed it. Though her costume was not complete because the headdress that she didn't wore, still she made it. She walked like a queen with confidence. According to some supporters, the costume wing she wore already weigh 21kg, so how did she made it to carried it with grace. With that, I am so proud of her. Many were disappointed, well that was some of toxic attitude of other 'kababayan ko'. They want to drag down other people instead to support our own fellow country men. Rabiya shared a video asking for forgiveness for those who got disappointed with her during the preliminary competition and I was sad when she said she cut her fingers during the National Costume competition. I felt sad for her, because some of our fellowmen dragging her down instead of supporting her and they didn't knew how hard for it for Rabiya
For the swimsuit attire, she also show her radiance and sexy body that you can say that she really slayed it. I am also amazed with other contestant especially Ms.Peru , Ms.Brazil and Ms. Thailand. They are my bet aside for Rabiya, our Ms.Philippines. She's a beauty wearing a yellow swimsuit. I really admire her beauty and her attitude.
For the gown competition, she also shine with her color yellow gown that show her beauty in radiance. It suits her well. Though some said it was not beautiful but for it was. The way she walked, I can say that she's unique. Cause I noticed some of the contestants were trying to copy our Ms. Universe 2018, Catriona Gray. If you had watch Ms.Universe you can really tell that there were lots who copied the move of Gray. But for Rabiya, it's like she's telling the world that she is unique and that she can make the world proud of her for who she is.
Today, I was late to watch the Ms.Universe cause I had done something important. When I was about to watch, I saw in Facebook that Rabiya didn't able to be on top 10. So, instead to watch, I decide not to because I will just be hurt. Though she didn't able to win the pageant, for me she did. I browse in the news feed of facebook and there I saw many post about the Ms.Universe. Many opinions of people. Some also made me laugh because of the memes made by my fellow countrymen. But what get my attention is the post of Jam Magno. I learned that she was the one who really bashed Rabiya from the first day. I don't know why she's bashing Rabiya Matteo. And I saw in her video that she's really happy that Rabiya didn't able to get in top 10. Many Filipino people also got mad to Jam for being a basher of Rabiya. Even me got disappointed of her for being like that. I can't imagine how can she sleep with what her doing to other people. Maybe to gain fame? I don't know.
When Rabiya didn't able to be on top 10 and exit early on the competition. Pia Wurtzbach, Ms.Universe 2015, gave a message of support and love to Rabiya. Also Catriona Gray and other beauty queens gave support and that they were proud of Rabiya even if she didn't made to top 10.
Even if Rabiya didn't able to be the Ms.Universe this year, I am still proud of her. Proud of her for being optimistic and courageous to fight for the pageant. Even if many people bashed her, still there were lots Filipino supported and proud of her.
After the show, I just browse in facebook and looking for Rabiya's pictures and I can say that she's really and angel. Not only with face but with attitude. The reason why many people liked her because of her attitude. I can say that she have inner beauty and outer beauty that will make you fall for her. The say she talk, I find her so sweet.
For me, Rabiya Mateo is our Ms.Universe2020 that we never had. Sad, but that's what I feel now. Anyway, proud of her so much.
To Rabiya, I know you can't read this, but I just want to say that I am your avid fan. And that I am so proud of you. Thank you for representing our country. #AribaRabiya
Photos of the Ms. Universe Philippines since 2010.
"Mom, I am now a graduate. We made it."
**Have you been struggling but you don't have plan to quit? Have you been reaching your dreams despite of the hardships? What's the reason of your doing, for doing everything to reach your dream? Who is your strength and the reason why you're fighting?**
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I look at her, standing beside me. I can see happiness in her eyes, she's teary eyed but smiling. Upon looking at her, I remembered the days we're both fighting. The fight that we never thought we'll win.
I am an only child. I don't know who's my father. I only knew that my Mom is always there for me, and that she's my only ally in this cruel world. My father left my Mom when he knew that she's pregnant of me. They left her and his responsibility. But it's okay, cause my Mom made it.
We've been fighting and struggling before we both have our dreams. We don't have anything to pay for my studies, tuition and contributions. All the hardships, we encountered but we're both there for each other.
My Mom always had a sideline. Her sideline is to do laundry, selling vegetables and fruits. And that is because she wants me to finish my studies in college. It was so hard for her because she's alone doing the responsibility for me. But she never surrender. I never heard her say, she's tired. She's my sunshine, always making my world full with light.
I am also helping her, I am working and even selling vegetables together with Mom. I chose to be a working student. After working, I'll her with her laundry and selling goods. It's a big help for us for our daily needs and for paying bills.
And today, here we are. Standing while holdings hands. The most special day for us and the happiest day too. I may not be one of those smart and with honors, for me it is enough for me to be proud for my mother. I know my Mom is proud of me, but I am more proud for her. My supermom is so amazing.
I look at her and smile at her.
"Ma, I am now a graduate." I told her and hugged her tight while crying.
"Oh my child, stop crying." She said while hugging me back.
"Ma, we made it. We've faced so much struggles together. All the hardships we had, it's all worth it cause we reached our goals now Ma. This is the start to reach my dreams Ma. Let's reach my dreams together Ma, I will reach yours too. Thank you do much Mama. If not because of you, I am not here and will not able to wear this toga. I love so much Ma."
"I love you too, nak. Always remember all the things I taught you. I am not a perfect mother but I am proud that I raise you as a good daughter. Always remember, fight and never give up. I know you can make it. All I want for you is to be in good situation and not struggling in life anymore. Now that you reach your goal to graduate, it is the start for your journey to make your dream come true anak. It's okay that you'll not include me with your dreams, it's my responsibility to help you. I am so proud of you anak."
"It's me who's proud of you Ma. Though it's hard you made it. You raised me alone. You fight alone for me. Though we're poor, I am so proud of you. I am proud to tell the world that you are my amazing Mom." I smiled at her and get the handkerchief, I put it on her cheek and cause she's crying too. I told her to start walking cause it's our turn. We marched and it was the best feeling. I hold her hands so tight.
In life, we need courage and strong fighting spirit. We need to be strong in facing trials in life. Not all are blessed to live in golden spoon. So, we need to stay strong and don't give up in reaching our goals. Yes, it's hard, but at the end of the day, all the tears and sweat were worth it.
My mom's sacrifices since I was a child were can't be measured. I saw how she did her best for me. Sometimes, I am crying seeing her so tired but still show me her smile. But in her eyes, I can see how exhausted she was. She never gave up for me. I am proud of her cause she's my mom. If ever I will be asked in my second life if who I want to be my mom, I will choose her always.
I will do my best to reach my dreams. Now that I already graduate, I can make all for her. I will give the best for her. It's my turn to give her what she deserve. My mom is my supermom. My strength and my light.
--Yours truly, LYKA.
**Reflection:**
All will be worth it when you did your best to gain it. Hardship now, betterment and success later. Just don't quit with life. Life might be hard, but life also is beautiful. Let the hardships in life be your inspiration. Inspiration to fight for good future.
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(Memories) I am a malnourished child.
***Have you ever experienced to feel ashamed because of being malnourished? Have you felt those eyes looking at you when you're one of those children who's always on the list for feeding program? We're you too frustrated to be healthy? What did you do to be healthy like others?***
I was a malnourished child during my childhood and teenage days.
I am here in this big mango tree, at the back of our school. I always stay here when I am sad. And yeah, I am sad now.
I am Angela, a grade 8 student. I am always bullied by my classmates cause I am so thin and always got sick. Yeah, I am malnourished and weak.
Since I was a child, I am always like this. So thin body and always sick. I never experienced to be healthy. I want to be fat, really. But I don't know why my body was like this. Maybe, I got this from my mom who's a thin woman and my father is not a that big too. I don't want to be like this, maybe my metabolism is fast and I already explained to my classmates why. Any explanation yet they won't believe me and they didn't stop bullying me.
"Angela, Ma'am Doque was looking for you. She said the feeding program will start. You are one of them." Our class president called me.
Yeah, you read it right. I am in the list for those who need to be provided for foo in a feeding program. It also added for my classmates to bully me. They hurt me my telling me that I need to eat more in a feeding program. Sometimes, I will not go to the classroom where the feeding program was held. It is because my classmates always laugh at me during feeding program.
"O-okay, I will just follow later." I replied.
"Yeeeeeehhh!! She'll eat healthy food now. You will get fat, at last girl!" I did not noticed our other classmates behind our class president. Now, they are laughing at me. I bowed my head cause of shame.
"Don't you have food at your home? It's like you're not eating, girl. You're so thing like a stick." They laugh again.
"You know, you're not tall and you're so tiny plus your thin. You need vitamins." Matt walked towards me and hold my arms.
"Oh, be careful Matt, you might pull of her arms. Pfft!"
Again, they didn't stop laughing at me.
I got hurt by their treatment towards me. They are so cruel to do this to me but I can't do anything.
"You go Angela, you need to be feed. I know you're so hungry. Happy eating." It was Matt and he push me towards the door.
I left the room where my classmates were laughing. I went to the feeding program room. When I came back to the room, they look at me and smirk. Then they went to my table. I just write my name on the attendance sheet and went to Aling Dina, the one who serve the food, and then went back to the room.
"Oh, here's Angela. What's your viand now Angela? For sure, it's delicious like last time. Am I right?" It was Trixie, the niece of the Principal.
"I remember, Angela was always in the list for feeding program since elementary. But look at her, she's still the same. I think the feeding program is not effective for her." They all laugh again.
"Yeah, she just got a little taller but still she's so tiny like a stick. You know, barbeque stick?" I was about to cry. My tears were almost to fall.
"C-can you please stop?" I plead to them to stop. I went to the corner of the room. And there I started to eat.
"Go Angela, eat your food. It will help your stick body to be healthy. Right guys?" They again laugh as if they didn't know that I am hurting.
"Yeah, that's why she's not approved to joined our P.E sports. Maybe Ma'am Sheila got afraid that she might got hurt during the game. How sad." They continue to bully me.
I put the spoon and fork with force. My tears are almost falling. I stood up.
"Will you please all stop? Please stop! You're all so cruel, don't you know that you're hurting me by those words? And your laugh? How cruel you are all. Why do you care if I am in the list of the feeding program? Why do you care if I am thin and like a stick. Is it my fault? You know, I tried to eat like a pig for me to get big and healthy, but no matter what I do, I didn't get fat like you. I want to be healthy like you but what can I do if my body will still remain like this? Vitamins? I did in take any kind of vitamins just to have a healthy body like yours. You don't have things to do, you always bullied me because I am thin. Why? Don't you know, that I am suffering this since I was a child? How can you be all so insensitive.?" I can't stop my self to burst out the pain to my classmates so I shout all the pain to them.
