@ramonoropeza 24 January 2025

Mentally strong. (Personal venting) The year 2025 has started off strong for me. A year in which I am very optimistic and I am trying to stay mentally strong despite the adversities that continually occur in our lives. Sadness and Desolation I have previously gone through very hard episodes of sadness and desolation. Having lost my dream, which was my bakery, seeing that it is increasingly difficult to have a better-run country again and the constant daily problems that get out of hand because of it, is so exhausting. My mother has always been my greatest motivation to keep going, but she has not been my refuge in my worst moments where I questioned even my own existence. I have drained a lot of it here, writing and sharing my frustration. Many times feeling guilty for sharing it, I reflect on the fact that despite everything, I have many things to be thankful for. But you don't know how difficult it is to stop feeling that way even if you know it's wrong. Not feeling enough, seeing that at my age I should already be in my own house or leading a better life, and seeing myself sink after sink, I have gotten up several times before and now when I feel that I am doing a little better, I fall back into a deep questioning about myself. My mother, although she cannot understand me, accompanies me, is with me. But I almost always prefer to be alone. My brother is at his slave job and I hardly see him, I also feel bad for him, he is older than me and we are basically in the same situation. Maybe with time he has learned to handle this or maybe we are different in the way of thinking. The Way Forward These days in January I have been working hard to get ahead, I have kept doing arbitrage through Binance P2P, even with the little capital that I have I have been able to continue. Currently I have approximately $500 USDT, I have had to use part of this capital to cope with several emergencies. From my mother's medicines, which are an average expense of $60 a month, to having to tow my mother's car from my grandmother's house to our neighborhood because of the space it took up there and thus avoid problems between my mother and her siblings. This has been a trigger for making me feel like I have not advanced and rather I have gone backwards, I feel so frustrated, when I see that many people make money with cryptocurrencies and I really think they are very lucky, but I cannot deny that I feel bad about myself, because I am aware of all the knowledge I have and I feel that I have not been able to advance. I hardly talk about it with my friends anymore, because it is all about seeing how much money can be made. It is not about technology, or structural changes in society or anything, more than whether or not money is made. It seems that is the only thing that matters. But when I lack food or I get into some debt to be able to cope with some situation, I think the same, the only thing that matters is making money and being able to be calm, and then you can do what you want and what you like. The Pressure of Money I have to confess that I am a bit shy about talking about Bitcoin Cash with my friends, because for them it is about whether or not you make money, I am not an example of that and it is not important either. I feel like I waste a lot of energy trying to explain what BCH really is and everything that it implies: the differences with BTC and why BTC is no longer the original Bitcoin, you simply cannot have that conversation because it is all about how much FIAT you can accumulate. This also makes me first look to have a capital base to be able to carry out my social media plan for BCH in Spanish. And feeling that I have not made progress in this also makes me feel bad. The situation in Venezuela also generates a lot of despair about the future. Currently, the dictatorship is so real, basically you cannot say anything bad about the rulers because you can be accused of treason or terrorism, you have to be very careful not to have problems with some official because they have a lot of power and there is no justice unless there is money involved. Leaving the country is not only a difficult decision but it is also a great financial effort, as the Venezuelan passport alone costs $215. Personally, I believe that the cost of the passport is a strategy of the government to avoid a large wave of migration and to prevent people with few resources from leaving so easily. Focusing on the Future Despite everything, I try to stay focused, to keep walking towards the horizon where I don't see a destination, but I'm afraid to stop. My biggest concern is losing this capital due to some eventuality. I try not to think too much about what happens within Venezuelan society. I have decided not to go to political marches or rallies anymore. I just want to take care of my house, my family, and myself. I still think that the best option here is to look for sources of income through the internet, in the digital world. I want to be able to get fully involved here. That's why I'm looking for a way to finance the social media project for BCH in Spanish, also to consolidate a job as a community manager or virtual assistant, and then be able to climb little by little. Maybe my dream of the bakery will be relegated or I can achieve it in the future. Currently, with the arbitration work I am generating around 1% of the daily capital. To live here in Venezuela I would need around $3,500 to make $1,000 a month. That would be great for me and I could continue climbing. As a person, my dream is not to be a multimillionaire, but to be financially stable and not have these kinds of worries. To be able to contribute to society and my family. And personally, to be proud of myself… If you have come this far, I thank you for reading this little vent that helps me drain many of my feelings. Sometimes we can be surrounded by many people and still feel alone. A hug. **I am looking to raise $1000 (2.4Mentally strong. (Personal venting) BCH to date) to be able to start over. This amount will be distributed as follows:** $600 for my training as a community manager and in digital marketing. $400 to buy audiovisual production equipment. I previously wrote an article which is the basis for this project, here it is so you can appreciate it. **bitcoincash:qqr0zl4jznduv88xz8pegu0fx44hatpatgh5rkqenx** **CryptoBakery: The simple BCH ecosystem for everyone.** https://read.cash/@ramonoropeza/cryptobakery-the-simple-bch-ecosystem-for-everyone-flipstarter-1f2f5a3e