Worst Time but Still Blessed
Today is December 24, 2021, it is the most awaited date in a year where this day is the most thrilling to prepare notch Buena to celebrate Christmas. In the year 2021, I'm not sure if everyone were busy right now preparing for food because as far as I know we people who struggled with the typhoon Odette were busy not preparing for food but we're busy looking for food and restoring the damages of the typhoon.
never feel the excitement of Christmas this year 2021 due to the calamities that happened unexpectedly and drive to every family suffering from the crisis. A lot of people nowadays need a hand to hold on to get up, to the people who badly suffered on the ground need help from those people who are in the top right now, they need your shoulder to lean on, they need your extra clothes to cover their body from the heat of sunlight and the cold of the night, they need your abundant water to fill their thirsty mouth, they need your extra food as well to survive from hunger and if ever you don't have to any of what I mentioned above there is what thing I know for sure that you can give and that is "YOUR PRAYER" it matters the most, believe me, my friend.
I can say that this Christmas was my worst but my blessed Christmas as well, you know why? I am still blessed despite the typhoon we encountered because we're still kicking and alive to keep on fighting along the way of the crisis we are facing right now. My worst Christmas? Yes so far due to the typhoon, typhoon Odette destroyed not only our houses but also Odette destroys our source of income which is our land of coconut or copra. I thought before that pandemic was the only hindrance in celebrating our Christmas and new year but this calamity came and hits the kabisayaan area of the Philippines.
We must endure the pain and sacrifices we are facing right now, we must get up in our muddy situation and eventually walk away to move from the ground to the top.
To those who badly struggling due to typhoon Odette right now be strong my friend and if you and your family were safe during the typhoon be thankful enough that we survive, but if you're one of those of suffered from the damages that Odette brought to us all I can say is we must hold on together to get up early.
The majority of us survive the typhoon but we can't deny the sad fact that there is someone also who didn't and died during the typhoon. So once again if you're one of the survivors, please be thankful enough to thank God that he let you live more years despite all.
I'm saying this because I was and my family also struggling due to pandemic and typhoon Odette and yes we're thankful that we survive and as of now we gradually moving on forward to recover from what has been damaged from the calamity.
I just want to share what I've been through yesterday, aside from the pandemic and the typhoon I face also trials yesterday because one of my Lil cousins was got so high fever and drive to the child from constant vomiting so my aunt was so worried about the situation and it goes until 12 in the midnight with high fever and constant vomiting so they decided to go the hospital in the middle of the night. I was the one assigned to call for an ambulance to transport my Lil cousin to baybay Leyte hospital. Right now I feel like I'm not feeling well because of a headache maybe it is due to a lack of sleep last night and thinking about how to pay the bills in the hospital because my mom was the one who take care of the hospital to guard my Lil cousin.
That's the reason why I can say that maybe this is the worst Christmas that I experience so far, but still, we stand strong to surpass all trials in life.
By the way Merry Christmas to each and every one,
`Please my dear friend even your prayer this Christmas will matter the most for those who are in need.`
`Pray for all the people who are struggling with the typhoon and to all that needs your prayer.`
***PRAYER is the best gift you can give to those who in need***
***God Bless us all ;****
***Merry Christmas!***
My first stay to Aiah's account.
Hello everyone today is December 23, 2021 masaya at masasabi kong mapalad ako this day dahil sa magandang mga dahilan.
Before anything else ay pormal po akong magpapakilala sa enyo my dear readers, actually this is my first article to publish at kung nagtataka po kayo marahil po this account was only temporarily na ipinahiram po ni aiah sa akin dahil siya po ay may mga importanting ginagawa sa ngayon kung kayat ipinahiram niya muna ang account na ito para hindi rin masayang baka ma mark as spam pa di nagagamit.
The new user of this account was a Male/Guy, actually masasabi kong hindi na ako bago sa platform na ito dahil may account na ako ng readcash before peru dahil sa nakalimutan ko yung password ko at di napansin ni rusty so I got bored those time to try and create again a new account. Masasabi kong napakahirap at di madaling magsulat lalo to those na hindi talaga fashion ang sumolat pero ika nga nila wala namang masama kung susubokan, wala namang imposible kong iyong pag-aralan.
Alam ko sa sarili ko na wala akong hilig sa pagsusulat, before pinilit ko yung sarili na dapat mahilig o hiligin ko yung sarili ko sa pagsusulat not only to enjoy but most importantly is to earn as well through writing peru yun nga I have a hard time para mapansin ni rusty cguro dahil sa the way ako magsulat o dahil din siguro sa mga grammatical errors ko kasi hindi ako magaling sa english kaya ito ako ngayon trying hard magsulat ng TagLish o tagalog english para mas mapahaba ko yung content ko at makapagsulat din ako ng malaya na walang inaalalang grammar Lol.
Pero honestly, gusto kong magustohan ang pagsusulat sa mga panahong ito dahil sa wala na akong pinagkakaabalahan sa buhay at wala pang napasukang trabaho kong saan mas kailangan na kailangang kumita ng pera ngayon dahil sa nasa gitna tayo ng crisis at dumagdag pa ang bagyong odette na siyang mas nagpalugmok sa aming mga salanta ng bagyo.
nasa punto na ako ngayon na dapat kumita ng kahit kaunting pera para makatulong man lang sa pamilya sa mga pang araw-araw na gastusin para malampasan ang crisis na ito.
Lubos din akong nagpapasalamat kay aiah sa selfless support and help para kumita din ako, thanks to aiah sa opportunidad na makapagsulat ulit at kumita sa flaform na ito.
Hindi ko sasayangin ang tiwala at kabaitan ng taong nagpapahiram ng account na ito at salamat din kay aiah dahil kundi dahil sa kanya hindi ko maranasang kumita dito sa cryptoworld.
Ang matagal konang pangarap na kumita gamit ang readcash ay halos abot kamay kona kung papalarin peru sana palarin nang may pambili ng yero kinuha kasi ni Odette di na binalik Lol.
Sa mga makakabasa po ng gawa humihinge po ako paunang pasensiya the way po ako magsulat haha Lalo na kay aiah pasensiya pinahiram mo kasi ako kaya yan tuloy nahaluan yung account mo ng nonsense content Lol. Peru promise I will do a better one nextime hihi.
My dear readers, again if nagtataka kayo kung TagLish gamit ko isa lang masasagot ko diyan hindi po ako confident gumamit ng pure english kasi hindi po ako magaling in terms of grammar huhuh peru gusto mag try next time.
For now pagtiyagaan niyo na sana tong gawa nato kasi I'm still on process to love and to learn how to be a good writer to write and publish a best article same a yours.
Sana mas mag eenjoy ako sa pag stay ko this time sa flatform nato at sana may matutunan narin para mas matutunan kong mahalin ang pagsusulat charot hihi.
`Any comment and suggestions on how to be a good writer, plss feel free to leave a comment bellow.`
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***God bless us all ;****
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Hello everyone. It's me Aiah. I just want to tell you that I'll be out for a meantime as I have important things to do. I don't want thi account to be abandoned that's why while I am away, I will let my friend to use my account for the meantime. I promise to get back soon. Thank you. ☺️
Hey self, wake up!
I am having a war against my inner self as I noticed being unproductive and unmotivated despite the fact that I really need to work not only for me but for my family. I wanna slap my self for me to wake up and focus to things. How I wish, I will have my self back same as before.
August 12, 2021
(This article should be published last night but because I can't upload image, I decided to just published it this morning.)
Here I am, trying my best to go back to the right track where I can be as active like before and having the motivation to write. If you're one of my co-writer who read my articles, you can noticed that I am not as active as before. I am out for days, or even weeks in noise.cash and even in read.cash, and the reason? Having a slow internet, logging phone and unmotivated self.
Before, I am so active in noise.cash and read.cash, I able to read 10 articles per day or even more and would leave comments also and upvotes. And in noise.cash, I am active there with some users who are noisy too. I able to earn $2-$3 a day in noise.cash and here in read.cash was $5-$10 per article. It's a big help for me and my family. I even said to myself to work more and grind more. But then here I am, being so lazy and nothing to write.
Though I am not writing an article, I sometimes read articles and leave comments especially if I like the article I am reading. But when I am about to write an article, my mind is blank and no matter what I type, I always ended deleting the words and will just watch movie without minding if I had write or not.
This past month, I wasn't able to give much to my parents as I don't have enough earnings like before and my savings were already used. I don't know what happened to myself why I am unmotivated to work. But this past days, I tried my best to read some articles, and I read some about their earnings and savings. And of how they able to have savings for staying and working more in the platforms. It made me realize of things that I need to wake my self up to experience what they were experiencing now.
I think of things what I want to achieve the day that I joined noise.cash and read.cash. I think of those plans and ended myself regretting. Regrets that I didn't grind more and stay being lazy. How I hate myself for being like this.
So since I am done reading some articles that motivates me, I am now slowly waking up. Well I hope, I really am. Anyway, I will not pressure myself but I will try my to be productive each day. I will be active in noise.cash again and read.cash. Will also try to publish an article once a day or thrice a week. I think that will be better than published nothing. I will also cope up to read other users article.
Well, I do hope that my phone will run with me. Coz I noticed that my phone is logging and I hardly can't open noise.cash and read.cash even if I have a good internet access. I even looked for an app of noise.cash in playstore but some users told me its fake and some said it's legit. But I will not compromise my account so I will stick to open my account in a browser for my account to be safe. I will just pray that my phone will be fine like before.
***Self wake up!***
So, self please wake up. Your family needs you. This time of pandemic, you need to be diligent in making things and finding extra income for your family. They might not ask you something, still they need you. They're just shy to say it but they need you.
This month is almost in the half way, and I think I need to set goals like others. I will set goals like before so that I will be motivated to be active and be interactive with others. And I need to be positive with things that surrounds me.
That's all for today. I am sorry for I don't have any topic to write. Maybe tomorrow I will write some challenge that other users did. I found it interesting and funny.
So, that's all for today. I hope I able to go right on track again. Have a nice day to all.
A glimpse to my past as a kid.
July 25, 2021
It's been two weeks since my last published article. I've been out here and just read and leaved comments to some articles here. I hate my self as I am not like before. I felt sorry of it too cause I am being lazy despite the fact that I need to work hard.
I've read some articles about "When I was a kid challenge." I found out that it was @bmjc98 challenge. Last night I've read @Zhyne06 work and it's kinda fun. I am hoping that I will be active today and to the following days. I have lots of notifications also, it only means I have lot of articles need to read.
So, I decided to write my own insights and memories of my childhood as well.
**What are the things I've done when I was a kid?**
*****When I was a kid, I always went to the farm together with my parents and siblings.*****
Being born in a poor family, I am proud to say that even if I am a girl, I always went to the farm with my parents. We always go to the farm where my parents plants root crops and the farm was our playground together with my siblings. We played there while our parents were working in planting root crops or harvesting crops. I can say that we're enjoying making fire out of twigs and weeds. We're the one who will piles the weeds and put it on fire. Yes, it's itchy holding those weeds but we're not complaining. Unlike other children who's playing outside, I and my siblings we're always at the farm. Sometimes, we can play outside together with our cousins but not so long.
*****When I was a kid, I don't like sleeping during afternoon.*****
My mom always telling me and my siblings to have a nap during afternoon. But my siblings don't like to sleep too. What we did is we make our blankets form as a house and we play bahay bahayan that makes our mom angry to us. Maybe it's also the reason why my height is short haha.
*****When I was a kid, I don't like watching horror movies*****.
Even up until now, I don't like watching horror movies. The reason is that, I can't forget the image and I felt like someone is watching me. I also dreamt about it that I feel like I am in that movie and I need to run for my life. And that's one of the scariest thing that happened to me after watching horror movies. I told my self that I will not watch horror movies again. If my siblings will watch, I always told them to minimize the volume cause it always startled me.
*****When I was a kid, I love watching anime and cartoons.*****
The anime that I've watch before was Flame of Rica, I just love the plot of the story. And for cartoons, I love watching Tom and Jerry hahaha. Even up until now, I like Tom and Jerry. We don't have tv when I was a kid. We just always went to my grandparents house to watch my favorites shows. Sometimes, I don't able to watch it cause my wicked cousin who always like to bully me and my siblings were there. She don't like us to watch with them that is why my father won't allow us to go there when my cousin was present.
*****When I was a kid, we always go to the river and take a bath there or to wash our clothes.*****
Since we're living in a province, our house don't have a faucet yet that time. So, I and my siblings together with our mom will go to the river to do the laundry and while mama was washing our clothes, I and my siblings will play to the river as we take a bath. We even used laundry soap as our soap before hahaha. Those days were so fun and I will cherish for sure as I gets old.