"W-we're so sorry Angela." Maybe they got ashamed of what they did. They all bow there heads and stop laughing. They maybe thought that I am serious now.
"Is there I can do? All I can do despite your bullying was to forgive you all. No why? Because there will be no changes if I will get mad at you and have hatred in my heart. Just please stop bullying me. I might not take it anymore. I am tired." I left them inside the room to throw the pack lunch that no food inside cause I ate all the food.
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***Reflection:***
I was also a malnourished child when I was a child same with Angela. My siblings were healthy but I am not. I am a petite child. So thin and an anemic child. I am also in the list of the feeding program every school year. I am happy cause I can eat delicious foods but at the same time, I am ashamed because I am the only pupil in the class who is in the list. So every time of feeding, I will be excused. My classmates will always call me "payatot", they also don't like me to play with them.
I don't know why I am thin and malnourished that time. Maybe because I don't like vegetables. But I ate cabbage and sayote, that are the vegetables that I eat but other vegetables make me vomit. I don't like the taste of other vegetables. My father also told me to eat vegetables. One time my mother cooked vegetables, no meat at all. They forced me to eat, I am crying while eating cause I really don't like the taste.
But when I was in high school, I tried my best to eat healthy foods because I am the smallest high schooler. Every flag ceremony, I am always at the front. And I didn't able to enter sport because I am weak. My classmates always do things funny to me because I am small. Maybe because they felt like they are superior because of their heights.
I was frustrated to eat more. Cause I want to be healthy like them. I want to enjoy my study in high school and one of it is to join sport feast games. So, I did my best to eat foods that is not good taste for me. I always pud in mind that it is good for me.
Since then, I eat proper meal. Until I saw some changes though I really didn't get fat but at least there's a little changes in me. I was happy with my little changes. It gave me a little confidence unlike before.
**Note:**
If you have someone you knew that is not healthy as you, please don't bully or laugh at her/him. They might be suffering from something you didn't expect. Instead, give them the courage to do things for them to be healthy.
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Why I prefer a simple friendship?
***There lots of kind of friendship. A friendship that will make you comfortable of all time. A friendship full of dreams. A friendship full of lesson. A friendship that will make you human inside. A friendship that will complete you. Or a friendship that will destroy you.***
**What kind of friendship do you like?**
*Phone call....
"Hello, bhezcy?"
"Hello? Bhezcy!!!!"
"Oh my God! How are you bhezcy?" I asked her with joy in my voice.
"Shunga!!! We're just neighbors. " I laugh with her response. Yeah, we're just neighbors. Lol.
"Bhezcy! Let's stroll out the subdivision. Let's hang out. I am bored here in the house. I want to relax, I've been answering modules for a week. I have 150.00 pesos here. Will eat street foods outside. Mang Kanor, remember?" I asked here out cause I am so bored in our house. I want to refresh.
"You'll treat me?"
"Of course, duhhh!"
"Yey! Okay, I'll just take a bath. You know it's been three days. Hahaha"
"Yuck! We're the same hahaha." I told her and laugh hard. We're like crazy.
"Hahaha, okay bye. See yah!" She off the phone. That girl!
I also immediately took a bath. And after how many minutes, like 30 minutes lol, I'm ready.
I wear my mask before I went out out of the house and went to Janna's house. We're neighbors and it only took 15 steps, lol. But I like to call here on phone, yeah yeah I am lazy.
When I was about to open their gate, I saw here out of the door and run towards me when she saw me with arms open wide. She's crazy, yeah like me,lol.
"Aaahhhh, bhezcy!!! I so so so miss you girl." And she hugged me tight that almost choke me. I push her slowly and laugh at her. She pouted as I pushed her away. "Why, bhezcy? Do I smell bad? I took a bath, you know." She said.
"Naahhh! Bhezcy, social distancing remember? Don't give me that look." I responded to her.
"Oh well, what's new with you. Hahaha that's why, he don't crush you back." She laugh like a bitch. Lol.
"Tsskk! Let's go, or you want me change my mind?" I threatened her but it was a joke.
"Let's go. It's treat time, you'll shut up now. " I said as I saw here smile wide.
We walked out of the subdivision we're living. I know she's excited because she likes street foods, like fish ball, squid bal and yeah 'kwek-kwek' .
When we arrived at Mang Kanor stall, she already choose her favorite street food. She didn't even asked me, lol. After she told Mang Kanor what she liked, I followed. Mang Kanor already knew us, we're his 'suki'.
"Oh, there's new food. Let's try this one bhezcy, it's a scramble , right Kuya?" Janna asked Mang Kanor.
"Yes, ening. Try that one. It's good and delicious." Said Mang Kanor.
"Okay Mang Kanor, give us 2 regular scramble." I told Mang Kanor, I saw my bhezcy so excited to taste it.
"Thank you Mang Kanor!" We smile to Mang Kanor as he handle us the foods.
"Welcome mga ening."
"Bhezcy, wait! Let's picture it. We'll post it to our my day." I laugh at her when she took a picture of the food. Even our shoes, she took a picture of it and we did many pose too.
Two hours after, we can't count what kind of foods we ate. As long as we're happy.
After eating street foods, we stroll around the plaza near the subdivision. When we got tired, we sat on the bench near Mang Kanor's stall, we bought 'palamig'.
"So, tell me, what's you're problem. I think you're ready to tell now." I looked at here wondering. How?
"Duhh! As if you will treat me and ask to hang out outside of our subdivision when you're okay. I know you Allyna! Spit out." She said with rolling eyes expression. I laugh at her.
"Wow, amazing! Hahaha you really knew me huh, bhezcy!" I told her that while laughing at her.
"Of course, I am your beautiful best friend, remember? So, tell me now, as in now." She's insisting now.
So I shared to her my problem. And she said that she's there for everything and that I should be strong. I am so lucky to have a a best friend like her. She's the only person I trust aside from my family. She's the only person who helped me to be a good individual in the society.
***Our friendship is so simple.*** We're not like with others who have everything to make their friendship more with travels. We're contented for having fun in the plaza or in our room where we can be who we are.
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**Conclusion**:
As I am writing this story, I am thinking of my best friend. She's now married so we don't have enough time for each other because she's now busy with her family. But we're still getting in touch with each other. We're just one call away.
Before, we were cousin and a neighbor. Everytime we want to hang out, either she will go to our house or I will be the one to go to their house. We're not able to go to the city cause it's far. So, our hang out area was our room or the elementary school which is near to our house. There, we will eat junkfoods and talked about life and our future. I choose to be with her than to our other cousin and friends because she's trust worthy. Though our parents always scold us for always staying in our room. We prefer to stay in our room than go outside. We're comfortable with it.
Now that she's married, I am the one who will visit her when I have time. She didn't finished her studies. She got married at the early aged of 18. She has now a daughter. It was her second daughter cause she experienced miscarriage. I wasn't there for her that time because I am in Manila that time. But she's calling me and asking for help, it is because her parents doesn't know yet that she's pregnant. I was torn that time to tell her parents or not cause I made a promise to her. But because she was in pain that time and it talked about life, I told her parents without thinking of the consequences. Glad that her parents understand. And it was the reason the reason that her parents arranged their marriage.
***Our friendship got stronger as days pass***. Even if I know people especially when I studied in college, I still chose her as my best friend. And for me, she is still the best. Why? Because we're both willing to help each other if one of us needs help. We're ready for each other. ***And that's why I am lucky to have her.***
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I would like to mention my friend @Bruss and @Maymay20 to keep writing and never lose hope. I know you will be successful guys.
And I would like to say thank you to @Zhyne06 for upvoting my previous articles. I appreciate it so much. More blessings to come po.
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Complete Family. What does it mean?
***Are you happy with your family? Is there harmony if the family is complete? What really a complete family means?***
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Here I am, sitting in the bench. I am thinking of the upcoming Family Day that will be held next week here in our school. I am thinking of not coming.
**"Yanna?"**
**"Yes, Jelly?"** It was my friend who's walking towards me.
**"You're just here, I thought you went somewhere again. Anyway, will you come to our Family Day next week? "**
**"Ahm!, Well, ahm, I am thinking of it. I will try, I'll ask Nanay and Tatay if they're free. "** I told Jelly. I was a little bit shy while telling those words.
**"Ahh, is that so? I think you need to come together with your family. We're compulsory to come."** It was Jelly.
**"Haayy! There's no new with Family Day for Yanna. You know, since the day she went to this school, her parents never attend any programs and recognition in our school even to attend meeting for her, right? Her parents are always not present. I am wondering why?"** It was Cheska, one of my classmates.
**"Ahhh, eehhh hihihi my parents were busy, that's why. "** I smile at her.
**"Ahh, okay. So, let's see each other next week? Good bye, Cheska and Yanna."** It was Jelly.
**"I also need to go. Bye, Cheska."**
**"Sure friend. Take care."**
**"Thanks."**
I immediately went home after I bid them good bye. I arrived at home safely but when I open the door.
**"Nanay? Tatay? I'm he---"** My words was cut with their loud voice.
**"You're drunk again? You always drunk, you know we don't have money anymore."** I heard Nanay shouts to Tatay.
I sighed when I saw them like that again. I put my bag on the mini table near in our door.
**"So? You don't care Alicia. Don't you dare raise your voice to me. Be thankful that I still support you here especially regarding foods."**
**"Hoy! Mario, you're giving not enough money for our children. You always buy liquor than buying food for us."**
**"I told you, you stop cause I don't care. Don't you boss me."**
**"You know what, it's not only liquor you're been crazy, but you are also crazy for bringing women here. Don't you ever bring another girl this house. Or can I say this as a house? It's not a motel."**
**"You have no right to tell me what to do. And why should I followed you? You don't care if I bring women here. I am full with your sh***y mouth. "**
**"It's because you're doing unfortunate things to this house and to this family. You always gave us problems Mario."**
**"It's because I am tired of you. I don't like to see your face."**
**"If that's the case, let's broke up. I am tired of you Mario. I am tired of your vices and attitude."**
I heard a loud thud. It's like something was been thrown in the kitchen where my Nanay and Tatay having a fight.I hurriedly run to the kitchen and there I saw broken plates and glasses.
**"Don't you ever get near me Mario. If you tried to, I will throw you this knife."** My Nanay shouts.
I felt nervous as I saw my Nanay positioning her hands holding the knife like she will throw this to Tatay. I run towards here and hug her. I hold her hands, holding the knife.
