@lemonGirl 13 June 2021 more from that month

Okay, everyone has a dark conscience and I wanna share mine to you guys today because I've actually been really toxic back in highschool😆 (plus I want one of those cute crafts ahaha especially that blue heart). When I was still in highschool a lot was very new to me like new faces, attitudes, and so much more that was actually affecting and changing me without realizing it. First, I want to share that I'd often get easily JEALOUS because when one of my friends got to talk to someone else or met someone else I'd really make a big deal out of it. Second is I'd then get PARANOID on what if that person was now backstabbing me and my friend would then agree on what that person had said ರ╭╮ರ. The third one is I remembered when I was in 2nd to 3rd year highschool I've been very JUDGEMENTAL towards other people because I've actually acquired that kind of trait from one of my friends and I knew it was wrong to judge others but the feeling of it was really great. The fourth one is I was very ANTISOCIAL because I was scared to talk to new people I was afraid on how they'll treat me, there'd be a time that I won't talk to anyone and my classmate would ask me why I don't socialize as much as they do and I'd just answer them an I don't know because I knew that they wouldn't understand 😆 (I'm still a bit of antisocial until today lol). Those are the FOUR dark consciences that I had got back in highschool BUT I managed to get rid of them little by little because I knew that I wouldn't be happy if I still have those with me. I'd always carry them around and just spreading toxic energy to people. I didn't wanna to have those anymore that's why I kept on trying to change and manage them. Now, I can control them easily and it made me calm and be positive with people but I am still working on how to stop being antisocial (haha baby steps)