@Aalia 1 November 2022 more from that month

I pray that your November will be chaos free and offers you only the peace of mind that you long for the past 10 months. You deserved it, really. I hope that the amount of stress you'll feel whenever you'll see a bunch of school works coming will not affect your mental health anymore. I hope you'll have time to think about yourself, more on enhancing the good traits that you possessed and slowly eliminating those bad ones. It's okay to think that you're stuck on the process of planning what you wanted to do in the future, what particular program you'll be grabbing in college or not having any idea at all. Do not be sorry by how you fail yourself for the past years, as long as you're eager to learn the lesson and start planning a promising future for yourself. It's all that matters. Do not envy on how others successfully live life at early 20's or 30's and you by some means are still stuck on a job you're cursing yourself into, or a life different from what you've been dreaming 10 years ago. That's still fine. Do not be too hard on yourself anymore. Life is not a race to begin with, so wait for your time to takeover. Be patience. We are all living that roller coaster kind of life, expect the ups and downs and treat them as equal as possible. And with that, you are giving yourself free access to the world, to genuine happiness, to less overthinking, to a healthy living without dulling your sparkle and other people's light.