**"Nay! Tay! Please, stop it already! Please!"** I felt my tears streaming down to my face.
**"Please, Tay! Nay! Stop this both of you! Have mercy! We're poor and yet you're fighting like this. What's with the both of you? I just arrived at school and then I will witnessed you killing each other? Oh, God, please stop this."** I plead to them crying. I also shout at them.
**"You told your mother to be sane, Yanna."**
**"Stop it Mario, you are the one should be the one to stop. I am sane and you are not. I will really stabbed you with this knife."**
**"Nay! Tay! Please, no , please. I am pleading you to stop. Why are both like that? Aren't you thinking of me. You know what, everytime you both fight like this, I am the one who's suffering in pain. I am in pain. I am jealous with my friends and classmates who have loving parents. I saw how they love each other. But look at you. I am the one who adjust to both of you. Why did you marry each other when in fact you both don't understand each other? It's frustrating that every time you fight, I , your daughter will always be the one to be affected. I am the one who's suffering. Why are you both doing this to me? Why?"** I sat the ground and hugged myself.
**"D**n this life!"** I heard tatay shout and went outside the house.
**"Anak, I am so sorry. I'm sorry."** It was Nanay.
**"It's okay Nay. It's okay."** I said.
It's okay, even if I am the one who always been affected by their choice in life.
Yes, we are complete. But we're not happy. Our house was filled with shouts, fight and no love at all. It is what complete family brought to us, CHAOS.
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**Conclusion:**
Complete family is a blessing to everyone especially for the children. Who would not like to have an intact family, right? But then, it still depends on what kind of family you will belong.
About the story, it's true that the child was the one who will be affected if the parents have a fight. I am just lucky that my parents were not like that. When they have misunderstanding, I can't hear them shouting at each other. They talk in good way. Sometimes they didn't talk for an hour , and the. After an hour they're okay. Sometimes, my father will go to the farm and the. When he came home, they were okay.
That's why, it's good to know your partner before you vow to each other. Because, if you both were married and during the time that you are living in the same roof, it will be a big problem if you don't know the real attitude of your partner. In that sense, you'll fight because of misunderstanding and your children will be the one who will be in burden.
If you are planning to get married, always remember the consequences and that your priority is your children and nothing else. Family should be the first priority. Do good things for the family. Leave all the bad habits that would affect your family in living peace.
If I am Yanna, of course, I will still chose to stay with my parents despite the fact that they always fight. Because it would be much hard to have no parents at all.
"Me as a Husband" (Would you still Believe?)
***As a woman, what kind of husband material would you like to be with? What kind of man you want to be a father to your future children? Are you willing to sacrifice everything for the man you love or vice versa? Will you be lucky or unlucky to the man you want to be with your whole life?***
This a story of a husband, let us see if he's a good man or not.
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I don't want to give my wife a headache. I don't drink alcohol or liquor. I don't smoke cigarettes. I am not a gamer, like a DOTA and ML player. Yes, I am playing basketball but if my wife won't allow me to play and want me to just stay at home then I'll follow her. I won't insist. She even tried to buy my a beer. She said my body needs alcohol sometimes but after how many shot, I was already drunk and I don't like the feelings.
The said that wife should be the one who will take care of their husbands. Especially that I came from work but for me, I should be the one who should take good care of my wife. Cause I know how hard to take care our children. Especially that our children are still little.
**These are my daily routine in our house:**
Wale up early to cook breakfast.
Make a coffee for wife.
Clean our room.
Take children to the bathroom to take a bath.
That are my daily routines before I ho to my work. I always see to it that they are okay before I leave the house. Since I don't have a cellphone, I will borrow my friend's phone to contact my wife, to ask if they're okay and have eaten their lunch already. I am not tired of my daily routine for my wife and family.
About my salary, my wife is the one who handed it. My atm and all is with her. Everytime our salary is ready to claim, I will not ask from her because I am doing my best to give them their needs. Before we don't have a motorcycle so I always go to work using my old bicycle. But now, we already have our motorcycle, and my allowance is only 50.00 pesos. But my wife always handed me 100.00 pesos but she doesn't know that sometimes I out the money back to her wallet.
We husbands, it doesn't mean that we already got what we want and already have a child to our wife, we will just tale them for granted. We should always see to it to show them the care and love we had before for them when we're in boyfriend and girlfriend level. We should still court them everyday. We should pamper them cause they're always tired taking care of us and doing household chores.
I am always excited to go home after my work. Aren't you excited to see your beautiful wife and adorable children? Everytime I arrived home, I can see their beautiful smile that will make my tiredness gone. When I arrived home, I will do the laundry even if she will tell me that she'll do it. But I will insist and tell that it's just a little work, though it's not. My children will not sleep if I will not play with them first. So, I will play with them before I will let them sleep. These are my routine as a husband and I will never be tired.
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***Reflection:***
This story of a husband is kinda good to be true. If we read the story, we can't stop our self to laugh because we know it is not true today.
We already knew that nowadays, wives are now stressed with their husbands though not all. Who would not like a husband like that right? That kind of husband is the man we need for our life. Which give us the assurance that we will not be stressed and that willing to make our life be easy as a wife.
**But for me, a good husband is:**
Faithful to his wife. That he will not look for someone else that will give him the needs that sometimes might lack with me.
It's okay for me if he won't do the household chores as long as he will supply us the needs in the house especially the food for the family.
Have the plan for the future. A husband that will do everything to make our family be in better situation, especially our children's future.
It's okay with me if he will not update me time to time as long as he knows his limits , the do's and don't's when we're not together.
I don't mind if I will not be the one to hold his ATM as long as he will not let his children hungry. Cause I prefer to have my own money than asking from my husband's money. It is his money, I should not be the one to hold it cause I am not the one who did the hard work. If I need money, I will fine ways to have my own. If he will give me, then good cause I have something to use for our needs in the house.
A husband that will give a good home to his family. My dream husband is the one who will give us a house where we can live with our own family and can say that it's our own.
Of course, a husband who don't have vices.
A husband who knows how to respect my parents. It is the most important one for me. To have a husband who knows how to respect my parents. Cause if he respect my parents, he will also respect me.
To find a perfect man now is not easy. But as long as we pray for the man we want to be. We will be opened to see who will be the right one for us. It might be hard but still I BELIEVE THAT THEIR IS STILL A MAN WHO IS A HUSBAND MATERIAL ,and I am proud to say that my boyfriend is a husband material.
My boyfriend is a kind and respectful person. He shows that he's contented with our relationship. He have good future plans for our future family. And of course, he respect my parents. That what's matters most.
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My Father is a Construction Worker.
**Are you proud of what job your parents have? Did you felt shame when someone mock you because of your parents job? How will you defend you parents when someone laugh at them? Will you fe disappointed or be grateful despite of their job?**
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The teacher gave us an assignment last week and we're going to share it today in our class.
"Class, are you done with the assignment I gave you last week?" Ma'am Shane asked us.
"Yes, Ma'am!" We responded.
"What was your assignment again?"
Dianne raise her hand.
"Yes, Dianne?"
"It was all about our father's work with picture of them working." Dianne answered.
"Okay, very good! So, let's start!" Ma'am Shane said so lively and clap her hands. It seems like she's excited to know what are our father's job.
"We'll start here in the first row. Okay, Janine, you will be the first one." Janine stood up and went to the front. She smiled at us before she start talking.
"My daddy is an engineer. He's working now in Hong Kong and will have his vacation every last week of the month and went again there with in the first week of the month." She continue to explain while holding a picture of his father wearing his uniform.
Next to her was Charlene , then Joven and so on and so forth.
"My daddy is a policeman."
"My daddy is an architect."
"My daddy is a seaman."
And I heard any kind of work of their parents. I learned that their father are all professionals.
There are Business man, pilot, engineer again and many more. And it was my turn to say what my father's work is.
I am stood up slowly. I am trembleng while waking to the front. I face my classmates and look again to our teacher.
I sighed before I slowly race the picture I am holding. I show it to my classmates. When they saw the picture, they laugh out loud.
"Hahahhahaha."
"Hahahah Oh my gee."
"So cheap! Hahaha."
"Class! Quite!" Ma'am Shane told them to stop and nod at me, a signal that saying I should continue. She smile at me and said "Go on, Lyka. It's okay."
When I saw here genuine smile, I felt comforted and felt encouraged by her smile. So I faced again my classmates. I am now ready to tell them that I am proud that my is a CONSTRUCTION WORKER.
"My Tatay is a Construction Worker." I said to them smiling and they laugh again.
"Tatay? Hahaha!"
"Construction Worker? Hahhaha."
"Yes, you can laugh at me but don't laugh at my father's work." They stopped laughing when I said that words.
"I know that your fathers are not the same with my tatay. Your father are professionals while mine is not. We are poor,yes. But my father's work is not illegal and bad. It is a work with dignity. Construction workers are important in our society. Construction workers are making buildings strong foundations and making houses. Without construction workers, you don't have a house to live now. Being a construction worker, my father able to raise us, his children, and able to hive our daily needs. You might all think why I am in this prestigious school behind the fact that my father is a construction worker. I did my very best to enter this school as a scholar. And my father is the one who sustain my needs in this school. Awhile ago you laugh like you are all mighty, it doesn't mean that my father is a construction worker and we are just poor, you have the right to stepped us and laugh at us. You laugh with those criminals like those snatchers, just don't laugh with my Tatay because he's working in the legal way. I am proud of my father and I am not ashamed for him as a construction worker. In fact, even if he's not a professional, he works like one. Without him, I am not in here." I look at Ma'am Shane and said "That's all, Ma'am. Thank you." I smile while walking towards my sit while my classmates are looking at me.
Ma'am Shane smiled and clapped her hands and my classmates did the same.
"Very good, Lyka. You should be proud of your parents. You should not be ashamed of them because you're not in same level with the people around you." Ma'am Shane told us.
And because of that assignment, I got a perfect points because I was proud of my father. I am proud of him being a construction worker.
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**Reflection:**
Same with the Lyka, my father is a construction worker. Ever since, I never felt shame that my father is a construction worker, instead I am so PROUD of him. He may be not a professional and no degree, for me my PAPA is a professional one. He don't have a certificate of accomplishment but he have lots of houses he made. Everytime I saw those houses, I can say that he is like a professional one when working. Who would have thought that a second high schooler person would able to estimate, plan and build a house. A concrete house. I am proud of him cause he is able to give us food in our table. He never let us hungry despite of our situation as a poor. He make his best for us. He is able to support our studies in his own way.