*****When I was a kid, we seldom have body soap and shampoo.*****
I will not be ashamed telling you guys that I experienced using laundry soap as our body soap when we take a bath. The reason is that my parents can't afford sometimes to buy body soap for us because my father's salary was just enough for our food. Do you know champion bar soap? Yes, that's our soap before. And since we don't have shampoo, we used coconut milk as alternative and we will just put lemon on it so that the smell will fade.
But know what, I am proud to say that even if we're using laundry soap, I and my siblings have nice and fair skin. That is why when someone asked us what our soap is, we will tell them champion bar and they will just laugh. Haha they won't believed us especially when my sister will tell it to them cause she's the one who have the fair skin among of us.
But now that we're old enough, we have complete set for our skin to protect and care. Those days talaga, subrang nakakamiss kasi nalagpasan namin yun haha.
*****When I was a kid, I experienced to sell food on the street to have my own money.*****
I am selling food before together with my siblings. Our mom was the one who cooked those food like suman and puto or kusinta. I am glad that mom knows how to cook those. Everytime we have those food, we sell it to the street or to houses so that we will have money to buy things we need in school. And also, to buy some rice and viand for us. We need to do selling to earn on our own. And it helped us so much.
Everytime we have a sardines in our table, I felt like we're rich already. How much more if it's corned beef or beef loaf. Haha. Those days, I really want to treasure.
Closing thought.
The hardship of life makes my family stronger. I can say that we already faced those trails in life, the hunger of being poor. But with those, I able to dream high for my family.
I am not aiming to be rich but what I like is to have goods and things that will help my family for our daily needs. K can say that the moment I graduated in high school, our life changed. We able to have our own things in the house. We can celebrate a little feast during occasions if there is. Unlike when I was a kid that it was so hard and we need to cope up the situation. I am just fortunate that my parents were doing their best for us.
***How about you? What you experienced when you are a kid?***
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I would like to say thank you to sir @Bjorn for asking me how I am cause I've been out for days. Thank you Sir for your concern, and I am okay po. ☺️
Eldest Child's dream. What happened?
July 7, 2021
Oh my gosh, it's been 7 days that I wasn't able to write an article. I don't know but I was a lil bit unmotivated and don't have something to write. My mind was blurry and I can't think of things to write. I always look at the screen but my hands and brain won't cooperate. My notification, was bombarded and it only means that I am not active this past few days. I need to catch up things in here.
So, my article is about the eldest child's dream. It is about the unreachable dream of an eldest child because of her own family.
I am fortunate to have everything I want in life. I am fortunate that I able to graduate in college. Everything I ask from my Ate's and Kuya's, they will give it to me. I am spoiled by them and I felt love. I am the youngest of the family. We're eight siblings and I am the only one who graduated a four year course while my siblings took vocational courses. Now, they are working in a company so that we have a food in the table. They also supports our parents needs especially vitamins cause they're getting old.
Looking at my graduation picture, I can say that I already reach my dream and that is to graduate in college. I am now doing my review for the upcoming examination. As I look in the picture in our wall, I saw my siblings picture wearing their white toga and some are black from their vocational courses they've graduated. Though they're already working now, I wasn't able to asked them if what's their dreams in life. Do they also have a dream like me. I look around and they're not here cause they're working in a company around the clock. Though they're not in a higher position, I am still proud of them cause they able to support this family.
One night, Ate Delly came. She's the second child of the family. Our other siblings especially the eldest was yet not around. Ate Delly and Ate Dolly, our eldest wasn't able to continue their studies after their high school but they're still working as a saleslady. I went to Ate Delly while she's sipping coffee. She smile at me as I sit in front of her.
"Do you want coffee, Dalhia?" She asked me.
"No Ate, thanks I'm done already." I replied.
"Oh, I see." She continue sipping her coffee.
"Ate, may I asked a question?"
"Sure."
"I am just wondering, ahm actually, I want to know if what's your dream? We haven't able to talked about it. Actually all of us siblings" I started.
She looked at me and smile. A little silence before she open her mouth.
"You know, my only dream is that we will be complete even we all gets old. My dream is that we're all in this house during holidays like Christmas and birthdays. Ate Dolly went to Manila to work as a saleslady after her graduation in high school, same with her I done it also. We need to do it to help Mama and Papa cause you know, we're so many. You were little that time. We're both glad that we able to support your studies. From your Kuya and you. We're happy for our family of what we have now." She said and stood up. She put the cup on the sink and walk inside after she smiled at me.
I want to say something but I am not able to speak. She didn't answer my question but I know what she mean. I know what they've done for us to continue our studies. I know how they manage to make money for us to survive everyday. I know how much they sacrifice for our family but I really don't know what's their dream. Now that I asked, I think she don't like to talk what it is. Maybe she just want to forget it. I know they're happy for us. I saw how proud they were during my graduation. And I am proud of them too.
Looking at my Ate Delly, I felt pity to her and to Ate Dolly. They sacrifice their dreams for us their siblings. I can't blame my parents though cause I understand their situation. But looking at her, I know she have a dream but she kept it inside. I'm sorry Ate. I'm sorry that you sacrificed your dreams because of us.
Closing Thoughts
In our tradition and norms, sometimes I don't like it really. I don't agree and for me it should be stopped. Why do some eldest child suffer because of parents decisions and choices in life? Though not all parents were like that but still, we can't deny the fact that many parents were not ready with their obligations. They tend to pass their responsibility to their children once they grow up. What's their purpose of having a child? As a parent, they should know that their responsibility has no ending and no day offs. They should know that there's no retirement on it that once you're tired, you're going to pass it on your children.
I've known someone who did it. A parent who doesn't know how to do his responsibility. Why did he have children after all if he can't able to do his responsibility right? I felt pity for the children.
The burden is always passed to the eldest. Sometimes the eldest dreams died because he/she will sacrifice for his/her siblings. I am not saying that eldest should not done that cause it's his/her choice to do. It's not his/her obligations.
That's why, if you're not ready to have a big responsibility, you should not have children. Much better, if you already have regular work or if not, you are willing to work for your family. As a parent, it's better to have children if your status is already stable. Why? So that your children will not suffer from your choices. Always think of the consequences.
Staying stuck somewhere you don't want to belong is painful.
June 30, 2021.
It's really painful to be stuck in one place struggling about life and finding where we belong. How can we move away from the place where we are having a hard time to grow? Well we able to surpass the pain?
I believe in the saying by Mandy Hale,
"Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is painful as staying stuck somewhere you don't belong."
I've been in the situation where I and my family is struggling about life. I want change and I want to grow. But doing these two things were hard and painful. I need to face trials in life that sometimes makes me weak to move forward and sometimes makes me go back to where I am standing and stay. But then when I thought that I will not grow if I will stay to where I am standing, no changes and no improvement will happen. That is why, I moved little by little hoping to change what's my situation is.
*The following are true. Here's why:*
**Growth is painful**
For a person like me who belong to a poor family, I can say that growing oneself wasn't easy. We need to face lots of trials and challenges in life for us grow. Grow in the sense that we need to be strong and firm. Strong in facing challenges and firm when in terms of decision. We should not be weak in facing challenges because we're not able to succeed. We need to be firm in decision making and before we decide, we need to think twice or thrice before doing it. Painful because we don't have enough asset to easily access here in this world. Our movements were limited because we're lack with financial support. That is why if we want to succeed, we need to grow despite of the painful trials and experiences.
But you know what? Being poor is also an advantage. Why? Because we're able to live where we'll be put in life. Cause we are strong and immune with hardships. The hardships in life makes us strong to face different kind of trials that comes in life. And we poor people don't easily get knocked by life cause we will fight until we succeed.
**Change is painful.**
Change is also painful coz in order for us to grow, we need to get out of our comfort zone. A person like me needs to be courageous to get out of my comfort zone for us to embrace change. We need to do this because we want to change our status in life. Since we're already tired of struggling almost everyday just to stay alive. It's hard to deal life challenges everyday that you don't know if you'll win or not. So, in order to win the challenge we need to be ready in accepting change even if we knew that the challenge is not easy. Because in our mind and heart, we need to face it coz we want it and we have a goals in life.
**But nothing is much painful as staying stuck somewhere you don't belong.**
I didn't mean that I shouldn't belong in a poor status of a family. What I mean is that, it's hard and painful to be stuck in this kind of status in life. Who wouldn't, right? It's much painful to stay like this, always struggling to make a living. I want to see my parents happy and experience good life coz it's painful to see them working in the farm despite their age. I don't want them to be stuck in this situation until they gets older. I want to make our life more easier and to enjoy while they're alive.
Closing thoughts
Since I don't want to be stuck in our situation like this, I did my best to fight our trials as family. We helped each other to ease the pain in our journey. I am glad that my parents wants us not to be in their shoes and they pushed us to finish our studies. For them, education is the key that we their children will not suffer like them.
I set goals in life that I wanted to achieve. I can say that I am still far from the goals I set. But atleast, I am making a little move as I grow and change.
One thing that helps me now not to feel the pain of struggling is BCH. Through noise.cash and read.cash, I able to ease the pain our family been feeling coz it was like I have a work as I stay with these amazing platforms. Why I say so? Because I able to earn here like a real employee and I know that to have a savings BCH will give my family a good fortune and it will help us change our status in life. That's what I've been putting my mind. And I believe it will happen.
How about you? Do you want to be stuck with your situation now? Or are you willing to feel the pain of growth and change but will give you the life that will ease the pain afterwards?
I am 'CHEATING' with myself.
June 29, 2021
***Have you experienced fooling yourself? Have you experienced doing something against your will? Have you tried cheating with yourself? Did you experienced having a war between your heart and mind?***
Is it possible for us to cheat to ourself? Are we able to cheat with ourself? Well, I did. How did I cheat myself?
There are things that we can't control. Events that we never expected and sometimes makes us to decide that instant even without thinking. These are things that I cheated with myself.
Saying I'm okay, even though I am not.
Sometimes, I don't trust people around me and that I want to keep something on my own. Heartaches and problems that I want to keep by myself. That when someone asked me I am okay or how am I doing, all I will say is that 'I am okay' though I am really not. Because I am afraid to be criticized when I tell them what I feel coz I know some of them will not understand and will think I am just dramatic. I can say that I am a sensitive person, I easily get hurt with words that is not indirectly said but I knew what's behind it. So, I better stay silent and will say 'I'm okay!'. There are some people who knows me well and that's my parents and my boyfriend. If I will say I am okay, they won't believe coz they know I am not.
Smile even if I am sad.
There were times that I will smile even if I am sad inside. I'll smile to my friends and classmates before even if the truth is I am sad an having much pain especially when we have problems in our family. I smile at school even if my mind was in trouble of thinking what will happen to our family. I've been cheating of myself playing happy even if I am not. In order for me not to be sad anymore, I'm looking for ways to be genuinely happy like watching movies but then pain is always there.
Saying 'Yes' even if I want to say 'No'.
I hate myself sometimes when I don't know how to decline to a person. I am afraid to decline coz he/she might get mad at me or disappointed with me. Especially if the person is close to me like my friend or a relative. This was before when I always dwell with what might other people would say. Coz I don't want to hear bad things about me that is why I always do things just to please them though I, myself, don't want it. It's like cheating to myself coz I disregard my own thought and deeds just for them. But when I already understands how to deal people, I thought of myself how fool I am coz I let people manipulate me for being that kind of person who don't know how to say no. When I learned how to say no, I learned who are those people who I should trust.
Closing thought
Why did I say that I am cheating with myself? It is because I am not being true with myself before. I always disregard my own beliefs and thoughts for other people. The thought that I will be okay if I ill do this things was a total mistake. I never grow living with this cheat.
When I noticed that I am not growing because of these cheating scheme of myself, I tried my best to change it and to not cheat with myself again. Coz at the end of the day, I am still the one who always suffer. I may look happy but the truth is I am not. When I learned how to love myself first, it was the time that I never cheated on myself and I want to be genuine. Coz if I am true with myself, all the things around me seems so light and not heavy. I can move easily and I am not minding what other people would say as long as I am not harming others.
***How about you? Have you ever tried to fool or cheat yourself? If yes, can you share it with me? The comment section is open for your reactions with my article for today.***
By the way this is a prompt #6 of Ms. @JonicaBradley , I know lots of you here already knew. And also I have read lots of users wrote an article about this prompt. You can also write yours. Just follow the rules of the prompt. You can read it in Ms. Jonica's published article.
Ciao!
What makes me happy?
June 28, 2021
To be happy is our choice. It depends to the person if he/she chose to be happy with his/her life and stay away in a toxic situation. So, what's make us happy everyday?
There are lots of things that's making us happy as a person. It might be things that we wants and needs. Or, a person we love the most like family, friends and relatives or the love ones. They all give us kinds of happiness in different level.
