@muki 12 April 2021 more from that month

I'm slowly collapsing... Years ago I was feeling that energy to break any wall that gets in my way. Lately, actually, it's not lately, it's been two years, I'm losing every sunshine. I gave up on the things I want, stopped working, sitting all day in front of the screen, escaping from every thought about where this life going, etc.. Those things are really disturbing. Of course, I always asking to myself like where are we going but I was escaping, instead, I was searching for answers, telling myself that if I keep going someday I will find the answer. I never had dreams but I had hope, and now the only thing I have is the memory of those things. random thoughts at 2am