I don't know when 'later' is I'm still staying with my granny. The days here feel long in some way but I don't mind. My grandmother does not tell me to wake up early but I do. It is a habit. I'm not sure if I have to help her so I ask but she always sends me away. I read my books and there isn't much more to do. If grandmother needs bread she sends me to the bakery. We eat together in the kitchen and if I am not finished she leaves. I need to finish my plate before she gives…
Fear for phobia **Is it possible to suffer from a car-service-phobia?** I asked Grammarly to shows me synonyms of the word 'phobia' which are aversion, fright, fear, dislike, hate, disapproving. If I read this it's likely although the word disliking is not equal to fearing or hating. **Let's start with spiders for example**. I don't hate spiders, I do not fear or disapprove of them but if it comes to disliking some spiders I might and which spider depends on where I am, how…
It was all a bad dream **We went out** to Presikhaaf. First I had to walk to the main road which is uphill. Next grandmother asked how I liked to go over there by bus or trolley. I choose the trolley. It's a kind of bus too but it's attached to wires and the sound it makes is different. She let me push the button twice as we had to go out. Once at Presikhaaf and once back home. It was a lot of walking and why we went to Presikhaaf I don't know. There are shops but where…
Shocking? 'To the bone' is a film about anorexia (and partly bulimia) an eating disorder and I just finished watching it. If you have Netflix you can watch it too. On those rare occasions, I have a better connection I download all kind of films and series and watch them when I have nothing else to do or need a break. It's hard to say if I advise you to watch this film. If you like some action or crime this isn't a film for you. To the bone is more about the "daily" life of…
Community, Coins & Creed Community Community life isn't easy especially not for introverts, those with not as many social skills and people who are simply not interested in joining the club. I understand it because I am an outsider and it has always been that way. It wasn't only because I felt different but my looks and behaviour (norms and values included) are different too. I go my own way and try out what I think or believe is good. Good for me or those close to me. At…
Mother's Day Does it mean anything to you? This day isn't celebrated worldwide and if not on the same day. Mother's Day. Once it was celebrated to honour the goddess, mother Earth. It was long before certain cultures existed, cultures and countries who look down upon what they call today pagan but is it? Each belief starts somewhere and what Christians, Muslims celebrate, preach and believe today isn't much different from what ancestors believed hundreds of years ago. It…
She pushed me **I am back home** try to write while I'm in bed. I use a pencil. I'm afraid the fontainpen leaves ink spots on the sheets As long as I keep writing I don't feel sick. I feel homesick but I am home but I don't feel at home. Being unwanted doesn't feel good but being hated is worse. It can always be worse dad said and it is true. Here it is worse and each day it's getting worse. Waking up early is no fun. I have to day after day. It doesn't matter if it's…
Friendship ***dedicated to you... my friend*** **We search for it**, young or old do, not because we need it but want it since being alone, being single is the biggest taboo. You need to share, be aware, care about those others in your society, your family. Friends...if you don't have them you are weird, not accepted, anti-social and don't fit in. No one asks if that is what you want... fitting in. **Toddlers** don't share, don't care. It's boundaries they need to set by…
1 dollar only **What can you buy for 1 dollar?** **One dollar** it's not much. Not where I live and not as much as one euro. For one euro I can buy yogurt, the cheapest bar of chocolate, half a bread, and 1 kilograms of wheat flour if I am lucky. I can matches, an apple (perhaps two), one banana, 50 envelopes, a bottle of water and that's basically it. It's not much and if it comes to food only especially if you have a family, you can buy holland toast from it. One dollar is…
A lion's tale **A freewrite**... It's about writing whatever pops up in your mind. It can be a story, poetry or text that doesn't make sense at all. But it's your brain, the thoughts within, you are giving space too. The first need is not to make sense but to keep writing under every circumstance. If your freewrite isn't a free write it's because you didn't set your mind free which can be found back in your read. Your article, piece of text, is not labelled for its subject,…
