I've Come this Far!

Article No.: 113

Author: _renren16_

Published on: 10.12.2021 @ 4:57 pm.

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Have you ever imagine to be able to do things beyond what you expect for? How would you react if someone acknowledge it? If you ever receive much compliments or praises because of that, will you become a new being? Or stay what you are and still humble yourself despite the attentions you get from them?

Much appreciation and thanks giving for this wonderful people!🙇‍♀️❣️

Before, I must say that I was then a loner. I'm not saying that I don't have friends, its just, when the betrayal had happened to me, I preferred being alone. Well, in fact, I was then called a "Snobber".

For all you know, some parts of my life stories were all about the bright side of me. I mean, most of them were about the good things and experience I had even before I started my journey in here.

I am this type of person that fond of comparing myself to other people. In the sense that, I envied what others have gained or for what achievements they have, so far. Looking at them, I was thinking,

"Why are they just so lucky?"

"When will it be my turn?

"Can I do or have the same?" Or...

"May I be able to surpass that?

Looking at the opposite side, its all about the negative ones. Maybe, I was eaten by those thoughts that leads to self-pity. (Sighs deeply!) (-_-)

That certain habit keeps on distracting my focus for many years I lived this life. I tend to focused myself on how am I going to go further than the others and not thinking about its results, which eventually leads to self-destruction, resulting to anxiety. I had experienced this thing, when I was still in college. Its a long story to tell tho and its not really necessary for you to know all about it. Its all in the past, and I already overcame that personal issues long time ago.

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Got to tell something...

Writing is not really my thing. Well, I've been part of the school publication when I was in high school, but I am not really into it. Maybe, that's one of the reasons why I have a problem when it comes to grammar, specifically English Grammar. I have a Teacher, an English Teacher. She was so strict when it comes to English grammar thing. Well, that's her thing. I honestly admired her for that. Everytime we had an essay writing assignments in her class, I was really envious when some of my classmates get a higher grade or score. And looking at mine, "Duh, whatever!" Lol. Hmm...I can't blamed anyone of them for that, its my fault that I am not doing the best to improve my writings.

When I was in College, I am used to get lots of corrections, especially during the process of making our Research Paper. Aigoo! In addition to that, my group mates were also hard-headed and dependent to me. They just let me do the thing of organizing the sentences, up until I finished one paragraph or two. As a sort of punishment or to be fair, I get back at them for letting them pay for the printing expenses. "Am I bad?" I know, I really am. Lol. XD

As what I have mentioned in my previous article entitled, "I am a Grateful Content Creator," I came across this platform; "read.cash" last May 2021. It was introduced to me by my mentor. It was really a good timing. I was striving for survival, I mean struggling for money because you know, I was then under too much pressure. Though, I was really hesitant at first, I still took the opportunity and yes, I will never ever regret that I joined in this platform. "Hurray!" ^_^

At my first attempt, I just published a poem, like a spoken-poetry. If I've got to remember about it, I can't help myself but felt so embarrassed about it, the reason why I took some rest on the platform and created an account on noise.cash. But, still I just rarely posted in there too. With the help of my mentor, and as well as some of you here that I've already met months ago, I was then encouraged to tried it out again. As the days gone by, I learned a lot of things, especially about how to enhance my writing skills. I've got lots of pieces of advice, mentoring, and read lots of articles about it.

ENVY IS INEVITABLE!

I came across lots of writers or content creators in here that I really envied. The way they organized their thoughts, from words to phrases to sentences, up to the paragraphs, "Wow!" How can they do such things? They were just amazing.

AUTHOR'S REALIZATION:

A while ago, I came across an article, written by no other than, one of my read.cash brothers, @King_Gozie.

https://read.cash/@King_Gozie/do-you-feel-really-behind-in-everythingthen-this-read-is-for-you-be352c52 (CHECK IT OUT!)

I can't cite all of the thoughtful thoughts he just mentioned in there, but at some point it made me realized, I was all wrong. I know I felt like I was left behind, but I should not felt so down about it. I should find my room for self-improvement. Right after that, I went into the comment section and boom...There was a comment in there that really hit me to the bone.

"Comparison is a thief of joy."- @Murakamii.7 (Owshiiee mamshy ^_^) I'll take all of those envies as an inspiration to improve myself, especially my write ups and my writing skills.

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"I'VE COME THIS FAR". And for almost 5 months journey in here, I must say, its wonderful!

Indeed, Read.cash truly helped me a lot. I came to realized a lot of things I never imagine before, and got to do things beyond what I expected.

I may not an excellent writer but is it more than enough for me to be able to received much love and support from all of you, my read.cash fam! Thank you for the thoughtful compliments you have given to me, I mean, through your comments that left for me in my articles. It maybe a never ending words of "Thank You", but please let me be. Its just my way of appreciating the good things you have done for me. "So far, so good!"

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Shout out to Ms. @Jane and @TengoLoTodo , "Thank you so much for the sponsorship renewal." It really means a lot.❣️

Thank you for spending your time for my piece today!📖☺️

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!😇