@silvermontagne 31 January 2024 edited more from that month

All I asked. circa: 31Jan2016

I'm drowning, I'm in despair Thinking where I did wrong That I believe, I may be wrong Feeling this way Borrowing this moment They call it grace, They find it safety They said it was a wonderful and amazing But ever since I never know What is it? Why? I am in the deepest waters Drowning, catching my breath Alone, desperate Tired and breathless Lifeless, nothing Where are you? I want to hold you Where can I find you? I want to see you I want to know you I always think it is a place that I must work for to enter it I always remind myself, a **dretch** is not allowed Am I not enough of it? Am I not good enough of it? I'm powerless I'm prayerless I'm hurt I'm nothing I no longer thrive I'm shrinking Shouting, fighting Deep within I'm desperate Isolate, disseminate Regretting, forgetting Your mercy is my battle cry Solitude, surrender All I am asking is your grace