Who makes me happy?
***My parents.***
Even we're poor, my parents makes me happy each day of my life. Not with the things they can give but with the love and support they showed for me. The nurture of their warm care makes me feel alive and inspired. That even hard times in life, I can say that I can win challenges of life because of them. With them, I am getting stronger day by day.
Looking forward for us makes me wanting more and doing more. They're the strength that pushing me to move forward and don't quit. The dream to want fullfil for them gives me the courage in reaching those. They're my happiness that I want to stay forever. I know forever doesn't exist, but I will make sure that the happiness in us will stay forever.
***My siblings***
Though we fight sometimes, I can say that they give me the happiness that others can't give. They complete me as of who I am as a sibling. They're the one who tries to test how long is my patience as the eldest. They're also the one who makes me happy and mad at the same time. Have you tried having a debate with your siblings and it ends into trouble? And then if you both noticed what you've done, you all laugh because you felt you're so smart and no one wants to accept defeat not until your father intervened. Hahaha, that happened to us and honestly, it's so shameful cause we're all wrong when Papa opened his mouth.
***My Bebe (Sana oil)***
It's always ecstatic when you know that your partner supports you and your interest in life. Like me, I am so glad that my partner understand my situation and he's been supporting me since day one. He's one of those people who believes me in things I can make aside with my family. He's also happy that I able to found a platform that helps me to earn while at home so that I can help my parents. He truly believes that I will reach my goals in life cause he said I am a hard working person. Haha I hope so cause sometimes I am lazy. But I am doing my best to be active and productive each day.
***My little circle of friends***
They are one of those people who makes me laugh hard when I am down with life sometimes especially if I have problems in our family. They're always there for me to cheer me up and give me advices. They always give me the laugh that I can't have at home especially that my father was strict and don't like me to laugh aloud. They're the one who introduce me of things that makes me laugh and sometimes makes me ew. Haha. Don't get me wrong! They're the one who makes me ew cause they're so obsessed with abs haha. For me, I am not really fond with abs though my bebe have. Haha lol.
To have someone who believes in you give you the happiness and the confidence in yourself. Through their genuine support, we will able to achieve our goals in life little by little. We don't need lots of people in our lives. It's better to have less people surrounds us as long as they're true. People that will help you reach your goals in life and lift you up. Those are the people we need in life. Thanks God I have those kind of people, I thank God for giving me those kind of people who loves me for who I am.
What makes me happy?
I just want to be honest, nowadays only noise.cash and read.cash were making me happy aside from those people I love most. These two platforms makes me happy so much cause practically speaking, I am earning here through interaction with others.
***Noise.cash***
I found noise.cash first before read.cash. I was not very active when I first join this platform cause I wasn't able to receive tips there. But still I continue posting. Sometimes I forgot to post that is why I don't have earnings. But then when I saw some goals here in read.cash that they able to achieve a lot in noise.cash, I told myself why not try. So, I go back to noise.cash and tried to be active there and I love the outcomes.
At first, I only got little tips there, and I understand cause I am not active. I commented to some users there, until I noticed that my subscribers in noise.cash were added. It sunked in my mind that the more you interact, the more friends you'll have.
So I continue being active there. And having fun exchanging thoughts with other users. I have learned a lot about life with other users there cause they're been posting positive thoughts and vibes that will surely made your day. And all I can say is that, I am in the right track.
***Read.cash***
Since the day that I joined here, I can't count how many blessings I received here. From day one until now. There were times that I can't publish an article yet rusty will give me a visit and give me rewards with my hard work. All were paid off and Yi am so thankful with it.
I found virtual friends here whom I learned to handle with life. I learned from their articles about life and all. I can have advice from them. I feel their warm welcome and the good vibes they share. Lots of people here who helped each other though we don't know them and we're totally strangers. The happiness inside is immeasurable. Aside that I am earning BCH, I am also earning friends. Glad to have them here.
I still not able to reach my goal to have atleast 1BCH cause I always used my earning for my family's needs but then the happiness inside felt so heaven. It's like that I still reached my goals cause I able to help my family through my earnings here. Anyway, I am still saving my BCH little by little. I won't quit in reaching my goals to atleast 1BCH in the future.
Thank you @Eunoia for the sponsorship. Hihi more BCH sayo pati na rin sakin at sa ating lahat haha. 😁
The kinds of students I encountered during my practicum.
Some of us here were students before and some are still students. We already knew what kind of students we are inside the classroom.
During my student teaching, I able to know students which gave me the lesson in life thought I already knew some characters of a student, still I have lots of characters of them to know.
These are the kinds of students in my classroom before.
Hyper
They're the students who have lots of energy from morning till afternoon. You can see them so active and loves to mingle with his or her classmates. They're attitude of being so active will help you active too.
Joker of the class
The type of students who loves to make his classmates laugh. But sometimes they're irritating coz some of their jokes were below the belt that is why you need to guide them and teach them which and when to have jokes. And teach them what joke is not offensive and teach them know their limits.
Shy from day 1 until now.
They're the one who almost don't like to talk. They can't even see you in the eyes. When you call them, either they won't stand or if they're going to stand, they'll look under their table. You need to get their attention and show an encouragement smile for them to let ho of their selves.
Talkative much
This kind of students were totally irritating especially if they don't know their limitations. Some of them talk even if you're talking in front. They also loves to ask questions which is non-snes but all you have to do is to understand them and give still an answer in a good way. Some of them knows how to respect but some of them don't. They loves to talk even if you're in front.
Lazy in passing assignments
This kind of students don't be like to pass their assignment. They will tell you that they're not able to do their assignment at home. As a teacher, you will understand once but never the second, third and fourth. Students should know to answer their assignment.
No paper
This kind of student always asked from his/her classmates a especially during quizzes. I can say that I was like that before coz I don't able to buy one. That is my doing when I was in college but when I was in high school and elementary, I always makes sure that I have paper. I understand this kind of students cause not all can afford to buy. That is why when I did the practicum, I am giving my students paper everytime I give a quiz.
The smart one
These kinds of students always makes me challenge. Coz they can easily understand what's I am teaching in front that is why I always see to it give a much higher exercise for him. He always gives answer to his classmates that is why I always let him sit on the teacher's chair and do his quiz in the table.
The weak one
Not all students are smart and can easily gets what you're been talking in front that is why you need to elaborate more. This kind of students always test my patience. I can say that handling these kinds of students sometimes makes me irritated cause they're not excellent in the class but they're very active when it comes to relationship. Like what?But then ,as a teacher, J don't need to spill offended words, instead I will explain to them how important is them for study and that having a relationship during class is not bad as long as he/she knows his responsibility as a student.
The deaf
This kind of students sometimes is funny yet irritating. When I am hiving a quiz and tell them to get a one fourth sheet of paper, they will asked me again. So, I will laugh sometimes and tell them yes. Some students tends to repeat my words everytime I have something to ask during recitation or in giving quiz.
The kdrama addict
This kinds of students loves to talk about kdramas and the series they've been watching. And they talked about their bias. Sometimes, some of them can't answer if I asked them questions. Maybe because they're lack of time for studying their notes. That is why I always telling them it's okay to watch kdramas as long as they will also give time to study. It's good for releasing stress that you watch your favorite series but the. Always remember that study is the first priority.
Closing thoughts
Students are in need when we talk about their needs in the school. They really rely on the teacher for them to understand situation. I can say that being a teacher is not easy cause it will test your patience and your will to teach.
As a teacher, we should be more open-minded and open up our hearts to them. Understand every behavior and of what's behind those behavior they're been showing. It may hard for us but if we knew the weakness of our students we can easily fix things for them, physically or emotionally.
I still have many kinds of students to write but then my eyes is getting close because I am too sleepy. So, you can add up in the comment section those kind of students that I didn't able to write.
Pabayaan mo sila.
**Kumusta ang career after two years? Yung iba may trabaho na. Yung iba nag asawa na. Yung iba naman, nakapasok na sa Deped. Samantalang yung iba, masaya na na nasa bahay lang.**
Palagi ko naririnig sa mga kapitbahay kapag nakikita nila ako.
*Nasa Deped ka na?*
*May trabaho ka na?*
*Ay! Bakit wala ka pang trabaho?*
*Sayang tinapos mo pero wala ka pang trabaho.*
*Nako! Wag ka mag call center, gagaya ka kay bobay na palaging puyat wala naman naipon.*
*Buti okay lang sa magulang mo?*
*Nako! Magtrabaho ka na, kawawa magulang mo, di mo pa masuklian sa sakripisyo nila sayo.*
*Baka naman pagkanakapag-trabaho ka na mag-iba ugali mo.*
*Yung anak ni ano, nakapasok na sa Deped.*
*Si Betyang nasa Private, bakit ikaw wala ka pa trabaho?*
Ito lang naman lang naman ang mga nakakarininding mga tanong ng kapitbahay namin na mga relatives lang din namin. Parang atat na atat silang makapagtrabaho na ko. Kung tutuusin, dapat naiintindihan nila na mahirap magtrabaho ngayon lalo na at subrang higpit dahil sa lockdown kesyo may Covid. Gustuhin ko man na magtrabaho na, pero wala akong magawa kasi ayaw ng Papa ko na sumuong akonsa sitwasyong wala pang kasiguraduhan. Gusto ko magpunta ng lungsod at magtrabaho gaya ng Cebu or Manila para magtrabaho pero pinipigilan ako ng Papa ko sa takot dahil sa Covid. Pinaintindi ko na sa Papa ko na gusto ko magtrabaho para kahit papano makatulong ako at makaipon ng pera. Pero ang sabi ng papa ko ***"Ang pera anjan lang yan at madaling makita, pero ang anak pag nawala, kailanman di na makikita, mas gustuhin ko pa na andito tayo sa bahay at sama sama kesa mabaliw ako kakaisip kung napano ka na sa syudad na wala kang kilala. Delikado ang panahon ngayon, kaya mas mabuting dumito ka muna."*** Yan ang palagi nyang sinasagot kapag nag-uusap na kami tungkol sa trabaho. Matatakutin kasi ang Papa ko pag sakit na ang pag-uusapan. Si mama ko naman naiiyak pagkanag-uusap na kami ng ganun. Di na ko baby para ganun amging reaksyon nila, pero wala akong magagawa. Ganun siguro talaga ang magulang.
Kaya ngayon andito lang ako sa bahay. Walang ibang ginawa mga kapitbahay namin kundi ekompara ako sa mga taong may trabaho na. Hindi nila alam na yung kinukumpara nila sakin ay mas nauna pa kesa sakin na makatapos at matagal din nakapasok sa Deped. Masyadong mababa ang tingin nila sa call center agent pero pagka umuuwi naman yung taong yun, makadikit sila parang linta. Di ko talaga maintindihan ang ibang tao. Bakit subra silang manglait at makialam sa iba samantalang sila wala din namang ginagawa sa araw araw kung hindi mag chismisan. Hindi naman ako nanghihingi sa kanila pero kung makialam akala mo sila ang nagpaaral sakin at nagpatapos.
Apektado ako, oo, kasi kahit ako subrang frustrated na magkatrabaho. Pero yun nga, di ko na lang sila pinapansin. Kasi di naman nila alam na kahit papano kahit nasa bahay lang ako kumikita ako. Di ko lang sinasabi sa kanila kasi di naman nila ko paniniwalaan eh. Kaya be it na lang.
Masakit talaga mahusgahan ng tao. Pero ganun talaga eh, marami perfectionist sa paligid at wala na ako magagawa dun kasi nature na nila yun. Lahat na lang nakikita nila at di sila mag-aatubiling magsalita kahit nakakasakit na sila ng tao. Kaya sabi ng mga magulang ko pabayaan na lang sila kasi di naman sila nakakatulong. At alam nila balang araw makakapasok din ako sa DEPED. Sa ngayon, hintayin ko lang muna ang tamang panahon para sakin.
Buti na lang talaga at andiyan mga magulang ko at handang intindihin ang sitwasyon. Mahirap talaga ngayon humanap ng trabaho, yung mga private school naman hindi na kumuha ng mga bagong guro dito banda sa amin. At isa pa ayoko din mag work sa private schools kasi mababa ang sweldo, sakto lang pang boarding house at pagkain, paano naman ang mga magulang ko? Wala ako maibigay kung ganun.
Buti na lang talaga at nakilala ko tong read.cash at noise.cash kasi kahit papano may kita at nakakapagbigay sa magulang ko. Mas malaki din ang kita ko araw araw dito kesa sa sahod ng mga nasa private. Di sa pagmamayabang pero totoo na malaki ang tulong ng read.cash sakin. Kasi kahit nasa bahay lang at di kailangan tumutok masyado, may kita ka dito basta makipag interact lang sa iba at gumawa ng article. Kailangan magsipag talaga. Pero kung papansinin, mas nakakapagod magtrabaho sa private school lalo na at tambak ngayon ang paperworks dahil sa module. Kaya, blessings talaga sakin ang read.cash.