Someday, I will be able to buy him construction tools. For now, he have his tools which he had from his salary. Everytime he have work, he will see to it that he will buy a souvenir from his work. Now, he have his collection from his hard work.
I am so proud of my father for being a good construction worker. He is a known man in our town for having built lots of houses. Many engineers went to our house to have contact with him, but he wasn't signed any because he's afraid of living away from his family. Many engineers have said that they'll support him to go to abroad, but my father declined. He said that he can support our needs without going anywhere away from us. And true to his word, he did all his best for us.
**I am proud of my father for being a CONSTRUCTION WOKRER.**
How about you? Are you proud of your parents?
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How they treat me as their FRIEND.
***How will you know if your friends treat you as their friend? How will you accept their attitudes? How will you cope up with the differences you have as friends?***
I am Amaya. I have three friends, their names are Angelie, Nadeth, and Jelai. For me, they are my friends. I can't say that they're perfect friends but for me, they are my friends.
"Amaya, hoy Aya! Can you take a picture of us? " Nadeth asked me to take a picture of them. I smile at her and get the phone. I took a picture of them.
"Done! Wait, I take a picture of us." I told them.
"No, Aya! Let's take a picture with you next time. For now, take a picture of us, just us." Nadeth said. I smile but deep inside I am not, I was hurt a little. I continue taking pictures of them without me.
After the picture-taking, we continue walking. I walked beside them but Jelai said something.
"Aya, can you just walk behind us? "
"Why, Je?" I am wondering why.
"Nothing, just walk behind us. We can't walk properly on this sidewalk if we walk all together here." She said, I look at the sidewalk we're walking and I saw that it's still wide for us.
"Aahh, O-okay!" I smile at them and walk behind them like I don't belong to the group.
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The next day, I saw them in the plaza, they're talking I walked towards them.
"I am excited. I had ready my outfit." I heard Jelai said to Angelie. I didn't saw Nadeth.
"What are you talking guys? What about the outfit?" I asked them.
"It's nothing Aya. It just that we're excited for the laters birthday party of Nadeth at their resort. We're so excited. Right, Jelai?" Angelie said.
"I'll come with you. " I smile at them and I felt excited too.
"As I remember, Tita Anna gave you a task, right? And you know, only those who have an invitation can go to the party. Did Nadeth give you an invitation?
" No, she didn't give me an invitation." I responded and I started to wonder why I haven't received an invitation from Nadeth.
"It's okay Aya, you better stay home. Anyway, your Mom gave you something to do right?" Angeline said.
"Yeah, your right." I responded. I am free later, I don't have anything to do. But since I wasn't given an invitation, they're right that I should not come for them to enjoy. To enjoy without me.
"Aya? Can I have a favor. Can you buy as snacks at the canteen? It's so hot to go there. I didn't able to bring my umbrella. And there are lots of students there." Jelai asked me.
"Okay, I will go there anyway, I also need to buy a pen." I said.
"Aya, before you go. Can you lend us your assignment. I didn't able to answer it last night." It was Angelie.
"Me too Aya. And don't forget to buy as food. We will just pay you when you came back." Jelai said and grab my assignment notebook.
"Okay, I'll just go to the canteen." I immediately turn away from them.
I felt my tears falling down. I felt the pang of pain in my chest. I am hurt of how they treat me. It's like I am there maid or whatsoever. They're just concern when they need something from me. It just so painful that you treat them as your friend but they didn't treat you as their friend. Still, they are my friends. I love them that's why it hurts. I will endure their treatment to me because they're my friends. But sometimes, I felt like I want to stay away from them cause I am hurting this much. I am hurting for the things they showed me. It's like I don't belong to them. It so painful that your friend treat you the opposite way of yours. I love them despite the way **HOW THEY TREAT ME AS A FRIEND**, well, am I really their friend? I wonder.
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**Conclusion/Reaction**:
If you're Amaya, will you stay as their friend? Or is she really a friend to them?
As for me, SHE was not a friend to them. They just used her as their slave. A slave who can they easily command with things they wanted. They just used her just like how they asked her to copy her assignment.
If I were Amaya, I will not be friend with them. You can easily tell if a person is a real friend or not. I have now more friends, and to tell you honestly, I have friends who's there for me when I am happy and sad. And I have a friend who's there when they need me, those friends are toxic. I am now staying away from them little by little. Because they only remember me when they need me, but when I need them, they can't be seen.
I prefer to be alone and don't have friends than to be with people like Angelie, Jelai and Nadeth. I will never let myself low because I want to please people I thought my friends.
If you want to be loved by your friends, love yourself first. If your circle show you that you are just an option, you are free to leave. And find someone, a friend that will accept you for who you are. A friend that will cherish you and love you. A friend that will give you **happiness** and the feeling of **belongingness**. It's your choice, to stay with people who make you sad or to find other who would let you feel your not an option.
***"A true friend is hard to find, they are rare and one of a kind. I don't care if I had only few, at least I have one true friend that I can tell true."***
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Wish you still here
**Did you ever wish for someone to stay? Did you ever wish that someone will be there for you forever? If only forever exist.**
Shen was in her room. Holding her phone and browsing her gallery. She can't help her tears to fall. She missed the person she didn't think will be gone from her life so early. She looked at the face who smiled at the camera so beautiful. How she wishes she can bring back time.
She missed her Mom who died the last year 2018.
**Before her Mom died**
**The year 2017**
Shen was not close with her Mom, she's close with her father. She felt jealous of her Kuya who's close to her Mom when it was still alive. She saw how close her Mom and Kuya were. They always talked when her Kuya went home from his school every Saturday.
They were five siblings in the family. Three boys and 2 girls. She's the second one. The age gap between her Kuya and her is eight years. And her age gap to his brother next to her in seven years. So her three siblings were still so little.
She was in her Grade 9 level when she felt her jealousy getting worst. The envy with her brother. Her brother doesn't know but her mother did. Her mother always said that her love for them was equal and that she can't live without her children. Sometimes when her mother says that, she'll not listen. So she will always go to her father. She didn't see her mother's sacrifice.
When she was a Grade 10 level, she noticed that her mother was so stressed. Stress with her father and her father's siblings. Her Auntie's in father's side were harsh with her mother. Her mother was the one who's looking for the business of her Aunt, her father's sibling. She noticed that her mother was stressed by them. Maybe because her mother gets some money from the computer shop she'd been taking care of. Her Auntie's got mad at her Mom because her Mom cannot remit the money intact. Her Mom explains that she had borrow money from the profit of the computer shop because their father has no work. But here Aunts sometimes don't understand. But they cannot tell their brother to work so that they have food to eat and her Mom will not use the money for the computer shop. They don't have the guts to say it to her father, afraid that her father will get mad at them.
**The year 2018.**
It always happened. Until she graduates high school. She graduated high school as a valedictorian. She hasn't seen any support from her father and only her mother attended. She didn't hear them say they were proud of her. After her graduation, they went to Kuya's graduation. Yes, they both graduate, her Kuya in college and she in high school. She felt sorry for her Kuya because he doesn't have any celebration just like her. Though their Aunts sponsored for a Lechon still can't feel their sincerity because their other cousin also graduated in senior high school. And they felt that it was for him and not for them. They were like that since then and they already accepted the fact that they will not be accepted as their relatives because they're poor. Because their mother was poor.
So they both graduated in March. Her Kuya got busy with his review. He finds work as his temporary work so that he'll able to earn for his review. His review started in June. Their Aunt gives him money for his review, her brother hesitates to accept it. She knows that her Aunts were mad with his Kuya for having a girlfriend. Why would they be mad with Kuya when the girl is kind and also a graduate too. They are really bad relatives, they want to manipulate.
Around the last week of July, her Mom and Aunts have arguments. It was still about the computer shop. They got mad because her mother can't still able to give the money intact. She can't blame her Mom because her father doesn't have work. If ever her father works, he will just stop without any valid reason.
After their argument, her Mom got sick. August, her Mom was being confined. Her Kuya was the one who took care of their Mom in the hospital together with his girlfriend. Her father was seldom visiting her mother and his reason was he looks for money for the bill in the hospital. But her mother's condition was getting worst. Until they decide to transfer their mother to the hospital that has complete amenities. But before they transferred her, her mother said she wants to stay at home. While at home, her mother got her sickness to worsen. So they decide to bring her to the hospital, where she was diagnosed and the result was a brain tumor.
Her Kuya was also there who took care of their mother after her. When it was her Kuya to have relaxed, he went to his girlfriend's boarding house. It was not new to them because they live like a couple, helping each other to reach their goals. But then, her Ate, the girlfriend of her Kuya called and said that her Kuya was sick since the day he came from the hospital. So, she brought her Kuya to the hospital. She was worried about her Kuya. Her Kuya still doesn't know that their Mom was in the ICU the day he went home and it only took 1 day. Their father told her Kuya's girlfriend to bring her Kuya to the hospital where their Mom was confined. Her Ate was afraid and was crying the whole travel cause she's worried about her Kuya. Shen thought, what was happening with their family? Her Kuya was confined for 1 week. And his girlfriend was the one who's taking care of him, she absents for 1 week with her work. When her Kuya was out of the hospital, they planned to go home and their father will be the one to look for their Mom. But before they went home, they went to the window where their Mom was. They saw that she's fighting. They were glad when they saw that their mother's heart was now at a normal rate. So, they went home. They travel for four hours. Someone called her Ate at 11 pm while they're on travel. Her Ate got silent and said to Kuya to sleep.
But, when we arrived home, She was shocked when she Ate told her grandmother, her mother's mom, to clean the sala and the bed. She said that their Mom is going home. But not alive. Her Ate cried while telling those words. Shen didn't react. She just said that their mother was fine. After any minutes, it sank into her mind and she started to cry.
Early in the morning, they saw their Mom. But this time, she's lying in the coffin. She can't believe that their Mom was gone. Her mom was still young at the age of 42. She looked at her siblings. They're still little to lose a mother.
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It was three years since the day her Mom died. When her Mom died, she saw what is her father. Her father was a lazy man. And she can't believe that her father is a womanizer. She now knows that her mother was stressed because of her father. That is why her Kuya was not close with their father. And the reason why they always talked with them was because of their father. Her mother was telling her Kuya of what he's been doing. Her Mom was leaning to her Kuya, that is why they're close.
