@grey23espartinas 14 June 2022 more from that month

Hope Article no:15 June 14,2022 I woke up today at the wrong side of the bed. Feeling of sadness drag me to stay a little bit longer on my bed. Here we go again , trying all my might to beat this feeling of loneliness. A significant amount of effort convincing myself to get up and start my day. I prayed and asked for guidance to make my day a productive one despite of this sadness. I am not clinically depress though, i know that this is just one of those episodes that is coming out of nowhere . I just feel a little bit emotional and my head is like an empty shell , i can't think of anything to do. Im staring at the ceiling , waiting for the rays of sun to enter our room. I close my eyes again , continue on my prayer and HOPE that as the sun rise today may HE give me the strength to rise up too. As i open my eyes , rays of sun touched my face as if giving me signal to get up and start my day. With all my might i breath deeply, spread my arms and got up! Why Hope? We need to hope, we need to anticipate good things to happen, for a new day , for a new beginning ,for us to continue life . For us to continue believing that BCH will rise again to the moon. lol! It was July of 2021 during the heights of Covid-19 that we cling to HOPE. Tried our very best not to lose it , hold on to it as tight as we could. It was HOPE that brings us back to life. The Story I woke up one day feeling tired , i thought it was just an ordinary attack of my asthma . So i rested for a while then go on with my daily task . Night came and i have slight fever. I took paracetamol and went to bed early. I was chilling wee hour in the morning so i took another tablet of paracetamol. I felt a little better the next day but as the night fall fever will strike again. It continue for 3 days until i lost my sense of smell and taste. We are all worried , fear that i acquired the covid-19 virus already. Symptoms are getting worse each day , and it was confirmed that i have it. All the symptoms was there , fever, fatigue , torturing headache, diarrhea, difficulty breathing and loss of sense of smell and taste. Since it was the heights of pandemic and surge was all over. Hospitals do not accept patients unless you are critical. So i don't have choice but to fight it at home. We lost some close friends and relatives due to it and i do'nt want to be counted as victim as well. Worst day The worst day came when i pass the virus to my kids after a few more days. They acquired it thru me and the day after, my husband was sick as well. We are all home quarantined. We are thankful though that our kids went well fast after 4 days. Though sense of smell and taste are still gone. Me and my husband hit by the virus so bad we are so weak , we cried many times as we tried so hard to eat , a boiled egg and a piece of banana was so hard to swallow , it seems like theres a big lump in our throat. Mouth dries up , even water mixed with oresol was so hard to swallow. I lost count how many sachets of Oresol we consumed coz we had a bout with diarrhea. Our knees are so weak going back and forth to the bathroom. We almost can't move our legs to step. Headache was like there was something crushing your head. It was so painful you can't sleep. Paracetamol has no effect for pain. Nights seem so long , i was sitting on our bed at night coz i could hardly breath. But giving up is not an option for us. My husband though chilling too often asked me if i'm ok, i just nod and tried to smile to tell him im just fine though i am not. I could hardly breath i can't talk coz it seems like the air will escape from my lungs for good , if i utter a single word. I will just point to him my nebulizer.

I pray , we prayed over and over but sometimes even my mind don't seem to cooperate . It feels like shutting off but i tried , prayed so hard to GOD that i don't want to go yet. Tears are flowing yet i can't sob i don't have energy for it. I was clinging to HOPE so tight that was the only thing we ought to do. Finally, The rays of HOPE Three weeks gone by before the medicines we are taking, prescribed by our doctor took effect. Fever was gone and we woke up the next day smelling the most aromatic smell of Eucalyptus oil being rubbed into our backs . It was the most happiest moment for all of us after almost a month of being quarantined. We cried and appreciate every single thing we could smell. We smell the air , we even shouted and call my sisters living beside our house. We smell the cologne , the powder , we are so delighted with the smell of Lysol! lol! Gradually , we are getting better and better. Untill after one and a half month, we are totally fine and YES! FREE at last! Final thought In our difficult times , in our lows , in our down moments we often lose the ability to face the future positively . We often lose HOPE. But we must , we must always cling to HOPE. In GODs perfect timing , HOPE and HELP will come our way. He may strengthen us through some person or friends. It may come through someone GOD uses to encourage us to wait upon him and remain in touch with him through prayer. And NEW FEELINGs will come over us and it will be POSITIVE this time. Thanked GOD for the new life, THE NEW US. Grey23espartinas