Closing thoughts
***Hindi mo kailangan mamuhay dahil sa mga sinasabi ng iba. Kung wala ka naman naaapakang tao, continue mo lang ginagawa mo. Lahat ng tao may tamang oras para sa sarili gaya ng trabaho, relasyon at iba pa. Di mo kailangan magmadali kasi lahat nakaplano na kay Lord. Kailangan lang talaga magtiwala. Wag agad papaapekto sa ibang tao.***
***Gaya ng sabi ni Papa ko, wala naman daw silang naitulong sakin kaya bakit daw ako makikinig sa kanila. Ang importante may ginagawa daw ako para maging maayos ang hinaharap. Swerte lang siguro talaga ako kasi sila mama at papa ko, naiintindihan nila ako at di ni-pressure na magtrabaho agad. May mga kasabayan kasi ako na nag graduate pero agad nagtrabaho dahil sa pressured sila sa parents nila.***
***Kaya pabayaan mo yung mga taong walang naitulong sayo kundi puro panghuhusga. Kasi balang araw matatauhan din yang mga yan at lalapit sayo pag may kailangan. Kapit lang.***
You will see an entirely different world, if?
We all have those negative moments in our life. Sometimes we thought it's winning but then we fought. We can't unpack and just live in there, we need to fight even we're struggling.
***How to see a different world from yours now? What I want in life to be out of this world I am in? What I need to do? This questions always linger in my mind. I am thinking of what if's. What if I am not in this kind of situation?***
I live in a family of poor of the poorest. I know I've been telling you this in my previous articles. I always say we're poor and that's true. That is why I want to change my world I am in. Thinking of my dreams and ways to be out of it.
These are the things I am doing to see a different world from mine now.
Working in reaching goals in life
Though I am still unemployed, I am finding ways to save for future matters. I really want to be out of this situation of ours. The frustration I felt inside is getting worst as days go by. Looking to our house, I always tell myself to do everything I could just to renovate our old house. Looking my parents doing their best for our family even they're old. They motivate me to do my best too for them.
Since I am unemployed, I find ways to earn and what I've found was noise.cash and then read.cash. I am saving my BCH little by little and some of it, I used to buy things we need everyday. I am saving BCH cause I want to change our living status. Yes, I believe in BCH so much. I believe that through this, our life will change to better than now. And with it, I will able to experience things I didn't experienced. And I will able to support my parents for their needs.
My goals always reminds me to do my best and work myself to reach it, not only for myself but for my family.
Pray to God that He'll guide me with my plans.
I believe that plans and works will be successful if we pray for it to God. Every plans I have in life, I always surrendered it to Him. And everytime my plans won't work, I will pray for Him and asked Him guidance and strength that I will able to accept it. And I always put in mind that every plans that never succeeded means I have a better one to come. Plans should be followed by actions, that is why when I plan, I always make sure that I will do the action in order to achieve it. Even a little step in pursuing my plans and goals in life is a good start cause I know, I will reach it if I do the act. It may be hard but I know God will not leave me hanging.
Don't listen to other people who don't believe in you and your capabilities.
It's sad that there are lots of people who will discouraged you in reaching your goals in life. Those are people who don't want you to succeed in life that is why I won't listen to them, instead I prove them wrong. Some of my relatives are the one who's dragging me down and always telling me I can't make it and I am just an ambitious one. But I won't mind them at all.
Now that I am earning in read.cash, everytime we will buy groceries from my earnings, they will always think that the money we used was from my father's siblings. That they always say that we're asking help to father's siblings which is not true. We never asked help from my father's siblings cause my father is ashamed to do it. You see, they think that we're not able to buy foods on our own and that we just rely on other people. That is why, I am working myself here so that if I accumulate atleast 1BCH, I will able to make our life change and prove to my relatives that they're wrong.
Positive thinking and not to mind negative vibes.
We all have this negative moments in life and that no ones exempted on it. But always win this moment cause we will still be the one to suffer if we let this win over us. I always think of positive thoughts so that I will not be dragged down even other people like my relatives always talks negative to us. I won't let their negativity affect us. Anyway, I already saw them not being successful so I will not let myself be draged into them. Positive mindset will always brings success to everyone.
Closing thoughts
To dream is not bad. Especially that it's free. So, I am free to dream that someday, our life status will change to better and will be different from what we are living now. I am looking for different status which is better than now.
I may be need to move in a tight way just to get there but still I am willing to reach it. Just to reach it. I may look a frustrated one, but I admit I am. Who wouldn't, right? So, for those who have a better situation or status, you're lucky you didn't able to experience my experiences in life. And you don't need to work hard for goals in life.
I am aiming to be rich, but I want to be in regular status which I can't see my parents struggling anymore. Someday, I will reach my goals, maybe not now but soon.
My Father's Dream
***What do you feel when you see your parents struggling? What do you feel when you see your parents in need but you can't do anything for them? What will you do to make them happy? Are you willing to reach their goals in life?***
I already shared an article here regarding our status in life. My parents life and mine. I saw how they struggle in raising me and my siblings but I never seen them quit in life, instead I seen how motivated they are.
I want share you today what are my father's dream in life. I knew cause we talked about it before. When he was sharing his life when he's not yet married.
The dreams he wants to pursue.
Finish studies in college.
This dream of him remain as dream until now. He wasn't able to reach this one because of his parents choice in life. He wasn't supported with his studies because his mom was away from them, his siblings. And he was the one who stood up us parents to his siblings. He said that at the age of 8, he started to work in the farm to earn a little amount of money for him to support his siblings needs especially in studies. He sacrifice his dreams for his siblings. When their mother went home to their province, she only get the youngest and brought to Manila to study. While my father and other siblings were in the province. His two siblings died because of sickness and it took 10 years before he saw his mother again. And he was already 17 years old that time. His mother told him to enroll in high school since he passed the examination that able him to jump to higher level in school. But my father declined cause he don't want to continue his studies anymore cause his age is older for that level he said, and he already have a work that time in a factory.
That is why, he wants to pursue his dream through his children.
Finish his children's studies in college.
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Since he didn't reach his goal about his studies before, he's been doing his best just for us to finish our studies in college. I can say that he was struggling in pushing us all in our school. You see, I wasn't able to continue to study college after high school because he can't afford that time. I waited for three years. And thanks God that I able to finish it despite the hardships we face on that journey. I able to reach his dreams before. Now, our youngest will have her graduation this July and she will be a college students soon. My brother also is a 3rd year college this coming school year. I am proud how Papa manage to push as all in our studies. Though one of us not able to go to college cause she's married already. But still, sibling is sibling, we will help her in her life too. Especially our niece which is living in our parents.
A two storey house.
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Papa is a carpenter, and he is the one who worked our house. He's been dreaming to have a story house. But our house now is not yet done because of lack of materials. Especially now that we're in pandemic state, he don't have enough earnings in his work. But, still he's fighting for it. I can see in his eyes that he's so eager to make our house complete.
To own a land to till.
My parents have a farm but the land they're tilling is not ours. It is my Mama's Aunt. They let my parents take care of the land through planting roots crops. My father always think that someday he will have his own land and own farm. My parents loves to plant root crops ever since we were child. Those crops we're our food when we don't have money to buy rice. I am glad that my parents are so diligent and responsible cause they don't want us to get hungry.
Motorcycle
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My father wants to have a motorcycle. He wants to have even a second hand one but I told him that much better if brand new. But until now, he still don't have that motorcycle. It's been so long that he's walking from our home to his work. Sometimes his work is far from our house, especially if the client lives in the next barangay. Now, he always do a commute in going to his work and it's a total hassle for him. He said he will buy materials first for our house before he buy a motorcycle. My poor little father. Hay.
Closing thought.
***Seeing my father and mother struggling is so painful. That I want to get those tired feelings and exhaustions they feel. I want them to live a happy life. If magic only exist, I will wish for a good life for them so that they don't need to work hard for a living. When I didn't know about read.cash before, I felt so hopeless and useless cause I can't even help them in our house especially in financial since I don't have work yet. But now that I knew already about noise.cash and read.cash, especially BCH, I able to help them a little and that make me happy seeing them happy and smile.***
***Looking at him reaching his goals in life gives me the motivation to do my thing as his daughter. True that it's not an obligation of a daughter to return the favor we got from our parents. But seeing my parents like that, I want to be a successful one in the future for them so that I can give the life they deserves. I want to reach their dreams. Little by little.***
***The happiness I felt during the time that I able to save money through noise.cash and read.cash is immeasurable. Through earning here, I able to look good future for my parents. That I felt that I can reach their goals soonest. That I don't need to wait when I will have a work cause these days, I able to earn while at home. Little by little, I able to save. And I know, one of this days, I will able to grant my father's wish. And that is to have a motorcycle. And for the house, I will make ways for it. For now, I need to do one by one.***
***Papa, I will do everything for you, both with Mama. Just hang in there.***
BCH makes me an Independent Girl.
**To be a girl is not easy. Some people will just say that girls rely only with their man. That girls can't do other stuff what man can do.**
I want to stop that kind of mindset of other people especially the oldies. Some oldies thought of things like that, that girls are only for the house and to take care of their husbands and children when married. That girls should tie their selves in the house taking care of the kids and no need to find a job cause their husband will be the one to make a living for them. I want to cut that tradition. I don't want to be a girl that live in that kind of tradition. I want to earn my own money.
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My father told me before when I was just a teenager, a high schooler, that I need to study and finish it for me not to live that kind of life. That if I want to have my own money when I get married, I need to finish study so that I can find a regular job and earn a regular wage of an employee. My father don't want me to be a dependent woman to the man I will marry in the future. That he said, it's better to have own money than just to wait to receive from husbands. In our country, not all in-laws will be happy with the wife of their son especially if the in-laws will talk about money and money. And that's what I am afraid for. I am praying that if ever , I get married, I hope my in-laws are kind and not that kind of people. But to prevent that to happen, I need to make myself diligent in earning my own money. Because in our country, almost the problems of marriage is because of the in-laws and wife not in good means about money. So, in order to prevent it from happening, I need to make myself diligent in having my own money.
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When I graduated at college, all I think is to save money for my future but first, I will return my parents sacrifices even if they're not asking anything from me. My father told me it's not my obligations to return what they've done for me cause it's their responsibility. I am touched by their words and it motivates me to do my very best to have a work and permanent job for them. I want them to experience good life.
But when I graduate, I thought looking for a job is easy, I was wrong. Especially that after graduation, there was a pandemic happened so until now I am unemployed. After a year when I graduate, ***I heard about noise.cash and then about read.cash. It was the time that I earned BCH. In fact, I am already two months here since yesterday, yey. And with that two months, I can say that became an Independent woman.*** Independent in the sense that I don't need to ask from my parents money to buy load, personal things and I able to buy us foods.
***With BCH, I able to dream things. I am imagining things for the future using BCH. I never thought that I able to earn while at home without using my degree, papers and licence.*** With BCH, I able to make my parents smile. They can't believe that I able to give them things that a child can give only when working. But look at me, I able to support our family with BCH and aside from that I able to save for the future. Not in the bank of course cause I don't have any bank account, only my bitcoin.com and coinsph as my bank account. BCH is truly for all people.
Today, it's father's day. A day for all fathers in the world. And I already greeted my father. Since we don't have any bakery here, I wasn't able to buy him a cake. So, I thought of practical things. I withdraw some of my earnings in BCH even this time that BCH is low. I withdraw it and bought groceries and 1 sack of rice. I want them to be happy in my simple deed to them. At least, Papa will not buy rice for about 1 month for us. I want to celebrate today but city is far from our house and we don't have own motorcycle to go there. And if I do a commute, I will pay double for the fair, so I tell Papa sorry. He laugh and just said that it was fine. He even bow his head when he saw the one sack of rice and groceries I bought in the nearby store. This kind of celebrating for parents, make me sad sometimes cause we didn't able to experience to celebrate it. How I wish we able to celebrate it in the future.
Now that I am earning while at home, I don't need to ask from my parents for my needs. I wish that this platform will last long same with noise.cash. This is really a big help for me while I don't have work yet. I even plan to work here still even if I will have work in the future. I do plan to earn at least 1BCH and that is my goal now. For my family's good future. I hope God will hear me and grant my prayer.
***How about you? Are you an independent woman? What makes you independent?***
Remembering the OLD AIAH.
