My Fear Of Needles.
How IT all Started.
"I know, I know, am a man so I should act like one".That's the reply I give to people around whenever am giving an injection 💉. Am terrified 😨to dead of all kinds of injection. So it all started when I was 6 years old, my dad is a doctor so there are times that our neighbours brought to our house there kids for treatment. And after checking what was wrong he will administer drugs or give them an injection 💉😬.
So our house was always full of people, people who are sick or just some random persons,there was this one time that a mad man came to our house and actually followed a family and came after the family were done he stayed back and we did not even notice because it was a busy day for my dad and us too, and that day was supposed to be my dad's off day. But alot of people came so he had no choice but to still work on his supposed rest day, you can believe the state that "doctors and nurses never have a rest". So back to the mad man, so the man stay in our house till evening just sitting down in a spot and no one notice him, then when it was time to eat and now the house was a bit empty just family members now, that was when we took note of the man 😄😅.
It was actually am awkward silence for a well and then my mum asked what he wanted, and he said food, that was when my Cousin, notice that he was a mad man and that his name was FaFa, and that was when we all laughed and said yes he is the one. My mother now went back to the kitchen and put in something for him to eat, and after that he thank my dad and mom and left. He is a mad man but a well behaved mad man and well mannered too when he is shown kindness.
Ok now on the bigger picture here, now you can actually say It out loud, " your dad is a Doctor why will you be scared of injection" yes I am, why because there is something my Dad does whenever a child is scared of needles, what he does, is after drawing the medicine into the syringe, and he will then play a bit with it and after showing it to the child, he will put it in there butt and leave it there for few seconds and sometimes he will then ask is in you butt now is it painful,and sometimes the child laughs or chuckle a bit and sometimes they just go bananas🤯🤣.
And then the day came, when a woman brought her child who was absolutely scared of needles and when I say absolutely I mean, like 🥶😱😱😱. This boy went bananas when he was told he will be given an injection, he was actually around my age but to give him that injection it took three of my elder brothers and his mother to put him down for the injection. And as usual my dad left the needle in his butt 😒🙄 for a while and he tried talking to him. And it happened, the boy went crazy 😭😱 and the needle came off his butt cheek and not happened to him and the needle, the needle was put backed in and he was given the injection. From what happened that day with the boy, I became scared off my feet because of injections and needles.
Where am I now with my Fear?
It's being years but am still scared to shit of needles even if is not given to me, " I know right it being like 18 years now and am still dead scared of injection" 😃😉.
People always say, we should face our fears and we will overcome them. Not me I don't think I will ever overcome that fear but maybe if am older the fear will go but for now am still and will still be terrified and dead scared of needle.
Thanks for reading.
**All pictures were taken by me and from my gallery**
An Apology To Me: A Poem from My Heart; Part One.
"She is Absolute, she is real, she understands me more than everyone, she considers me a friend, she likes being friends with all my friends, we talk for hours and yet she can find any connection between us. She does all she can to look good and be cool around me but never shows it, she is funny, she laughs and put on a smile all the time, even when she is not happy, she looks serious when around people but very jovial and fun when alone.
I consider myself lucky to have her even when she is not mind, it pains having to think she is with someone, not that am perfect or anything, I want to love her more than all. I want to tell her how I feel and not just say it but to show it too. She is perfect, she is real, she is Absolute.
I consider her everything for me, I consider giving up on such kind of feelings but everytime you see or hear her voice you are back to the beginning to where I all started.
Heartbreak hurts,
Heartbreak is painful,
Heartbreak kill your whole being,
Heartbreak poisons your being,
Heartbreak consumes you whole,
Heartbreak stresses you.