Now, her father has girlfriends. Her father has a girlfriend after three months her mother died. She can't believe her father to find a woman that so easy an early. It's like her father was happy that her Mom died. Her Kuya now was living away from them because he can't bear to be with their father. Though her Kuya was giving them money, it was not enough. She understands her Kuya because her Kuya got a loan to pay their debt. Their father's debt. Also, her Kuya went away because he doesn't like their Auntie's who always pestering her Kuya to pay the debt of their Mom.
Now, she stands as the mother of her siblings. And she now knows how irresponsible her father is. Every time her father will not give money for their food, she'll ask her Kuya and sometimes to Kuya's girlfriend.
She missed her Mom so much. If only she could bring back the time. She will show how she loves her Mom. And maybe, if she knew about her father's vices, she told her Mom to leave their father. Her father was a headache.
She's now reaching her dreams with the help of her Kuya. She always prays that she will reach her goal for her siblings. She didn't mind her father anymore.
It's Mother's Day today, and she missed her Mom. She said in silence "Happy Mother's Day Ma, I wish you still here. I love you and I miss you so much."
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It was based on a true story. 😊
Hope you apply it.Happy Mother's Day to all.
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Goals I want to achieve using BCH I earned.
Every one of us has goals in life. I have read some of articles herein read.cash regarding their goals. So I thought, **why not set a goal and I will use my earnings here in read. cash in the future.**
As I scrolled down from the very first article I wrote, I never thought that I had earned much on this platform. I am one of the new users here that been given a chance to earn. Just a little bit sad because my two friends I invited here were not earning, but I am telling them to continue.
I am two weeks old herein read. cash.
Within these two weeks, the articles I have written were always visited by the @TheRandomRewarder and I am so thankful for that. Who would have thought that though I am unemployed and was always at home, am earning BCH? The best crypto for me.
My actual wallet here has no money inside but I am proud that I have BCH in my coins. ph that anytime, I can withdraw if I want. Though I am using some of my earning because we need them for my family, I see to it that I have saved some. For the future matters.
I've been following @Ruffa, @meitanteikudo, @leejhen, @Zhyne06, and @Bjorn. Every time they post articles, I read them because they're good at writing. They have different styles of writing that encouraged me to write more. I saw how they able to reach their dreams and goals in life. I also read some articles here and I never expect that some successful users here are still young but able to achieve their goals in life. So inspiring. They're the reason why I am still here because I want to be like them. To be like them who reached their goals in life for their families.
Since I was a child, **my goal in life is to give my parents a good home.** A good structure house, where they can live without hustle and fear that the house might be destroyed with a little wind. I admit that our house is small and having a foundation that is not strong enough to stand. That is why O am so frustrated to find work. But sad to say that I can't find a job nowadays because of the pandemic, it's hard to travel especially that there are lots of requirements to pass.
Glad that I found this platform. I can earn every day. Every time that I published, I sometimes felt sad when the robot will not visit my articles or sometimes late. But still, I told myself I won't quit.
**My goal now is to save money for our house.** I also want to save money for the payment of the land where our house was built. I need to pay my Ninang Elbing my godmother about 17,000.00 pesos for the land. I'm just fortunate cause she's not pressuring us to pay it.
Our house now is so old. Or maybe it just looks old because it's small. And sometimes when it's raining, the water came inside our house because the ceiling (yero) has holes. And our sink is not in good condition. Our house was built on a hill, I am afraid that our house might give up because the foundation was not strong. And for sure if it happens, we're going down to the foot of the hill. That is why I want to save money for our house. I want to renovate it and make it stronger than even if we're on the hill, we will not be afraid cause it has a strong foundation that will hold our house still.
I also want to give a good life to my parents. I want to achieve my goals in life for them. I want to give them a house where they can live with peace and happiness. I never heard my parents asked something from me that is why I am doing my best for them. J do my best that I can give them even a little amount. I know they felt shy to ask from me. And of course, they thought that I am not earning because I am just staying at home. Every time I give money to my mother, she will ask where I got the money from. I will just smile and said that I earned it online. I didn't explain further to her because she said she'll just have a headache.
I just hope that I will reach my goals in life with the help of read.cash and BCH. I believe that it is my chance to give my parents the life they dream for themselves before the day I came in this world. I will reach their dream for us.
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Deaf and Mute
How will you understand a person who's deaf and mute? How will you strengthen yourself just to understand them and have patience for them? Will, you felt pity for them?
We have a neighbor here who has a son. His son is a special child. His son was deaf and mute, he's not like other deaf and mute who's kind and sweet. He is hard-headed and temperamental, he easily got mad and you can't easily please him. He is a brat lad. You should be patient with him when you are going to interact with him.
Last day, our neighbor's boyfriend came to their house. She's my friend. And they are cousins with the child who needs attention, the deaf and mute. We'll just call the child Ange. They were living with their grandma. When her boyfriend came, her grandma got mad. I don't know why but I noticed that every time his boyfriend would visit her, her grandma will be mad at things. She's talking bad about her granddaughter even though there was her boyfriend. I felt pity for my friend cause her grandma was like that. She and her boyfriend sat on the sofa, and her cousin Ange went to their side. Ange started to piss her boyfriend and worst, Ange got some soil and put it in on her boyfriend's shirt. Her boyfriend said no. Ange got mad and went outside. He went outside and ride the motorcycle of my friend's boyfriend. Ange tried to beep the motorcycle and it was noisy. The boyfriend went outside and said to stop what he's doing. And then Ange got mad again. He then went inside the house. While my friend and boyfriend were talked, Ange took a picture of them and sent it to his friends. Though he's a special child, he knows how to use a cellphone. He is a smart kid. The boyfriend got mad and get the phone to delete those pictures. But the kid got so mad and try to get his phone but he can't. The boyfriend tried his best that Ange can't get a phone until he deleted all the pictures. But Ange grab his neck, he was about to defend himself, but Ange is strong despite his size. The boyfriend about to punch Ange but Liza hold his hand and said don't. When Ange can't control himself, he gets a knife. He tried to stab the boyfriend but my friend blocked it so she was the one who cut her arms.
They run to the room of my other friend who's also in that house. Janice is my friend too, she got married to my friend's brother and now has a son. Now, they were inside the room and locked the door so that Ange can't get inside. They were afraid because there was a child inside. Ange got so mad when he can't get inside. Out of his anger, he went outside and stabbed the wheel of the motorcycle owned by my friend's boyfriend. He was not contented and get a bolo, he then stabbed the motorcycle and he kicked it. I saw it with my own eyes because I was on our veranda at that time. I quickly went inside our house. Even I got afraid when I saw him like that, he was like to kill. His father went to rescue him, but his father can't even hold him. He then went inside and he broke all of the utensils in the kitchen. I heard a loud thud and I know it was the door he's trying to open. He went back outside and get a stone. He's really mad. Again, went out of the house and kick the motorcycle. The motorcycle was new and I got pity to the owner for it was damage big time. We heard a call behind our house, it was their grandmother. She asked us if we can go to the proper to call the police. My cousin that time who's in our house was hesitant to go out because his motorcycle was in our veranda and there was Ange outside holding a bolo. If he'll saw my cousin who went away and calls the police for sure he'll get mad at us too. And also, we thought that even if they call the police, they can't put Ange in prison because he's a minor and for sure, DSWD will not allow it.
We heard a motorcycle outside and we saw that my friend's brother riding it. He calls the police. When he's back, there were police outside. They talk about what happened, Ange, that time got a little calm but I know he is not. They went to the precinct and we don't know what had happened.
Late in the afternoon, Janice my best friend chatted with me. She said that Ange was still not calm even when they were just coming from the precinct. My friend was still in their room because she's afraid Ange will stab her again. Let jus call my friend Liza. Janice said that Liza has a big cut on her arms. And that her things in her room were so messy because Ange went there and her new slippers were ruined because Ange chopped them using the bolo. They can't stop the kid. Until evening came. I heard that the father was mad at Liza. He scolded Liza about her boyfriend. Iza just stayed silent.
Early in the morning, their grandmother went to our house. She said, she'll look at our washing machine because she'll buy it too. I thought after she looked at it, she'll go home but she didn't. She talked about what had happened last day.
She said that they're mad at Liza and her boyfriend. Liza told them that it was Ange's fault. That her boyfriend did his best not to burst out with Ange but the kid was so hard-headed. And that his boyfriend was mad at Ange since then. Her Uncle which is the father of the kid got mad at what she had said. He said that why does her boyfriend still visiting their house when he's mad with Ange. Liza got silenced with that. Her Uncle wants her to break up with her boyfriend.
The grandmother also told us that when they went to the precinct, the police got mad at the boyfriend for insisting that he'll blotter the child. He's afraid that he will be killed by Ange. Ange was already 15 years old. But still, they can't put him in prison. They then went to DSWD, but the same response. So, since they can't put him in prison, the boyfriend asked for the damage to his motorcycle. The father got mad and told that he waits for the money if there is. Because the father was a motorcycle driver, so he doesn't have enough money to pay for the damage.
The grandma and the father got mad at my friend's boyfriend and told him that he can't go to their house anymore.
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Conclusion:
For me, it is really hard to handle children like Ange. It's also my first time to encounter a kid like him. I saw how dangerous he is if not disciplined. Maybe, he acts like that because his father will always rescue him if he has enemies.
What I noticed about Ange is that you should understand him. Show him that you understand him. If you don't like what he did, you can gently tell him. And smile while you are telling him don't and explain why. I am not good at sign language but when I talk to him, I always smile. A kid like him can't express their feelings through words, that is why they are showing it through action, and sometimes they are having tantrums. We as abled people should understand and put some effort to strengthen our patience in interacting with them. Show that we care for them.
How about you? How will you interact with people like Ange?
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Differences
Today is just a usual day. Just stayed at home and lying in bed. I am thinking of what will I write today. My head was empty. I thought of knowing and no matter how I think of things I can write, I don't have in mind.
Since I don't know what to write today, I decided to have a general cleaning first. I sa my old books, handouts, and notebooks during my college days. I scammed it and saw how ugly my penmanship was, lol. Something got my attention. My notes about **Howard Gardner's Multiple Intelligence**. It was all about the theory that tackles the difference in the intelligence of a human. That human cannot have all the intelligence.
**There is 9 intelligence that a human may acquire or have: Linguistic, Logical or Mathematical, Spatial, Bodily-Kinesthetics, Musical, Interpersonal, Intrapersonal, Naturalis,t, and Existential.**
***Linguistic***
A person having this intelligence is good at using words, they have these great auditory skills. They easily learn through reading and writing. They were also good at speaking and listening. They are good at communication.
***Logical or Mathematica***l
A person having this intelligence do well in numbers and abstract reasoning. They are good at problem-solving.
