@sashley 30 May 2021 more from that month

Before I call the night off, I just want to thank you all for your prayers and condolences. Today is indeed a tough and long day for me specially my cousin's family. Its another realization for me though, that life is so short. He's just 45 turning 46 this December. One of our batchmates send some photos containing his suicide notes, his baggage and his poloshirt that he wanted to wear on his death day. This made me shiver. I can see how far his depression have brought him. I really feel so bad and so sorry for him. I wish I could turn back time. I praise and thank God that my depression back then was not as bad as his. It even came to a point that my eldest was also suffering from anxiety reaction. I was too scared and worried for her. The doctor warned me that I need to look after her and closely monitor her, constantly talk to her. She told me that people suffering from this disorder have the strongest suicidal tendency. Looking back I just couldn't help but give praise and thanks to God for being there. He's always with me. He never left my side. Everything was in dip and I really hit rock bottom. But God is so gracious and merciful. He is faithful and true to His promises. Which reminds me of this photo. It depicts that a day has to end but definitely a new day will commence. So let us keep the faith. Goodnight everyone. Don't forget to talk to God.🙏💚🙏