Yesterday (June 18, 2021), was a tough day for me since the day I stayed here in read.cash. Last night, while lying in bed holding my blanket soak with my tears, (luha lang ahh walang kasamang sipon) chaaarrrot drama, because of the fear consuming me inside for someone I don't know. Maybe it's just normal cause it's first time for me. It's my first time to join a platform and glad that it's legit, and then it's my first time that someone did that to me.
I never thought that I will love this platform after it helped me this time of pandemic. It may be overacting for other people, it's true that I am grateful with read.cash. I am not active with noise.cash lately but today, I am so much active today and I am glad that I able to receive heart values.
Okay, done with chitchats. So, why does my title "Remembering the Old Aiah"? It is because last night, I able to think of things after I got affected with someone's doing. Who would have thought that the old Aiah will shown last night?
**These are Aiah's characteristics before. The old me:**
***The crybaby.***
I don't know why but I easily cry for little things. I easily got hurt and so sensitive. I overcome this one when I was in college at the age of 19. I told my self that I should not be sensitive and stop my self to be a crybaby. That I should be strong in facing challenges and trials in life. I stopped my self as a crybaby cause I noticed that some people making this as my weakness and they love fooling me around cause they know that I easily hot hurt and cry. Note, my own relatives were the one who always made me cry. So, I change my self to better.
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But last night, the old Aiah showed up. I never thought that I will cry with that little encounter. Maybe because I was afraid I may able not to receive anymore rewards from my hard work here. I am afraid because lots of consequences were running in my mind, some what if's and many more. I am afraid because I am so frustrated nowadays. I am frustrated to earn for my family. It's hard this time of pandemic. The only light I found during pandemic is read.cash for my family. It helps me a lot that I able to give my parents the needs we need for daily living. Sound's funny for others but for me it's not. My goal here is to save BCH for good future and for our daily needs. I am splitting my earning to two.
***Nervous Aiah***
I am a nervous person. Even during college, I felt that nervousness and sometimes I can't control it especially in facing many people. But glad I overcome it since I need to be thick faced in front of my future students. But last night, my nervousness strikes. It's been so long that I felt nervous. Due to my nervousness, I chatted my friends to ease what I feel. I actually don't know what to feel last night but the nervousness was consuming me. I am just fortunate that I able to find virtual Friends and they helped me. Guys, I may not able to mention you one by one but from the bottomest (meron ba nun, luka-luka, bottom lang hahaha) of my heart, I am thankful to all of you. Thanks for the help guys.
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***Weak Aiah***
I know, I've shown my weakness last night. I even wrote a short article last night out of uncontrolled feelings. I read it this morning, I felt a little shame cause it's like I am begging. But what can I do? And, I am just happy cause despite of the weakness I showed last night, no one dare to make fun of me. Thank you for that.
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I am just a little bit amazed cause rusty gave me to that article I made. How generous it was.
**Closingthought:**
No one wants to show weakness to others cause they might use it against you. But last night, I never thought that my old self will showed because of someone who's a total stranger. It's my first time to encounter a man who showed his attitude in dragging people down because his opinion was not accepted by others. It is okay to express what you feel but always remember not to drag other people down. Cause at the end of the day, it is your downfall and not the person you've been attacking in to.
Since I already had enough from that little encounter, I need to move on and keep doing what makes me happy. And that is to write and express my feelings and thoughts.
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Someone is downvoting my articles.
Who ever you are, please stop it. Why are you doing this to a person who done nothing with you. You don't know how grateful I am with read.cash who made a living for my family this pandemic cause my parents don't have work and they're old. Have mercy. 😭😭
I am even happy even if I got $3 or $4 a day just for food and other needs for my parents.
If you're rich enough, you will not do this to other person. You don't know how we struggle a lot during this pandemic. If you only knew, how I am grateful for this platform for our daily needs.
If you're a human, you won't do this to me or other people who's doing there best just to earn even a single penny for a day because of haedships in life.
So, please stop. If you still have parents, think of them cause I also have parents need to help.
Bukid is Life: Have you tried to eat this foods?
**When you're living in the province, there are lots of foods you will get in there for free.** No need to buy vegetables unlike in the city. If you're in the province and you're hard working and diligent enough, you will not be hungry at all cause you will just go to the farm to plant vegetables or wander there to find food.
I can say that we have eaten this food during those days that we don't have something to eat. We're thankful that we able to have this food during those times that we don't have money to spend for food.
**These are the foods that we eat as a supplement for rice we don't have rice for a meal.**
**Banana**
We're eating this fruit during times that we don't have rice or sometimes our snacks. It's the food we can easily have when we don't have anything in the table. It can be eaten even if no viand at all. You can eat this too when it's ripe. And I prefer to eat ripe banana. Ripe bananas cam be a snack too, you can make banana cue, banana chips, and minatamis from it. We also done a nilupak from it.
**Sweet Potato**
We called this as camote. There are lots of ways how to cook camote, you can cook this plain , camote cue, maruya , ang camote chips. It depends on you how you cooked it. This is my favorite crops, I can even eat lots of it. I don't care if we don't have rice at all as long as we have camote in the table. I still remember my mom plant this crop and it's color violet. And it can easily found under the ground that's why my favorite kind of camote is color purple.
**Cassava**
I love eating this crop when it was cooked with coconut milk and sugar to make it taste sweet. My Mom knows that we'll not going to it this crop if she will not cooked it that way. It is also our snack during our elementary days when we don't have a penny to bring. Our Mom will cooked it in different kind. She will make it suman, dancing pie, puto and cassava cake. I cam say that we're blessed for having this crop that our father plant cause we can eat foods that is being sell by our neighborhood. We don't need to buy from them cause Mom is making those. I still remember Ate Elvy went to our house, she brought 5kilos of rice as barter with the suman but Papa declined to accept the rice, but Ate Elvy insisted it. Until now, she'll go in our house everytime we have crops and fruits and do some barter.
These are the foods that serves as our viand.
**Dried Fish**
We call this one as tuyo. This one is salty so you can't have lots of it cause one tuyo can make you eat lots of rice. If we don't have rice, we pair it to banana or cassava. I prefer fried tuyo and with spicy vinegar. (Magutom din kayo ahaha).
**Bagoong** (I don't know the english of it haha)
It's my father's favorite one to eat. I don't know what's with him but he really likes it especially when he puts it vinegar and lost of chilli. I also love it when we make it a ginisang bagoong with lots of onion, garlic and chilli. It's so delicious when we make it as our sawsawan of the saging. You will surely love it when you try to it this one with banana or cassava.
**Ginataang Pako**
I am not eating the pako itself, but I love the soup especially if it's spicy. My father loves ginataan so my mom always cooked this food and she will put gabi on it to make it a little sticky. And she'll put a sardines on it to make it more tasty.
**Ginataang langka**
This one is my favorite. I still remember when I was in high school, every Saturday I and my siblings always cooked this food as our viand for the whole day or sometimes until Sunday. We always see to it that we still have 5 pesos in our pocket and add it all to make 20 pesos. We buy sardines, onion , garlic and ginger for it. It's nit easy cooked this one because it have lots of sticky stuff inside when you cut it. But still, when it's cook, you will be satisfied and will be full.
**Ginataang suso**
Since we're living near the rice field and near of it is a small river, we get lots of snail there. We call it suso here. This food is addictive too. And it's funny eating this one because you're going to sip the inside of it that makes a sound. I remember that I got my jaw aching because of it. Some suso were hard to come out so you need to sip it with force. But I'll tell you, it's so worth it.
**Ginataan, prito o adobong palaka (frog)**
This one is my favorite. Yes, I am a girl but I love eating this kind of foods. My father and brother loves to get some frogs in rice fields. I still remember that we only have cassava and ginataang palaka as our meal in the table, and still we're all thankful with it. If you're not eating this food, ahh you miss half of your life joke, you don't know how delicious are these foods. And know what? I am craving now. I like these food when it's spicy. As you can read, I love spicy foods and it make me eat lots of rice or cassava when we pair these foods.
Closing thoughts
Having simple foods in the table is still a blessings. We should be thankful with foods we have as long as we're not hungry. God will always provide even those times that we thought we don't have.
I can say that being in the highlands is a blessings to us. Why? Because we can have food without spending money unless we want to eat meat. Anyway, we had our little pond before and my father have lots of native chicken in the farm so it's a big help to us. But now, we don't have a pond and chickens already. So, we are going to the farm or to forest to get some wild vegetables like pako or fern. There are lots of foods in highland areas or bukid. You will not be hungry if you know how to do actions to have food in the table.
So, have you eaten those foods? You can share your experience in the comments section.
Thank you sis @immaryandmerry hihihi
More blessings sayo. 😘😘😘
Appreciation for read.cash: A thought from CryptoMax latest article
I have read the article about Sir CryptoMax response to someone who wrote an article here in read.cash about his rants on this platform. I was just a little sad with that person cause he's jealousy was so clear if you read his article. Maybe he just looked with those writers who got big tipped from Sir Marc De Mesel . If only he knew what read.cash done to lots of users especially me. I can say that those writers he mentioned who got high tips deserves it cause their writings are helpful to lots of users to understand deeper about cryptocurrency. I've been following Sir CryptoMax when I first joined this platform cause his writings have lots of information I need to understand. And I can say that his article are helpful for me even if sometimes I don't understand some of his words he's been using in his writings.
I've been in read.cash for a month. I am newbie in crypto that is why I followed those writers who write about cryptocurrency especially BCH. I am amazed how they can write articles full of information that surely helps newbie like me. And I can say that I already saved some in that month. I also used some of my earning for our daily needs. You see? It's a great help for me and my family.
Since the very first day here in read.cash, I never wrote an article about crypto because my knowledge wasn't enough and I'm afraid I might write a wrong information about it so I am just contented to read articles that tackles about cryptocurrency. If you visit my profile, you can see that my article are about my experiences, goals and dreams in life. Which I've been motivated to reach those because of this platform, read.cash. My first article I wrote here was not given an upvote that same day, it took 2 days before @TheRandomRewarder visited it but still with that two days, I never quit and lost hope cause I believe that same with other users here, I will able to earn too. And that's the greatest thing I've done, that I never left read.cash because my first article haven't received in that instant. I continue to write and write. I am blessed and thankful cause every article of mine was given a tip from rusty.
I saw lots of users here who received big tips from rusty and it makes me motivated. I also read articles not about crypto but then Sir Marc De Mesel upvoted it, and it makes me happy to witness how generous he is to lots of users here. I always told myself that I can make it too, to earn like others and just need to be patience. I am always grateful with read.cash because it's the only platform I knew that gave everyone the hope to earn more than the salary of a regular worker. This is the only platform I knew that give the dream for everyone that life will be better in the future. In my one month stay in read.cash, I can say that I able to save a money that I never thought if I will not work outside of the house. I thought that I can only hold my own money if I work using my profession but then look, I am still an unemployed person yet I am earning while at home. And that's because of read.cash.
I don't need to write an article about crypto cause writing about your life experiences, dreams and goals in life, I have a chance to earn. Even writing about my thoughts and feelings just like now, I know I will earn. I am so thankful with the sponsor behind this platform. I know he will not notice me cause his notification now were too much. But if ever he read this I want to say ***"Thank you so much read.cash and Sir Marc De Mesel for everything you did to us writers here. More power and more blessings".***
I will continue to write as I am reaching my goals for my family. I know it will be hard to find work now especially that we're facing in a state pandemic that totally gave us the hindrance in moving normally outside. That's why I am much thankful that I've found read.cash cause it helps me and my family not to be hungry. I know that I should not rely on it and I need to work, but what can I do, **I trusted read.cash so much and BCH, it trusted these two so much that I know, it will give me a better life in the future.** That is why, **I am starting now to save BCH with my earnings here in read.cash like other users. That is my goal now, to save atleast 1BCH or more.**
Closing thought
So to you Sir HadEnough, if only you didn't rant in this platform and just try to be friendly, maybe you'll also enjoy your stay here. And if only you were not jealous with other users who got big tips, maybe you will also receive big tips too if you will write good article like them.
Don't drag down a platform just because you didn't receive from it the first time you joined on it. Try to have patience and be thankful despite of everything. It always takes time, just wait. Anyway, bless you for being like that. I hope you'll have a change of mind and a change of heart.
Welcome to our community, the most awesome community you will ever had. I just hope you will not leave like that. It will be your big loss. Ciao!
***PS: I edited it back to my previous article's title cause I thought why should I be afraid of someone who likes to ruined someone even if I did nothing to him but to express my thoughts and feelings too, regarding this platform. I just hope you will be enlightened your heart.***
Loving yourself.
Naranasan nyo na ba pagtawanan dahil payat ka? Yung tinatawag kang kalansay o parang tuod? Paano mo matatanggap ang mga panglalait ng ibang tao sayo?