***Spatial (Visual)***
A person having this intelligence is good at reading diagrams, figures, pictures, and study charts. They can easily gather information as long as they can see something and then they'll visualize it after in their mind.
***Bodily-Kinesthetic***
A person who has this intelligence is good at physical activities. They're good at the hands-on experience and they easily learn in moving their body.
***Musical***
A person having this intelligence do well with rhythms and tones. They could easily learn through song and auditory.
***Interpersonal***
A person having this intelligence is good at interacting with others. They like to engage in social activities and discussing with other people.
***Intrapersonal***
A person having this intelligence is the total opposite of interpersonal. They do well in self-reflection and like to do things on their own. They prefer to do activities without other people.
***Natural***
A person who has this intelligence is good in the natural world. They can easily learn when they're engaging outdoors or things in the real world.
***Existential***
A person who has this intelligence thinks beyond things. Like thinking what's the purpose of a person and if there is.
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These are written in my notebooks. I can still remember that day that I am taking down notes on important information about this topic. Our professor let us answer questions that will tell what intelligences we have. The top 3 intelligence that will form in our answers is our intelligence.
While reading the questionnaire, you can tell if you know yourself or not. We had to answer about 90 questions about ourselves. After answering those questions, our teacher told us to put those answers in each intelligence that the questionnaire aligned.
When I was done putting all the numbers of the questions into the rows of intelligence, my top 3 were all 5 of intelligence. How did it happen? My first intelligence was EXISTENTIAL which gain the big score. My second was Logistic/Mathematical and Musical, yes that two intelligences had a tie score. And my third was Linguistic and Intrapersonal, both have the same score too. I asked our professor about it for having a tie, and he said it's okay.
I found out that I am an existentialist, yes, I think it's true because I always thought what's my purpose in this world. How can I change the world? Am I a reincarnation? Do mermaids real? And of course, is there a heaven and hell? Those questions popped out in my mind out of nowhere. Especially when I am alone.
For my second intelligence, I can't say that I am smart with problem-solving especially about math, but I love math. If I will be chosen to do a poem or solve a mathematical problem, of course, I'll choose problem-solving. For Musical, I love music and I can sing too. Though not like other singers there I know that I can sing but I don't know how to dance, lol.
For my third intelligence, I can't say I am a good speaker but I am a good listener. I can speak fluently when I am alone because I love reading. But I can't do it in a crowd especially when there are lots of people. And maybe that's the reason why I am an Intrapersonal person. Since I am an intrapersonal person (introvert one) who loves to be alone cause I feel like I am free to do on my own.
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**Conclusion**...
You cannot tell a person that he's dumb and dull. Why? Because we have these so-called differences in intelligence. Maybe, a person you know was not good at math, that's because her intelligence is not for logic but maybe for other intelligence. Like me, I don't know how to dance, no matter how I like the music when I dance my body won't jive, lol. I also not a kinesthetic one because I am week.
You see, each of us are different. And no one is dumb or dull. So don't judge someone because he's not good with things like yours.
If you want to know more about this topic, you can search about it to know which intelligence you have.
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"Laugh WITH people" instead of "Laugh AT people".
Have you ever tried been bullied by other people? Have you ever tried being the laughing stock of others? How do you feel? How did you endure the feeling? Did you try to take revenge? Have you moved on?
Nowadays, we knew that bullying is more known and even children already know how to do it to their playmates. Where did it come from? Why do some people make fun of others? I, myself, was a victim of bullying. How did I manage to move forward? What did I do?
Let me share my story.
When I was a child, I am a malnourished kid. I easily got sick. Easily got stumbled and easily cry for nothing. I am afraid of people, even when my father has visitors. I easily get panicked and ran to the room.
I don't like to play with friends or cousins. I don't know if I can call them childhood friends thought cause I only have my closest cousin who'd been there for me despite my situation. We've been together since then though she'll play with others outside.
I don't like to play with my cousins cause I knew I am weak. Sometimes I got jealous of my siblings cause they can do what they like. Like playing outside and run without fear of being sick and stumbled.
I have this cousin, she's the eldest sister of my closest cousin. Let us call my closest cousin Jenny, she's a month older than me. And her Ate as Jessy, she's older than us about 2 years. Jessy doesn't like me. She was the one who's making fun of me. I don't know why she's mad at me. I still can remember how she made fun of me. She told me I am ugly. That I have big eyes and a big nose, lol. I know I am not beautiful and I accepted my flaws since then. She always laughs at me when I dressed up in good clothes. And she said, no matter what I dressed, I am still ugly. Well, it was okay for me.
One time, I played with our cousins which were our neighbors too. She's not the eldest of us all since we had Ate Lezyl that time. Ate Lezyl was a kind child until now. Ate Jessy doesn't like me to join the game. But Ate Lezyl told her why not, and she said that I will play with them for me to enjoy even for a while. Ate Jessy was mad that time but then she can't do anything about it because all of our cousins didn't approve of her suggestion. Unfortunately, we're in the same group. I was a bit afraid that time, what if I got mistaken for sure she'll get mad. And yeah, she was when I wasn't able to save them all for the game. She talked bad about me until she's bullying me. I was hurt, but I told myself that I will be fine.
When we're already high school students, she still minds my feature. Telling me and her friends that I am ugly, lol. One day, one of her friends told her that I am not ugly. And that, for all the granddaughter of our Lola Ding, I am the one who's the prettiest of all. She told Ate Jessy that I have these beautiful eyes, yes it's big but nog ugly cause it matches with my chubby chicks and long eyelash. That I am whiter unlike them. I and my siblings indeed have this fair complexion where we got from my father's side. She also told Ate Jessy that my nose was not big but natural and matched with my round face. She told Ate Jessy why she's telling them I am ugly which not true. After that, Ate Jessy got mad at them and walked away and she got mad at me too. I don't know why her friend told her that. It was okay with me because, for me, it's not important to have a beautiful face as long as you're not downgrading other people's dignity.
I also can't forget the time that Ate Jessy made a laugh at our house before when I was an elementary pupil. She said that our house was so ugly and that we cannot make a house made of cement and hollow blocks. And that we will stay poor. Our house at that time was bamboo made and our ceiling at that time was coconut leaves. Yes, we're poor. I admit. But it was the reason why my father made all of his best until we can renovate our house when I was a high schooler. It wasn't easy, my father slowly changed our house, and little by little he saved money for more materials for the house. When I was a fourth-year high school, our house was almost done.
When I got stopped after high school and not able to study in college, she always told me that I will never be able to go to college. But then, she was the one who's not able to finish her first semester in college. I am still not able to go to college for how many years. But since I promised myself that I will finish my studies, I enrolled myself after 3 years and more. I experienced hardship. I experienced to be hungry cause of having not enough allowance and even borrowed from my classmates if there will be a contribution to pay. I don't have a choice cause I don't want to stop my studies. Ate Jessy told me that I will not make it and I will quit. Those words I heard from her, made those a challenge and those made me stronger to not quit. Those words were my reminder that if I quit, she'll be happy because I didn't succeed. Fortunately, I able to endure those trials and pain. When I was a fourth-year college, her attitude started to change. She always talked good things about me and every time I posted on Facebook, she's one of those who encourage me to fight and keep going. Every time I see her comments, I can't stop myself to laugh. Why was she like that? It's like we're close and she did not do bad to me. But still, I manage to respond and talked to her like it's nothing.
When I already graduated, she told me that I might change like our other 2nd degree cousins who graduated in college too. She said that I might not accept them as my relatives because I already have a degree unlike them. I want to say in her face that "Hello? Do you have amnesia?" . She acts like a good person in front of me and my family, until NOW.
I can say that our lives now were so far from what was our life before. We're able to renovate our house now and it was already bug though not yet done. Thanks to my father who made things possible.
Before Ate Jessy laughs at us for being poor. They were not rich though but when she mocked us before, it's like she has. Before, she treated us like we're trash. But now, I notice how good she is to us now. It's like she forgot what she'd been telling us. I don't know but she's the total opposite with her sister, Ate Jenny. Ate Jenny is a very kind and good-hearted person. She doesn't know how to mock another person, unlike her elder sister.
I want to talk to Ate Jessy about our past but I prefer not to. I just let her act now like she's a good person. Though, I am praying that she might change into a good human. I am not the only person she treated that way too. I think she's just jealous of others. Even to our cousins who has now a work. She always talked bad to them, maybe because no one likes to be close with her. Well, I understand why they don't like her.
**Conclusion to my experience:**
What I learned is that, don't mock other people. Don't look down on others because you think you're above and supreme. Because we don't know what tomorrow brings. Maybe you are laughing at someone now, but tomorrow it might be vice versa. Try to laugh with others and be good despite differences. Accept what you have and don't have. Don't envy others for things they have and you don't have. Be contented or if you're not contented with what you have, you can always look on your past self and build your future to be what you are. Compare yourself from the past YOU, that way you will be more successful in the future YOU.
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A wish not for me.
What's your ultimate wish? Did you ever wish for something that is not for yourself? Have you wished for other people?
Every person has this wish for their lives. Some for their own, their family, and friends.
I have lots of wishes, but the most I am been praying is that "I wish and pray that my parents are still alive when I am successful". I want them to be there when I have already achieved my goals. I am been doing my best for them.
I think I am being their good girl since I was a child. Been doing things that won't make them angry and disappointed. All I've been doing are for them. I want them to live life with joy and they deserve it.
My parents are not demanding. They didn't pressure me to work, unlike my neighbors who have been pushing their children to work. Yes, we're just poor. No owned properties and our house was not yet paid fully. Our house was still not done and I need to work more to earn for the house renovation.
I also want to support my siblings' studies which I'd promised to my parents. I don't want to break that promise I made. I don't like seeing my siblings not finished their studies. Life is so hard, it's so hard to find work when you're not a college graduate. Even college graduates finding it so difficult to find a job, how about those who weren't able to finish their studies, right? Like me, I am a graduate yet, I am still unemployed. Cause it doesn't mean that you are a graduate, you can have it all. No, you need to work hard and it is in a person's ability to find ways to be successful. Yet, though I know that saying, I still want my siblings to graduate from college. And when my siblings graduate, I'll have someone to help to take good care of our parents. We will help hand in hand to reach our goals for our parents.
Since I was a child, I am been dreaming and planning about what will I do to my parents and how can I give them a good life. Why am I like this? Maybe because I saw how they work hard for us my siblings to live. I saw how they find ways for us to have food on our table. I never saw my parents be fat. They are both thin. Every time that I saw their figure, all I want to do is to make them healthy and good-looking bodies. You can mirror with their bodies that they experience hardships in life.
