Some people think when mom stays at home full time was having a good day and relaxation all the time. But let us discuss what does it feels like to be at home all the time? I can say some things based on my experience and situation but don't compare yours to mine. I am going to write about my daily activities and emotions at home with my kids and my in-laws. We don't have the same situation but there are certain things that we have in common about being a stay-at-home mom.
As you can see I am having a hard time as a full-time mom because I have 4 kids (including my stepdaughter) to take care of and I am currently pregnant. Sad to say but it was not part of a plan but I can't do anything about this anymore but accept the fact that I am having a baby again for the fourth time. It was never easy to deal with my 4 kids one by one. Since I am pregnant I woke up between 8-9 am because I am always having back pain. Right after washing my face, I need to make their breakfast and feed them. Take them to a bath and dress them up. Right after that I will fix our bed and clean our small bedroom and prepare for lunch. But sometimes my daily schedule was ruin because sometimes one of them always want to cuddle with me or having tantrums. Sometimes I forgot to brush my hair and just tied it up like a bun. I don't have enough time for myself because if I had I'd rather lay in bed while making articles or spend my free time on noise. cash to earn. Sometimes I can't even go to the bathroom right away because my youngest daughter doesn't want to stay in her crib.
In the afternoon I let them play and watch if they don't want to sleep because I have to make extra income. I am spending my time on noise. cash, answering a paid survey for rewards and now I am back to read. cash. When they hungry I just gave them what we have on the ref or table. Most of the time they just have bread and juice for snacks in the afternoon. Before 7 pm I make sure that I already cooked for dinner so they can eat at the right time.
Multi-tasking was never easy too. While cooking, I have to wash the dishes and put some dirty clothes on the washing machines to save time. I am exhausted but I have to keep going because no one would do it for me. I have to try my best and do my part as a mom and housewife.
Being emotional is a big challenge for me because I feel this from time to time. I feel like I can't do anything because I have a lot of kids. I lose my confidence to try new things. I barely talk to someone because I am shy, I feel so down, and little when I saw someone I know that they are in a good shape. I cannot focus and don't know what I want because my mind keeps changing every day. I feel jealous when my husband checking on others' profiles but I try my best not to react anymore because I want peace between us. I think I need to have my time but how can I do that when I am responsible for my kids and the house? Sometimes I want to go out for a while but I can't. I also feel like I am just a maid and babysitter. But those things are just on my mind I cannot even talk about them to my husband because I don't want him to think that I am now full of regrets and doubts.
So you see, while other people think that I am lucky enough to stay at home they don't know that I am struggling with how to deal with my everyday life. But after all, I am a mother and a wife so I have to be strong for my family to secure peace and order at home. I have to take care of and protect my kids at all costs. Aside from that living with in-laws is never been easy for me. We are living with them for almost 5 years and I can say that there's a lot of pros and cons. They are such a big help because they help us in our daily needs but it makes me feels so little. I am not comfortable making decisions on my own because I need their approval first. We have to follow them because they are elders and we are just living with them. But I thank God because he always on our side every time we need him. We have different views in life but we also manage to understand each other because after all, we are family.
That's how my life as a full-time mom. It is not easy as you think but I am grateful because I am having a wonderful life with my kids. They are my light in the darkness and my strength when I am weak.