@laraxl 2 December 2022

I barely go out and I'm too scared still. I have another life to take care of now and I feel like if I won't take care of myself, I'm neglecting him too. Then there will be a song that would hit me right in the feels and I remember the days I would just walk around the town. Then there will be some elderly person that would speak or compliment me along the way and I would give them a warm hug before we go our own ways. I attract strangers for some reason, my husband got to see that side of me back when we were still boyfriend and girlfriend trying to squeeze some time in our ever busy schedule. Yep, now I'd rather not engage or go out. It scares me. It sucks that I became this way since the pandemic hit but it is how it is now. I wonder when I'll be comfortable dealing with other people again.