Mula pagkabata, naranasan ko na paano e bully ng mga kalaro. Dahil sa payat ako at maliit. Hindi kasi ako katangkaran talaga, nasa 5'1 ft. lang height ko at payat pa. Hindi ko naranasan maglaro sa labas na nakabilad sa init dahil mabilis ako mawalan ng malay sa subrang init at pagod. Ayaw din ako kalaro ng mga kababata ko kasi masyado daw akong mabagal. Kaya simula bata pa lang, hindi ko talaga na enjoy yung maglaro sa labas at maligo sa ulan. Kalaro ko sa bahay mga kapatid ko pero syempre gusto ko makipaglaro sa ibang bata pero ayaw nila.
Kahit nung nasa elementary panlang ako, hindi masyado lumalapit mga kaklase ko sakin. Palagi ako napagtatawanan pagka kasali ako sa feeding hahaha kaloka. Ayaw nila sa akin at kumalayo sila at tinatawag akong payatot. At wala ba daw kami makain sa bahay. Kaya ayaw nila sakin. Dahil din siguro mahirap lang kami. Sila kompleto sa gamit lalo na pagbagong pasukan. Bagong bag, school supplies at uniform samantalang ako , masaya na sa limang notebooks at isang lapis. Minsan pag binibigay na ni ma'am yung list ng school supplies na kailangan bilhin, hindi ko binibigay kay Mama. Kaya na bubully ako sa school kasi wala akong gamit ng kagaya sa kanila. Pero nung nag Grade 6 na kami, bigla sila nagbago, baka naisip nila na mali sila. Ako, masaya naman ako sa status namin na mahirap lang kami kasi mahal naman kami ng mga magulang namin. At kahit mahirap lang kami, hindi naging hadlang yun para tumigil ako sa pag-aaral kahit piso lang ang baon, minsan naman wala. Minahal ko kung anong meron kami kahit sa murang edad. Minsan nalulungkot tapos tinatanong sa taas kung bakit kami mahirap pero at the end, napapangiti na lang din ako kasi sinasabi ng puso at utak ko na lahat may dahilan at ang pagiging mahirap namin balang araw matatapos din. Wait lang ba't napunta ako dito hahaha. Ahh basta minahal ko kung ano meron kami at naging masaya naman kami.
Nung nag high school naman ako, ganun pa din, payat ako. Pero thankful lang kasi di na masyado bully yung mga students sa school. Baka kasi matured na ng kunti. Pero may isa kaming kaklase na hilig mambuska ng mga maliliit na kahaya ko. Gaya ni Julie, palagi nya inaasar dahil nga maliit tapos ako naman. Pero kalaunan naging mabait naman siya pero yun nga plagi nya kami sinasabihan na kumain ng marami dahil payat talaga kami. Pero kahit anong gawing kain namin di talaga kami tumataba. Kaya palagi kami nasa unahan pagka flag ceremony na.
Nakakawala ng confidence yung pagiging payat talaga. Kahit mga pinsan ko sinasabi na payat ko subra. Sila, nakakapagsuot ng magandang damit kasi bumabagay sa kanila samantalang ako hindi. Feeling ko ampangit pangit ko. Hindi naman ako ma tagyawat at okay lang naman ang kulay ko. Sadyang payat lang talaga ako kaya palagi napagsasabihan ng hindi maganda.
Nung nasa bahay ako ng tita ko na kapatid ni papa, binilhan niya ko ng vitamins. Sabi niya di naman daw ako pangit para maging mahiyain. Dapat daw proud ako sa sarili ko at mahalin ko kung ano meron ako. Palagi niya ko binibilhan ng damit nun, yung mga uso. Binilhan niya ko ng short pero di ko sinusuot kasi ang liliit ng hita ko, para talagang tuod. Pero sabi ni Tita, simulan ko daw mahalin kung ano meron sa akin. Siya dahilan bakit natanggap ko kung ano meron ako. Yung pagiging payat ko at ano pa man.
Simula nung natanggap ko ang sarili ko, minahal ko na kung anong meron sakin. Kaya ayun, mula nun naging masaya na ko. Hindi ko na pinapakinggan yung mga sinasabi ng iba sakin. Yung mga narinig ko dati, tinatawanan ko na lang.
Ilang taon din lumipas nung naging okay na katawan ko, hindi na ko masyadong payat at may kunting laman na. Akalain mo yungmga kaklase ko na nag bully sakin, nagpapahangin na. Lol sila. Kaya tinatawanan ko sila ehh. Hayy nako. Nahing conscious na rin kasi ko sa sarili ko mula nung nag college kaya kailangan tingnan ang sarili kung kaaya-aya ba. Dati kasi di ko kilala ang polbos at liptint. Nung nag college lang, polbos at liptint at the age of 21 nung nasa 3rd yr college na. Late bloomer nga daw kasi.
Kaya kayo kung may insecurities kayo sa katawan gaya ko dati na naiinggit sa ibang babae na magaganda, dahan dahan nyong mahalin kung ano meron kayo at magiging masaya kayo sa totoo lang. Be confident of who you are. After all, beauty depends on the eye of the beholder nga daw. Hihihi
Pasensya na kayo, masabaw utak ko ngayon kaya ito sinulat ko. Naalala ko lang naman kasi yung pagiging payat ko dati. Kasi naman, yung kapatid ko now, subrang payat na rin. May nakakain pa naman kami sa bahay. Tapos conscious na siya sa sarili niya. Kaya ayun, nasulat ko tuloy experience ko dati.
Thank you nga pala kay sis @dziefem and sis @Ruffa sa upvote sa previous article ko. Hihi
Just believe it. And it will come true.
All of us have a dream in life. Different kinds of dream and different kind of challenges to face.
I believe in the quote:
"If you can dream it, you can achieve it, ***just believe it.***" - Roger Lee
Every dream will came true if the person itself will believe that he can make it. Dreams will come true if the person did the action by reaching it. If a person will have to believe, it will surely happen.
**What is my dream that I already achieved in life?**
Since I was a child, I've been dreaming to be a teacher. I salute my teacher when I was a grader. Even those times that we had experienced being punished to sit on the air because of our classmates. I still want to be a teacher even I saw that they're working lits of papers and monitoring almost 30 students everyday. My dream to be a teacher is my first goal when I was a child. I played the role of a teacher when we play bahay-bahayan. I don't want to be the mother during that play cause I want to be a teacher to my playmates. Being a grader that time was hard especially that my parents can't afford to buy complete set of school supplies yet we able to survive and I graduated in my elementary. In my child's mind, I told myself, I am near to my dream to be a teacher. That's funny though, but what can I do, a child's mind doesn't know the long way to go in reaching the dreams in life.
When I studied in high school, my relative told me I can't finish my studies cause I will marry soon. Like, wait, what? Lol, I don't have boyfriend that time. I can say that I focused myself on my studies. And having a relationship is just a hindrance for me. I didn't even enjoy my high school days that much. But, yeah, it was a challenge for me. I experienced a lot, having no snacks and lunch in school cause you know, money matters. I understand the situation but still I continue because I want to be a teacher. I even sell munchkin, pastillas and polvoron in school that made by our teacher and I will receive a 10% from it. So if I sell 100 pieces of munchkin, I will have 10 pesos. It's a big help for me, for my school supplies and projects. I don't know but I am ashamed on asking my parents about projects and whatsoever for my studies. Until I graduated in high school, that was my doing. Selling snacks to have my own money for snacks and for projects.
After graduation in high school, I haven't able to went college in that instant due to have no financial support. My parents can't afford sending me on college that time. So, I went to my grandma's house, my father's mother. And there his siblings were the one giving me pocket money for everyday and that money I used as my savings. I saved money cause I plan to enroll on college. I also done as a saleslady but didn't worked for me. Glad that my grandma was selling banana cue, so it was our little business. With it, I able to save money. After three years, I went back home to my home town and asked my father that I want to study in college. Using my savings I enrolled myself. Struggles from day one to graduation. I can't measure or count how many challenges I faced that almost made me quit. But then again, I always put in mind that I want to graduate and to be a teacher. After those hardships, I graduated in college. I made my parents proud. And when I passed the board exam, it made me proud of myself that believing myself helped me achieved my dreams. The dream to be a TEACHER. As of now, I am still not working since its pandemic. But I still believe that one of this days, I will be a TEACHER, teaching children to have good future and leading them the good way.
I already reached my dream to graduate in college and to have my license as a teacher. My next target is to be a TEACHER in a public school. And I believe that I will make in the near future. God will help me to reach this because He's been with me with my journey.
My Closing thoughts.
If you can dream of something why not, right? But never just to dream, you must have the action too to achieve it. If your dream is to be successful in the future, just keep trying and keep moving even if you fail. Small steps is better than staying in one place. Take small steps one at a time. Just keep moving forward and you face trials, face it. And if you felt exhausted, take some rest but never stopped. Until you gain you strength again, continue and never give up. Just believe in you capabilities and keep working on it until you achieve it.
Thanks for reading my writings. I do appreciate your likes and upvotes. I may not mention you one by one but I appreciate all you've done to me.
More blessings to us and more BCH to come.
The STRENGTH in me.
Life is trying us all in our everyday living. Every single day, life is trying us how far will we go and to remind us our strength. So, do you know your strength? How you cope up with situations that challenged you as a person? Will you head forward or just stay put?
We may not know this and that, but we are strong enough in facing all challenges in life. Obstacles that make us strong. Sometimes we're almost to quit because weakness in ourselves strikes.
I have been facing some heavy hearted situations that sometimes felt me numb and irrational. There are times that I felt so down and thinking I can't stand up again and start to walk forward. But everytime I think of people who I cherished the most, I know that I will able to face those challenges and they made me strong.
**So who are my strength?**
***My parents.***
My parents are the one why I am fighting this status of our life. I say, we're poor. My parents don't have regular work. Yes we can eat three times a day and that matters most. But, seeing my parents old and still working their self out under the heat of the sun makes me frustrated to earn and be rich. Who wouldn't like to be rich, right? I want to be successful for my parents. That is why, even how hard life, I will surely face it with courage for them. I may not give it that instant to them, but I know someday I will. The strength they gave me helps me to move forward in reaching my goals. I sometimes felt weak and tired, but everytime I looked at them getting older and haven't taste a good life, I feel the urge and strong force to face those challenges in life.
**There are also things that makes me stronger in daily living.**
**Poverty.**
This one, totally, is the reason why I need to be strong. Because I don't want to stay in this kind of status in life. I want to enjoy my life. The life that I am not afraid to be hungry. The life that I want for my parents to enjoy their time as they gets old. I want to see them laugh and hang out outside of our four walls old house. Because we haven't tried to have a vacation. A family vacation. Since I was a child, we didn't experienced to have an outing and eat more foods. The reason is, we're saving money for our house. I just hope that I'll be able to achieve my goals.
**Destructive Criticism.**
It's sad that there are people who criticized you for being poor. But what makes saddest is that your own relatives made that criticism. The criticism that you didn't expect to come from them because they're blood related. My relatives in mother side were so bad to us. They let us feel like we're outcast. They didn't treat my mother well until now. I am not feeling the envy that they celebrate Christmas without my Mom. Everytime that their eldest siblings gave them groceries for the Christmas doesn't matter to me. What matter to me is on how they ignore my Mom. It was like my Mom wasn't their sibling when they act. I still remember that they told my Mom that Mama doesn't need any from their Ate because my Mom already have a graduate. But didn't they know that I don't have work due to pandemic? But it's okay, it's new to us. That is why, I want to be successful someday for them to realize that they're wrong in criticizing us. I am thankful of what they did to us because it made me strong. They're also the reason why I pursue my studies even how hard it was. Because I want to show them that they're wrong of thinking what I am.
**GOAL: Good future.**
This always reminds me to be strong and never quit. Imagining myself reaching my goals make me strong enough to face obstacles in life. I always put in mind that 'suffer now, success later'. Even if I am suffering now, I know that in the future, if I sacrifice in reaching my goals, it will be all worth it. I know that reaching my goals is not easy. But as long as I believe in myself and the support of my love ones, I will able to reach it. Not only for me but for my family.
Knowing your strength will give you the focus. There might be time that we feel hopeless and weak, but when you think what you had started, you should know what will be the ending. The ending should be what you've been desiring of. As of me, I desire to be a successful one. ***How about you? Do you know your strength? What you've been fighting for?***
Why some women are MARTYR?
Have you known a woman who's martyr? Why do we call them martyr? Why do they prefer to stay like that when they know that life is short to not enjoy their lives?
Every person have different state in life. Every person have different kind of life, in a relationship and in a marriage life. Who would not like to live in a harmony of living where you can feel love and respect? Almost of us women love to live that kind of life with partners. But I have known someone who suffered in her marriage. She endured the pain for almost years. Why did she do that? Why did she chose to stay? Here's why.
