Server in my love wedding.

Yes you read it right. How was it feel? It’s so painful I wanted to shout I wanted to hug her.I wanted to say that I still love her. I wanted to tell her that I’m the right one for her.And I wanted to say that I am the man for her. But it’s too late cause the girl I love is marrying the man that she deserves. Way back then I met this girl who caught my heart. I met her in a youth day in one brgy.(my friend invite me because her girlfriend are there)They introduce me to her and when I saw her I tell myself I want to know her better. After that I contacted her friemd and ask about her information if shes single (that time I know I want to be with her) And yes shes single I started to getting to know her and I’m totally stuck in love. Time flies really fast and now I am her boyfriend. We have a smooth and happy relationship. She’s the girl that every man could ask for loving caring and always there for you. My family love her like their own. We are both legal in each side. As time goes by were already 3years. There this one night we go in a bar together with my workmate tp celebrate for our promotion. As I thought this happy night will be the worst night to my love. I was so drunk when theres a girl who keeps on flirting with me. (As they say boys are boys) Then boom one night stand that became twice thrice until I can’t count this.(Why) I respect my gf in our 3 years yes we kiss we hug. But we don’t do married couple does cause I tell to myself that I will only dp that to her when we are married . But back to reality yes I cheated on her. She knows abour this but still forgive me. I tell her I will not do thos again. She forgive me over and over she even tell me that If make love will only the way to make me stay and don’t cheat she will give it but I refuse I tell her don’t.And I will not do it again. But again I failed her I cheated again she know about it but I didn’t get any reaction from her. I thought it’s ok. But only to find out while I was happy cheating with her, she’s also busy forgetting her feelings for me. Until one day. I can’t contact her. She also block me in all social media accounts. (I was busy with other girls I didnt notice it) I started to miss her call her text her laugh. I went to their home I talk to her. The worst thing that I don’t want to here happen. “I’m letting you go””It’s over” I thought loving you is enough for you to stat but you failed me you left me hanging. While your happy with other girl I am here crying. So lets end this relationship yes I love you but I know I need to love myself cause I lost myself while loving you. Pride pride pride. Yes guys intead of pursuing her I let her go. I enjoy my life being single being with different girl.(I though I didn’t love her) I move on. Years passed I started to miss her. I search her name on social media onlt to find out that he’s inlove with other. Those smile that i saw when were together for the first time. Those smile that I change into sadness and tears. I scroll and didn’t notice that my tears started to fell. I always stalk her on social media. And I saw how happy her life with that guy. I became busy workong there and here part time here and there to forget her. And then one day my former boss ask me if it is ok for me to be one of the server in a wedding. I said ok only to find out. That this will be the day the most hurtful day. The couple who’s in front of me now is the person I want to marry someday. The person that I love but I hurt her. The Person that I want to spend my life but I let her go. The person that I though would be my forever is now marrying the man of her life. And I am here serving their visitor in their wedding. I wanted to shout and stop the wedding but I saw her smile,how she laugh how she look at the man. (The same way she look at me before) But I dissappoint her. I let her slip away. So for all the boy’s out there always take care and love your girl. Cause when the girl started to give up you will regret that.