HOPE. Time will tell, i feel exhausted, i feel tired, i feel like giving up, i feel like sleeping and sliding into my illusions, i feel like im choking, i feel slow, i feel lazy, i feel off purpose, I feel useless, i feel ish ish, it's cold, it's uncertain, it's pessimistic, it's dark inside, the weather is bad on my side, the odds are against me, everything seems collapsing, the fear is creeping, I'm off the grid, off the table, off the ladder of the balance, I feel the pain, the pain of nothing, I'm confused, unsure, unstable, loose molecules, on loose strings, I feel terrible, such nights bring back bad memories but it's ok, I know I'm okay and I will be better, guess what, never on this planet or any other, and even in the afterlife will I ever give up on me, I'm power, I'm strong, in struggling but I'm going to win, I'm God's tool in his right hand, and im gonna shine I believe, not today not tomorrow, but God's grace and timing, I'm placing it all on His mighty laps.