**The reasons why she stayed in that house she called hell were:**
***Her Children.***
She have three children. She don't have work because she's only an elementary graduate. She can't leave her children to her husband who's a drunkard and have lots of vices. She can't dare to see her children suffer alone in their father's hands. She knew to her self that she can't feed her children alone cause she's a plain housewife. And if they will get out of that house, they will surely live in the road. And that's what she don't want to happen. And she don't want her children to grow without a father.
***No parents.***
She don't have parents anymore. If only she have, for sure she went home together with her children. But then again, she don't have someone to rely on. That's so sad. That's why having a parents is very fortunate. Even if you're married already, there will be times that you'll need your parents. And that's true, same with my sister. Lol.
***She loves her husband.***
Despite the fact that she was being hurt by his husband emotionally and physically, she loved him. For us, it's so pathetic, right? Cause how can you love a man who will hurt you that way. But, J can't blame her. She was looking for love that she didn't able to feel from her parents. She grew from her aunt who's bad with her also. And she don't want to came back there because the husband of her aunt was not good to her too. She said that her husband was a loving partner before. She said that her husband was caring and look for their good future. But when they already have one child, her husband change. It was because her husband believed of what her neighbors been talking to him. Their neighbors told her husband that the child is not him. But when I look at the child, he looks really like his father. He was like a photocopy of his father. How come he would believe their neighbors. I asked her why she still loved her husband, she said that her husband was fine when he's not drunk. But when he's drunk, he change into bad.
***My thoughts.***
After those words from her, I can say that love is the reason why she stay. Love for her husband and live for her children. No mother would not want her child to grow away from his father. That is why, even how hard it would be for her, she prefer to stay.
Women are different. There are also women who prefer to stay away than to stay in such relationship. Well, it depends on the situation. If a woman can work or have work, why stay in a relationship when you can pay bills and buy food on your own. If I am in the situation, I will surely find my way out together with my children if and only if I have a work or can financially afford the needs of my children without the help of a husband. I surely prefer to be alone or support my children alone than to suffer in the hands of my husband. I don't want to be a battered wife, Diyos ko.
That's why before you enter the life of marriage you should know your partner first. What my father told me before, if you chose a man, chose the right one. Chose the man who will love and respect you. Chose the man who can't even hit a dog or animals because that kind of man can't hit a person too. Mu father told me to not look for physical appearance but the heart inside. But what I out in mind is that, I want a man who respect my parents. Because if a man respect my parents, that only means that he will respect me for who I am and he's afraid to hurt me because of my parents.
I don't want to be a martyr. I want to be free and be loved. If time comes that marriage comes in the way, I want my man to fully loved me and won't hurt me physically and emotionally. That we both fight for our love and not fight each other. It's sad that there are lots of women who suffered from this kind of relationship. I hope they'll see their worth.
Yey! I still made it today. I thought I will not able to write an article today. Anyways, happy reading guys.
I'll use my edited logo for my article. Just saw some article here which have logos. Gaya gaya yarn. Hahaha
Junkfoods that I eat as my viand.
Are you fond of eating junkfoods? There are lots of people saying that junkfoods is not good for the health. But I can't help myself eating those.
Well, I am fond eating junkfoods but with rice. If I don't like the viand we have in the table, I will buy junkfoods and make it as my viand. Kinda weird but yeah that's me. Maybe someone was like me too. Well, hope so.
***These are the junkfoods that I eat as my viand.***
**Halo-Halo**
Oops! It's not what you think. It's not the cold halo-halo which is good for summer. It's a junkfoods that contains nuts, green peas, corn and fired biscuits. It's a little spicy and I like it so much. I love eating this one as a viand especially if the rice is hot. This one cost 1 peso before, I don't know if it's still 1 peso now.
I still remember when my Mother reprimanded me when she cooked fern as our viand but I didn't ate it instead I ate halo-halo as my viand. I ate lots of rice because of it. I really don't like eating fern cause it's slimy. And it helps me drink lots of water too. After eating, I felt so full. Actually, when I was in college I still ate it as my viand if I got shortened with my allowance. It's one of my savior from hunger. Haha.
**Chicharon Baka**
This one is my favorite. This cost 1 peso too. And it have free vinegar but sometimes there's none. Since we have lots of vinegar in the house, it's fine with me. Especially that our vinegar have lots of spices like onion, chilli, ginger, black pepper and garlic. I always ate this kind of junkfood when I graduated at high school. Especially when I am watching tv. My siblings also got curious with the taste so they tried. So, next days we will buy 1 pack of it worth 17.00 pesos, and we'll make it as our viand. Our father noticed and scolded us all so everytime he's not in the house, we will buy chicharon baka to make our viand. Tamad kasi magluto ng ulam hahaha.
**Lumpia Shanghai**
This one is delicious too. I am addicted with it because of the cheese. I can eat 10 packs of it because I feel not full everytime I eat this chichirya. Our Lola was selling this one, so sometimes we will just go there and have some without paying. This is also good taste if you put it on a hot rice. Yummy. Try it guys hahaha.
**Safari**
This one is my favorite of all. I started eating it when I was a child. This is one of my father's snack before when he stopped smoking. He said, he likes to eat this after eating lunch. Pampawala ng umay daw. I can say that this cornik is so delicious. The spice and salty taste makes it perfect. I prefer eating this one than those high price junkfoods (lol, wala kasi ko pambili talaga kaya prefer ko to dahil piso lang.) It's good to eat while watching movie. But I love it more if I eat it with rice. I don't know what's with me but I like eating some junkfoods with rice.
This junkfoods serves as my viand if I don't like our foods in the house. But most of the day, if we don't have nothing, I will just buy this junkfoods. You see, it's a savior to me to have an appetite in eating rice. It's better to have this than having salt as viand. Yes, just laugh there but it's true. It's true that we experienced to have only salt and vinegar as our viand cause we don't have anything. Everytime we don't have in the table other than rice, we will buy atleast five packs of junkfoods that was mentioned above.
When I was in college, I can say that it's a survival state once you study college especially if your allowance was not enough. I had try to save money because I know there would be lits of contributions need to pay. Sometimes, my allowance won't be enough for a week that is why I will buy junkfoods to be my viand. I am just glad that God gave me a blessing with this foods. I know it's not good in the health but it helped me a lot.
***How about you? Have you tried it? The comment section is open for conversation. Hihihi. I just want to know if you tried it.***
Just edited this article tonight. I want to use the border that Sir @Bjorn made for me. Thank you so much Sir. I love it. It's cute. 🥰
Stay away from someone, who only respect RICH people.
What will you don if you knew someone who only respect rich people? Will you be friends with them? If yes, why? And if not, why?
I have known someone who only respect rich people or those professional person. They will show respect to them and they almost like to praise them like they're God. They follow what rich people told them even if they look like slave to them. Some of my relatives were like that. They were so proud having a friend who is rich. They like to hang out with them. In short, they were like a leech, lurking to rich people. The funny thing is that, they looked like slaves. Yes they were given money from their friends but if you look deeper and understand the situation, they were being used by those professional. But, they can't see it because they're blinded with the money.
I didn't say that they should not be friends with rich people, what I want to say is that, they should give importance to themselves. That they should not act like a stray dog ready to pound. There are still lots of RICH people who are kind to everyone and to the poor but we know that there are also lots of them who used lower level people like us. Being a poor one, we should know who we friend for. Some poor people will do their best to have friends with rich people thinking they will benefit from them. But they will disregard those people who are with same level as theirs. Like, they will criticized other poor people because they felt they're already high for having a rich friend.
Some people will just respect rich because they want to feel how to belong with their group. Having an outing and to have parties which in fact, they're struggling to have. I'm saying that if you respect rich people, you should also respect poor people. You should know how to respect everyone, it may poor or rich. You should not just respect those person who you think will give you benefit such money. Yes, we should know how to admire them for having that status, it's because of their hard work. If you respect them, respect also those poor people who have fone their best yet not able to change their status to be rich. Because not all who have done their best get the chance to be rich. Same as farmers. Farmers in our country are poor right? They've done so much just to have something to eat. They're the reason why we have something to eat yet they received criticism from others for being poor. They were not respected and some also looked at them like a trash for being dirty. I've known someone so I am saying this. It's just so painful to see someone being dumped for being poor and disrespected by others who were also not rich.
This kind of person loves only the money. The benefits they get from rich people. But once they will not get from them even a single cents, they will also disrespect them. It only means that they love the money and not the person. If you don't have anything, you will not be respected but if you have money, they will love and worship you. As much as possible, stay away with this kind of people. We should respect everyone equally.
There were also lots of professional who look down with other people especially those who don't have degree. I am not saying all but some. Some professional look at themselves so high because they have degree and forgot how to be human. They sometimes disrespect others. It's so shameful knowing some people like that. That is why when I graduated at college my parents always taught me to always put my foot in the ground and respect everyone, may poor or rich.
If you want to be respected too, respect everyone and not only those who have lots of money. Respect those people who knows how to respect. Money can be earned but true friend is hard to find. Respect should be earned too, same as money but respect last long than money.
Galit sila, kasi?
Natanong nyo ba ang sarili nyo kung bakit may mga taong galit sa inyo kahit wala naman kayong ginawa? Na mapapatanong ka na lang kung bakit sila galit?
Masakit man pero tanggap ko kung bakit galit ang mga kapatid ni Mama ko sa kanya. Dahil di nila mapasunod ang mama ko sa kung ano ang gusto nila. Dahil kaya ni Mama tumayo sa sarili niya. Mula pagkabata palagi na nilang inaapi ang Mama ko. Maraming naawa kay Mama at maraming gustong umampon kay Mama pero palagi pinipigilan ng mga magulang niya. Grabe ang sakripisyo ni Mama sa pamilya niya. Habang nag si-share si mama ng mga experienced niya, di niya maiwasang hindi maiyak. Lahat ng sakit bumabalik daw. Masakit makita ang mama mo na umiiyak at wala kang magawa kundi yakapin siya.
Nung bata pa ako, nakita ko na kung paano nila tratuhin si mama. Isang araw, pumunta kapatid ni mama sa bahay, gusto nila isali si mama sa loan. Tumanggi si mama ko kasi ayaw niya sumali. Ang sabi, sumali daw para may pang handa sa fiesta. So, si mama ko sabi 'okay lang kahit walang handa basta hindi lang ma problema after ng fiesta.' Nagalit sila sa response ni mama ko dahil masyado daw mataas ang tingin. Binaliwala ni mama yun. Halos kada taon, basta malapit na ang fiesta, nag lo-loan sila para panghanda at gusto nila isali si mama. Pinapangalandakan nila mga bagong gamit nila, lol. Pero wa pakels si mudra ko.
Lalo din sila nagalit nung nagpadala ang nakakatanda nilang kapatid ng pera kay mama para pampagamot ni mama. Di ko makakalimutan yung time na binato nila yung pera na binigay sa lamesa namin. Yun yung time na nakita ko sila na ganun dahil sa pera. Alam nyo ba kung magkano? 700.00 pesos lang naman. Hindi kalakihan hindi ba? Pero kung magalit sila parang libo na. Mula noon, di na tumatanggap si mama ng pera galing sa kapatid nila kahit na binibigyan siya. Mahirap magkaroon ng kapatid na masyadong silaw sa pera. Hindi naman sila mayaman. Wala din namang natapos sa pag-aaral pero kung makaapak ng kapatid wagas.
Hindi ko din makalimutan na humingi sila ng tawad doon mismo sa simbahan. Nag iyakan pa sila nun. Pati kaming mga pamangkin nag-iyakan din. Akala namin, okay na pero di pala. Lahat pakitang tao lang. Mahirap na maniwala sa kanila. Mga masasakit na salita na binitawan nila na tagos hanggang buto.
Lumaki akong may sama ng loob sa kanila. Sinabi sa sarili na gagawin ko lahat para maiahon ko mga magulang ko sa hirap para di na apak-apakan. Hindi ko pinangarap ang yumaman, pangarap ko lang na di maghirap yung tamang estado ng buhay lang na di magutuman ang pamilya. At mapakita sa mga relatives ni mama na kaya namin tumayo kahit walang tulong na natatanggap sa kanila.
Nag-aral ng mabuti. Kaming magkakapatid kung tutuusin. Pero sa hirap ng buhay, hindi tuloy tuloy ang pag-aaral. Pero kahit ganun, pinagpatuloy pa rin namin. Ngayon nakatapos na ko at mga kapatid ko naman nasa college. May isa akong kapatid na nag asawa na. Pero nagtutulungan kami kung sino ang nangangailang dahil ayaw namin gumaya sa mga kapatid ni mama.