I apologise for hurting you
I apologise for making you feel the pain
I apologise for killing your whole being
I apologise for stressing you
I apologise for poisoning us
I apologise for ever being there for us when we needed you
I apologise for not adhering to you warnings
I apologise for being blind
I don't regret falling for her, I can't regret falling for her, I won't regret falling for. Is it an obsession, because my life is more of a compliment, I am right there but still feels like am not seen by anyone, most especially her. I am a compliment, am just there to help others feel good about themselves and make them come up when down, but no one is there to help me feel good about myself and get me up when am down. Am really a compliment, yes I am and I am In love with myself sometimes. So I apologise to me for feeling this way and when I ever I feel sad or happy I apologise for that too.
Because my life is a shallow,
I apologise to my past self
I apologise to my present self
I apologise to my future.
I will still hurt you, I will still poison you, I will still let Heartbreak consumes and stresses you, I will still let us fall for her over again and I will continue apologising to us until I learn the lesson because you have learned the lesson already.
So keep warning ⚠️, keep giving me signs and telling my conscious self to stop the sharade and just move on and never try looking back, because when you look back she is right there and you will go back to the beginning where it all started, where you fell in love with her and it still remains as gold in you mind because you think of it over and over to yourself to to make you feel good and makes you think you are in love.
So, Yes I Apologise for everything and all and all that are yet to be done and met by us, but most especially by me"
It really Hurts when you can't tell that one person how crazy you are about them, and more stupid when you can't do anything about it.
Thanks for reading. This is a Poem written by Me, and is more of an apology to my conscious self, is me apologising to me 😀😅
***All the pictures were taken by me and are coming from my gallery***.
Is Crypto The Next Thing?
Am I the only one seeing this or everyone else is seeing it too. Because Is getting out of hand and it will make lives easier for all. OK am talking about Crypto y'all😛.
Advertisement,apps, websites and basically everywhere now is just full of Crypto, Crypto this, Crypto that, just here and there.
So seeing all of that I was like let me write a little and show you guys what am seeing from my side of the world here. I was talking to a friend just yesterday and he also dig this crypto currency stuff and he was convinced and annoyed for hours even after we separated he still charted me up and still continued with the crypto stuff. I even told him I got his ideas and obsession with crypto because am also into it too, why, what am here you all am on read.cash so am into it too.
With the world is moving I will like to say that am convinced to ask this question, **Is Crypto The Next Thing?**
What do you guys think ? I have my reasons to why Crypto is the Next big thing What are yours let share our thoughts.
There are crypto trackers, there are apps you can trade, exchange and buy crypto. Is this the next big thing or is already the big thing?
**Questions......**
Can we Trust the Crypto World?
Why Is everyone getting into It?
Is the Government With Crypto Or Against it?
Is Your Money Safe in Crypto?
What will life be like if Crypto were our Money in Our Daily Lives?
What will be the rate of Crime if Everyone's Money is Crypto?
Will there Still Be need For Banks?
Will it be safe if everyone was into it?
Will it still gold as it is now that not all are into it?
These Questions I think are what we all need to look into and when we answer that then we will know our standing with the crypto world and can know where we can go with it and at what rate and level.
When is the Best time to buy crypto?
When is the best time to sell?
A lot of celebrities too, are all getting involved in cryptocurrency and are making it their day to day lives and is easier too.
I can rightly say now that, with the way the crypto world is going and booming up and down, it will surely be the next big thing, because anyone now making transactions outside your country now makes those transactions with crypto and that makes it more easier for some persons and in some countries too. Just think of it crypto currency being out there, for everyone and all will just be out of this world.
Thanks for reading.
Magic In The Hands of Angels.
Good day family, so I want to use this first part to appreciate the welcome I received here for joining the family and I promise to give my best and learn from all of you too. Thank you, thank you so very much.
So being a newbie in anything is really fun the energy you come with is just different and the ideas you have too is just off the roof ideas 💡.
My article today has nothing much to it just a Poem a wrote with no entrance or thought of anything just took a pen and started writing this and I hope y'all enjoy it please.
Magic in the hands of her that gave birth to me.
Magic in the hands of her I was fed.
Magic in the hands of her I had my first sleep.
Magic in the hands of her I had my first bath.
Magic in the hands of her I was pet.
Magic in the hands of her I learn how to walk.