Since I graduated, I will buy them both vitamins when I have money. I want them to be healthy. I am just glad that my mom knows about herbs that will help to cleanse the body's toxins. She learned it from her father.
I want them to live life to the fullest. I want them to experience outings and relax. Ever since we haven't tried to have a vacation together with my family because we don't have enough money. Sometimes I felt envy for my classmates who can have a vacation with their family during the summer or Christmas seasons. How I wish, I will able to treat my parents someday. It is one of the reasons why I am frustrated to have a job. Because I want to treat my parents and give them a good life.
I am always thinking about how it feels to give my parents the first salary I will receive from my work. If that day comes, I will be the happiest human in the world. I always looking for it. I had given them my of my earnings here on this platform and noise, they looked happy. But I also want to look at how happy they will be if I am working in my field of the profession they push me through. The profession they want for me. They were so proud of being able to let their child graduate from college. They can't believe it. So, I will make them happier when I started to teach in a public school. I claim it now. With the help of Jesus Christ, I am praying this prayer and wishes to happen.
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When You Believe
Have you experienced that you thought your problems never ended? Like, you still have problems then here's again another added. Did you ever feel to quit because you thought you can't do it? That you don't have someone to call and all you can do is just cry until your eyes dried up. That you only stopped crying because no tears are coming at all anymore. Is there a time you feel that your useless cause you can't do anything to make things fine?
When I was a child, my parents were so religious. My parents are members of the said group called Couples For Christ. They always have this so-called prayer meeting with every household member. They're helping each other when someone needed some help. Every Christmas, they have this party and for me, it was the best party I had attended especially that I was a child at that time.
My mother and I also were members of the Legion of Mary where we have a rosary prayer every Sunday in the morning before the mass started. I was a member until I'm a high schooler.
Our faith was been tested when I was a third-year high school. My mom was sicked that time and we learned that she has myoma.
*According to doctors and researchers, Myomas are smooth, noncancerous tumors that may develop in or around the uterus. Made partly of muscle tissue, myomas seldom develop in the cervix, but when they do, there are usually myomas in the larger, upper part of the uterus as well. (i) Myomas in this part of the uterus are also called fibroids or leiomyomas. [You can visit this link for more info:* *https://www.azuravascularcare.com/infoufe/what-is-a-myoma/* *, I also git the picture in that link.]*
When my mother felt the symptoms like having heavy bleeding that sometimes stops after 3 weeks or months, we got worried especially when she felt the pain and she's weak. And when we hold her abdomen, we can feel a lump on it. So, we went to the clinic of a doctor. I already forgot the name of that doctor. There, she underwent an ultrasound. My mom and the doctor talked inside and I was not allowed to get in so I waited outside of the clinic cause there was no vacant seat inside. When my mom went out, I saw how sad she was and I know she's afraid. We went to the Cathedral and there we lighted a candle and pray. I just observed my mom until we went home.
When we got home, my mother talked to my father first. When they're done, they talked to us, me and my siblings. They told us about mom having a myoma. We cried for we were so afraid for her. My father told us to stop crying cause it can't help us. He also scolded me cause I cried a lot and they knew that I collapsed and sometimes can't breathe properly if I cried so much. I tried my self to calm myself and think positively only. So, we continued listening to them. My mom told us that the doctor suggested that she should undergo surgery to get the myoma in her uterus. My father asked how much money was needed so that he can find ways. When my mom said we needed 20,000php, our world stopped cause how and where can we find such a big amount. My father at that time has no work and working on the farm for us to have something to eat. My mom told my father that she will not undergo surgery and that she'll try natural medicine. My father was hesitant and he told mom he'll find ways.
My father planned to borrow money from his friends but they also have nothing. He tried to borrow from other people but they didn't lend him. So, my mom tried to intake herbs where she learned from her deceased father. She tried drinking boiled leaves of herbs like guyabano, malunggay, and many more. She also tried to intake MX3.
While treating herself at home through those herbs and MX3, she always went to church and has been more religious than before. She even joined the Divine Mercy group where they have prayer meetings every 3 Am in the dawn. They have petitions and many activities during their prayer meeting. They also have this so-called pray over where a person will sit in the middle and they will put their hands on her head and pray for recovery and anything that would make a person better. Since then, my mom being so religious and she taught us too.
After how many days and months, we saw the changes in our mother. She's been lively and not weak anymore. When we touch her abdomen, we can't feel any lump there. "Thanks be to God." That's what we always say. Until now, my mom is so strong and healthy. I remembered that the doctor said she should undergo surgery because she might die after 2 years if the myoma will not be removed. But thank Jesus Christ and she's okay now.
It's already 11 years since it happened. And many trials had been encountered. Yet, we stand strong. As long as you believe, everything will be fine. Every time we have a problem, all I say to myself is that God will not give me this challenge that I can't conquer. I just need to believe and trust Him.
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Helping Hand
It's been a year and 2 months since we're dealing with Covid-19. It gave us fear and anxiety in our daily life.
Covid-19 brought us to this situation where we are in a survival state. The hardships we encounter cannot be measured. Many were hungry at the same time depressed. Many people have no work and need to stay at home.
We can't deny the fact that there are still people outside. We can't just judge them. Some were mad because for them they're not following the protocols. But did we thought why they're outside? Maybe because they're looking for food that their family needs. Because admit it or not, the situation of every people now was not the same. Good for those who have savings or work that can be done at home and still able to have their salary at the end of the month. But, how about those people who have lost their job because of this pandemic? Let us open our minds to everyone. We cannot judge them because hunger also is our enemy here. The need nowadays is to help each other. Never drag down other people, instead help them to survive.
This past few months, we thought that we're getting back to normal because they already raise the GCQ and MGCQ, but this past few weeks, the positive case had increased. And now, we were back to lockdown. Many were worried and devastated by what was happening. Admit it or not, we already missed the days when we're not afraid to go out without wearing a mask and face shield. We can't even talk to our loved ones when we arrived. The need for quarantine and the need to stay away from other people.
Still, we're glad that despite the pandemic, we learned those people who have love and concern for other people though they're strangers. There are still people who are willing to help others.
Last December 2020, there was a family who went to our barangay and shared their blessings with everyone. Since it was December, they give groceries that can be used during the Noche Buena. Though it's not the first time that there was someone give blessings to others, people in our barangay was so grateful. The thought that Christmas would be sad especially for those who can't afford to buy goods for the celebration of Christmas, and yet the blessings came. The truth that it was hard to find goods for celebrating Christmas due to how many months of GCQ where people can't find jobs or work especially that we're in the province. Still, thankful to those generous people who thought of others to celebrate Christmas despite the problems brought by the pandemic.
It was the goods that been given to the 200 households of our barangay. 5 kilos of rice and a grocery item.
The official see to it that people will follow distancing and wearing a facemask. Glad that our barangay was covid free at that time because our barangay captain did his job will for monitoring our barangay with the help of the officials. And the people in our barangay followed him and respect him so much.
Christmas was indeed merry for having generous people around. It is not the first and the last that someone gives goods to our barangay. There are lots of sponsors who share their blessings with everyone.
This past April, we're back to GCQ. And last week, we're in lockdown again started last Thursday. It was sudden that we were not able to buy goods. All the department stores were closed until now. My father now was worried because we only have a little rice now to be cooked. We don't have viand also. But yesterday, we received goods from the barangay. They give it house to the house of each household to prevent from spreading the virus, they wore a facemask and face shield as one of the protocols. Glad we had the chance to receive goods during lockdown where people can't go outside to look for food.
Today also we received another batch of relief goods from the barangay.
Though we are in this situation, we're still grateful for those who are willing to help.
Still, I want to be back to our normal life where we don't need to wait for other's relief goods. I pray that everything went back to normal where we can move without fear and able to work for our family's needs
Amazing, Php3,000 in 5 days.
Just want to share my happiness with this platform: noise. cash and read. cash.
I never thought I will able to earn this amount within 5 days. I don't have a job yet I am earning this big. So happy for O found these two legit platforms.
I started my noise. cash journey last March 21, 2021, yet I am not earning cause I don't have free tips. Also, they update it about QR codes. I am one of those who's in QR code so I left noise. cash for two weeks I guess and try to join the jungle. I did earn there though cause I had to sell 2 NFT and earn BCH. Now, back to noise. cash, last week they announce another update and I was so glad when I found out I am now not in QR code but sometimes I am maybe because someone rated me as spam or poor. But then, I am still fortunate cause there a time that I can receive tips. I earned up to $2.50. I send it to my coins.ph account since I plan to start by May 1 and set a goal to reach for this month.
In read.cash, I earned her much honestly. I never thought that I will be given a chance to earn dollars or BCH that surely helps me and my family's needs. I started my journey in read.cash last April 21, 2021. I didn't think that my works will be noticed by the robot. I started articles each day but as days go by, I tried to write two articles per day and I am so happy with the outcome. I can earn $5-$10 per day, it depends on the robot though. I was also glad for having sponsors. Never thought that some users here will notice my works and hard work. Thanks to @Bjorn and @immaryandmerry for the sponsorship. Thank you also for encouraging me to write more and continue this journey. I felt so fired up to write more. My inspiration here is my family. I want to earn while at home for them since it's pandemic and we're not able to work outside.
Here is my earnings in read.cash.
You see, from the first day I joined read. cash, I was able to gain that amount already. I am so blessed and thanks to God. The earnings I received were used for our daily needs. I can buy goods for my niece also especially during her birthday.
Now, I put all my earnings in my coins.ph wallet. I want to save BCH for the future. For now, I only have 0.0820BCH. I plan to hold BCH from now on and waiting for it to soar up high to the moon.
I already used some of my earnings and give them to my mother. They're asking me where I get it. I want to explain it to them further but still, they can't get so I just tell them that thru online platforms. My parents, though they're not telling me, I know they're happy that I can give them money especially nowadays that it's so hard to find the money for our daily needs.
As of now, I am still in noise.cash and jere in read.cash. I also have another platform that helps me to earn too. It may be a little still glad that I am earning.
So, for those people who were losing their hope, just continue to do what you think is right and would give you benefits. Today might be hard for us but always out in mind that God will help us. For me, noise.cash and read.cash is the help He send for me.
Tita, the Yaya of the day.
Today, I was just lying in bed and just done nothing. I just want to relax. It was lockdown herein our barangay since the covid case has increased. I have done my duty of cleaning the house and do other household chores. But my parents told me to look for my niece. So, I had a little relaxation today.
