He Left Me Hanging

"Distance means nothing when someone means everything."

That line is exactly what you always hear to lovers who's in long distance relationship. Convincing people that LDR is magical and still works. But is love really travels as far as you let it? Is distance really unites missing beats of two hearts in love?

December 07, 2020

This is how we started. He said "Hi!" and I answered "Hello!" (Messenger). We became friends. And eventually, we became lovers. (not to mention that I only said 'I love you too' on the 1st day of January 2021) We are in long distance relationship bacause eventhough we are just in the same province, we're 5 towns apart.

I am a student and he is already working. He loves me and I love him too. Our relationship is good. Smooth sailing.

He is Vince. My strawberry.

December 18, 2020

"yes, master" he always annoys me with that phrase. He loves to irritate the hell out of me actually. And then afterwards, he would say "I love you baboy babe!". And I could say that it is his way to make me 'kilig'. It's our own kind of 'kilig moment".

Our relationship is good. Yes, there is still "tampuhan" and small fights. And I think it's just normal as long as at the end of the day, both of you gave an effort and are willing to fixed it.

He is a rider. He loves motorcycle. It is his another 'baby'. My only rival in terms of his time and attention. That is the reason why I am always reminding him to be careful especially in going home.

So yeah, that's Vince. My sweet strawberry.

December 31, 2020

Vince is a 'call person' so am I. We always choose call over chat. We always make sure to have a conversation through phone call every day.

Video Call in messenger is our way of expressing ourselves. The fact that we are in long distance relationship, video call helps us a lot to work this relationship out.

It was 8 in the morning and I'm still sleeping when he called. I gladly answered it of course. We just talked about our plan on new year's eve and on the first day of January. We also planned to meet on the 2nd day of January. (yes!!! our very 1st meeting personally). And yeah, I'm happy. Beyond happy actually and excited too.

He ended the call with 'I love you.' and I know that he knows that I'm not gonna answer 'I love you too.' in return. Instead, "Almost there po. Thank you!" I said.

Ironically yes, I didn't said "I love you" to him YET, because you know? Those words are sacred to me. I wanna say it when the time and feelings are right. Because I also believe that those words should be earned.

Thus, I'm thankful because he isn't demanding. He is willing to wait. He never force me to say those words actually. Not to mention that he will received a good news later on midnight. hehe

It's Vince again. My patient strawberry.

January 01, 2021

(12 am)

Its New Year's Eve!!! As everyone are busy eating and having fun, I opted to stay inside my room and talk to this annoying strawberry. We both want to spend New Year's Eve together. But because we're in long distance relationship, we have no choice but to do it through video call.

Honestly I planned this. I told him that I wanna talk to him at exactly 12 AM of the 1st day of 2021. Aside from I just wanna start and spend the 1st hours and day of the year with him, I wanna tell him the words that he earned for almost a month. I wanna tell him the words that I think he deserved. And because it feels like it is the right time to say those words. Why would I make him wait any longer if the feelings are mutual right?

At exactly 12 am of January 01, 2021, he received my "Happy New Year babe! Mahal kita." And at that very moment, I couldn't explain the happiness in his smiles and in his eyes.

"Ang saya ko ngayon babe. Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako kasaya ngayon sa sinabi mo. Ginawa mong mas happy yung New Year ko." he said. And my heart melts. It feels like everything in that very moment is perfect.

I love Vince. He is my answered prayer. He became my comfort. Siya yung pahinga ko sa nakakapagod na mundo. He made me so excited to face this another year's journey. And I know for sure that he will walk with me in that journey.

So yeah. First day of 2021 and I couldn't ask for more.

It's Vince, my strawberry. My year 2020 plot twist.

*******TO BE CONTINUED*******

Thank you ate @Ruffa and ate @Firenze for pushing me and giving me an idea to share my story here. I hope you guys will love and appreciate it.

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