Magic in the hands of her I first fall in love.
Magic in the hands of her I had my first cry.
Magic in the hands of her I had my first laugh.
Magic in the hands of her I received my first slap.
Magic in the hands of her I was fed solid food.
Magic in the hands of her I learn my first word, mama.
Magic in the hands of her I learn how to read.
Magic in the hands of her I learn how to write.
Magic in the hands of her I laid when am sick.
Magic in the hands of her when I needed attention.
Magic in the hands of her who is my nurse.
Magic in the hands of her who is my doctor.
Magic in the hands of her who is my pharmacist.
Magic in the hands of her who is my lawyer and judge.
Magic in the hands of her who is my witness.
Magic in the hands of her who is my cook.
Magic in the hands of her my first best friend.
Magic in the hands of her my first adviser.
Magic in the hands of her my first kiss.
Magic in the hands of her my Angel.
Magic in the hands of her my Mother.
Magic in the hands of her my Amma.
Magic in the hands of her My Momzilla.
Magic in the hands of all the mothers in the world, they are a blessing, they are our angels 😇, they are our mothers, they are our friends. And have you guys notice that mothers are the only set of people who want to be our friends our whole lives.
We try to push them away all the time but they keep coming back and wanting to be our friends no matter how foolish or stupid we maybe the still stick around.
This is a Poem to my Mother and all the mothers out there most especially the single mothers we all love you guys 6000 and will continue loving ya.
Thanks for reading. And thanks once again for welcoming me to the family y'all thanks a bunch.
Yello Y'all!!! Am New Here.
Yello, how is everyone doing here today? Am new here and hope am welcome here to the family of read.cash. OK I was not sure I will be doing this when I was introduced to this site but my mind was changed and here I am 😅😅😅. OK let me tell y'all how I was introduced to the this site.
It was on a Tuesday afternoon, a friend and I were having a chat and we talked about alot of things, like how he manages his time and still has time for lectures and other stuffs you know. I can't still remember exactly how we started talking about read.cash but we did and am kind of happy we did and here I am with this family here. We talked about read.cash for over an hour because I had so many questions to ask on how to go about it and all, and I so it took me 5 days to finally register on read.cash and start writing because I wanted making my first impression on everyone.
So before I continue I will like to tell y'all short story, so I know we all have seen or heard someone say "when you dream it, you achieve it"
So the story starts out with a young boy who looks up to his big brother, his big brother was like his whole world 🌎 and he did everything he did to impress his big brother, by going to places he big brother went tried doing things around him for him to see and be impressed by it and be proud of him even if is just once.
With all that have said so far y'all will have taken a hit that, the young boy who wants to impress his elder brother is me 😜😀😀.
And yes I grew up having that idea of wanting to be my brother and did all I could to be him or be like him at the risk of my happiness and at first I thought it was fun you know being young and not knowing things that much, I wanted to walk like him, talk like him, laugh like him and wanted to go to the same school he attended from secondary school to the University.
So the University he attended was one of the best universities in my country here and everyone going there must be really good 👍and so I did all I could to get in to the university just to impress my elder brother, just wanted him to notice me. For years I will be writing jamb and still not get accepted to the university, for a while there I wanted giving up on that dream you know, just telling myself that it will be fine I should just attend any university and maybe I will be noticed by him.
I was not happy I always looking for things to do to make others happy but then my dream was achieved when the university I having being dreaming to attend finally gave me admission and am supposed to be happy and all but I can't seem to explain what am feeling because I know this us not the feeling of joy and happiness, Is just the sense of emptiness and me being trap in a loop of trying to please others.
Yes, I dreamed it and I have achieved it but the happiness and sense of accomplishment is not there.
OK, the reason for this article I that you can't please everyone and no matter how hard you try you will end up losing yourself or your happiness at the long run, is not wrong to dream or want to be like others but the question **is,is that what you really want? Is that who you really are or?**
So y'all thanks for reading my first article hope you enjoyed it. And hope am welcome to the family of read.cash.
@Adobe01
