@Aalia 10 November 2022 more from that month

I feel like everyone’s progressing but me. I feel like I am always at the end of the line, always coming too close but never really get my turn. It feels like stars watch me on the land screen, like as if my life is a sitcom with a laugh track that plays on a loop. I never get the goal. I feel like everyone’s buses come and pick them up, while mine makes me wait longer. Until I’m the only one left at the station, as everyone passes by. I never get to move forward. I feel like nothing is really meant for me. Like I’m just a supporting actress in my own biographical film. I never really get to the front.