Making Adjustments

Adjustment(n): the process of adjusting.

From the rootword adjust(v): to change (something) so as to make it suitable for a new use or situation.

19 days since I gave birth to our fourth, little bundle of joy. Though it came too early than the expected date of delivery, I was prepared with my baby bags. However, my mind was not yet ready and was just beginning to set it into giving birth. And because that was the case, I feared the worse that could possibly be done to save both of us- c-section. Was just lucky, I didn't have to undergo operation.

After giving birth, as much as I wanted to make an article I just can't. I am only starting to make adjustments so that I may be able to publish and get in touch with you. I found it hard to get things the way I used to in here. I used to make an or two article if I can at night before going to sleep and publish it first thing in the morning. Read others article and make interactions after publishing before I get out of bed. I do my chores during the day and get back to the platform late in the afternoon. This had been my routine for the past months.

Now, I have my hands full with my little one who is solely dependent of me. I am adjusting myself to the sleepless nights. Breastfeeding a newborn baby is no joke at all as I have to feed him whenever he demands to be fed. Changing wet nappies all through the night because I prefer cloth diapers over disposable ones. I am using cloth diapers and disposables interchangeably especially that it had been raining the past couple of weeks. And cloth diapers are far more convenient and saves a lot of money from buying disposables. During the day, I doze off when baby sleeps.

There were moments when I tried to write articles but the moment I am typing, my eyes hurt and my head would pound. I think it was due to the light emitted by the cellphone. So what I do is to put ideas that come to my mind in my samsung notes and try to write one paragraph at a time so as not to strain my eyes. And I feel lethargic most of the time that making a full article in a day is just impossible.

You might think why I am making it a big deal the need to write an article. That I sound too desperate.

First off, writing an article or just writing about my day had been in my system for the past year that I am here. It seemed like something is missing when I didn't get to write, publish and interact. It seems like my day won't be completed without reading and leaving a thumbs up, comment or an upvote maybe. Plus, I got to earn while doing so. And the fact that my earnings here was a big help during our hospitalization was just overwhelming. I find it a convenient way to earn while at the comfort of our home and taking care of my kids.

Though I am struggling to adjust to my new routine yet I am not pressuring myself because I don't want to stressed out. Now, I will be only here from time to time and hopefully the bot won't forget me. The amount I am earning is what I use with my kids needs especially with my toddler's formula milk and diapers. Because we are here at my parents house since the day we were discharged from the hospital and am not expecting from my husband to provide.

Please bare with this nonsensical article as it is not what I am supposed to publish but it is what I came to get done in my drafts. I may like to interact with you just like I used to but I hope you would understand why I will only be visiting you when I have the time..

Thank you for reading..

08-07-21

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