Ngayon na nakatapos na ko at mga kapatid ko nasa kolehiyo, nagbago pakitungo nila samin. Akala mo wala silang ginawa samin dati. Akala nila di ko nakita mama ko umiiyak sa gabi dahil sa kanila. Na akala mo, di nila kapatid ang mama ko. Dahil lamang sa pera. Pero kahit na nagbago na sila, di pa rin nawawala sa isip ko na baka pakitang tao pa rin. Oo, marunong ako magpatawad pero di na ako papalinlang sa paiba iba nilang mukha. Masakit pero tanggap ko kung bakit.
The respect for the eldest sibling.
How will you respect elders? Does respect really earned? Are you the eldest in the family? Will you be a good model to your younger siblings? And how will you show it to them?
I am the eldest in the family. Being the eldest wasn't easy. You need to follow orders of your parents. Why you need to follow them? Aside from respect to the parents, you need to follow so that your siblings will do the same. What you will do is essential for your siblings as they grow. See? It wasn't easy. Like you need not to do a mistake because your siblings might done it too.
There was a time that I felt so unfair. It was the time when my siblings went to 'ilaja' , it is the place in our hometown where children played a lot. I wasn't able to play cause I easily get sick so I stayed at home. Now, my siblings went there and played with their playmates and most of them were our cousins. My father told me to go to ilaja to follow my siblings and tell them to went home. So, I went there and looked for them but they're nowhere to be found cause they're hiding from the 'taya'. They're playing hide and seek that time, so my cousin who was taya told me to wait for them. It took 15 minutes or more I think before they were found. So, it also took 15 minutes before we arrived home. But when we arrived home, we saw our father holding two pieces of broom sticks. As we getting near the door of our house, our father told us to get inside. My brother was the one who get inside first and he felt the pain as father hit him the sticks. He cried and my sisters follow. As I was the one to get inside, I felt the pain as he hit me too. Like what, wait?! Why e included me? I was the one who look for them and yet I was punished too? Our father told us to knee in front of the altar. We were crying that time. Though I want to say something, I never tried to cause I might get another hit. My siblings look at me but I didn't mind them as I closed my mouth and just cried silently. When father told us to go to our room, my siblings told me they're sorry. I didn't answered them and just continue my drawing. It was the time, I told myself that I will not follow my father if he'll ask me to look for my siblings. So the next time my father told me to look for them, I told him, I don't want to cause I might also receive a hit from him and be punished too. But he insisted, this time I followed him and told my siblings to hurry cause they might get punished. This time, my father didn't hit me cause I told him before I followed his command.
My father always telling me to be a good model to my siblings. I did what he told. I never done things that will make them think of me as an irresponsible daughter. I want my siblings to see me as a good eldest sibling to them. I still remember the days as we talked to each other what were our ambition and dream in the future. We talked about things we want to be as we grow older. We talked about our plans and dreams for our parents. We don't want to be like our mother's side that doesn't have peace cause they always have argument because of money. We want to be our father's side who loved and care with each other. We want to respect each other us siblings. Yes, we had fight sometimes but we know that we can't leave each other behind.
As their eldest, I want to show them that respect is earned. If you know how to respect everyone especially the elders, they will also show respect to you. I show them that respect is vital in our society. If others won't respect other people, we should not be like them and follow their steps cause those kind of people will never reach their dreams as they get older. Our father was also the eldest in their family. And we saw how his siblings respect him even if he have lots of siblings as his parents parents another. As his father died, his mother married again and found new family, still, his half siblings respect him so much and show him that they love him. I want to feel that love from my siblings, that is why even if I got hurt by my siblings, I still need to understand them because that what my father told me. My siblings asked me advices. I am not a perfect Ate but I want them to know that I am always there for them. They know if I am mad and they know if my anger fades already. They know me what I can do if I am mad so they don't like me to get mad always.
I am just so glad that my siblings respect me as their Ate. Yes, we had a fight sometimes but we always forgive. We don't say "sorry" , as long as we talked, that's it already. We don't want to fight in front of our parents cause we know they'll get hurt if we do so. And though we're all old enough, we still reprimanded by our parents if they noticed us done a mistake. As long as we're together, we will not forget each other of showing the love as siblings. The feeling of respect is immeasurable, the love they show to you is priceless too.
Magkapatid dapat nagtutulungan.
Waahhh!! Tatlong araw akong hindi nakagawa ng article. Medyo naging busy lang his past few days. Bawi na lang ako today at next days, sana mapanindigan ko hahaha. Mag tatagalig muna ako ngayon kasi wala feel ko lang.
Paano ba maging kapatid? Ano ba ang ibig sabihin ng kapatid?
Apat kaming magkakapatid. Ako ang panganay, ngayon wala pa akong trabaho kaya suma-sideline muna dito sa amin at dito sa read.cash para kahit papano may kita at maibigay sa magulang. Nitong nakaraang buwan, nanganak na ang pangatlo naming kapatid sa ikalawa niyang anak. Tapos, nagpagawa na sila ng bahay ng husband nya. Humihiram siya sa'kin ng pera para pandagdag pambili ng yero dahil kulang. Kaso wala din akong pera pa. Wala pa ko ipon talaga kasi nagbibigay ako sa parents namin. Ngayon, nanghiram siya sa kapatid namin na lalaki. Yung kapatid namin na lalaki may work ngayon gawa ng sumasama sya sa Papa namin na carpenter bilang labor ni Papa. Sumasama siya para may kita siya habang online class pa sila ngayon. Buti may ipon siamya kunti kaya nagbigay siya. Ngayon, sabi ng kapatid namin na babae na wag sabihin kay papa na nanghiram siya dahil nahihiya daw siya. Sabi naman ng Papa ko, mali daw at bakit naman daw mahihiya, sino pa ba ang magtutulungan di ba? Kaya ayun, pinahiram ng kapatid naming lalaki at hindi na niya pinabayaran. Ako naman, kunti lang nabigay ko sa kapatid ko.
Ayaw kasi namin gumaya sa mga kapatid ng Mama namin. Hindi kasi sila marunong tumulong at gusto palagi sila ang nasa taas. Naalala ko dati, nung walang wala kami, ni isang butil ng bugas di nila pinahiram si mama ko. Kaya ayun, buti may nagbigay samin ng kamote at gabi, yun ang niluto namin para may makain kami. Simula nuon, palagi na nagtatanim si Mama ko ng kamote at Papa ko naman ay nagtatrabaho bilang isang labor. Hindi pa kasi masyado kilala si Papa ko jun dahil galing pa kami sa Maynila nun. Iwan ko ba sa mga kapatid ng Mama ko bakit ganun sila. Puro hilahan pababa na dapat sana eh nagtutulungan. Pero ganun yata talaga kasi iba iba ang tao. Kaya kaming magkakapatid, never kami gagaya sa kanila. Kung may di man pagkakaintindihan at magagalit man sa isa't isa, gagawin namin na magtulungan at magpatawad. Kasi di naman tayo perpektong tao. Walang ibang tutulong satin kundi kapatid lang din natin.
Syempre, kapag nagtutulungan din ang magkapatid, masaya ang mga magulang. Walang magulang na gustong makita na magulo ang mga anak. Sa totoo lang, karamihan kaya nagkakagulo ang magkakapatid ay dahil lang din sa pera. Buti na lang at hindi mayaman ang magulang namin at walang ari-arian. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga dahil sa ari-arian kung bakit nagkakagulo ang mga anak, kundi dahil sa kung paano sila pinalaki ng magulang nila lalo na kung pera na ang usapan. Gaya ng mga tiyain ko na mga kapatid ni Mama. Hindi sila mayaman pero nagkakagulo sila dahil sa pera. Kaya ang mga magulang ko, di kami pinalaki na sanay sa pera. Dati di nila kami binibigyan ng pera at pinapaintindi nila samin kung bakit. At tinuro nila samin na pahalagahan ang bawat sentimo na aming pinaghirapan. Tinuruan kami na mgatulungan kapag may isa samin ang nangailangan.
Kaya ako, balang araw, gagayahin ko mga magulang ko. Tuturuan ko mga anak ko pano maging tunay na kapatid. Kung paano maging matulungin at hindi mapanglamang ng tao sa kapwa lalo na sa kapatid. Lahat ng turo nila samin magkapatid, i-apply ko din kapag may sarili na akong pamilya at mga anak. Tuturuan ko sila paano maging mabuting kapatid. Hindi nasusukat sa nabibigay na pera ang pagiging kapatid kundi sa pagiging nandiyan pagka kailangan ng kapatid mo ng karamay at pagmamahal. Malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa magulang ko na naturuan nila kaming maging mapagmahal. At tinuruan na hindi bitawan at sukuan ang kapatid. Magkamali man, dapat nandiyan para tulungang makabangon at mai-guide sa mabuting daan kapag namali ng landas.
Ako bilang nakakatandang kapatid, alam ko na hindi ako perpektong anak at kapatid. Nagkakamali din ako dahil tao lang ako pero ang alam ko, mahal na mahal ko ang mga kapatid ko. Kahit masaktan man nila ako, di ko sila natitiis. Maaring lumalayo o nagpapalamig lang ako pagkanagalit sa kanila pagnagkamali, pero sa bandang huli, handa parin akong tumulong para sa kanila dahil masakit makitang nahihirapan ang kapatid at wala kang ginawa.
Thank you po sa pagbabasa ng aking kadramahan sa buhaym hihihihi.
Pagpalain po nawa tayong lahat.
Who motivates me to do my best in life?
So, this is a response to Ate @wakeuplincs when she tagged me in her article.
I was tagged by @wakeuplincs in her article, Motivation in writing. Thank you Ate sissy. The writing prompt was given by @JonicaBradley and the rules to the challenge are:
Write about motivation
Write 100% original content
Write at least 600 words
Tag @JonicaBradley
Have fun.
As I remember, I also wrote a challenge when @Bjorn tagged me about Freedom. It's kinda fun to be mentioned in this kind of challenge. With this, we're able to be interactive with others and we're active in this platform especially when we don't have any topic to write. We're able to think of content because of other users who challenge us. Anyway, I will start now my writing which entitled "Who motivates me to do my best in life?". I know some of you here who read the title knew who right? But hope you still read this till the end. Hihihi.
In life, we tend to do our best to be successful. Why we want to be successful anyway? Every person have lots of reasons why. And as for me, the reason why I want to be successful is for my parents. My parents were the one who motivates me most to do my best in life and to be successful. Yes, we're poor that is why I want to make our life better. I don't wish to be rich but I don't want to stay poor. What I want is to give my parents a good house where we can live in harmony and peace. That we can eat thrice a day. And that we don't need to problem about money to buy goods. I want my parents to relax at home and not to do hard work because they're already old. Everytime I saw them struggling for our needs, all I want in my kind is to be successful. Through their struggles, I am motivated to do my best and do more for them. It feels like, I don't have the right to stop and relax. Because of I quit, they'll be the one to suffer and if I relax, time will be wasted. If only I have magic, I will surely make my dream happened in a snap.
One reason also that I am motivated is the opinion and hurtful words of our relatives. My mother's side was cruel to us before. They told me that I will never reach my dreams. My dreams to be a professional because my parents were poor. The way they criticized us, it motivates me more. I accept their words as my challenge. And I face their given challenge to me. And I show them they're wrong. I can't count how many times they criticized my family for being poor. They said that we can't build a house using hollowblocks and cement cause our house before was a bamboo. But when I was in high school my father was able to renovate our house until now, though it's not yet completed still there is a better changes. I am proud of my parents for fighting for our family, that is why I am motivated to do my best for them and show my relatives that our live for our family is strong that no matter what they throw words to us, it will not be the reason for us to quit and stop aiming our goals. Now that I already earned my profession, I can say that our relatives changed a lot. They are now so kind to us and let us feel that we're a family to them. But I am already done, I knew why their behavior changed. All those hurtful words they threw to us before was hit back to them. They're the one who didn't able to have a college grad and their houses didn't changed. I don't know why they're like that, maybe because we're poor. Hahahaha. Wapakels uie.
My motivation too is my future. I want my future to be better. Before I will settle down, I want all to be in good condition and organized. I don't want my future family to suffer like me. I don't want my future children to grow struggling in life. I can say that I am ambitious, but who's not right? All of my doing now is for my better future.
To give my parents a good life, to be strong in dealing trials in life and to have a good future for my own family. That's what keeps me motivated everyday.
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So, I accepted the challenge of @wakeuplincs hahaha. I made yuhooo. Now, I want to mention @Zhyne06 , @Codename_Chikakiku and @Ruffa to do the challenge too. Hihi, anyway if gusto nyo lang naman.
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