I woke up around 6 am. I cleaned the house, outside and the inside. My parents are done with their tasks too. My Mom already prepared food and my father had done his project at home. Nothing special though. After cleaning, I ate my breakfast and took a bath. I looked for my niece and play with her. She's so adorable but so naughty. She's like our youngest sibling. I never thought that I will be attached to my niece because of our past with her mother and of course her father. But then, I realize that this child had nothing to do with me and that she's not the one who had sinned me. And of course, we already reconciled with my sister.
While playing with my niece, I found out that it's not easy to have a child especially when the child has tantrums. My niece always had a tantrum. Sometimes I can't handle her when she has tantrums that's why I'll call my parents to look for her.
My niece likes to watch music videos like singing. She likes to dance too. She always makes us laugh when she dances. She's talkative that sometimes I don't have anything to say anymore because I was out of words. When I am holding my phone, she will ask to borrow my phone because she'll watch cocomelon or baby shark. But sometimes, she'll ask me to on the tv and DVD player because she likes to watch barbie and any Disney princesses.
I want to bring her outside to have a walk but we can't since it's a lockdown. So, we're just at home. It was fun having a child at home, they will give the house the joy we didn't expect. Though a child kinda is hard to deal with sometimes we can't deny the fact that they will make your day a good day. Well, maybe it depends because some parents said that they're stressed because of their children. Every time I heard that I am hesitant to have my child. Lol.
Before, when my niece has not yet been born, our house is so silent. You can't hear any noise because I and my siblings have different hobbies and sometimes we just staying in our room. But when my niece came into our lives, it was the total opposite. Our lives change and our house is filled with joy. When my niece got reprimanded by my parents because of being naughty, I felt pity for her but I will not intervene and console her because she might think that I am defending her even if she's wrong. We don't want her to grow a brat so we're disciplining her.
We have planned her future already. We like her to reach her goals in life. We don't want her to suffer because of poverty. We always pray for her to be a good person and a good individual in society. My parents looked forward to her future. Since her mother cannot afford for her to send her to school because she's having no work and being a housewife, I and my other siblings are willing to help since we are the ones who had the chance to enter college. We just hope that we can help our niece to support her studies.
Someday, I will also have a family. But I promised myself that I will help and support my niece in what can I give. That is what my parents asked me for as a favor. I know what they feel. They were just worried about my niece's future. They just love the child so much to the extent that they asked me that favor and it's the first time that my parents asked me a favor. I cannot say no to my parents. I don't want them to be disappointed. I love them so much that I'll do everything for them.
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I gave them name.
What's the meaning of having a name? Why do we need a name? How do parents give their children names? All these questions were in my mind when my sister asked me to give her daughter a name.
Since when the day we reconciled, my sister always update me about herself and her baby inside her womb for her first baby. My parents see to it that they will be fine both. She has her check-up every month.
I am still a student at that time and my school was far from our house. When we reconciled, I felt how I missed my sister. She's closer to me than our youngest one. Our youngest is so secretive and doesn't like to open up with us. That is why I was shocked about my sister when she had a relationship with that man before and they hide it from us. My sister M is open to me since she's a child. Maybe because she was afraid that we can't accept the man she loved before.
When her due date was coming. She's nervous and afraid. No days that she'll ask sorry to our parents and me. We already assured her that we're not mad at her anymore and that we accepted her already. We also encouraged her and tell positive things because we knew she's afraid. We told her that we're always there for her and the baby. I knew she's mad at herself that's why she's acting like that. So, I talked to her and that she should forgive herself. That she should learn from that mistake. She promised me that she'll never make our parents disappointed this time. That she'll not waste this third time that our parents gave to her.
She thanked me for being an understanding Ate. We're crying when we talked about it and then we talked about our childhood days when we don't have any problems before. We reminisce and laugh about it. I look at her and I felt happy she can laugh like that since the day she went back home. I wished that time and hoping that it will long last and that she'll be back as who she is.
During her labor, she'd been calling me for how many times. She labored for four days. I felt pity for her to suffer that long during her labor. But thanks to God she made it and they're both okay. The baby was healthy. I was about to sleep when my sister asked me a favor. She wants me to name her daughter. I was o happy when she gave me the privilege to name her daughter. Since our father already gave a name, I gave the baby the second name. I name the baby "Maybelle", I got it from my sister's name. My father got mad when he looked at the birth certificate of the baby and saw two names written on it. He asked my sister who gave the name, and when she said it was me, my father called me immediately. When I assured him it was me, he calmed down. He thought another way around, I knew. Maybe he thought that my sister's ex gave that name.
Years past and my sister found a man who will accept her for who she is. Now, they are building their own family. Yesterday, my sister gave birth to their son. They called me to name their son. I laugh at them, why me? They said that they like the names that I gave to Maybelle and now they want me to name their little boy. I told them that I will think for a while. After 10 minutes, I think of a name. I name the boy " Nazh Vin". It was taken from our father's name and my sister's husband.
I was glad that my sister trusts me like this. She trusted me to give her children names. I love my niece and nephew. Their mother made a mistake before but she learned from it.
Now, she's happy with her family. We're so glad she found the right man for her.
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The Return of Forgiving. I and my sister's story.
I am not a perfect person cause I know, no one's perfect. I sinned. I did a mistake. I stumbled. I sometimes lost. But then, here I am. Blessed as always. I felt how loved I am.
In my previous article, I had mentioned that we're not in a good relationship with my sister before because of his ex. Let me tell you why.
My sister had a relationship before with a man who's evil enough to bring havoc to our family. He was my sister's ex-boyfriend and the father of my niece. We didn't know that they had a relationship for almost a month. They hide it from us. That guy was also the one who likes me when I was a third-year high school but I showed him I don't like him and never tried to talk to him though he always went to our house because he is an electric reader and the one who'll give the electricity bill. When he's reading our electric bill, I will run to my room and hide just to not show his face in front of me. Years past and then we learned that they're in a relationship with my cousin. They're in a relationship for almost a year but then, my cousin broke up with him because he's bribing my cousin's parents. After all, he wants already to marry my cousin but my cousin doesn't want to. He's a playboy. We already learned that he had a live-in partner before but died because of him. That is why I don't like him, even to see his face.
Years passed, I am already 2nd-year college at that time when we learned about their relationship. They hide it from us for months. We never thought that my sister will be his next victim. It was already 6 years past when he showed he likes me and 5 yrs when they broke up with my cousin. We also knew that he has children with different women but he did not take the responsibility. How cruel he is.
When my father found out. He told my sister to stay away from that man. But then my sister was blinded at that time. She always went out with that man when my father was at work and only my Mom at the house. My sister at that time is only 18 years old. I also learned that the man taught my sister how to be a liar. I accidentally opened the Facebook my sister was using. It was my old Facebook she'd been using and the password was still the same. When I opened the messenger, I read their conversation. There I found out that the man told my sister to cut herself when my father won't allow them to be together. He also told my sister that he'll get her and that they will live together. I don't know what had happened to my sister because she's not like the kind of girl that easily said yes to anything other people would say. But with that man, she easily said yes and without even explanation. I told my father about it through call but I was late. Because the time that I read their conversation, my sister ran away with that man. I was shocked and can't say anything. I know my father was badly hurt and that it was the reason my father got mad with my Mom. It is because, for him, it was my Mom's fault. For me, it is not my Mom's fault because Mama was always on the farm to take good care of our crops. I told Papa not to get mad with Mama. I was torn between them. I felt pity for them and hatred for my sister.
Early in the morning, I received a message from the guys. He was so angry that he showed how foul his mouth was. He even sends me nude pictures of a man and some genital area. I was shocked and almost puke when he send me those. I blocked him but I save all his message and send it to our captain. I am planning to sue him but I can't because I am busy with my studies. My father told me that he will do everything to make that man pay. I was afraid for my father so I always told him that I and my two siblings were still here for him. And that my sister will come back home to us. Yes, I am so mad with her but I can't see my parents suffer.
Since then, I felt that my family changed a lot. The happy family was now ruined. Because of that guy. Two months passed and my sister went home and asked forgiveness. Because the parents of the guy were not good to her. My parents felt pity for her and accept her. It was true that a parent cannot bear their child to suffer so they accept her. I still don't believe my sister that time because I can't see her changing and back to normal. And I was right, after another two months, she came back to the guy. And this time she was impregnated by that man. And unfortunately, the man won't take responsibility because, for him, it was not his. How cruel he is. My sister went home to our house but my father did not let her in this time. She didn't also tell me that she's pregnant. She went to Manila and lived with my father's sister. They didn't know the real situation. They got mad at me. Yes, to me because my sister said bad things about me and that I am our father's favorite child. I didn't mind them and just focus on my study. I out in mind before that yes, she might be my sister but the time will come that we will live separately and find our destiny to live.
It was already 4 months passed and her tummy was getting big. When my Aunt told Papa that my sister needs them. That she wants to home. Since my father was so kind and she's still their daughter, he said it's okay and she can come home. It was the time that I did not go home to our house for almost 5 months. I only went home during Christmas. I thought I will not able to forgive my sister. Yet, when I saw her, I felt pity for her. Christmas day, we reconciled and forgive each other. It was a good feeling. It still took months before I trust her again. I saw my old sister back. I missed her.
When she gave birth to her daughter, it was her worst day because she labored for four days. She even always called me and asked for forgiveness. She said that maybe I still didn't forgive her because she's suffering during labor. I said put the phone on her tummy and there I talked to his baby like crazy. After that talk, my father also talks to the baby and said to came out and never let her Mom suffer. After that words, the baby came out. We're afraid my sister to die that time because according to my father, my sister was so pale and weak. She even told Papa that she's tired and wants to rest. But still, she made it. My niece now is already 3 years old. A very charming little girl. My parents were the ones who take good care of her.
After two years, my sister found a new guy. The guy was so kind. I knew the guy because we're in the same school during my high school days and his sister was my classmate. They are now living together. And today, my sister gave birth to their son. I am so happy that she found a good guy who will accept her after what she'd been through. The guy who will accept her past. The guy who is the opposite of her past. I saw how happy my sister now. I also noticed how Kuya loved my sister despite having a child from her previous relationship. He also loves our niece. Though he likes to get our niece and live with them, my parents don't want to.
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Forgiveness is the key to have peace in life. Acceptance of the mistakes made you learn from them. I am not a perfect sister but I can't endure the pain I felt seeing my siblings in hardships. Someday, when I reach my goals, I will help my siblings to reach theirs.
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