Back to school Today it's back to school and it was a rainy day. My youngest will get wet in her new coat. Showers of rain the entire day and it's starting getting cold inside again. It's my first day at home alone and it a miracle I woke up in time. I set the alarm clock but am not sure if it woke me up. As I checked the time it turned out to be one hour earlier. Enough time for all of us to get dressed and drink our tea. I forced the children to pack their bags last night.…
She made me count thrums Yesterday I wrote...I thought I wrote it was Monday but it wasn't. It can't be because it is Thursday today. Thursday, April 22. I mixed up the days, the dates... My head hurts. Something happened. It's not new. Something always happens because. this is the circumstance if you live in our house if you need to live with my parents, my mother. I remember she yelled, she didn't leave. She attacked me. What happened next? I felt pain. My back and neck…
Embrace **Curation Duo Week 1 started.** **If you like to join the 'Photo Pandemic Poetry Publishers'** **see here** https://read.cash/@heartbeat1515/curation-duo-week-one-through-the-screen-6060fd74 Was there ever such a great day, was there? Did my bare feet ever touch the ground, were flowers my shield and did Mother Nature embrace me? I tell myself this was me indeed. It *was* me who cared, wanted to touch. I loved to kiss and cuddle so much, even hugged the tree with…
Freedom **Curation Duo Week 1 started.** **If you like to join the 'Photo Pandemic Poetry Publishers'** **see here** https://read.cash/c/syt-poems-bd19 I am home alone. It is two thousand twenty "stay at home" they say. I do what they want. Solely alone I am. Spring, Summer and Autumn too. "We do this for you." I know this isn't true, a lie. I'm old, useless, done. I want to go out. This is my life I decide. I fought for freedom. It's December soon. The whole world praises…
Eye catching **Curation Duo Week 1 started.** **If you like to join the 'Photo Pandemic Poetry Publishers' see** **here** **for more information and examples.** https://read.cash/c/syt-poems-bd19 Eye catching The latest stories Breaking news Fear Old articles No information Fake messages Reuters rules. Journalism is history copy-paste Google translate Social-media the trend In the end Anyone can write. Right? Outside Irresponsible Asocial behaviour Bad Kissing Hugging…
Broke Take a Break It's just a phase Time to breathe Stay home Summertime Weekend Who will pay? No need to work Sleep whole day Life is good Freedom Bills remain Blah Blah Pouring rain Lonely Still not dressed Old vest Is this me? I blame... End of game Depressed Dark days, a lack of future, are facing many. At first, it looked great. They cheered were happy they could stay at home. Time to relax, no need to find an excuse why not showing up at work. Time for the family,…
Outside Today is the day I dare take a look outside Suddenly it's Spring Fresh air blows inside Paradise in front of me No way to escape Days, weeks, months pass by It's indeed greener next door I am losing me **Curation Duo Week 1 started.** **If you like to join the 'Photo Pandemic Poetry Publishers'** **see here** https://read.cash/@heartbeat1515/curation-duo-week-one-through-the-screen-2cdb3217 **Submit** your poem in SYT: Poems and do not forget to read the rules set by…
I don't hate Mondays I don't hate Mondays or Tuesday's only Saturdays and Sundays. I don't like is being home. It's better to go to and stay at school even if it isn't great to be. there. The breaks I don't like if no one talks to me, plays with me but it's better than being scold at or hit. If the weather is fine I can sit in the sun or watch other children play. At times we have the lessons outside on the schoolyard. Mathematics I don't understand and I cannot draw either.…
Invest in your pet *It sounds so easy having a pet or... more than one. If you grew up with animals most likely you are used to having them around. What we easily forget is we need to invest time into the animals we keep in and around our house. The most common pets kept are dogs and cats and they are the easiest because it takes care of itself and uses you (and your neighbours) as his servant while a dog sees you as his companion and obeys you. At least that's what they…
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