@sashley 25 April 2021 more from that month

I have been asking this question for years, why do you always end up the one being hurt every time you intend to hurt other people? Is it your personal conviction? Or conscience maybe? Just a thought. I might have hurt some people in the past (intentionally and unintentionally) and I must admit that both have made me hurting in the end. It was a crazy cyle. It went on and on for years. I thought I have overcome it already but no, not just yet. I guess I am being stupid again. Sorry for the word. But I think I am. This made me sometimes to wish that I am just as cold and as hard as this stone. No feelings no nothing just a simple cold, hard stone. Ang saya ko siguro no kasi hindi na ako makakaramdam ng kahit anong klaseng pakiramdam, walang sakit, walang pait, walang hinagpis, walang galit, basta lahat wala. But then again, I always remind myself this "be careful what you wish for". So I didn't wish something like this. Even if sometimes I couldn't help being crazy and stupid. Aja fighting💪💪 #Life