@Aalia 7 November 2022 more from that month

i was told i should be braver. that i should not be defeated in everything i do. that i should not be affected on things that can ruin me. that i should not be a crybaby. i was told i should be tough. that i should be bolder. that i should be living fearlessly. that i should be someone i dreamed to be. they told me that i should keep going, but no one told me i can rest when things gets rough. no one told me that i can have their shoulders when i don't have anyone to lean on. no one told me they'd be with me as i carry these baggages. and now i am all alone stitching parts of me that's ripped apart.