This is just random.

First time that I will share one of my crazy moments from the past that I think made me think twice about my personality.

I already shared that I'm a single mom with a 4 year old kiddo whose a photocopy of his father. As I was single for quite a long time so I miss hanging out like the old times with friends and more than friends...Chorrr!

Last 2018 I stumbled upon an app where you can meet men within your range and around the area. So I tried it out of boredom and simply follow the rules on how to get in.After posting a simple pic with a bio "single mother" i've received tons of notifications and messages..Surely they are just some green minded people thinking I came on the app for some wild fun but no. I just want some company because during that time I barely managed handling my anxiety problems.

So for a week of being on that app I met a man and we have the same age and also proud Cebuano.So we chatted and we keep asking questions about each other. We've been like chatmates on that app for a month,I got messages from other men but He is my constant contact on that app. And after a month we decided to see each other..I was already asigned in our main office so I agreed but only for a short time for I had to travel back home again.

We met in the mall, I thought he'll ignore for I felt shy after seeing his beautiful face. But since we agreed to see each other so I muster my courage and talk to him. We ate in a restaurant and then go for a little walk up to the bus terminal. He said then that he wants it to continue. He wanted to see me more in the days to come, as me not to argue for I enjoyed his company, I agreed.

So we see each other oftentimes but not daily. We even went to an event by my client together. He also joins me on one of my mission gathering and he enjoyed it.

I thought it's smooth sailing until one night he asked me if he could court me. I decline in an instant and he asked why. I just said that I don't want to ruin our friendship because I don't trust on relationship anymore. Having been broken made me like this. But he waits, until one day he vanished without a single word. I thought he's disappointed with me so I accepted the fact that I lost a friend after that rejection. I exited from the app, uninstalled it. And I also lost contact with him at all.

Earlier this year I installed another app and it also lets you get to interact with people near your area. You get to be followed and you get to post random things about yourself. I did get a lot of messages from mostly below my age for those teenagers are most active on dating apps like these. Then one day a message pop and it says "Uy, kumusta na".

So I viewed his profile and wss shocked that he was thw person I met on the last app. So I asked him why did he vanished and how did he knew me.

And then he explained that he sailed(he's a seaman) to Manhattan so he lost contact with me for he lost his phone while on the ship.

We exchange fb acct and continue our communication on messenger. He still continued to court me and I keep on rejecting him and he insist on waiting.

Trust Issue is one of my problems but with him I felt secured but I don't want to let him know it. We've been in contact until now and yeah we're still friends😁

They departed off to Brazil and he only have limited data and I ubderstand that.

I feel like having an LDR relationship although we don't have a label 😂😂.

He respected my decision so he'll just have to wsit until I openly accepted his feelings(haba nang hair mo gurl???!!!😎😎)

hahaha

as i have told you it's just a random so ignore if you find it cringey😂😂

God Bless

Fin